A Persistent [Balthamos] Memory

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Warning: may contain mature/disturbing language or themes.
Any kind of interaction is welcome.
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On somekind of break, probably will be active again on the end of September c:






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Physical Health : 80%
Mental Health : 90%

Traits
Name : Sean Grieg (forgotten)
Known as : Balthamos, 'Mos
Title : The Guardian Ghost
Gender : Male Fawn
Age : Ageless
Species : Tef deer / Ghostly Presence
Orientation : Panromantic
Voice : Childlike, not clearly masculine
Size : #23
Scent of dust and musty smell
Candles, Crying mask, Zombie pelt, Mini spell

Ex Guardian Angel Tends to 'watch over' the others, the more he feels closed to someone, the stronger this instinct becomes. Moreover, he's still influenced by his old code, which, for example, pushes him to tell (nearly) always the truth or to get very angry at crystal clear injustices. He's no fanatic, anyway. - Cradle Has elected to his home a little tomb at the graveyard, which looks like a cradle to him. Dislikes unknow creatures taking this place. - Animate He's like a breathing living creature, with a beating heart, and his body, as solid, can be damaged. Nevertheless he's ice-cold to the touch. - Paranoid Suffers of persecutory delusions. He's sure that "They" are on his trail and will find him even in the forest. Even if he's unlikely to consider a forest creature as one of They, he will be deeply upset by deers that seems to stalk or spy him.
- Water Due to his previous life experiences, he 's terribly scared of the pond and suspicious of the water in general. The snow is ok since it doesn't melt on his cold pelt, but the rain causes him to flee in search of a refuge. - Soul Washer Punished with a contrapasso that resembles his sin: as he tried to purify a soul recurring to an easy way, so he must do to all the souls which asks his services. The purification consists in the forget of specific memories, that the Guardian Ghost will remember instead of the "washed" soul. - Diet Since he 's partially ghost, he actually doesn't need to eat or drink anything. In spite of that, he's fascinated by the view of eating creatures and by any kind of sweet food. Instead he finds the process of drinking quite distrurbing.

- Obliging, always extremely respectful of everyone and well-mannered, is used to refer to others calling them "Miss" or "Mr".
- Clingy, has a constant feel of cold, so he's attracted the nearest possible to other living creatures. But this doesn't mean he dislikes cold creatures.
- Submissive, hates having arguments with others and will always search for a diplomatic way in order to solve problems.
- Patient and, if not stimulated, extremely quiet, since has no real time perception.
- Lives in the constant fear of being abandoned by everyone, a thing that considers inescapable.
- Poor fighter. In spite of his strong will, he has no clue on how to fight properly, lacks in physical strenght and has no antlers neither any kind of offensive "weapons". A ridiculously easy pray.
- Owner of Cypher's tie clip (a gift by Migisi), kept in "his" cradle.


Relations

Trusts
Migisi, Leviathann (gone), Cypher (gone), Nat-Nat

Acquaintances
Illrose, Crucio, Saburo, Alain, Djinn, Bright Eyes (awe), Herla, Harley, Umay (awe), Greitai, Ravly, Berlioz

New Encounters
Kody, Beren, Morikiah, Shineri, Gehirn (awe), Sho, Sonne, Momo, Vladimir, Neveah, Rumia

Fears
Tullus, The Warlock (deceased), Geography, Tieff (deeply unsure), Sianna, Tikwid, Ariel, Jack (gone)


Other

Writings
By me (x,x,x,x) - By Quadraptor (x)

Art
By me (x,x,x) - By Chickenwhite (x) - By Kohva (x,x) - By Cicadia (x)
By Pegasicorn (x) - By Meadow (x) - By HellsBells (x) - By Mouchette (x)





Upper art by HellsBells.
Credit to Unplugged and Shamiya's awesome CSS blogs.
Balthamos belongs to me, he is an original idea, always IC and does not represent the player.
Sypris's picture

mine; will be adding you to

mine; will be adding you to msn when i get on later ♥
Kumiko's picture

I will be adding you as

I will be adding you as well.

I'm Cypher's player.
Shiori's picture

Track

Track <3

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snow's picture

Tracking, I have been curious

Tracking, I have been curious of this fawn. :')
WonderfullySarcastic's picture

Track c:

Track c:
#1354
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GuardianGhost's picture

Everyone, thanks a lot

Everyone, thanks a lot ^_^
Sypris, did you already send the request? Cause I recived nothing yet.
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Sighthoundlady's picture

My Herla is sitting with your

My Herla is sitting with your fawn right now. Intriguing character idea, caught my interest. So this is a track! ^_^
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Oh, I feel honored, thanks (:

Oh, I feel honored, thanks (:
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... /smother

...
/smother
<:
Kumiko's picture

I just saw the changes you

I just saw the changes you made to his biography. There is a lot I'm interested in knowing and I'd love to interact with him more.

