My Trillian upgraded itself a few days ago.

Ever since then, my MSN gets signed off whenever I log onto my Trillian. This is why I've been using Meebo for the past few days.

However, this also means that people cannot add me to their contacts list. I have to be on MSN on my Trillian to get friend requests, and if it keeps signing me out, then I can't add anyone.

So it anyone was actually trying to add me (I don't see why anyone would add me, but that's beyond the point), I apologize. I have no clue how to correct this problem, and until I do find out, I won't be able to be contacted.

Again, I'm sorry...

Garbage topic that I'll delete later.

[=1]Why does all this have to be so hard? Why do I feel like an outsider?

I'm not like other guys, who are proud of themselves for how much weed they smoke or how many women they've slept with. I sit there and laugh along with everyone else as they talk about how they can drink a case of beer in one sitting, but mentally I pity them for being so stupid and destroying their body just to impress some girls at a bar.

I don't have any intention on smoking or using drugs. I drink alcohol just a little, but even that backfires on me as just one little shot of whiskey will make me so depressed that I want to kill off my deer and leave the Forest.

I should be happy that I don't make stupid choices that others make, but instead I feel like a shell of a person who has no sense of direction. I just don't see my future.

Yes, I have big dreams and goals. I write about them all the time - I want to give away part of my profits to charity, I want to fix some of the mess that greed and ignorance has created in the world. But I feel like people look down on me because I don't want to keep my money and buy expensive cars, gold jewelry, and a huge mansion like they would. They look at me like I'm a hippie because I want to save the environment.

It took a very long time for me to realize how important that was to me. Things have gotten so out of control with pollution, deforestation, this whole "it's not my problem" attitude that all the people with power in the world has.

I have no aspiration. I let people use me for their personal gain instead of doing my own things that would benefit me. I feel like I just can't say no to doing what everyone else wants.

I'm not strong and not smart like everyone else is. I would be the first one to be killed or eaten if I was an animal, because everyone else would live and survive while I'd be the bait.

Some music.

I've been itching for more songs with a certain... Not sure how to describe. A certain dark, driving percussion sound to them. The drums.

like this, this, or this. (note that this last one is 15 minutes long. You get a good enough example with the first two, but still.)

Find me some good songs, please?

There might be something nice if you do.

If you don't want to fall down when you go asleep while air-sitting just keep the menu open! c: