April 18, 2011 - 9:03pm — Pistol
I've been wondering if whether I should post this or not, because I don't think there's a point to this, no one would really care or notice this anyway, but just thought I'd let my friends know..
I'm leaving TEFc. I don't know if I'll ever come back here.
It's been really hard for me this month. I've been going through a lot of shit lately, trying to get out of my depressions. Probably the worst thing about all this is that my friend, who is much more than a friend to me, is in a hospital, wants to attempt suicide. It makes it even harder for me to keep going on. I couldn't go on without her.
There's really no one I can call my friends anymore (talking about real life, not TEFc).
I also want to get my life back. Go outside, enjoy my spring break, even though there's nothing enjoyable or fun about it.
I barely know anyone on here, except for HellsBells and Merrick. I was honored to get to know you and call you my friends. Thank you for everything you've done for me, even if it wasn't much, it really means a lot to me. I'm going to miss you. I love you.
I wish the best to all of you.
I dunno if any of my friends would like to keep contact with me, but I'm checking my email (zippins1[at]gmail.com) daily. Feel free to contact me whenever you feel like it.
Goodbye.
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Sad to hear that. I hope you
I hope you feel better soon <3
I will miss you
I'm always here for you
Hopefully you're gonna get your msn to work someday.
Aww I'm really sorry..I hope
Even if I dont know you very well, Take care. <33..And feel better soon. :c
First. Go outside. Go see the
Go outside. Go see the sky and get sunlight and movement. Don't spend all day at the computer. Drink water. Eat balanced meals and avoid too many sugars (they can cause crashes). Get enough sleep to feel rested.
Second.
You are not alone. My friend is still able to live on her own, but she admitted contemplating suicide, and with my own depression, it has been difficult offering her support.
But it will get better.
I've been seeing a counselor and simplifying my life to the very basics, to find what is causing my depression. I take each moment one at a time and look at what I can do right now to take weight and stress away from myself.
Please get some help. Either from family, friends, or a psychologist or counselor (I would avoid psychiatrists, they'll likely just prescribe meds without talking through your feelings. Meds might help, but try to find the source and solution to your problems first if you can). Keep talking to your friend and let her know that she's important to you, that there are other options. You can't change her decisions but you can remind her that she is loved. You can remind her of moments of happiness in your own life or in hers and tell her that those aren't the only good things in the world. There are so many more waiting to happen.
Don't give up. Even if you never come back here, I am rooting for you. Things will get better. Life is not always hard.
Forgive yourself and figure out what you can do. Remember this is your only life.
Good luck.
-rt
I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
I do not know you sweet
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Eyestrain has said things
I hope things turn out for
I've woundered where you've
I'm sad that it's been hard on you lately. And I really hope that you and your friend will get better soon. Hopefully you'll feel better now that the summer is coming and all. And I'm allways here if you ever want to just have fun or talk <3 I'll send you a mail through mail soon so that we can keep in contact <3
I hope everything turns out.
We're here for you if you ever want to come back.
take care of yourself.