Normally what times are you on?
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Thanks for tracking Sel!

Thanks for tracking Sel! <3

Kumiko, unfortunately I'm going to be quite busy these days, so I'm unable to tell you a sure time. Anyway, because of this, I'm working on an interaction blog right now. I'll be glad to rp with you there (:
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Kumiko's picture

Take your time. I generally

Take your time. I generally work a full 40 hours and I'm in the process of moving. Tomorrow is my first, actual "move day" so I understand how busy things can be.
FeatherBound's picture

-tracking-

-tracking- <3
(Will add you on MSN later!)
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Thank you!

Thank you! <3
(it's okay... If it looks like I didn't accept the request, telll it to me, msn is naughty sometimes)
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"It was really nice that you

"It was really nice that you chose to sit with me - it made me feel little bit better, thank you."

<3
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" It was a pleasure, lonely

" It was a pleasure, lonely soul ... Whenever you feel like, I'll enjoy to cling to one another in this immense place. "

<3
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Tracking. &hearts;

Tracking. ♥
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Why I saw this just now?

Why I saw this just now? Anyway, late thanks! ^_^
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Shiori's picture

Lol poor Mos! Migisi is being

Lol poor Mos! Migisi is being possessive again XD
Levi and Crucio have been her enemies for a while, she doesn't understand why they're suddenly being so nice to her. Of course she's very jealous that he's hanging around them -chuckle- But if this persists I'm sure she'll warm up eventually.
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Track

Track <3
Salome's picture

Hello there little one~

Hello there little one~
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Shiori: Ahah, Mos is

Shiori: Ahah, Mos is flattered by Migisi's possessiveness xD Let's see how this will end...

Xemi: Thank you! <3

Shutzgeist: " Hello Miss. It is nice to have some company in this desolate place "
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Salome's picture

"I guess we both needed some

"I guess we both needed some company." The doe mentioned and nudged the little one's cheek. "Though it's not common to see a fawn sitting near graves for so long."
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" Oh ... I guess you are

" Oh ... I guess you are right " The kind nudge awake his curiosity, and, shy, he tries to sniff the doe " But ... I am not exactly a fawn " He said, doleful. " What is your name, nice Miss ? ".
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Salome's picture

"I already saw that you are

"I already saw that you are something special, my dear." The doe returned the sniff and smiled. "My name is Djinn and may I ask what and who you really are?"
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Something special. These

Something special. These words warmed up the little heart. " Nice to meet you Miss Djin " He said, heartfelt. " I am used to beign called Balthamos. Mos, for short " The other question put a melancholy look on the fawn's face " I was ... I am ... a Guardian. Is hard to explain ... I am afraid that now, the better word to use is ghost ... "
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"It's an honour to meet you

"It's an honour to meet you little Mos." A warm nod towards the little creature. "You have a really pretty name, you know that?" She started to nuzzle the little fawn and noticed the mood swing when he spoke. "A ghost? How fascinating! I've seen many creatures already but never a ghost. I am glad that I've met you."
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(Do you mind if I continue

(Do you mind if I continue this even if they are not in forest any more?)

" Honour ? Pretty name ? ... Uh, thanks " the fawn blushed, as much as possible for a ghost. That doe looks so motherly, and he nuzzled her back with his cold touch. " I am glad that I have met you as well. Hope I did not frightened you ... I will not forget your face, kind Miss Djinn. Never ".
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Oh? I was wonder who was this

Oh? I was wonder who was this fawn. I like his picto.
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Hi you (: Thanks, I like it

Hi you (: Thanks, I like it too... It's quite unique, I believe.
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(Of course not Mos is such a

(Of course not Mos is such a cutie <3)

Djinn laughed when the fawn blushed. The fawn really cheered her up and she was thankful for the fawn's company. "No need to blush sweetie!" Djinn listened to him and tugged his ear to make him feel better. "Of course you didn't frightened me! There has to be more than a cute little ghost to frighten me."

Poor MoMo, ;w;. Talla's just

Poor MoMo, ;w;. Talla's just a big coward.
I have to say, I like little Balthamos c:

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Schutzgeist : (thanks, Djinn

Schutzgeist :
(thanks, Djinn is adorable as well <3)

The tug made Balthamos shaking himself out of his shyness. The doe has a really wonderful laugh. " I am glad to hear that ... Or maybe not ? There are so many frightening creatures here, hope no one of them has been mean to you ... " His old instinct of protecting others was coming out.

