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February 9, 2013 - 12:24am — Waning-Sun
The Gray

*** Connected at orange. Not really in the Rut event, just hanging with old friends.
Thinking» "That's not awkward at all...I'ma just sit here with Nem, K? K."
Feeling» Quiet. Overwhelmed.
Currently» Quiet. Hanging with Nem and those with Nem. So. Out. Of. Date.


Goes By»Zash; Zach
Real Name» Zachary Fredrick* Conner
Forest Name» The Falling Cherry
In Forest Since» July 6th, 2012
Species» TEF Deer
Height» #6
In Game Set» Gray/Long Pelt- GB Mask- Owl Antlers
Scent» Dust; Honey Locust; Sea Salt
Age» Mentally in his early twenties
References» Normal | Winter
Voice» Higher end of the masculine voice spectrum; has a country accent that makes him difficult to understand at points- prone to mumbling. Does not hide his accent like he once did.
Personality» Updating....
Biological Offspring» Arielle [lost], Apollo. [lost]
Adopted» Yara, Basil.
Status» Married since 2016.
Friends»* Nem; Thais. that's sad Zash you need more frands
Current Art»X * Thank you all for the past art and writings of my boy. ♥ I still have it and may put it up here again if I can figure a way it won't look too cluttered.
Inspirations» Fog; 1900-1920's America; WWI; 1900-1920's literature; fire; conflict.
Notes» This character is IC 90% of the time. Goes OOC for spell help. This revamp may be temporary if Zash proves to not take to it well.

Disclaimer» This character is just that- a character. His thoughts and values are his and his alone and do not represent his player. He, to his entirety, belongs to me. Coding was compiled by me, Kiwara.

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February 11, 2013 - 11:58pm — Waning-Sun
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Yeah, back on track: Whenever

Yeah, back on track: Whenever you feel like continuing Nettle. Zash and Oria need to get everything sorted out with Bear. Unless you want to wait for Akhen, then it'd be a party.

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February 14, 2013 - 10:41pm — Poppyflower
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Aww, poor Zash is feeling

Aww, poor Zash is feeling down? /tacklehugs

Perhaps we can start a separate rp with Zash and Oria while we wait for Bear?
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February 14, 2013 - 10:50pm — Waning-Sun
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Yeah he's rather depressed

Yeah he's rather depressed since he manages to ruin every relationship he makes in some way or another. Sure, another RP could work.
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February 15, 2013 - 12:33am — OrinocoFlow
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Can I start an rp too :3

Can I start an rp too :3
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February 15, 2013 - 12:38am — Waning-Sun
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Of course! No need to ask.

Of course! No need to ask.
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February 15, 2013 - 12:42am — OrinocoFlow
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Zash prepare to have a talkin

Zash prepare to have a talkin to ^^

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The brown buck had been looking all day. He could not find his mate and so turned to another he had not seen for some time. Zash. It took him all day but soon the familiar grey lump could be seen slumped against a tree. A pink thing curled up at his side. The buck stopped before him and gave a light snort. The girl didn't move other than a small twitch."Hey Zash"he said softly and nudged him with his hoof.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 15, 2013 - 12:55am — Waning-Sun
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Uh oh. Haha. It took Zash a

Uh oh. Haha.

It took Zash a moment to comprehend that someone had spoken, though it took him a moment longer for his tired mind to produce a name for the male. He just blinked, staring up at him with his head tilted, "God, you fawns grow to fast," he grumbled, "but I'm glad to see you're all right, Vesas." he added.
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February 15, 2013 - 1:12am — OrinocoFlow
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He smiled and lay down in

He smiled and lay down in front of him,"Well Keshy and I were trapped in the real world as deer for a time"he said relaxing. His eyes looked at the young doe then back to him."So Zash you seem like something is wrong, what's up?"he said tilting his head to one side.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 15, 2013 - 1:30am — Waning-Sun
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His gaze shifted as the other

His gaze shifted as the other settled down in front him. He tried not to move much in fear of disturbing Yara, but since she hadn't stirred at Vesas's arrival he figured he didn't have much to worry about. He was about to ask about the little black doe, but his mood shifted as Vesas continued.
"It's nothing you need to concern yourself with," he replied softly.
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February 15, 2013 - 3:14am — OrinocoFlow
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"Oh? come now Zash I'm no

"Oh? come now Zash I'm no fawn nor am I an idiot. You can confide in me with your troubles"he said softly.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 15, 2013 - 3:25am — Waning-Sun
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"I claim neither," he

"I claim neither," he muttered, his eye flashing, "but it's nothing you need to concern yourself with." he repeated stubbornly.
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February 15, 2013 - 3:29am — OrinocoFlow
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Vesas lacked the anger he had

Vesas lacked the anger he had before and sighed."You know its this attitude of yours that gets you in trouble. What ever your problem is I bet if you adjusted yourself it would improve it"he said with a smirk on his face.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 15, 2013 - 4:16am — Waning-Sun
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He snorted, "Yeah, that's

