Guess I'll always start these with "it's been a while!"
2020 SUCKS. It's certainly made me re-think a few things about what's important to me and whatnot. Mostly given me confidence in reassuring me on what I do want, which is out of this country. It feels like 2020 isn't just going to be "one shit year" but an ongoing trend. And I need to start deciding where I want to be, and where I'll be most happy for the future. Or well, I've decided that, just need to get onto actually doing it.
And one important thing for me was, before I could immigrate to Sweden, was to get my mental state checked out. I've struggled with depression on-and-off for years, but since the end of last year I felt my spiral down wasn't coming up again. Then 2020 happened, I started getting panic attacks, yadayada, So I'm starting therapy. Got meds too which so far has been interesting. Very early into that though.
Figured if I want change, I have to change too. Going to take it one thing at a time. I lost a lot of weight last year, then gained it right back when the depression hit again, not being too hard on myself because obviously the whole corona situation is also just generally stressful y'know. And at least I know I can do it. Hopefully when my emotional state is back in balance, it'll be easier to maintain.
Anyway!! I mean this is my personal blog so I won't go apologise too much for personal stories. And I think this stuff needs to be talked about. I spoke to a lady, kind of a general talk about what's bothering me and them checking on what I'll need to recover, and she caught onto me dismissing myself a lot through the conversation. That was pretty rough to get thrown back at me. So y'know, if you're struggling, you're not making it up. And don't be so fkn mean to yourself.
I've been having a waay better time lately in-game than, say 2 years ago, or even 6 years ago when I panic-fled. And I wanted to say thanks for that!! I'm so happy my gremlins have been taken in so lovingly. Starting with Weasel was an eye-opener, and Harin has been doing great for a character I kinda threw in without any good reasoning to it. So thanks!! To everyone who's been interacting with us. And anyone who still wishes to but hasn't figured out exactly how, hit me up aaany time.
ok bye see you in 6 months likely
Trackity track
trackin' wow that sidebar art
wow that sidebar art is amazing i adore the style and design lsjfaf
your art is so great i can't even.
I was starting to wonder
The CSS used here is so simple yet so lovely with that right image added with the neat setup on the left (does that sound weird?). Um but, it's really hard to type a comment because the text colour is so light. ^^;
I also read your update and it sounds pretty eventful - even made me smile a bit while reading~
Glad things are mostly going well for you! Though I really hope you go to Australia, it is soo worth it.
mm gorgeous in here. /snug
♥ I'm still waiting
I'm still waiting for you to write about the trip to Sweden and all.
The new blog looks great!
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Echosong: Hellooo! Hadou: AA
Hellooo!
Hadou:
AAAH noonono hahah I can't draw that well! That piece is commissioned from Apeldille, I forgot to put in the proper credits. Massive shame on me. But now they're there, phew! All go bow to Apel she is amazing.
(thank you though ;D)
Rikka:
Oh dear, changed that! I shouldn't be allowed to finish up css at 2am. Thanks though! I'm terrible at css layouts, so I went with what I know. Boxes. Side by side boxes.
Yeah you've been to Australia more than once huh XD I do really hope to. Phobia's suck.
Din:
Aw thanks *Snugs with*
Tuoho:
Oh ? I didn't realise you were :"D Woops. Do you want me to write a pretty story on this blog or shall I give you a private show on skype? ;D
Sight:
I do too! Love looking at it. Really want a plush of it. SO MANY THINGS TO DOO
Vala:
Hey Vala! You alright?
Flyleaf:
Haaai! SOON FLYLEAF. I'm really exited to work on that doll HAHA I will contact you soooooon.
Don't need to Hurry
Track! I'll have to look at
Trackidy
Tracking of course. I had
I had such an amazing time visiting you. LETS DO IT AGAIN SOON.
Excited for Jezabelle to arrive (and my charger whoopsie)
I promise Australia wont be 2 SPOOPY 4 U
x <3
Damn right australia is too
And I am so glad you had an amazing time. You know how I worry. YOU KNOW 8( XD
Happy belated Birthday , hope
If I may, track!
Flyleaf: I had a good enough
I had a good enough one! Glad I survived that weekend o_x
Night654:
You may!
-goes wild-
I wouldn't say you're
Wheee! I see the moose I sent
Wow, what a difference
Tuoho: So other people also
So other people also see I am not an ungrateful brat: Here's Shadow >8( On my bed. Next to the pillow I sleep on. And I'd be amused if anyone could guess where the other plushies are from :"D One I made. The rest is bought. Exept Shadow the hedgehog, he's a gift :")
Rikkachan:
This ritual repeats every time I make a doll :"D Empty rooms give me the crafting shivers too. But this time me and my mom are going to visit Ikea to get me some extra planks for the walls, so I have some more storage space. I need it badly.
I suppose it's worth it since
where is shadow
where is shadow
Ah, almost forgot, wanted to
Conserning wanting to play a fawn, what I do really look for is a family surrounding the kid who would be interested in doing artsy stuff. Because I really love stories and art and things alike. And that I'd like to be involved from pregnancy on, so I would be able to do in-womb stuff too. Because that's cool. Otherwise I'm pretty free for anything? I'd like to be inspired.
Sorry to be one of many. And really, for me it's not a need or anything. Just something that's been going on in my mind for a while now. Ok. *Shies away again*
Internet can be evil
Have you tried using an ethernet cable if you normally use a wireless connection? You mentioned that you'd tried resetting the router and stuff so I assume you use a wireless connection with your desktop? I've tried the software on maybe five computers and never had trouble with it when I'm ethernet cabled into the router. Sometimes my internet will be fine for regular browsing/Steam/torrenting but decide that TEF can't play, so I only play it on my wired desktop these days.
