Talla - 14th of June.

My body hurts all over, but at least I can trot at times.
Today was too eventful for my current condition, I reopened some wounds.
Perhaps I should begin now, rather than rambling on without telling the whole story.

My day began with Kane, we sat together and walked to my favourite patch of flowers to rest.

I don’t know what happened for a while there, I slept until after one of my naps I awoke to find Kane gone and many deer near by the tree I was resting at. Panic broke into every limb of my body, I rose and found Kane had disappeared. But Esll stepped forward, Noelle was with the injured stag. I thought it was all pretty good.
Then Reed showed up.

The air had been tense already, when I saw Reed my first instinct was to go and say hello, anything to get away from the strange deer who I felt were too close.

The tension in the air stopped me immediately, fear climbed back into my body. Reed and his friend stared at us and Esll moved closer to me. Not good. I couldn’t move to Reed, I had to stay with Noelle and Esll. Plus... Reed had his friend with him... I hoped everything would be okay.

Noe motioned for us to follow her, so I followed and this in turn got Esll to follow; however slowly we moved.

Half way through the poppy patch, Reed appeared by his logs in front of us. Fair enough. Noelle led us two injured beings along; in fact the three of us were injured. Then Reed appeared before us again, doing some kind of activity. He wasn’t too close... just enough to stop our walking so we didn’t get too close.

Once again Noelle changed direction, but Reed had told me he would not stop until I went with him. Thoroughly terrified, we stopped between the Blue Bowl and Red Hill. All of this was terribly dramatic, I wished I was not part of it at all... but I was and that was that.

Our uncomfortable group of three rested for a time. It didn’t make sense. Reed was possessive... and I suppose I was with his enemy. A glance toward Esll who was now standing by Kaoori, she didn’t look so great either. This thinking was difficult, I didn’t want Esll to be any more hurt, nor did I want Reed hurt.

A minute later I was on my hooves, telling Noelle that I would be going up Red Hill to Reed. She seemed sympathise with me and walked up the first part of that dreadful hill with me. At one point I glanced across to find Kaoori bravely walking up the hill. Of course I did not get too close to her, but that does not mean I am not very curious of the doe. Ever since she stood between me and Walter I have been insanely curious about her.

Finally, after much pain climbing the hill, I staggered at the top. My legs hurt now; I think some wounds may have reopened. Noelle was pushing Esll away; he didn’t seem to want to go but he had to. I didn’t understand why he would want to stay anyway.

Limping over to Reed, we nuzzled but... I was so angry. I felt like possession, some type of freakin’ prize. I knew Esll and Noelle were at the bottom of Red Hill; at times my eyes flew over to them. Reed stood protectively over my smaller body; he is so tall that I feel like a true midget- which I am, but that is completely not the point.

He stayed by me until Esll and Noelle left... I still trust him, he is still a friend of mine however my rage for his next actions will hold for a little longer. After both of my wonderful friends had left me, Reed lost all interest in my presence and that was when I knew for sure that my climb of this horrible, Virgil scented hill had been to appease his jealousy and selfishness. Thanks Reed.

I took my leave slowly, stumbling back down the hill. Pain shot through every muscle, nearly worse than the journey up it. At least it didn’t reek so much down here.

I sat at the bottom of that hill for a while, too buggered to move. Reed had not checked on me, well, I didn’t notice him checking on me, he might have.

Eventually my weary body agreed to move once more, I stumbled and righted myself. Constantly my moos rang through the forest, calling for a friend. I made it about a quarter of the way around the blue bowl before laying down once more for a lovely nap and when I opened my eyes... Esll had come.

He stood by a tree and we nuzzled multiple times before laying down for a while. Perhaps I fell asleep, perhaps he did. All too soon my friend had to leave. Oddly, Noelle did not come with Esll when he came to me. Perhaps they had a disagreement.

I nuzzled the butterfly stag and he fell asleep beside me. Not much happened after that – not for a while...

Until ... I was at the playground, hiding within the largest rock... Then they both came. Huge, powerful strides carried the pair along, clueless deer follow happily.
Patriot.
Renior.
... I was in this state because of them; I cannot run due to their torture. Then... the two beasts leapt onto the rock I hid inside of, huge animals that made me feel smaller than usual. Their breathing met my ears, they were right above me!

Heart racing, body trying to convince me to run. Run?! How? I cannot run from them! If I try, they will give chase! Oh... they’ll kill me; they’re going to kill me. I can’t run, I can’t! Instinct said run, my mind said no!

I remembered the bruises; they were still prominent, the scars were still right there, reopened today because of Reed and Esll. More so Reed.

Breathe... breathe... Panic surged through every fibre of my form, body shaking. They stood above me as my breathing became quick and forced, then finally, the two beasts leaped away. It would have been majestic if I wasn’t so terrified.

It took a while before my breathing became normal. Then I found myself finally feeling safe inside my rock. I fell asleep when their scents had become stale enough to make me feel safe.

And this is supposed to be quiet so I can heal... what a quiet recovery.