He snorted, "Yeah, that's what I need to do," he muttered in a low voice, rolling his eye. Of course there was some truth to his words, the male knew that but wasn't in the mood to give him the satisfaction. If he could change the way he was he would have been much better off. But he couldn't do that. It was practically impossible. His gaze went from the other male to the ground, shaking his head. "There is a lot of stuff I wish I could change, Vesas." he whispered sadly.
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February 15, 2013 - 4:24am — OrinocoFlow
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"Like what"he said softly,"I

"Like what"he said softly,"I am here for you Zash, you're like a father to me. I want to know that you trust me with your pains and worries as much as I trust you"he said staring into the other's eye to show he was sincere.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 16, 2013 - 7:23am — Waning-Sun
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Zash went silent for several

Zash went silent for several moments, his eye narrowing in thought. Except, for once in his life, he didn't know what to say. He didn't know how to explain it to Vesas at all. Or what to even talk about. Come out and say it? Would he even accept it, understand? No...probably not. "I..." he paused, only to shake his head, "it's...it's stupid and petty. I messed up, I lost one of the best friends I ever had. I lost most of the friends I've had here...one right after the other." It sounded so stupid now that he got out and said it, but it was true. He had lost every friend he ever had gotten close with. First Riley, then Alabaster, Akhenaton, Aria...Oria would probably be next, he figured.
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February 15, 2013 - 2:55pm — Emikomi
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Trackies

Trackies
February 16, 2013 - 2:10am — Waning-Sun
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Thank you for the track!

Thank you for the track! ♥
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February 16, 2013 - 8:42am — OrinocoFlow
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He sighed and moved forward

He sighed and moved forward nuzzling the older buck."Remember I know that feeling all too well Zash"he said looking at him with his deep Jade eyes. "How did you lose them and are you sure its not just a delusion in your mind. Did they tell you they don't like you?"he said with a tilt of his head.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 16, 2013 - 8:52am — Waning-Sun
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Delusion? Everyone thought he

Delusion? Everyone thought he was delusional. Even now. Why? He wasn't as bad as he had been...The stag took a breath, "Not in so many words...but you really don't need words. Not in my case. Actions hurt just the same."
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February 16, 2013 - 8:59am — OrinocoFlow
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"Do tell me what their

"Do tell me what their actions were?"he said shifting his body. He really doubted who ever it was he spoke of would throw him away like that.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 16, 2013 - 9:06am — Waning-Sun
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"Here....two disappeared and

"Here....two disappeared and one's distancing themself. Outside of the forest...before... he...he killed himself to get away from me. I think he succeeded. I can't seem to find him here."
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February 16, 2013 - 9:07am — OrinocoFlow
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"Who is distancing themselves

"Who is distancing themselves from you and why?"he said feeling frustrated at the older bucks short and not very revealing answers.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 16, 2013 - 9:18am — Waning-Sun
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"That one's my fault"-weren't

"That one's my fault"-weren't all of them his fault? Yeah, they kind of were-"I said something I shouldn't have said, but she wasn't supposed to overhear that...and I couldn't correct it when she did. She was...she was practically my best friend here. And I ruined that." He lowered his head, closing his eye so he didn't have to see Vesas' expression. It would have been easier to just turn his bad side to him, but he couldn't do that.
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February 16, 2013 - 9:34am — OrinocoFlow
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He sighed,"Aria right?" He

He sighed,"Aria right?" He said knowing of the doe but had never actually met her.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 16, 2013 - 9:40am — Waning-Sun
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"Yeah...that'd be her." He

"Yeah...that'd be her." He muttered, "I can't do anything to make it better with her. I already have to face her mate when he comes back. And he probably won't be okay with that. He never liked her being friends with me."


Actually, you did Vesas. In a picture. Haha.
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February 16, 2013 - 9:42am — OrinocoFlow
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LOOOOOOOOOOOL -- He

LOOOOOOOOOOOL

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He snorted,"I think you're jumping to conclusions"he said getting up . His eyes glanced down at the sleeping young doe. "Is she new?"he asked as he stretched his legs.For now he went off topic but had a plan of retrieving the snow white doe so she could set Zash straight.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 16, 2013 - 9:46am — Waning-Sun
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"In my mind my conclusions

"In my mind my conclusions are correct," he watched him stand warily. That couldn't be good. He blinked at the sudden question to Yara, but went along with it, "Yes, she is. So far all I got from her is that she had a past life that involved dying with a wagon of sorts."
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February 16, 2013 - 9:54am — OrinocoFlow
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"Hmm.."was all he said before

"Hmm.."was all he said before a smirk then he turned and bolted,"I'll be back"he said calling out to him then vanished.It was that yell that woke the young doe."Wha..what was that"she asked snuggling closer.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 16, 2013 - 9:57am — Waning-Sun
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The stag bit back a curse,

The stag bit back a curse, struggling to stand only to have himself fall back when Yara woke. He glowered after the male, "You two and the universe love to conspire against me, don't you?" He grumbled to no one in particular. "That was just an old friend. You are a heavy sleeper aren't you?"
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February 16, 2013 - 10:20am — OrinocoFlow
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She lowered her head and

She lowered her head and flattened her ears feeling like she did something wrong."Oh..."was the only words she said hoping that he wasn't mad at her. Silence surrounded them for a long moment and she looked back up,"Are you ok did I do something..."
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 17, 2013 - 7:52am — Waning-Sun
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Zash faltered, mentally

Zash faltered, mentally cursing himself for forgetting who he was talking to, "No, no you didn't do anything wrong, Yara," he replied gently. He even went so far as giving her a little kiss on her head, "You did nothing, Sweetpea, just go back to sleep."


