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February 7, 2009 - 2:41am — Anzel

((yes, this is my first entry in a long while))

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Guess what?

...ZELLY'S MEDS ARE WORKING!!!

My GOD, I feel wonderful right now.

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My depression has lifted entirely. My mind is calm and content. My insomnia is gone, my mood is NORMAL, I have WILLPOWER, and best of all...

...the anxiety that has ALWAYS been there in my chest...is gone. It's gone. IT'S GONE. It has been replaced with what I can only describe as a smooth feeling. It feels smooth, soft, cool, relaxed, chill, calm, it feels gentle. I have no anxiety. It feels like I'm missing something, and I am, but I'm not. I'm missing something that's not supposed to be there.

I'm coming out of my shell. I'm wearing make-up. I'm dressing up. I'm talking more and sulking less. I. LOVE. LIFE. I feel real and alive and like I can do what I want to do.

Prozac is a miracle drug <3

ZELLY IS A CURE-IED DEEER ~<3

Hehe...just felt like announcing that right there and now ^^; Everyone is noticing an improvement in my personality, a change in how I am. So yeah. <3 Life is wonderful.

So, if any of you, perhaps, have anything to say to me about how much you loathe me or are irritated by me, feel free to tell me now. I promise you I won't cry :3 I can finally say that for certain...and I love it!

BTW, everyone who I owe poetry: I will start it very soon. I have a break coming up in a week :3

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February 7, 2009 - 3:01am — Ephra

That is fantastic news to

That is fantastic news to hear, I'm happy for you!

And I can't wait to read your poetry again.

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February 7, 2009 - 3:04am — Anzel

Heh, I apologise for not

Heh, I apologise for not posting more poetry, Zelly doesn't roam the forest realms anymore ^^; Except maybe now, I'm trying, just one time is all.

I've had a tough few weeks getting used to the meds, coming out of my shell :3

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February 7, 2009 - 3:18am — lemon

Aww, I'm so happy to hear

Aww, I'm so happy to hear this! :')
Prozac didn't work for me, it made me worse. :<

I've been through tons of medications, still looking for one that will work. You're lucky! I'm jealous! xD <3

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February 7, 2009 - 3:26am — Anzel

Maybe you don't have a

Maybe you don't have a problem with serotonin levels. Or maybe your problem (if it deal with serotonin) isn't fixed by stopping the things that take serotonin back in after use.

I just matched this thing and figured that was my problem, and was right :3 There are some other chemicals mentioned in other chapters, maybe read it a bit? :3

*random* Sorry, heh. I want everyone to feel better

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February 7, 2009 - 3:30am — Terabetha

my god Anzel I'm so happy!

my god Anzel I'm so happy! I'd have never thought you'd see such a change so quickly, I'm so happy for you

btw: I would have waited for an era to get poetry from you ^____^ so there is no rush lol
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Queze;

~Aztec priest of The Forest~

February 7, 2009 - 3:32am — Anzel

x3;; It's not that quick,

x3;; It's not that quick, really. It's been 3 weeks exactly now since I've started taking the Prozac. Effects should be at least noticable by 2 weeks, but the effects will only be full in 4 to 6 weeks. Right now, I'm still susceptible to mood swings (i just had one), but they're not as bad as before.

Ah well.

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February 7, 2009 - 3:50am — lemon

Anzel; I don't know exactly

Anzel; I don't know exactly what I have, I've learned to leave that up to the doctors. xD I've given myself so many wrong diagnosis, I don't even bother anymore. But reading that, it sounds uncannily like me. Unfortunately, my doctor says that I have a relatively rare gene mutation, which effects the way my body absorbs medications (GOD I hate blood tests. Just thinking about it makes me shudder. xD). So I react differently to meds than other people do -- sometimes, it makes me worse, sometimes it knocks me out cold. I was perscribed something that's supposed to help people with insomnia -- xanax, I think? I stayed up for three days straight. :>

Anyway lol. -ramble- I'm glad you're feeling so much betterrr. <33

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February 7, 2009 - 4:14am — Anzel

Aww, that sucks :/ I hope

Aww, that sucks :/ I hope you can find something that works for you, and thanks!

Whee, I still have mood swings once in a while, though...*sloth flop of depression* x3;;...*sighs*

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February 7, 2009 - 4:43am — Pegasicorn

No clue what to say,

No clue what to say, but..

YEAAAHHHHHH!! 8D < /overenthusiastic outburst> XD;

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February 7, 2009 - 5:16am — Anzel

does squeedle dance

*does squeedle dance*

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February 7, 2009 - 6:08am — Fledermaus

That's wonderful news! I was

That's wonderful news! I was wondering where you had gotten to for a while. But I'm glad that you're feeling good now, that is quite exciting :3 Welcome back!

(PS: I made something for you a while back, but I'm not sure if you ever saw it. It's not my best, though :\ ))

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February 7, 2009 - 6:11am — Anzel

I saw it, but I didn't feel

I saw it, but I didn't feel up to commenting (between depression and anxiety :x)...it's very pretty <33333

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February 7, 2009 - 7:48am — Hubalaboo

8D ANZEL

8D ANZEL *glompittyglomp*

I'm so glad your medications are working!

I missed your entires and poetry a lot, you know. <333!!

*hophop* Hullo, Anzel-human! It's good to have you kind-of return!
*smile* It's time we, too, returned to the Forest, since our human has more time, she says.
Oh, oh, how are all of your deer, Anzel-human? Might they speak? I've missed them all!

February 7, 2009 - 2:59pm — Fenqua

It warms up my heart to see

It warms up my heart to see you happy like that *hugs* ^^

To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul

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To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul