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May 21, 2014 - 11:46pm — Fainalotea

After thinking long and hard...I have realized that TEFc has not really been healthy for me as of late. Certain uncomfortable things have been having long-lasting affects on my emotions during the day. At some points I look back and notice that my obsession with this place had kept me up during nights; some things stressing me out to the point I fell asleep in class or was spacey and a bit grumpy during the day. As my parents are going through a divorce and my school closing down, it has been very hard to grasp certain things the way I should, and I think at this point I should put some things off of my shoulders, at least until my emotions are straight again.
Things that should probably not offend me have been offending me, things that should not make me emotionally troubled have been making me emotionally troubled, and so on. I MAY return someday, not saying this is official, but right now I am turning off the lights of my office and locking the door, as my teachers will be doing tomorrow as it is the last day of school (which to me is a bittersweet day...I will miss my teachers so much...)
You may find me in the game and can still RP with me with my Palila by email, deviantART, etc. The community site is all that I am truly leaving behind, with a heavy heart...

So anyways...a shout out to the beautiful people who made me comfortable and happy during my year, here (I say year because I had another account in the beginning of this year besides this one) and those who are still giving me support even off-site and in-game. You warmed my heart and made me feel welcome and made every day on this site worth it. I love you all and you have helped life become more bearable for me. I am not willing to truly let the people I have met go, so I will leave my contacts bellow so that you may still contact me whenever you wish.

Fainalotea@yahoo.com
Fainalotea (deviantART)

I also deleted a lot of blogs on my account and will be keeping a few which I will be bumping a last time before signing off...

I love you all and hope you have a blessed summer.

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May 21, 2014 - 11:53pm — Staff

It shocked me to see the

It shocked me to see the title of this blog in Recent Posts.

I'm sorry to hear that you've decided to leave here Faina, it honestly was great seeing you post on so many things around here and I must say I enjoyed our RP a lot. I'll miss seeing you on the site, it won't be the same without ya around.

However, outside life comes before online life and I understand your reasons to depart here. I wish you the best, really I do. Take care of yourself and I'll look forward to you coming back if you will one day.

♥ Staff Numinex, Katar, Vaharo, Inveil & Wax, Hitaka, Decius all da charries doe

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May 21, 2014 - 11:54pm — OrinocoFlow

I'm going to really miss you

I'm going to really miss you :C But I understand. You always have me to talk to on DA though <3

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May 22, 2014 - 12:02am — Poppyflower

Sad to hear you`ll be going.

Sad to hear you`ll be going. I was actually pretty surprised to see this blog, like Staff said. 8c
But I understand why. I hope things improve for you! If you ever decide to return, we`ll be here ♥

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May 22, 2014 - 12:13am — blunt

I'm really surprised anyone

I'm really surprised anyone cares. Like at all.
You're a whiny _{(how many posts will you make with your bawling?)}, thieving _{(might wanna see a professional about this compulsive stealing off older players)}, annoying brat with a terrible rp style _{(your character is 3 weeks old why is she mated already jfc)} and I can almost guarantee you'll be back. You couldn't even keep up your "inactivity".

Good riddance I say. How ever long it lasts until you make another new account and thief someone elses design because you're "Oh so inspired"

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Don't whine at me for using a new account you people are animals when you think you're right.

May 22, 2014 - 1:22am — littlesinner

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May 22, 2014 - 12:22am — Staff

Member for 16mins and is

Member for 16mins and is already posting shit like this.

Fail troll much? Go to YouTube comments instead.

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May 22, 2014 - 12:27am — OrinocoFlow

Ignore the troll Faina (and

Ignore the troll Faina (and everyone else).

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May 22, 2014 - 12:31am — Staff

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May 22, 2014 - 12:47am — RenRaptor (not verified2) 0 RenRaptor

Goodbye and see ya around..

Goodbye and see ya around.. :c
I'll probably be joining you soon on the "I'm outa here train" if my opinion of this site don't start going back up again... this place just isn't what I once thought it was.

...and in regards to the spineless individual, just ignore it... they clearly don't have a descant bone in there body.

