Shi's Deer Updates

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BEING PLAYED NOW: ...
UPDATED: July 1st, 2010
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Color: #C76114
Mood: - Hollow
Set: Monarch pelt, Fan Antlers, and Real Mask
Happenings: ...
Thinking/Saying:
Rowan...I miss you but...I am so glad you weren't here.

Extra Notes: ---
Bio







Color: #919D9E
Mood: Lost it.
Set: Real Deer Pelt, Key antlers and Hands mask
Happenings:Slowly losing her mind; Trying to get herself killed
Thinking/Saying: Please...Please! WHY WONTYOU JUST KILL ME!?

Bio


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Shi's Updates

Mood: ...
Happenings:
...
Thinking: I'm drifting far from this place. I wish I wasn't, because I don't plan on going anywhere really, but...I feel like so much damage has been done I can't turn back from it now. I KNOW it's all in my head...well...maybe not all of it, but my insecurity around everyone here is bringing me down, and it's bringing Darcy down. I want to get involved but...I just can't. I'm not sure I know how to crawl out of this hole. I want to ask for help but that feels so pathetic XD' I miss our old friends, and I wonder if they miss us, too, or if we really have been forgotten. I wish you all would come back.

If you want to contact me about my deer or...would like to attempt a conversation with me -chuckle-here are my contacts!
MSN:
AIM: AResidualHaunt
Hraeth's picture

The doe sets back her ears

The doe sets back her ears and they lie firmly against her neck. She turns her head away slightly, tipping it toward the ground. "I feel like I was the cause of a lot of ruined evenings today."
POOH2004's picture

I suppose, you must not

I suppose, you must not "just" have to wait. If you truly need it, do something to recieve it. Call it by name. Talk to her. Try to understand her. If I understand correct, it's the main problem. Misunderstanding.
Shiori's picture

Hreath: Tired, sunken eyes

Hreath:
Tired, sunken eyes look upon her warmly though brows knit in clear concern above them. He lowers his head near hers in attempt to catch her gaze again.
“Well I had a pleasant evening…though I wish I knew what troubled you all. I guess I am destined to always be the outsider yet I wish I could be useful somehow, still. If all other sources of comfort fail you…heh, well, I’m not hard to find.”

POOH:
I suppose I don't, and yet, I will. And no, I can think of nothing that could have been misunderstood. If anything I was TOO clear.
Fledermaus's picture

Sorry for acting like a nut

Sorry for acting like a nut today. My antics are just a lame attempt at distraction. You just seemed like you needed to take your mind off things.
Hraeth's picture

Hrr. Late reply is late. "It

Hrr. Late reply is late.

"It seems I was blaming myself for something not my fault." A single syllable of a laugh, more a breath, escapes her maw and she turns her head again to face him. Lightly, the tip of her muzzle touches the underside of his chin in an appreciative gesture. "Thank you, Sire."
toboe's picture

OMG I LOVE YOU LOL That is so

OMG I LOVE YOU LOL That is so cool! -foams at mouth-
(But it's seriously stretching my page XD;)

Wow, that banner is amazing,

Wow, that banner is amazing, especially with Rowan and that tail. Shocked
Shiori's picture

Thankies ^^ Think I might

Thankies ^^ Think I might have made it a bit too sharp though...
Lol and I'll shrink it down a little tomorrow Rai XD
Fincayra's picture

Shi, that banner is... just

Shi, that banner is... just gorgeous.
You are really, really good at screenie edits. <3
Aegle's picture

ShiShi. C: I was just

ShiShi. C:
I was just wondering if its a in vain effort for Aegle to try to become friends with Shyla again. Or should we not even try. I just want to know since I'm becoming more involved again and I just don't want to push Aegle on Shyla or anything. c:
Shiori's picture

Hey ^^ I don't know if 'vain'

Hey ^^
I don't know if 'vain' would be the word I'd use. Honestly I haven't had her in the forest for a couple weeks >< She doesn't want to be there anymore and it's getting harder and harder to force her, ya know? I tried killing her off and got stopped...and I think I always will get stopped unless I do it quickly. She might just fade away. I might get a second...fifth...eights wind for her. I just don't know...
Aegle's picture

-nod- It's understandable

-nod-
It's understandable dear. If you do decide to keep her, Aegle's still there for her. I'm sure your know this.
Just let me know when you get it all figured out <3
Fincayra's picture

You've been on my mind. >:C I

You've been on my mind. >:C
I was wondering where you were lately. I hope you're okay, though. That sounds rough.
toboe's picture

Don't make it sound like a

Don't make it sound like a trip to the grocery store Shi! -smacks-
Here, have a lame card from Rai.
Hraeth's picture

I've been wondering where

I've been wondering where you'd gone off to. D:< Cripes, that sounds painful ;; I hope the rest of it clears up soon. Be good to yourself, 'kay?

