Waving through a window; personal
July 22, 2018 - 6:06pm — Sybilline
18.02.2024.
Belated happy 2024 to everyone. Still alive here but still with tons of health issues. Currently in the process of setting up a bigger cage and getting a friend for my budgie Olly - he's been with us for more than half a year now, learned to talk, would sleep and perch on our hands and shoulders, but still won't let me cut his nails without throwing a tantrum, sigh.
Giving me the side eye like the true boss of the house he is
20.05.2023.
Not doing well. I'm losing weight, have troubles breathing, my body shakes from the most minor physical activity possible, I'm constantly scared, in pain, there is not a single that I don't just exist in pure suffering. I dread going to sleep from all the nightmares and dread waking up to another day of suffering. I don't have any support irl from any doctor, and I'm sick and tired of all the guilt and feeling like a burden to my parents and everyone that knows me. Whatever this is, it feels like I won't get alive out if it. Hopefully I'm wrong.
22.09.2022.
It's been 6 years since I joined this community. Damn, time flies. I don't know if anyone even remembers me anymore but yeah. I'm not dead yet, sadly perhaps. My life has been progressively going downhill, I got diagnosed with chronic fatigue syndrome and tons of other shit is making me pretty much stuck to the bed, I've never been this depressed and anxious. Meds seem not to be helping me anymore either.
I miss this place. I miss when I was younger and healthy, not in pain everyday.
To the people who read this, I hope you all are alive and well.
13.03.2021.
Oh wow, it's been a long time since I updated this. Life has been rough, after 2 years of therapy I got diagnosed with depression a few months ago, my anxiety is back and it has brought me various new physical symptoms that I never felt before and it's feeding into my hypochondria. I also broke up with my boyfriend, which is probably the main reason I fell into this shithole again. I got new meds sooo, we'll see if they will help or I'm gonna drop dead. I hope you all are okay and safe, I know I basically stopped talking to everyone on discord ever since I moved on to another game, but I still think about this place from time to time. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and relive some memories, those were good days.
16.07.2020.
I'm most likely not coming back here.
23.09.2019.
My heart has joined the Thousand...
Not even a month after being through a surgery to have a tumor removed, my old floof passed away from unknown reasons on 18.09.
Hope there is a lot of dandelions here, wherever you are.
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Don't worry about it, take your time. You know where to find me if you need anything. ♥
Thank you, it means a lot
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No need to apologize about
A track for you ♥
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Do what you gotta do, friend!
Thank you guys!
AHH I was gone when this was
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Oh, yeah!
tossercook: Shrinking:
Shrinking:
Hnng, track for you!
Thank you! ❤
Hi
Hello to you too! ^^ Nice to
I so need to make Jonquil a bio soonYes, you do! Ah... it must
Ah... it must be really frustrating not being able to get some answers. I hope that tomorrow will help you. Sending positive vibes your way. <3
I agree, she really deserves
And thank you ❤ I really want to hope this will work out. The talk therapy that I went to last time didn't help me at all, so I guess it's time to consider asking for the pills now. I know they would help me a lot, but I'm also so afraid of them :c
Just gotta wait and see what my new therapist will have to say once we get to talk about it.
:alert: \ who said something
yes, finally.
i did my waiting! twelve years of it, in azkaban!
LOL! Well hopefully it won't
I'm happy to hear that you
Heyy thank you ❤
I am so relieved for you that
I really hope so too! Thank
Hey there. I know that exact
As much as it feels bad to
You took the words right out
Hang in there. ♥
I feel the same way too, the
You too ❤
Wishing you happy holidays
Happy holidays to you too
Hi Sybilline, this needs
this needs absolutely a track from/by me!
I´m sorry that I had not enough time to play with you the last days.
But I hope we met soon in TEF and get crazy a little bit.
And I wish you a merry christmas and a wonderful new year (with many funny moments in TEF).
❤
Ah hello there Pink ^-^ it's
And thank you, happy holidays to you too my friend ❤
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January babies are the best
Hope it was a good one for you!
Happy belated birthday you
Happy birthday! ♥
Vala: ❤ Fishy: Hehe yes
Fishy: Hehe yes we are *winks back*
I haven't celebrated my bday properly in years now, but I got to spend some nice time with my family which is honestly all I currently need in my life.
Wyldflower, HeartClock; Thank you guys ❤
I was dying in the heat in
I'm so glad we got to meet too, I can't explain how happy I was when you suggested we meet up <3 And seriously, your English was perfect so don't worry about that.
I'll be waiting patiently for you to come visit the UK ;D ♥
It's a bit more bearable when
shh I know it sucked, but thank u❤Gonna make sure I get enough money for my own private plane too so I don't get stuck who-knows-where on my way there xD
o/ I've been to Makarska
Always wrecked by the heat too. Burned as well, despite plastering myself in SPF 30 sunscreen 'till I was white, lmao. Good to know I'm not the only one haha, especially since you come from a warmer country than me.
And yeah crowds can be a bit of a problem there, especially at night and right at the coast... Wasn't pleasant getting constantly brushed against, I did enjoy my holidays though. I think it's a very beautiful place.
Glad to hear you still enjoyed it!
That is so reletable, except
Wish I could live by the coast, but somewhere quieter.
I'm glad you liked it too, tho tbh I do get a bit confused of what foreign tourists find so nice about Balkan countries in general, since it all seems so ordinary to me haha.
Also, glad to see you are still here, I was wondering where you vanished. I haven't been in-game for quite some time now either, but feel free to join me whenever u see me <3
Eh, considering I've been
My guess is they're probably prettier than the tourists' own homes, lmao. I come from a bleak industrial city myself so I really enjoyed the clean streets & air (which also smelled amazing thanks to the ocean), the clear weather, decorative plants everywhere and the overall vibrancy and colorfulness of the area. The mountain range especially, so beautiful to look at from sea level as its tips disappeared behind the clouds...
Thanks <3 Haven't been active here lately but I'm definitely alive and kicking. Feel free to contact me offsite anytime if you'd like to actually!
I'm sorry for your loss, Syb.
Shrinky:
I lost my kitty a couple of
So sorry for your loss, they
Sorry about your loss... Wish
Wish I had something else to say but I don't think anything I would say would help anyway. I don't wanna repeat things that you most likely already know.
Thank you all, no matter how
I'm sorry to hear about your kitty too Kaoo, let's hope they are both in a better place now..
all my love and luck to you,
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Hi Sybilline, we dont met for
we dont met for a long while and I was asking myself what happend.
you will leave? only this community or TEF too?
Does that mean, no longer funny times in TEF with Jonquil?
Oh no, Cu will be very sad to hear that (and me too)
Hey Pink.. yeah sadly, due to
Take care <3
Hi Sybilline. Cu and me are
Cu and me are remembering you very well. we had so much fun in the forest.
your deer was such a nice little fellow.
I´m so sorry for you pain, this sounds not very good for you. Especially if you can´t do much
to feel better or to do something against it.
try to send you some positive vibes!!!
Hey, Sybilline! Of course we
Of course we remember you and your lovely Jonquil. Been missing you too.
So sorry to hear you're not feeling well, sending you urgent deer nuzzles!
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