Ammy :
ahah, no problem. And thank you ^^
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Hm, I think it's your guy

Hm, I think it's your guy who's sitting with my Nat-Nat ♥ Thank you for the compagny.

And haha, nice character, by the way. Nat-Nat has a ghost part, too. (:

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Indeed it's my Mos. You're

Indeed it's my Mos. You're welcome.
Thanks, and yes, nice couple of ghosts they are ^^
(it could be fun to rp them)
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Laiia's picture

Hm yes, it would be funny. We

Hm yes, it would be funny. We can do it when you want (:

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Perfect. I start. The

Perfect. I start.

The ghostly fawn looks anxious and uncomfortable with the current situation. However, the shiny, almost evanescent doe attracted his attention. " Hello Miss ... " his voice sounded uncertain " Are you here for the ... Yes you know ... The birth ? " Her form was amazing, but he was too much focused on the incoming newborn to ask about.
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Nat-Nat looked down. She was,

Nat-Nat looked down. She was, in first, surprised. The little one seemed to be... A ghost. She slighly smiled. She never saw any ghost, excepting a bit of herself, in this forest. Though, she answered :
• Hello, little one. Yes, I'm here for the birth... I don't know the future mom, but I like to see does giving birth to fawns. • She smiled a bit more. She always loved fawns. They were so cute and so soft, at her eyes. But then, she looked back at the little ghost. • I'm Nat-Nat. Nice to meet you •, she added in a soft voice.

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Forgive my english, please <3

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Balthamos wondered if the

Balthamos wondered if the surprise in the doe's eyes was a good or a bad thing. It was difficult to read those eyes without pupils... They were not so different from his owns. " I see ... Nice to meet you, Miss Nat-Nat ... " Her name was charming. " You can call me Balthamos ... Mos for short ". An innocent, curios question come out from the fawn's lips " You ... Without offense, but your appearace is quite ... Unique. You were not born in this forest, are you? "

(No problem at all, English is not my main language as well)
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Nat-Nat smiled at the so

Nat-Nat smiled at the so polite fawn. • Balthamos is a very nice name. • But then, at this last question, she loose a bit of her smile. She looked down. She didn't even know where she was born. • Ehmm... Maybe it seems crazy, but I... I think I don't remember where I am from. Yes, my appearance is very unique, it's true. And I guess that you'll don't believe me if I tell you what I am. • She giggled a bit, then asked back : • And... And you ? Are you born there ? • She wanted to ask "Where is your mom ?" but she was afraid. She saw so many fawns without any mother, in the past... By her fault, sometimes.
She chased this last idea away, and just waited for the answer of the little one.

(What is your main language, if I may ask ?)

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The compliment made the fawn

The compliment made the fawn blush lightly. " Thank you, Miss " Immediately after he felt mortified noticing the smile going away from the gentle lips. He guessed he made the wrong question " It do not sound crazy at all ... Just ... Maybe a bit sad ? And do not be afraid about telling me, I am very ... Open minded " He smiled back, attempting to cheer her up. Balthamos was quite catched off his guard by the second sentence. " Me ? Oh no, really not. I am only a ... Guest in this forest, as long as they will permit me. I was born " ... And dead, added his mind " in another place ... Another world, if you like. This sounds crazy as well, right ? " He made a little laugh, but without joy, spying the doe's reaction.

(My main language is Italian. I understand pretty well the French as well, even if I'm not good at speaking it.)
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The doe smiled. She trusted

The doe smiled. She trusted the fawn, even she didn't know him. But she had to be quiet about some things, who were too... Too strange, too surreal, for the others. She didn't even tell it to her brother. But then, she frowned, intrigued. • Who are... "They" ? Why they wouldn't let you to stay in this forest ? • she asked. She too frowned when she heard "another world", but didn't say anything, excepting : • Oh, no, it's not crazy at all. Not for me. • She had a serious look, as if she understood the fawn. But then, she was wondering why he was a... Guest... ? Though, she didn't add anything, to let him answer at her first question, if he wished too, of course.