8C I hope you recover from

8C I hope you recover from that concussion swiftly! That's horrible...and I totally understand, looking at a computer screen must be annoying, hard to focus and all that. Anyway, get better soon, and have lots of rest <3
ocean's picture

O_O Yikes. Feel better. :3

O_O
Yikes.
Feel better. :3
Fledermaus's picture

D8 I was wondering too. I

D8 I was wondering too. I hope you're feeling alright soon. <3
Amazon's picture

Ayeee! I hope you feel better

Ayeee! I hope you feel better soon. <333

Shiori's picture

-Laughs and shakes head-

-Laughs and shakes head- Thanks... I guess XD' And no, I don't like admitting I got pwned by a horse so neh. But I figured I should give an explaination <<' DUNNOWHY.

Btw, I kept waiting for the cat to eat the chick Rai. I am very disapointed >:c
;D
POOH2004's picture

I hope, that you feel better

I hope, that you feel better soon,
To gaze upon the morning stars
And like the baby bird in june
Can fly away, without scars

This f(l)ight above the stony sand
It wasn't like you thought it was,
But you must reach the Promised Land
And there meet Urocyon fox

And you may wish to look below,
Hovering over frozen plains
Discover herds of beasts in snow
Amongst a lonely mounts chains

They lift their heads to Heavens Gates,
But never can they reach the sky
Because the wings is gift of fate
And only angels may to fly.........
ocean's picture

Ama: "Sorry, Darcy. Would've

Ama: "Sorry, Darcy. Would've been more polite, but..." She stares off into space for a moment, then shakes her head as if suddenly coming back.
"You seem concerned, though. Don't worry. Nice of you to sit with me." She smiles blandly.
Shiori's picture

He watches her with a

He watches her with a half-lidded hollow gaze, scarred lips twitching into the smallest of smiles in the shadow of his mask.
"You are beautiful, you know," he says offhandedly, glancing away "you deserve much, much more..."
ocean's picture

She looks startled, then very

She looks startled, then very distant. She cannot bring herself to look into his eyes, so she looks into the distance for much too long.
"...Thank you, Darcy...Thank you for being there too." Her voice is quiet. If one listened hard enough, they could catch the strain.
"...But I made this choice too. I want to help them, but I...couldn't."
Verycrazygirl's picture

Quote:You know what? Just

Quote:
You know what? Just because you have a skull mask and big ass antlers does not mean you have the right to ignore me. You think you're too good to acknowledge anyone else? Think your character is bad ass when he completely brushes past someone goring him in the chest? That doesn't make you bad ass that makes you a N00b and all I can do is laugh at you and grit my teeth at anyone who takes your pathetic ass seriously. Shame on all of you.


^ Win.

Fincayra's picture

Quote:You know what? Just

Quote:
You know what? Just because you have a skull mask and big ass antlers does not mean you have the right to ignore me. You think you're too good to acknowledge anyone else? Think your character is bad ass when he completely brushes past someone goring him in the chest? That doesn't make you bad ass that makes you a N00b and all I can do is laugh at you and grit my teeth at anyone who takes your pathetic ass seriously. Shame on all of you.


Does Esll have a liable reason to fight Reed now? <3
I totally agree with you.
toboe's picture

Fincayra: No. >;( No, no,

Fincayra:

No. >;( No, no, no. You're not allowed to fight for a while, you hear me? -shoves away with broom giggling- Bad Fin.
Fincayra's picture

*shoves back* >8C

*shoves back* >8C
toboe's picture

=0 No one shoves Rai. -throws

=0 No one shoves Rai.
-throws calander at- >;D
Shiori's picture

I am as usual completely

I am as usual completely oblivious of the conflict there, but if you're claiming this is the way Reed is acting then no, the answer isn't to fight but to ignore >< The reason these character exist is to have influence over everyone without ever actually having to do anything to deserve it. Fighting someone who is indecent enough to not even acknowledge you is pointless.

Also, again, I don't know the situation, but I would heed Rai's words Fin. This fighting appears to be tearing his life apart, and those he's picking fights with hardly worth the loss.
Fincayra's picture

First of all, everything I do

First of all, everything I do in game is me roleplaying - I do not usually feel what my characters feel. So if you think I'm out to get Reed by fighting him to make his life miserable, you are mistaken. Esll (in game) was offended by Reed's haughty behavior, so they fought. That was months ago. The situation now, as I've been told, is entirely plot-related. Reed is asking for a fight, according to the plot, and Ama, Ocean's character, is trying to keep him from getting hurt. What you saw last night was, to be honest, Esll taking his anger out on Reed because he was stressed out about something pretty big. Reed had tried to fight Esll a couple days prior, but Esll wasn't in the mood to give it to him, so I guess last night they went at it to compensate for that.

