Guess I'll always start these with "it's been a while!"
2020 SUCKS. It's certainly made me re-think a few things about what's important to me and whatnot. Mostly given me confidence in reassuring me on what I do want, which is out of this country. It feels like 2020 isn't just going to be "one shit year" but an ongoing trend. And I need to start deciding where I want to be, and where I'll be most happy for the future. Or well, I've decided that, just need to get onto actually doing it.
And one important thing for me was, before I could immigrate to Sweden, was to get my mental state checked out. I've struggled with depression on-and-off for years, but since the end of last year I felt my spiral down wasn't coming up again. Then 2020 happened, I started getting panic attacks, yadayada, So I'm starting therapy. Got meds too which so far has been interesting. Very early into that though.
Figured if I want change, I have to change too. Going to take it one thing at a time. I lost a lot of weight last year, then gained it right back when the depression hit again, not being too hard on myself because obviously the whole corona situation is also just generally stressful y'know. And at least I know I can do it. Hopefully when my emotional state is back in balance, it'll be easier to maintain.
Anyway!! I mean this is my personal blog so I won't go apologise too much for personal stories. And I think this stuff needs to be talked about. I spoke to a lady, kind of a general talk about what's bothering me and them checking on what I'll need to recover, and she caught onto me dismissing myself a lot through the conversation. That was pretty rough to get thrown back at me. So y'know, if you're struggling, you're not making it up. And don't be so fkn mean to yourself.
I've been having a waay better time lately in-game than, say 2 years ago, or even 6 years ago when I panic-fled. And I wanted to say thanks for that!! I'm so happy my gremlins have been taken in so lovingly. Starting with Weasel was an eye-opener, and Harin has been doing great for a character I kinda threw in without any good reasoning to it. So thanks!! To everyone who's been interacting with us. And anyone who still wishes to but hasn't figured out exactly how, hit me up aaany time.
ok bye see you in 6 months likely
I am NOT paused, so if I don't immediatly react, I'm simply not at the PC in that second; feel free to scream. 
Your creativity had been
Glad seeing you around again, to see you and yours are doing fine, as well.
Lem's regards to Verve.
Ah! I really don't check much
Uitleger! Hahah hello! That's
From what I've learned via
But with that said you are cool in my book. Of the handfull I had issues with, you were the only one to remain totally mature about it and never personally attacked me. I still remain grateful of that to this day.
And yeah, who hasn't had their days of being a little shit? XD I've come a loooong way myself, even in the past year let alone 3. I would love to see ANY of your characters in the forest again. And I still have that skull you painted for me for Calida. I would love to see those come back this fall. ^_^
Hey Valeska! And yeah, that's
I wouldn't really remember! I have a hard time imagening being mature any time in the past, but perhaps I'm doing myself a disservice. But I'm glad for it either way!
Suppose everyone experiences this yes, I've learned a whooole lot in the past few years and I'm happier for it. I'm still a human though and there are lots of mistakes yet to make!
Oh really!! I was actually reading through that blog recently, I'd forgotten it was a thing?? But it was pretty brilliant for my doing ha, what a good excuse to interact with people on a very positive note. It was sooo much work though. I don't think anyone will want their skull painted by Altijd, since it's just going to involve rude signs and meme references, so I'll have to drop that hahah. We're going to take it easy, Al is extremely easy for interaction and not so high maintenance as Verve, who did all the painting and crafting and ho-boy she was a lottt of work.
Anyway, thanks for your comment! It's good to hear I didn't fuck up ENTIRELY in the past :")
Hahaha. I feel the same way.
I have a few characters that would be perfect friends for your guy. One in particular is a very casual character with no major plots. She has her roles to play in the background, might pop out to help in a plot for someone, but that's about it. It would be nice for her to have someone to actually sit with on occasion. Meng Po. Demoness. Deals with child souls. Inspired by same-name being in chinese mythology.
For the paintings, yeah I could see how that would have been overwhelming lol. We have had a few trinket sales characters pop up since then, so that has been an interesting addition.
Hi. It's nice to see you
I think a lot of us have gone through similar feelings with this place. I grew up here from a very young age, and oh how drastically things have changed (and in many multiple ways) since I first joined, lol.
Welcome back. <3
Valeska: Yes exactly, I
Yes exactly, I absolutely understand that as well. Everyone needs to be mindful of their own mental wellbeing and limits, if that means cutting people off then that's the best decision to make.