May 22, 2014 - 12:47am — toppledturtle

I'm so sorry and a little sad

I'm so sorry and a little sad that you're leaving so soon. Bur I understand, personal life comes before online life and that's okay <3 I'm always on dA if you need to talk or anything. Take care, and remember that the end isn't always the end.

Please do not target her (or anyone for that matter) when they are going through a hard time. It's extremely rude and someone will notify Michael & Auriea if you keep doing it.

May 22, 2014 - 1:31am — littlesinner

Sorry for my outrage. I just

Sorry for my outrage.
I just can't believe someone would be so rude to an amazingly nice person such as Faina.

I really will miss you. I'll shoot you an email someday soon, dear. <3 Good luck.

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May 22, 2014 - 3:04am — Starling

Fainalotea, you have always

Fainalotea, you have always been really kind to people here. It's a shame to see you go, but whatever makes you feel comfortable is for the best. I hope we see you again someday <3

(deleted comment) ~ rage mode over

May 22, 2014 - 1:43am — night654

I can understand being

I can understand being offended by the little things on the community, and it can be hard to let that all go sometimes. Overtime it goes away. You'll find a time and place later on for TEFc if you reconsider this community ever again. Many people will miss you here and hope the best for you, as do I. I hope you can find your way through your life struggles and other small inconveniences that need tending to. You'll be alright, just trust in yourself and listen to your heart. I'm also here if you would like to speak with me outside the community! Let me know if you would like my contact information. Have faith dear.

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May 22, 2014 - 1:55am — thelittleraven

See you around, Faina, you'll

See you around, Faina, you'll be missed. You were a kind presence.

In regards to Blunt, while I can't say I agree with your opinion, I don't blame you for using a different account. People can be very cruel about critisism here. Not that you presented it in the best way, but I digress.

If you want to talk about other things that may be bothering you, my skype is theonlymockingbird and my email is fall-into-me--@hotmail.com, I don't bite, I am open to venting.

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May 22, 2014 - 2:01am — wingeddeer

You've always been a sweet

You've always been a sweet presence around here. Sad to see you go. ;A; But take care in real life.

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May 22, 2014 - 2:07am — Honeyfur

Sad that you're leaving, but

Sad that you're leaving, but I understand why. I wish you all the best for whatever life throws your way, and we'll still be here if you wish to return someday. Take care Faina ♥

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May 22, 2014 - 5:40am — Aivilo

Faina - I hope things get

Faina - I hope things get better for you. Really do.

Blunt - I'm surprised you have anyone who cares, either, if that's who you really are behind your masks.

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May 22, 2014 - 10:21am — Vala

Sweet Faina , I understand

Sweet Faina , I understand you ,because once Vala had the same problem...Feelings
But I came back , take your time sweetie ,
we love you ...you are a wonderfull person ,there is always someone who really care for you !Hug ...♥

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May 22, 2014 - 10:36am — /

I'm so sorry to hear this

I'm so sorry to hear this all, hovewer, I often feel the same due to being addicted to this place way too much and... having... problems.
If you need me anytime, feel free to contact me on dA. ♥

May 22, 2014 - 11:15am — Flyleaf

I am with you Faina

I am with you Faina ...♥
You will not be forgotten

I really hope to see you around sometime soon !
Blunt ...you are really low .
And hiding behind a secret account ...coward

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May 22, 2014 - 12:56pm — Pelicann

Blunt, what the fuck makes

Blunt, what the fuck makes you think you have the right to treat someone else the way you have? What fucking right do you have to out someone else down, especially cowering behind some false account. Whoever you are, you are probably too ignorant to even believe these words, but you are a fucking child if you think this is even somewhat acceptable. NOBODY has the right to bully someone else. Did you know bullying is against the law? Yeah, you're committing a crime. Cyberbullying. And I bet you feel good about yourself now, don't you? Maybe instead of being spineless and pathetic, you could keep your fucking opinion to yourself and stop being hurtful to children.

Now I know there's been a time or two in your life when things have been rough. You've probably had friends to help you through, although I can't see what anyone would want to be around you. Faina has friends here, because she's actually a decent person. Yknow kids commit suicide every day, all around the world from being bullied. Maybe you should watch you mouth so you don't end up murdering someone.

