"How can you forgive me... after all the awful things I've done... after all I've done to you and after I pushed you away... How... How can you forgive me for being such a... bastard to you? ............. how can I ever forgive myself for making you suffer so much Nathan..."

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While sitting out in the cold, mucky weather and sitting with Nine for a bit... Toxic's slowly getting to feel that harsh guilt he's feeling due to the things he's done to those he's held dear to him. Really this started out as a random doodle of Toxic... then massive blank space got tangled with Nathan... the more Toxic and then more Nathan and yeaaaaaaah...

Really, Toxic's going to beat himself up for awhile because of what he did to Nathan... (Don't know what he did? View "Loveless Faith" For the details)

Toxic, you better not make yourself sick again sitting out in the rain like you did D<

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Ohlook, spam.

I'm actually very tired.. and I can't draw much tonight, even if I want to. Frustrating..

First off, I had a good time playing with everyone tonight! Thanks!

Shortly after I woke up, I came upon Kaoori sleeping alone in the rain. Feeling protective, I sat close to her to keep her warm in the cold, rainy night.

Redkora/I was musing about how young Kaoori (and many of the other deer) is compared to him, hence the feeling of protectiveness. He has been around a long time, and he has seen many changes come to pass.

...but the Forest always is.

If you're interested in learning about this deer, click here.

Edit: I made a colorful one! Whoo! http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v434/MadKate/karkcolored.jpg