You know i have been wanting a new deer for a while, Prongs and now we have worked out this is the easiest way to do it. I have got one of Custards old files which she has not used to make one so i can make Prongs in the forest (yay, thanks custard.) Anything i will post about Prongs i will post on my main one Topaz100 and i will update the picto on his bio so you know it is him! YAY, i have my other stag!!!

Really, it's 3:40am and I just cried for about 20-30 minutes. Honestly... my life isn't peaches and cream or anything like that. I don't live a healthy, normal life like so many others who have a well paying job or anything like that.

In all honestly, I've been dealing with my mother putting me down for years and I guess it's finally getting to the point where it's taking it's toll on me and making me think "Well maybe I just AM what she says."

To put it simple, and in the best of words. I deal with my mother calling me a lazy excuse for a child almost... well really every god damn day of the week. When I 'over sleep' on my days off I am constantly called a 'lazy bum' or something else in that regard and it really hurts. I get told I do nothing for the household and that I do nothing period when I do but it's never acknowledged.

And I really hate crying... I honestly do. It tears me up because I'm 22 years old and I still cry. Then again, everyone has to cry at some point in life right? If not early on but throughout their lives. I'm just hating what my mother says about me, and when I tell her to "Shut Up." (Yes I have broken down to the point where I have people) I get greeted with more bitching or hits (HARD hits at that) to the shoulder.

I love my mother, I honestly do. And I still live with her. I can't leave, I make... 800-900$ a month at my job 1000-1200$ IF I'm lucky and get a 3 check pay period, and if I were to 'rent' my own place... 500$ of that would go to that. That's not including Bills, Food and other important things. I'd be scrounging more in Debt than anything else (And well right now I'm so back logged on a Credit Card I wouldn't be ABLE to live on my own anyway) and so living with my mom helps in the part of it.

but it will have to wait...lol no point sorry to all that i bumped..i will update this tomorrow to let you know what it is..it's nothing great..but i'm kind of excited lol I GOTS A DA ACCOUNT.. of course not much on it for now..Most will be things ya’ll have already seen. But I draw a lot so I’m sure I’ll have some new stuff up soon

deviantart.com

i was trying to make this picture as my avatar on here but it doesnt work :/ can anybody make it the right size so i can put it as my avatar on my profile?

Some of you may have known that I went hunting this past week... well.....

So it's not in plain view, please only click read more if you can handle the fact that I hunt.
I don't want to offend anyone by having this wide out in the open.
Thanks 8D

I had the day off today, so I went to a local landmark in my area - Bellingrath Gardens. It's a massive property that was turned into a garden for the public. I took loads of pictures, and I hope you enjoy them as much as I did taking them~

Sorry the pics are actually HUGE. But you can see a lot of detail in them

Wanderers Silent Dream

Again with the free arts! And as always first post gets the prize....but! Ive decided to now make it the first two post!!! ^_^
Ive a little time to spare for some artsie stuffs. <3
Enjoy!

Right, i need to say this quick because there is alot to say but i am sorry about my profile picture, i know it sucks. I can't seem to get it to fit the screen and so that is a bummer. Seconds is that you can't see my picto very well in the corner but don't worry, you wouldn't want to see it, that sucks too! Once i have got a graphics tablet (on the list when i have scraped up enough £££!) i will redo the whole thing though i can't draw my picto in the first place, and to top that i can't seem to work the editing thing i have so that isn't very good. So all in all i am sorry, but even when i have a graphics tablet it won't much improve, i cannot draw!!! Sorry for clogging up the diary entries but few, i have done, you may leave and i shall hide, it has been a long day!!! Though first i will need to spell check, tones of mistakes, damn. Oh before i go on a happy note, i love border collies and that is why i picked that piccy, i actually know that cute dog in the piccy, want to know about her just ask! Ag, i feel marginly better, i love her to bits!!! xxxx

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