It seemed as though my life were normal for a girl of sixteen. School was steady and the ballet dancing was a joy to endure. It was not until that night on June 2,2009 that my life had changed for ever. Mom and I had just moved into a house by the sea. So naturally we were going through the chaos of finding and organizing our stuff between bites of pizza.Even our tabby cat Zozen seemed to enjoy the house. While organizing cds the phone rang, naturally I thought it was my grandmother checking up on us.However I sensed a change in the atmosphere and one look at my mother I knew some thing was terribly wrong.I asked whats wrong but she would not respond. I stood by her side loyaly
not knowing what was going on. It was not until I heard her say they did not take him out, that I knew something terrible had happened.After she hung up the phone she said " Marrissa your brothers dead he was in a car acci........" that was all she could manage to say before we both burst out crying. Neither one of us slept that and the next few days are to painful to talk about. It was a harsh reallity to realize my brother was gone and not at all pleasant to dwell on.

Chapter1
A Beginning with bittersweet memories


August 29,2009


My alarm clock screeched 5:30 as I rolled sluggishly to shut it off."Dabburnet" I mumbled as I hoisted myself out of the comfort of the blankets.Looking out the window the sun was still hiding behind the clouds.I yawned absent mindedly as I went to the bathroom to turn on the water for the shower.I took my shower slowly as if somehow trying to slow down time. After all the first day was today. After I dressed in capris and a T-shirt I stumbled out onto the deck to view the oceon.My brother had once said that the oceon is the earth's heatbeat. This memory put a smile on my face but was short lived. Smiles never really stayed on my face these days. I ambled back into the kitchen in search for toast and imediatly was succesful. Gulping down some orange juice I looked at the time I had 15 more minutes before the bus came.Deciding that I should check on mom I peeked into her room" mom mom" I whispered"Are you up yet?" the only response I received was a grumble. "Mom wake up Im going to school",giving her a little shake" Whatever was her response".