Waving through a window; personal
July 22, 2018 - 6:06pm — Sybilline
18.02.2024.
Belated happy 2024 to everyone. Still alive here but still with tons of health issues. Currently in the process of setting up a bigger cage and getting a friend for my budgie Olly - he's been with us for more than half a year now, learned to talk, would sleep and perch on our hands and shoulders, but still won't let me cut his nails without throwing a tantrum, sigh.
Giving me the side eye like the true boss of the house he is
20.05.2023.
Not doing well. I'm losing weight, have troubles breathing, my body shakes from the most minor physical activity possible, I'm constantly scared, in pain, there is not a single that I don't just exist in pure suffering. I dread going to sleep from all the nightmares and dread waking up to another day of suffering. I don't have any support irl from any doctor, and I'm sick and tired of all the guilt and feeling like a burden to my parents and everyone that knows me. Whatever this is, it feels like I won't get alive out if it. Hopefully I'm wrong.
22.09.2022.
It's been 6 years since I joined this community. Damn, time flies. I don't know if anyone even remembers me anymore but yeah. I'm not dead yet, sadly perhaps. My life has been progressively going downhill, I got diagnosed with chronic fatigue syndrome and tons of other shit is making me pretty much stuck to the bed, I've never been this depressed and anxious. Meds seem not to be helping me anymore either.
I miss this place. I miss when I was younger and healthy, not in pain everyday.
To the people who read this, I hope you all are alive and well.
13.03.2021.
Oh wow, it's been a long time since I updated this. Life has been rough, after 2 years of therapy I got diagnosed with depression a few months ago, my anxiety is back and it has brought me various new physical symptoms that I never felt before and it's feeding into my hypochondria. I also broke up with my boyfriend, which is probably the main reason I fell into this shithole again. I got new meds sooo, we'll see if they will help or I'm gonna drop dead. I hope you all are okay and safe, I know I basically stopped talking to everyone on discord ever since I moved on to another game, but I still think about this place from time to time. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and relive some memories, those were good days.
16.07.2020.
I'm most likely not coming back here.
23.09.2019.
My heart has joined the Thousand...
Not even a month after being through a surgery to have a tumor removed, my old floof passed away from unknown reasons on 18.09.
Hope there is a lot of dandelions here, wherever you are.
Pink: Oh my god hi, it's been
Ursch: Thank you so much for the forest nuzzles! Glad you remember us too. I miss you as well, I miss my characters, gosh I can't believe I've been away for this long. Sending lots of forest hugs to you too!
Thank you! I'd be glad to see
And maybe dance and run around a little
though Ursch has been nothing but an old slugabed these daysSignature © Draak
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Hey, we probably never
Sad to hear you have to be going through all this.
I'm not sure if these words of advice are of any help in your situation, but focusing on things that I still could do has always worked for me when my life was at its lowest, otherwise.
Either way, sending you the feel-good-energy from here. Are there any characters you'd like me to draw for you?
Ursch: I've thought a lot of
Uit: I think we might have interacted a few times, my memory is foggy but I definitely remember your username too. Thank you for the advice, been trying to do so but not gonna lie, my condition is taking a huge toll on my psyche despite everything I try. As for the drawing, I appreciate the offer but I don't want to take up your free time. Unless you really insist then you can try drawing my Jonquil, she is still my best girl here
It's not dumb, I totally get
But I think the beauty of this game is that it doesn't really matter that much if you change or not, you can be anyone behind your avatar, but you always remain a deer who still belongs in the forest)
And yes, it would be lovely to see you on Halloween, it's a great time to come back indeed! No pressure though, please do whatever is best for you ♥
Signature © Draak
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No matter how much time has
But health is still in the first place, so I hope that everything will be fine for you. I'm sending you a lot of energy and health uwu
by kseniamokhova
Oh my goodness hello!
Life in the forest for me is definitely different in your absence.
I have recently dipped my toes back into the community. The anxiety is real, but frolicking around the forest or just sitting peacefully with the music is worth it I believe. Sometimes I just hang out OOC, don't interact on forums if I'm too tired. (I find myself just sitting peacefully most often, I recommend it. The nostalgia is good for the heart) It's up to you, but there's definitely ways to play if you don't have the energy for all the writing and interaction. Obviously, your health and emotional state comes first.
There is a big group discord, I'm not sure if you're in it. I don't talk in it usually, but it is nice to see the community buzz.
Halloween seems like it would be a fun time to ease back in, with the festivities and events
If you choose to be in the forest, I hope to run into you
My love and luck to you <3 if you need me, I'm just a text away
Signature by Wildflowerdeer and Profile by Sybilline
Personal/Character Hub
Ursch and Kumu: Thank you
Tossercook: Oh man I've missed you too! The nostalgia indeed hits hard even when I just open my characters' bios. I still remember working on them till morning hours and having so much fun (and frustrations haha) experimenting with coding for the first time, our characters hanging out together basically everyday and me learning how to do digital art while drawing them. It feels like it's was just yesterday but also ages ago at the same time. If I happen to log in on Halloween I'll shoot you a text, I'd be happy to see you as well <3
Hey. I'm a couple weeks late
You're not a burden! I bet those who love you are never thinking this. Sending you strength and I hope that you can get some answers soon.
Wish you strength and good.
Hi. I'm sorry that the
I'm sorry that the medical system has failed you in such a way that you believe you are a burden, but you are not. you are doing what you can, and sometimes that's the best we can do. try to be kinder to, and more patient with, yourself along the way to recovery.
Thank you all.. I really do