I don't know who you are, but if I did, you can bet your ass there would be trouble. I don't take it lightly when people talk shit to my best friends. You have NO FUCKING RIGHT to judge someone else. You aren't a very pleasant person yourself, so keep that in mind next time you take it upon yourself to pointlessly out someone down. Thank you, and kindly fuck off.

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On the other hand, Faina, seriously don't let this immature asshole get to you. You know I will always be here to talk, and although I will miss you, if you know that leaving TEFc is best, then it trust you on that. I love you, Fai <3

May 22, 2014 - 1:29pm — snowmik

Pelicann wow wow wow. calm

Pelicann wow wow wow. calm dawn, huh? Why do you use abusive words? you said that no one should to bully, but in the same post doing this.
buddy. calm down. the man finds his punishment. but you just dropped to that level ~

May 22, 2014 - 1:40pm — Pelicann

I think if someone spoke that

I think if someone spoke that way to a close friend, you'd also be pretty pissed off. And they're never going to get the point if no one shakes a little sense into them. There's a difference between needlessly putting someone down, and chastising someone for being hurtful to someone for no reason. I am defending my friend from an attacker who based their insults off of bullshit.

Honestly, I don't care if people think I'm "down to their level." Nobody deserves to be put down like that.

May 22, 2014 - 1:53pm — snowmik

If someone says crap - the

If someone says crap - the reason is. You're defending a friend - your truth. But in this way? By shit throwing at each other - bad way to "protect", as well as you do not think about other people at this moment. Why should other people have to think about you? You say that people should be nice - but you yourself?
There are other people who are not involved in your conflict. Your anger can hurt other people. Anger - contagious. You've never heard of it?
When you find the bad guy, and you can go out with him to communicate in private conversation - smear him on the wall. But this is a public place. And here "must be followed moral principles" in any situation, as other people say. And how do you want to do this.
This man is not right. But you're wrong too. You do not stop this shit. You're making it bigger ~

May 22, 2014 - 2:18pm — Pelicann

You're right, and I

You're right, and I apologize. I will not post anymore on this thread, but will take this to a more private setting.

May 22, 2014 - 2:21pm — snowmik

hugs for you, man. you're

hugs for you, man. you're absolutely right - we need to protect our friends. and you have a right to be angry. we just should not be the same as he did. We must be better. you the good fellow, everything will be fine.

May 22, 2014 - 4:04pm — FairyClock

q___q I just.... I'm

q___q I just....
I'm sorry.
I just cried when I read this yesterday.
And again when I read it today.

I'm not going to rant about Blunt.
Because that's not what this blog is about.
What that player did was wrong in all sense of the word.

Faina, I will email you when I've stopped shaking with worry.
This place should never turn into a war ground. I always feeling like there are two sides of the story for most arguments, but it does become hard to bear when it happens in a place you once felt safe in.

Please remember to disassociate those cruel voices with those of your friends.

May 22, 2014 - 4:44pm — DinahMoon

'you people are animals when

'you people are animals when you think you're right.'
Look hard into the mirror, blunt.

Faina, didn't know you or interact with your characters. I'm a distant old member who quietly lurks tefc from time to time. You've been a friendly presence from what I've seen. Sorry to hear that you're experiencing so much emotional trouble. This community needs to make more efforts to be kind to each other. It's upsetting losing decent people again and again. Hope things look up for you soon, Faina.

May 23, 2014 - 6:08pm — TimelessDreams

Fainalotea, I was never

Fainalotea, I was never blessed with the chance to interact with your characters, but know that I would have loved to been friends with you. It's sad to see that yet another person is leaving the community because of the drama, on top of all the stress from life. Your decision, however, is understandable; I would have done the same thing had I been in your situation.

As for the fail-troll, Blunt. Who do you think you are, comin' here and trying to start even more drama? You're the most pathetic, waste of life that I've ever beared witness to. You have no right to enter someone's post - under a fake account at that - and start cyberbullying them. There are people who committ suicide every day because of people like you and if you're so heartless to the point where you don't care, you don't belong in this community.

I joined The Endless Forest because I thought it was going to be a sanctuary for me, but now that I've been here for a few days, I have come to the realization that this is not the case. On the surface, this place looks like paradise, but underneath the mask, there's too much drama for me to even stomach. Perhaps I will be hopping on the next train outta here, following Faina's lead.