It's a very evil twat! I am
I am on a cable on my desktop, and on wi-fi on my laptop. Neither worked, so I was a bit baffled. Especially because it was from one day on another, I never had problems before?
What worked was a suggestion someone gave me; try opening another window. SOMEHOW, the second window connects whilst the first one doesn't go past the red connection dot.
I'm thinking another internet-using program is interfering with TEF, perhaps Skype or Steam or Dropbox, I don't actually know :") I'm likely talking out of my ass, but it feels as if TEF is trying to connect on a taken port and so can't. A second window gets forced on another port and thus connects? Really, who knows, TEF's just a bit old and badly coded. For now the workaround does the job, and maybe my first window starts to connect at some point again as well. I do wonder if this could be a solution for more people when this problem comes up, often it seems sometimes TEF just randomly doesn't want to connect for people who've connected without problems for ages.
It's just a bit of an ass I think :")
I don't think it's any of
OR the server is so old that it's gained sentience and is just screwing with people because that's the only entertainment it has. It's probably so sick of watching deer.
Posting here partially for
Char's Ymir is -still- ghosting in the forest and has been like that for over a week. I know from working with the shitty Impressive title software that sometimes when code isn't reset, issues like this start to pop up. It's good maintenance and something that just absolutely needs to be done on a regular basis. I'd try and contact M&A and see if they'd be willing to do a reboot.
I highly doubt it's anything on your end ^^. Just problematic server issues.
Discord:Nazzard#9068 ||Click for bios.
Rebooting the server would
I like to imagine that it lives in the corner of a very dusty attic, surrounded by file cabinets.
Al: Well, that’s the thing,
Well, that’s the thing, they’ve always all been open for me too. When TEF suddenly didn’t want to connect anymore, I thought of what was the last thing that changed on my pc, and that seemed to be skype. So I uninstalled it entirely, and TEF connected again. Unfortunately, when I reinstalled Skype and TEF accidentally crashed, there was no way for me to get it to work again. Not even with uninstalling skype. The only work-around so far really is opening a second window.
I do believe it might’ve gained sentience. Especially when everyone’s sets randomly swaps out. Or when people randomly get turned into giant bunnies o_x The server is an entity on it’s own.
Nazzard:
Aah stalk. Possibly? I’m not really versed enough in servers to know if that helps or not. We have a server at home and I don’t think my brother really reboots that a lot, then again there’s no game running on it. M&A rent the server from some other company if I’m correct, if anything you’d imagine they do the maintenance and not M&A. But M&A have had to contact them in the past for reboots when it had crashed again. Not sure though! I just remember reading that somewhere. I could, again, be talking out of my bum.
I knew it wasn’t bad connection when it started, I’m practically the server’s neighbor and on glass fiber cable. Hard to beat that. I just wish I was able to figure out what the problem is –exactly-. But I’ll live with the workaround.
I'm sure it has grown a dust-bunny beard as well and complains about all those young whippersnapper mmo's that can hold thousands of people at the same time :")
I'm offended at myself for
I managed to solve it by
If two windows don't work, try three. c:
Annnnnd stalk. ♥
Quote:I have a
Shame on me, shame on me for
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
so apparently I have never
Why.i.haven't.track.this.alre
Track this !
eeee, they look so cool!
aaaa!!!! how cutee!!!! have
are they all the same gender? if not, is the female gonna eat the male if they mate??
I have so many questions I'm sorry
♥ so lucky!!
Lovely.
Echosong: Yesss ee! I love
Yesss ee! I love this species, the first two photos I linked are mine actually! They're really cute.
HolyMaria:
Not yet! I'm really bad at names! Usually I come up with them after owning them for a while. I'm getting two males, and two females, and this is actually a species that can live together! They only go after prey smaller than themselves, so they won't try to eat eachother. But with any mantis species there's always the chance they will anyway, so I might keep them seperate.
But the female eating the male is sort of a myth actually! Mantids see anything that's small and moves as prey, so the female only really grabs the male if he's moving in front of her/where she can see him. In the wild, it barely ever happens that they eat their partner because he has plenty of space to escape. But it can happen. Breeders try to distract the female with food when they are about to breed them. I had a super sneaky orchid mantis who went and ate her boyfriend the second I looked away though. I was -so- mad he cost me so much HAHA damnit woman.
Be prepared for walls of text when asking me about these..<___<"....
Tuoho you ninja'd me. But yess, they so are.
Ninjaing you is one of my
Oh my gosh Mis, I'm so glad
Tuo: I feel like I should
I feel like I should provide you with more opportunities then..
Sight:
Yes aah. It.. It didn't take much convincing. When I saw the sales thread I just sort of had to. Been hounding the two european mantis forums for an opportunity :"D I wanted a nice large green gal though, of course I end up with tiny tiny brown babies HAHA. Ah but they're perfect Verve-doll photography material.
i'm probs too anxious to add,
Fine , to see you here
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Good to hear from you~ Hope
Its nice to hear from you,
Tuo:
Vala: Good to see you're still around too!
Nopje: Also a <3 for you
Aivilo: I'm alright, I'm all grown up now in my own place with my own cat. Hope you're good too!
Thais: <3<3 I messaged you on facebook, also for some reason discord tells me your discord name is wrong even though I've been copy pasting it!