I actually like Reed. He is a very mysterious, intriguing character who I have a lot of respect for. Esll, on the other hand, doesn't like him right now. It's all roleplay, and eventually their relationship may change. He may be on good terms with Reed in the future. Who knows.
toboe's picture

You know, the last "plot" in

You know, the last "plot" in the forest ended up very bloody, and caused many people to leave, including me. Don't be so defensive, Fin. No one said you hated Reed o_O; My character Rowan despises him yet I have nothing at all against Mikuru. People are just trying to look out for Esll, and that includes me and Shiori. Esll can go on and fight because Reed looked at him wrong if he wants to. But you really need to be careful who Esll might be hurting by doing so. Himself included.

We care about you and Esll. Please try to respect that that makes us take sides. And we have to tolerate Reed just as much as Esll does, those long stares, that rude demeanor.
Shiori's picture

...? What did I say to make

...?
What did I say to make you think I think you're out to get Reed? I was merely commenting on your comment towards my quote >< I wasn't defending Reed. I don't know enough about the situation to defend him or Esll.

As for the plot...lol, I'm not even going to go there. All this forest is anymore is damn plots in which nobody else seems welcome. Darcy will still act as himself however, whether he appears foolish interrupting something planned or not doing so. I guess that's the way it has to be?
Fincayra's picture

I guess I took what you said

I guess I took what you said about the fighting ruining his life to be directed at me, as I seem to be the only one he's fighting right now. I'm sorry if I seem defensive. I just wanted to be clear on what was going on so that no one blames me for fighting Reed without a good reason.

I don't know much about the plot myself, so I can't tell you anymore about it. I'm sorry you have an issue with plots - I think they can be quite exciting, as long as they're not overwhelming the entire forest.
Hraeth's picture

I'm sorry. :/ My little event

I'm sorry. :/ My little event thing was meant for everyone to take part in if they wanted to and I was hoping the way I was going about it wasn't going to bother anyone who didn't want to be bothered. It was just meant to be an interesting story whose outcome was decided by the actions of those of took part.
toboe's picture

We went through the fawn

We went through the fawn killing plot ._.
That wrecked a lot of people's thoughts on plots ><;
Verycrazygirl's picture

I'm sorry to say, but.. The

I'm sorry to say, but..
The forest is almost as violent daily now as it was back then.
Some prefer to take the road to detachment and not let it ruin their experience.

ocean's picture

I wasn't meaning to exclude

I wasn't meaning to exclude anybody. ^^ I don't personally mind if anybody "interferes" with said plot. In fact, it was nice having Darcy there last night. Ama now enjoys clinging to him. P:
If you don't want to interact with us, just tell me, and I won't try and pull D [or anybody, for that matter, who doesn't want to interact with this plot] in again. Smiling

[By the way, Ama regrets pull D in as well, and passes on her thanks to him.]
Shiori's picture

I was referring to Esll’s


I was referring to Esll’s life not Reeds? But I guess if it’s all a game it’s ok? ><

The thing with plots is they don’t just touch the people who want to be involved - at least not if you take friendship seriously. If your friend is getting his ass kicked in a plot you aren’t in it does involve you. Heck, if you’re friends with a friend of someone getting their butt kicked in a plot you’re involved. As much as everyone thinks they can isolate things in the forest, you just can’t do it >< It doesn’t work that way and it never will guys, and it’s actually kind of hurtful that you think it can.

Does that mean no plots? No. I just wish people weren't so forgetful of others sometimes.
Shiori's picture

Ocean: Lol I'm not really

Ocean: Lol I'm not really accusing anyone of being purposfully exclusive, I guess it does sort of come off that way. But when you make statements like 'I wont involve you then" and the like it does sort of become that way XD You can't just turn things on and off like that in real life. TEF is a game, but my characters are real in that world and it is THEIR real life so...the rules still apply don't they?

As for Ama Darcy was - and is- more than happy to do for her. She did not 'pull him in' to anything, no?
Fincayra's picture

OH. I thought you meant

OH. I thought you meant Reed's life was being ruined. Sorry. |D
Also, as far as I know, the plots I've seen have been very including. No one has really said 'You can't be involved'
Hraeth's picture

As far as I can make out,

As far as I can make out, this isn't anything like the fawn killing plot with the exception of the occasional fight. Nothing's planned or set in stone so everyone's actions direct where it'll go. It's just a role play 'theme', Not a plot whose conclusion is meant to be a good one for everyone. I know there's a ripple effect. That can't be avoided and I'm sorry that you think I didn't consider that before. I did, but I was honestly hoping everyone would find a little joy in it somewhere. I should have referred to the actual violence/fighting when I said I was hoping I wouldn't be bothering anyone.