Oh awesome! We're definitly mostly floor-sitters, though Al really appreciates wandering sometimes too. He attracts a lot of attention with his pictogram so we're not uuusually just sitting 8") It's really funny. Al would likely relate to the whole soul thing, it's pretty much how I started out with him development wise. It's not really utilized a lot.
That's so cool to hear though!!! I doubt we were the first either, but we had such a good time doing it. It just took a lot of time, and now I work fulltime and I have a lot of commissions to take care of, I just can't really commit a lot of time to this place. But it's so nice to read back on, and I sometimes still spy little hints of things people got from her and still use. It's great.
Starling:
Hey!! Nice to see you too! You've been real loyal to this place haven't you? I'm still noticing a lot of old names I recognise, it's pretty cool.
Oh yes ha!! Like the forest changed too! Not the game, but the way it's interpretented and how the stories have evolved. WheN I Was BuT a NEWb, all we did was button mash!
Thanks! I'm taking it easy <3
Sort of, I suppose. I've
I do love the creativeness of this community so much. But I really do miss the days of buttonmashing and everyone partying together in the forest haha!
Ah really! For me you're one
That's fine! For me a character is an escape, but in the past I was way too dedicated really. All those big plots and storyboards and phew, moving away from that is really quite calming.
Absolutely, the creativity here is what keeps the place alive. It's extremely awesome just how much people get from this relatively small and simple game. Sometimes I miss that too, but then I don't think it's truely entirely gone either. I'm glad to bring a character back who just, ICly buttonmashes too. It's good to goof off.
Hey, are you possibly
Nope! I dabble exclusively in
Too bad but so cool at the
I added you on Discord, if that was ok. I'm not much for actual conversation but we can bat around ideas or whatever if anything strikes you.
Hey friend, great to see you
All the "oldies" are coming
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CydaLuva83: Aaah helloo!!
Aaah helloo!! Haha yes, body-up! That's a term that they should introduce. Thanks though, it's become a pretty big thing for me, I'm working on these dolls almost every day now. I realized my tumblr link up there's bogus so I'll fix that. But yes good to see you, add me on discord if you like <3
Vala:
You know how it is! We're all little boomerangs, eventually we'll come back to your familair face
Yes still in Belgium , and
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Heyo. Just sitting here for
I'm not at all familiar with Altijd, so when I clicked his link, giving him a literal-ish poke for a chat seemed like a bad idea. What with the eyes and all.
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Heya you!!
I'm sure he's perfectly nice.
Also skimmed your comments, but you don't really say how you've been. So. How have you been?
It is great to see you around again.
I've been.. Ok. All things considered. Low end of normal, if that makes sense?
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Ah I understand! I only came
I'm alright! Busy, mostly. Lots of things have changed yet lots stay the same. I should post some pics up here of my cat, she's so sweet.
And yes that makes sense, I am not unfamiliar with that feeling either! Hope you can get on a higher end soon.
Back schmack. We never really
I don't know why you left in the first place, and it's probably something I shouldn't dig up, if it was anything at all.
A small perk to having been lurking this community for 10 years is that my av is at little recognizable :'D
I don't think we ever really talked, did we? I know I felt very below you for a variety of reasons. It seems easier now. An age thing, maybe?
You absolutely should be posting pictures of your cat!!
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Ha you're right! Maybe
Nah no worries! Life changes, I just -HAD- to. I'd come to a standstill. After I'd left, I got a job pretty much the month after, and moved out half a year later. I'm in an emotionally better state now.
And yes! I was going to point out you hadn't changed it ha. I don't know if we've talked, my memory in general is very blurry but over the past 3 years I've really just forgotten a whole bunch. But you and I have been around for pretty much as-long, so it'd be weird if I didn't recognise your name.
Possibly!! I certainly don't mean to be uh intimidating, if that was the reason you felt that way. Glad to hear you don't feel that way anymore!!
Ugh I was going to add a pic to this but tumblr is having Issues, and I'm at work. LATER, promise. She's a good kitty.
Raisin heart. Mis. Wot. I
I understand some of the have-to's of life. Those are some big life alterations and I'm so glad that they've both worked out for you! (right? they're working out?)
I am a creature of habit, I admit. But I also don't really have a reason to change it. I'm no artist and even if I was, I don't have an active character to dote on and use as an avatar.
Being an amazing artist + being a part of the 'popular' crowd probably were huge reasons that I didn't interact. But also me being shy and insecure then were factors. So you did nothing wrong, to say the least! :'D
I feel that bad memory, too. Man, oh man. Not fun stuff, but can be pretty convenient when something not worth resurrecting happened~
Pictures! Pictures! Cute Pet Pictures <3
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so wait are you actually
I think you can figure out who I am despite the new account. Also it's in my signature lol
WonderfullySarcastic: What,
What, it's small and dried up. They're pretty much working out! Hey, it's not the dream job yet, but I earn enough for my argueably too expensive hobby and I have some Future Goals. So we'll count it as a win.
