we saw you sitting by us as we slept.

Thank you. <3

Awesome bio ~:3

Love your writing. Don't know how to describe but it definitely feels very intimate, personal and pure.
We had lots of fun with you today, thank you. Unexpectant.

♥

It surprises me how relatable brd is as a character. There aren't any words I could use to properly explain how I feel when I read his thoughts ~

I think there's something to be said, though, for those of us who do feel those emotions. Artistic sensitivity translates into sensitivity towards the whole world around us.

you change appearances, but I know your scent.
i will never lose y-
You're a frog!?

I laughed. I needed that.

Anyway, I'd put off reading what I was sure to be amazing prose. You're certainly not disappointing me.

I have a terrible habit of quoting, I apologize in advance.

I tiptoe beside the lone stranger while he rests
the grass smells cool
I lie in it and listen to his breathing

I feel a sense of familiarity with Brd. This is a regular practice of mine, with the necessary changes.

... were you lonely too?

… This question stirs a lot up in me.

i know you now
the curve of your back
your smooth cheek
eyelashes
the red poppies i set above your ears
i know everything about you but your name

and when you disappeared
the butterflies
dissolved
around my feet

I don’t really have anything to say. It’s just… A word, or words, a waterfall of everything.

i stare at the tiny new shoots of grass between my feet
perhaps if it rained, they would grow.

I’ll stop now… I’m just… Oh, you know. ._.
♥

I accumulated more. So many more it would surely take ten posts to contain them. Things that I ducked away at, things that brought me to tears, a few smiles but all the more apprehension.

I too can relate.

I'm not sure how I feel.

I'm glad you wrote these. I'm glad there is brd.
I'm glad I read.
Thank you.

I understand that feeling all too well, eyestrain. It's easier to simply blame ourselves for unhappiness, and to be honest I'm still struggling with that way of thinking, myself. Every time my thoughts go too deep they always return to a place of guilt for feeling a lack of gratitude for everything I have.
But, somehow, sometimes I feel that it makes me appreciate things more, even though I don't understand how to show my appreciation.

I understand now why Brd ran away from Ravus and Geisha earlier today... the antlers?
But it was nice to rest with you under the mushroom. Maybe the antlers were useful to Brd as umbrellas?
I'm so happy to track this, now.

Thank you for that heads up. I'll be sure to keep watch continuously. I wouldn't want to miss anything. c:

Also, I agree with the comment below me so vehemently that I didn't think I could say it without some explosive result.

I'm sorry then; taken out of context my comment must have been really confusing. Please disregard it, except for the part that Brd's tendency to lie next to sleeping deer made me smile today, and I'm glad to have this page on my track now.

It's... In my nature, to watch. Thank you, again, for that... Though I'm sure I'll be hovering around all the same.
Such a nice place to hover around, so long as I'm no bother. ♥

Brd seems... Fuzzy, this evening.


I drew Brd, the other day. An image came to mind, and I couldn't resist. I wish to perfect it, to make it nicer as best as I can, but I have not yet the tools to do so. Nonetheless, I hope this silly gift of mine can be given to you soon.

Ah, again, I wrote a reply and it was eaten. -u-

Alright. Let's try this again! Such a shame I'll never get the old wording back, but out with the old and in with the new. -u-
I'll try to recreate, and what I can remember is supposed to be.


Not perfect in the quality of lines. Such a thing, I don't believe, exists quantitatively. Perfection, rather, in portraying the essence of the subject. The soul, if you will, in its full being, meaning, essence. Purity of vision.

Yes, f- "Fuzzy" is in the writing itself. I hadn't seen that.
He seems... Fluttery. And I know that's in there. He seems very extreme in his emotions, though not according to the usual usage of the term. Rather, his emotions seem to be shak extremes, like the opposite sides of a canyon. Perhaps he's somewhere on a tightrope between the two, yet also swept up in this alternate state of consciousness almost like a dream.

Brd has always seemed very emotional to me. I've always felt... He's always seemed troubled to me, like he's walking in a world of shadow, trying to find his way.

It's part of his appeal... That unease of nature, but also part of the... Lightly heartwrenching reaction I get from him. There's this feeling of sadness, loneliness, utter unease and lack of surity (I'm not sure if that's a word.) around him, like a dark fog in which he is trapped. I love him for it, and feel great sadness because of it.

Many things involving him leave me feeling... Sad, dissettled, upset. But there is no need to apologize, because I can see it is of his nature...

Sadness is momentary. I would give years of sadness so long as I had company, others in some way or form.

I... Hesitated to make the case that you, too, feel like I described him. You've made it yourself, stating he is your "unguarded and illogical heart." Hearts are, quite reasonably, illogical. They're... Beyond it. Such a shallow thing no longer applies. And to be unguarded...

Some would argue that is the best thing possible.

If this is the case, you are sweeter than I had ever previously known.

But this doesn't surprise me.

Thank you. I'm sure I will. They always come, when they're supposed to. And if not, something better comes.
That's the blessing, that somehow we understand even through these mixed up messages. I'm glad.

I've been exhausted the last three days. I don't understand why. I've been going to sleep early, and sleeping for a long time, and yet still sleep tugs at me so early. Perhaps the time change, though it started the second day...
Unusual. I'm sure it works out for some reasonable and beneficial end.
Good night, Eyestrain.
For the moment.

Yes, I... Try. My sleep schedule often gets completely messed up. It has for years. Despite beig a pain, I sort of enjoy that chaos...
And of course, the attraction to staying awake all night is hard to resist sometimes. vnv
I'm shamefully bad at maintaining a good sleeping schedule. But it's worked out so far. The tired should go away soon. I always find my way to homeostasis eventually.
For the moment, I should stick to that routine, though.

Ah, it is unnecessary unless you are so compelled. I make a point of expecting very little. Actually, I try to expect nothing, neither good or bad, and simply observe what comes. Another work in progress.

I hope you slept well. c:

Somehow, with me, it works out. Or has thus far. What can I say for tomorrow?
But if I spend my time worrying over tomorrow, I'll miss today.
My best friend is an insomniac. I stay up with her, too, when she has homework. She has more than any student should, has to stay up all night all week sometimes. I keep her company, so the misery doesn't get her as badly.

Take your time, then. I'm patient, almost too patient, if such a thing exists. I hold no expectations.
The fact we agree upon that simple notion would surely be enough for me. -u-

Thank you very much, Shaku. I struggled a lot with those. I still feel like there is a more elegant solution. But it makes me glad you would pick them out.

I'm glad you're happy.
The question marks were once symbols almost like brd's name... but I forgot the limits of this forum.


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napkin sketch from last week

you never got out of the rain

You diligently give me too much credit.
Thank you, Chanelle.

The secretary pelted doe was my OOC deer, Vee.
I've wanted to meet and hang out with you for some time, sorry if we're a bother, you didn't seem very playful haha. ^^;

Hello. I just wanted to say I'm sorry we've let you down today in this way.

You're such a caring and thoughtful person. Yes I am completely alright, thank you. I just wanted to play with brd yesterday but for some reason my mood abruptly decided to hit rock bottom and I didn't want to do anything anymore but stare off into space alone; I felt as if I've let you and brd down because of that. Thank you.

weird night

Love this last entry. The stranger was my Ryuu. I guess he just decided he couldn't just ignore those two's possessiveness and Brd's discomfort x3