May 23, 2014 - 10:02pm — Staff

I joined The Endless Forest

I joined The Endless Forest because I thought it was going to be a sanctuary for me, but now that I've been here for a few days, I have come to the realization that this is not the case. On the surface, this place looks like paradise, but underneath the mask, there's too much drama for me to even stomach. Perhaps I will be hopping on the next train outta here, following Faina's lead.

This. And for many more reasons too.

Also very well said Timeless~

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May 23, 2014 - 10:15pm — Flyleaf

This place has his bad and

This place has his bad and good sides too , don't forget this .
It will never exist only "good" ...It is how we are and the world is .
I still love this place so much athough Drama and fightings appear from time to time .
It is a normal thing that can happen .
I never thought of this place as "Paradise" .
But why leave ...
Drama will calm down sometime .

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May 24, 2014 - 2:46pm — FairyClock

Thank you, Fly. Even when

Thank you, Fly.

Even when things get bad, our friends still outweighed our foes.

May 25, 2014 - 2:35pm — TimelessDreams

Quote:Even when things get

Quote:

Even when things get bad, our friends still outweigh our foes.

Yes, but when you're new and know very little people, it is easy for the negativity to overwhelm everything and make you want to leave. I know that every place has it's flaws, but when it's to a certain extent, it becomes unbearable. When I first saw The Endless Forest, everyone seemed so nice and I thought it would be safe to come here after being torn apart everywhere else - making it somewhat of a sanctuary for me. Now that I see it from a different angle, I don't know if this place is going to suit me. I'll give it a chance, but at the same time I know the main reason I came here to be able to relax, not feel uncomfortable.

May 25, 2014 - 6:40pm — FairyClock

I just... I know... I

I just...

I know... I BELIEVE that not everyone should be dropped into that category of rude people who lash out due to their own insecurities. Sometime those people need more help than they let on.

Getting mad is what they expect. I think if we offer a hand instead of a fist, things could work out better...

I'm not here to tear you apart. I just want you to understand that not EVERYONE here is like that.
TEF should not be getting a bad rep just because a small percentage of people here.

May 25, 2014 - 9:48pm — Aquilo

I never really knew you,

I never really knew you, Faina, but I've seen your posts and you seem like a kind and friendly person. I'm so sorry your life is troubled, no young person deserves to go through all this (we're the same age, and I imagine it would be hard going through what you're going through right now...). I wish you the best of luck! ♥

As for the negativity affecting you more than it probably should, I've definitely been there. :c It got to the point where my IRL friends who played this game were a part of the negativity and it left me disgruntled for days, even if I knew it shouldn't. I suppose I was too emotionally invested in this community that dramatic things that happened to me on the forums or in-forest had long-lasting emotional effects on me, too. TEF wasn't quite the same for me after that, but I'll tell you - I came back with a fresh outlook and now I do my best to stick to those who really matter. I have made some really awesome friends from this community, and I appreciate it so, so much. I just do my best to focus on the good and remember that a few ~~outspoken, rude, pretentious,~~ bad apples don't ruin the whole bunch. (:

As for blunt - I have few words to say to you that haven't already been said. You are the vicious one here. Your post makes you part of the problem, makes you part of the reason this community can seem hostile and hurtful. Acting like this, cowering behind a fake account and spewing hurtful things to a girl who already has enough problems IRL, is really low. I just hope you are able to overcome whatever has damaged you or made your life miserable enough to make you turn to bullying others, and I truly hope you find peace through love and compassion.

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.”
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May 25, 2014 - 11:59pm — Narcissus

Faina, I'm so sad to see that

Faina, I'm so sad to see that you're leaving, but I understand what you mean. Becoming too obsessed with something can have very detrimental effects on one's life, and it would depress me so to see you that way. I will miss roleplaying with you a lot (I know there are lots of other characters around with whom I could also play, but you are still my favourite partner, and your writing style is near flawless), but at least I can still chat with you on deviantART. Please check your emails every now and then as well, okay?

Don't forget to always stay positive. You cannot control what happens to you or what other people think of you, but you can choose to never let it get you down; that is true happiness and peace.

**And with a kiss, I bid thee farewell, my deerest friend.

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