Eh's alright, whatever works works. Also it's the cutest kitty!!
Haha! I'll take it as a compliment, thank you :"D I feel refreshingly Newb at the moment, like I forgot my luggage at the airport. A little lonely, and a little fresh, and hopefully insurance pays for this cus oof.
Okok, I'll post pics up top some other time when I feel it's more appropriate, but heeeere's Marli
She's my little poop machine.
Amary:
Uh, I recognised you without all that too! I've always remembered you as Amary!! But yes I'm -actually- here! Not as active as I used to be. And most likely not with the same characters. But I'm workin on some things, would like more interaction with people so!! We'll see!!
But it's good to see you! How have you been?
your poop machine has the
KITTY! PRETTY KITTY! I
*coughs* Uh anyway, I mean I figured you would, but you never know. I haven't been very active here, either, though I've kept most of my old characters.
Tuo: She is suuuper
She is suuuper photogenic. Puts IG models to shame.
Amary:
She's soo cute, that photo absolutely does not show her personality. Which is "what anxiety would look like if it was a cat". We've come very far though :") Two anxious animals living together.
I saw! And yeah I don't blame you, I did mention my super faulty memory earlier hahaa. But I'd never forget Oisín! And it's nice how you don't always need to be super active either.
Your cats are super
My cat is really really small as well! She was the runt of the litter. She's 6 years old now and I swear it seems like she never left the kitten-phase with her growing haha.
Oh! So precious! I wish I
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really beautiful cat you
Those markings and eyes ; ; <3
Starling: Haha agreed! I take
Haha agreed! I take so many horrible shots too though <_> Pets are hard.
Ooohh!! Small cats are so cute though :"D Everyone who visits just immediatly comments on Marli's small stature. And her wee little paws. You should show me your kitty!!
Vera.Of.The.Horizon:
Aw! I hope they went to good homes though, but that has to be really though. I can't imagine having to give Marli away x_x When I move to Sweden she is coming along for sure.
That's a ball jointed doll, I paint them! That paticular one was a commission for a friend, I have some more pics here.
Hautakumpu:
Aw thank you!! I'll tell her that. As soon as she gets over her newfound fear of the food bowl. Life's tough :")
Well those ones are damn
Awww! Bless her. They are cute though, that's for sure. I dug up some photos but none show her size, sadly. The only one I have of her next to something is with my giant rabbit, but... that basically defeats the whole thing anyway. Of course she is going to look super tiny next to a giant rabbit. XD 1 2 3 4
Ohhh she is so gorgeous
That's a good idea tbh, let's
Mis wrote:Maybe we can get
someone browses Imgur
Oh my, sorry I'm so late !
PS : Marli is so cute. ♥
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Cyda: ROFL! I mean, it sure
ROFL! I mean, it sure is a reference, but don't ask me if I got it from tumblr, Weird Friends, my brother or another dark corner of the internet.
Solaya:
Aaaah thanks!! And it's nice to see you too! Marli is adorable I agree, she had a tiny kitty-bday yesterday. We don't know when she was born besides "somewhere in august" so I went for the middle ha.
New CSS Looks pretty cool!
Thanks Hautakumpu!! It's not
This new layout looks great,
Nice to see you again! I was
I was always impressed by your charters and creativity!
Art is looking amazing as always <3
Beautiful picture, as well
snow: Heyy! Nice to see you
Heyy! Nice to see you too, and thanks! I've heard we play siblings now huh! Hope they get to meet sometime :heart:
firedance:
Nice to see you as well :heart:! You're way too nice, thanks
Thais:
Hahah thank you, we're leaving end of the month, so got some time to prepare still. Boi do I need it. HAHA
We do indeed! I hope they run
Oh snap, this looks
Also "I'm keeping it." doesn't sound threatening at aaaaall :'D
I assume y'all are back now so update yo update! Unless, of course, that's day/month/year, in which case, I hope you two have a stupidly fabulous time in Athens!
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Not at all! Hahha yes, I
Hahha yes, I am an europeanz, it's day/month/year! We're leaving this friday, I am super excited and totally not anxious!! At all!! <_>
Those pictures are so dreamy
You were blessed by
Sounds like you both had a great time! I for one love abstract, out of context pictures :thumbs up: