-28.04.2017

I am eccentric as fuck please forgive me. I have two more characters on the way. IO/Keyne and Octane Burner.
Thats just normal how I cope with things, thanks.
Alternatively if anyone is interested in the fantasy-celtic world of Albvilion, hit me up.


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Trigger warning...I guess.

Close friend of mine fell with a bicycle. He's ok. Got stitches on his head but his speech is slurred and repefative, he's jittery too. No brain trauma though.
I'm glad he's fine

Visited my aunt with my family. It's far worse than a brain tumor.
Bone cancer. And it's been therefor a while now too.

I don't know what to do.
Can't cry 24/7 either. But she's been my artistic support.



I feel lost.
I think I could just phase out of tef seamlesly If i wanted at this point.
And then more issues with people. No aprechiation, no care from those I ought do.
I feel used.
And on top of all this, I'm too stressed.


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First week massive insomnia
Second week i'm ill with halucinations and hearing weird music in background noise.
I'm fine now, just stressed out.
But I learned my dear aunt has a brain tumer.
As * life hasn't screwed enough with her already.
Car incidents, mountain falls, only son going bipolar + schizophrenia. Husband robbed her n died later in. Two premature sibling deaths,,,.

But she's strong. She's also very selfless and an artistic support to me.
I really don't know what now.
I just hope things go well, the tumor was a quickl discovery due her having regular checkups due the car incident.

I really don't know what to do now...


Just distraught all over really.

Who is I

-Graphic designer, studying painter, aspiring 3D modeler-
-Calligraphist, cartographer and complex fantasy and sci-fi worldbuilder, metaphysics dweller
-Midaard, Earth-Mars-Ganymede, He-polupoikile-ge, Medwest and Demori are my headworlds-
INFP-ENTP 8/2
7th of april and autistic
appears callous and phlegmatic
untill it's too late
I'm basically a bird


Commission page , DA , Skype: fireflyness Discord: Fireflyness#3901

My aesthetics and love are the occultic, eldritch, uncanny, ironclads and dreadnoughts, heavy methaphysics and symbolism. I also like cute if that counterweights anything lol.
I roleplay in tes, original headworlds, animals, currently letting people rp in He Polupokile Ge. (animal rp)
If you like to rp too. -wink-wink- gimme a call ;*

I play tes games (daggerfall, skyrim, oblivion, morrowind), old school rpgs (too many to list) warframe, starbound, i like retro gaming in general. ARK, stronghold, warcraft (the strategy games), hmm so many more less known games. Guild of dungeoneering

I am generous, helpful, kind, problem solver. Mediator by heart and a shoulder to cry on. I lash out savage burns when needed. I protect and cherish. Shy to a crippling degree.
I respect trustworthyness, patience, understanding, reliability, generosity.
I despise people without a sense of honour, those that are untrustworthy, dealbreakers and unreliable people.
I have an unaturaly high level of tolerance for bs.
(From past experience, please don't test my patience.)

I adore small tokens of aprechiation or random surprises. I love to collect art and often check my collection every two months for a mood boost.