I know not everyone can be pleased, as much as that sucks. :c Anyway, I apologize again. It's disheartening to hear, but I can't drop it now. It'd be too unfair for those who are involved.
ocean's picture

Okay, okay, I just meant that

Okay, okay, I just meant that by her actions, she did involve D in something he may not of wanted to be involved in [or you may not have wanted him to be involved in], but I see what you mean. Smiling
As for that, sure. I was just offering to people who might not WANT to get dragged in. I'm not trying to be exclusive, no, just trying to make people happy. ^^;
Sure, that's real life, if you play your deer that way. If you do, no, you can't turn it on/off. However, other people might play a little differently and be able to turn it on/off when they want. ^^ If those people don't want to be involved, I don't want to accidentally "force" them to be involved [by, for example, putting their character in such a situation that they would HAVE to be forced to switch into 'on' mode]. Smiling
...I don't think that made what I'm saying any clearer. >.<
Shiori's picture

Heh, I forgot to add - not so

Heh, I forgot to add - not so great with explaining myself today am I? - That I honestly don't know what 'event' you're speaking of Hraeth* ^^' I've been gone for week, only checking in for short periods. Darcy came on to test the waters last night for the first time in a bit and we seemed to stumble on some shit storm heh. Seeing as two friends -former friends? I don't really know anymore- were involved we became concerned obviously. That's about all we're aware of? >< Things move so quickly. Everyone seems connected outside the game but us...so forgive me if I do sound like the left out kid throwing a tantrum XD I am not upset over your plot...perhaps I should be more upset at myself for not paying enough attention. Poor Darcy seems to lose out more and more because of it.
Fincayra's picture

Former friend? ... whatever

Former friend? ... whatever is said here, Shi, it doesn't change how I see you or Darcy, unless you decide otherwise.
Hraeth's picture

Psh, there's nothing former

Psh, there's nothing former about the friendship of our characters and what we have, Shi. C: Everyone's entitled to their opinions and as you've said, you've been away, too. (I hope you're doing better now, too) The 'plot', I'm hesitant to call it that because, again, very few things are set in stone about it, starts here and Noe's bio takes it from there.
Shiori's picture

I’m sorry to have said it…but



I’m sorry to have said it…but we both feel lost still, and it isn’t the first time. And it wouldn’t be the first time he ended up without any. He is not close to either of your characters really and the distance is growing. All of his old friends have gone away and he has only Rowan and anyone else who gives him the time of day ^^’ Perhaps they are friends, then - but he doesn’t know what to do. Stand back and watch it all unfold? This seems the likely option though… it feels wrong. Darcy is more of a doer in character but I fear my apprehension keeps his purpose far too often ^^ He was very much like Esll once, actually…very much...

I hope that Esll does not turn out like him then XD
Hraeth's picture

Right now it's kind of

Right now it's kind of supposed to be a mystery thing. No one especially knows what to do, but it's not hard to figure it out once you're in forest. You don't have to be close to Noelle to get into it. If anything, getting involved with it will only strengthen the bond. The distance has been growing between them, yes, but it's not like Noe doesn't try. Whenever she sees D, she always greets him with a bow or a nuzzle, but the past few times, neither seems to have been returned, so she gave him his space thinking he didn't want the company. -shrug-

Back to the main topic though, yeah. If Darcy's a doer, he's free to do however he would. Doer's are good in this. They're /wanted/.
Shiori's picture

-blink- …When has it not been

-blink- …When has it not been returned? I can’t recall that situation ._. I can recall a similar, reversed situation…but gah. No. Whatever. I actually intended on trying to start over when I came back from…head-trauma vacation XD’ I felt things slipping before then ... But now I see it’s a really bad, impossible time for that so…that is why I mentioned the status of their friendships uncertainly. I don’t know if it’s been a misunderstanding or what but it hasn’t left Darcy on the best ground to stand on in all this ^^’ That’s all I’m saying.
This conversion has gotten so derailed XD -shrug-

OH! And one last clarification I should have made much earlier -fail- That rant in my updates was not about Reed or Esll…in case you thought it was.
Fincayra's picture

I knew your rant wasn't about

I knew your rant wasn't about Reed or Esll. And I totally agree with it, too. :3

I think once things start to settle down again, it will be easier to put life back into old friendships and work on making new ones. I think because it's summertime and everyone is out of school/college, we just want to have some fun and stir things up a bit with plots and exciting stories. (: Things will settle down in time.