(My mothe is Italian. It's a so beautiful language ! And I love the Italian's songs as well ♥ Maybe because I'm born in them, haha :') )

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Nat-Nat's question upset

Nat-Nat's question upset Balthamos, which thought for a while before answering, prudent " They ... They are searching for me, but I do not want to be found by Them. They want me elsewhere to do ... Things ... That I do not wish to do. " He looks quite scared now, and glanced wary to her " You ... You are not one of them, are you ? You are not going to tell them that I am here, right ? " The ghostly fawn started to tremble lightly. The odd doe seems kind, could she be one of them? Indeed is not a Demon, but maybe a Devil, or an Angel? The doubt devoured Balthamos, that stretched out towards her, attempting to sniff gently the smoky skin, searching for anything possibly alarming in her scent.

(Nice, I'm glad you think so ^^ Whenever you feel like chatting, feel free to add me on msn, I don't bite)
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Nat-Nat gave tp the fawn a

Nat-Nat gave tp the fawn a little lick. • So, don't do what they want if you don't want to. Just follow your heart. • she said. She was now pretty protective about the fawn. She didn't know who they were, but she knew that they won't get Balthamos if she was here. But, then, her ears moved as she heard his question. • I don't even know who they are... But no. I'm not this gender of... Creature. • Even if I was the worst of the creature, in the past, she thought. The doe smiled to reassure him, hoping it would work. • They won't dare touching you if I'm near, don't worry. • She didn't know why she said that. Maybe because she was really bad, when she wanted it ? She looked around, wondering if "They" was here. But then, she slighly smiled. It was stupid to search them. If they were here, so they were hidden. She also looked back to Balthamos.

(Hm, I'll add you soon, I guess (: Thank you~ )

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The fawn's butchered heart

The fawn's butchered heart melted at the warm lick. " If just it was actually so easy not to do what They want ... They are more powerful than me. I can do nothing but ... Bend " He ended. Balthamos listened carefully at the second sentence. Maybe he was making another huge mistake, maybe he was acting like a naive, but he decided to trust her words. She looked so sincere, even if there was something unknow buried behind her eyes. The following statement deeply moved the ghost, which however made a little laugh. " You should not talk like that Miss ... Without offense, but I believe that you will change your mind ... When you see Them. And ... I believe I do not deserve your protection, Miss Nat-Nat. " He is serious now, and his eyes are full of melancholy. Spying the doe which was looking around, he guessed her purpose and added, with quiet voice " They are not here yet. But I am afraid They will come ... soon."

(You're very welcome)

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Nat-Nat slighly growled. She

Nat-Nat slighly growled. She didn't know who they were, and it was irritating her. • Maybe I don't know you, maybe you don't deserve it. Maybe they're too powerful for me, yes, it's true. But I will try. • she answered. She looked to the fawn, then added : • You know, I don't protect someone because I know him, or because he deserves it. I do it when I have the feeling... The feeling that I have to do it. • She slighly smiled. She was waiting for them. Then, she had a strange feeling. She knew that they were certainly powerful. She knew it, yes. But if they had a soul... If they had a life, so she could take the both. The life, and the soul.

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I just wanted to apologize

I just wanted to apologize for Cypher disappearing last night. You see, I live in a small town with only one decent internet provider. That provider likes to just randomly do maintenance that shuts down everything. So I lost my connection.

I guess the figure that at 2am, no one would notice but most of their user base are caffeinated insomniacs. D=
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Laiia: Nat-Nat's growling

Laiia:
Nat-Nat's growling lightly alerted Balthamos. He had the terrible feeling that beyond the kind doe's appearance there was something arcane and unimaginable, something bloodcurdling. The obstinacy she showed impressed him in the deep. She was beautiful and strong to the ghostly fawn's eyes, in a way that reminded him of Someone, with anguish.
And at the same time, surprisingly, he felt a lot in common with her... Protect someone... Have to do it... " I know very well that kind of feelings ... But how do you manage to sustain them ? The need to protect others ... It is so deceptive ... It destroyed me, and is still torturing my soul ... How do you put a limit to it ? " He asked, without trying to hide the desperate note in his voice: his face was already a mask of agony.

Kumiko:
Oh, I see, don't worry at all about, and thanks for explaning me. I imagined that something like that happened ._.
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Nat-Nat gave the fawn a look,

Nat-Nat gave the fawn a look, surprised. • You mean... You mean that by protecting people... You were hurted... In the past ? • She slighly frowned. • Hm. This feeling... It's in my nature. I mean, I don't really need to controle it... But... When I know that I can to protect someone because I need to do it, so I'm... serene... ? When I protect some people, it lets me to make up for lost time. I'll give you a tip, though... Just try... To don't be attached to people too quickly... • She smiled sadly, then looked his face. A grimace was staying on it. • Bal... Balthamos ? Are you alright ? • she asked, worried now.

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