Hi again everyone. Thanks for clicking on this post.

It's been awhile since I left the discord server and by proxy essentially retired from the endless forest community. I'm just checking in to update you all on some recent developments in my health.

I've had some issues with my back and a tense time around MRI scans to ensure it wasn't anything sinister. Turns out it was just two compressed and slightly herniated lumbar disks which are angering the nerve there. Not too sure what that entails. But that's not really the reason I'm writing this post.

About a week ago I found a strange, disproportionate hardening under my armpit on the side that I had previously had breast cancer in 2022. Of course, I panicked. It made me think that my biggest nightmare was coming to fruition and I would have to fight this horrible disease once again. Despite knowing that I shouldn't get ahead of myself, I just couldn't help but lose sleep. Some of the facts of this change are worrying. They say one of the first (if not THE first) places breast cancer spreads is to the lymph nodes under the armpit. One could argue "but maybe its scar tissue or fluid" which I have though about too but they never actually operated on my armpit. They removed the sentinel lymph node which is in the chest. The only other benign explanation would be something like an after effect from radiotherapy. However, I'm extra worried because I have only noticed this in the last week and its actually itchy too. I'm hoping that the reason I've only noticed this lately is because I've lost 10 pounds but with these things you can never be too sure. It is also my dominant arm so maybe its a muscular discrepancy.

So, having been told to air on the side of caution for pretty much the rest of my life, I tried to contact my team in hospital and, after some voicemails and missed calls I finally got in touch. They are going to see me in the hospital tomorrow morning to check it out i.e. do a physical exam and see if they want to take an ultrasound or biopsy afterwards to further investigate.

I'm not religious but I appreciate any prayers or well wishes.

- Jen