Him and his nicknames. He's really my only character that's consistent with them.
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February 17, 2013 - 8:06am — OrinocoFlow
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its adorable XD and now for

its adorable XD

and now for drama

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Yara nodded and curled back into a tight ball. It didn't take long for her to fully pass out. Half an hour passed when a white doe came into view , Vesas not far behind. "Zash.."she said softly her eyes focused on him then would flutter away only to glance back every now and then.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 17, 2013 - 8:15am — Waning-Sun
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Lol, he feels like this is a

Lol, he feels like this is a one sided argument. He can't go anywhere because he doesn't want to move Yara. And we know he doesn't want to move Yara. Yes, Zash, we're conspiring against you. It brings us great joy to give you pain. Well me anyway. xD


Zash had his blind side turned toward them, but it was mostly out of habit to snuggle around the fawn. His bad ear flickered, but that was the only indication that he knew she was there. He did, but he didn't want to respond. His good eye slid open, staring at Yara's fluff shifting as she breathed, but it took him several moments to drag his neck around enough to stare at the doe. He simply waited for her to speak.
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February 17, 2013 - 8:17am — OrinocoFlow
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When he at first didn't

When he at first didn't respond she felt hurt but then his head moved. The look on his face hurt her even more than him ignoring her. "Zash I..I don't hate you at all...Vesas told me how you feel and...I cannot see how this is true you are still so special to me...I fear I ruined our friendship...I still want one if you...you even want me around...I can understand that my presence may hurt you and if you don't want to see me for a while I understand"she said lowering her head her ears pressing back.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 17, 2013 - 8:26am — Waning-Sun
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Instead of taking her words

Instead of taking her words on as a whole, only one sentence stuck out to smack him in the face. The rest he ignored for the moment, "If anything I ruined our friendship. You did nothing wrong, Aria. I was the one to step out of line." His voice was quiet, the fight pretty much gone. He was emotionally drained which translated to physical fatigue too.
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February 17, 2013 - 8:27am — OrinocoFlow
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"NO!" she yelled practically

"NO!" she yelled practically the first time in her life at the buck. "No Zash...you liked me..there is NOTHING wrong with that at all...the fact I can never make the right choice it seems has ruined nearly everything. I always come across as selfish...I am selfish.."she said lowering her head, her ears flat as she forced her tears back not wanting to cry before him.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 17, 2013 - 8:34am — Waning-Sun
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He winced at the sharpness of

He winced at the sharpness of her voice, his ears flattening to his skull as he tried to take a breath to cover the pain, "How are you selfish, Aria? Do you regret your choice?" He almost didn't want to ask that, knowing that if she said so, that would just destroy Akhen. And then what was he to do? He'd have to tell him if he came back at. Yeah...that wouldn't go so well.
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February 17, 2013 - 8:39am — OrinocoFlow
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"Its not that Zash....I want

"Its not that Zash....I want to have both of you...I ...want things to be right...all I ever say is I I I.....that is why I am selfish..."she said turning to hid her face as the tears began to form. "I hurt everyone...I hurt you I hurt bear I hurt Akhen at one point..I hurt my daughter....I hurt everyone that I touch"she said digging at the ground in a fit of frustrated anger. Vesas watched quietly from the back.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 17, 2013 - 8:49am — Waning-Sun
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"And they've all forgiven

"And they've all forgiven you." He replied quietly. He wasn't so certain about her daughter, so he added a, "Or will forgive you," for good measure.
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February 17, 2013 - 8:50am — OrinocoFlow
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She kept her head turned and

She kept her head turned and took a deep breath before looking back at him. "And you? Zash...I don't want to lose you...but...do you want me around...?"she said wanting to know if her being with him would be a problem at all. She did not want him to feel pain merely because she still wanted to be his friend.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 17, 2013 - 8:55am — Waning-Sun
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"Of course I do, Sweetheart,"

"Of course I do, Sweetheart," his voice was choked, hardly audible, "Of course I do. It hurts knowing I'm pushing you away, knowing if I could control myself more none of this would have been brought up. At least not in this lifetime. I will leave for your sake, you needn't concern yourself with leaving for mine."
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February 17, 2013 - 8:58am — OrinocoFlow
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She shook and shifted her

She shook and shifted her weight. "You sound hurt Zash"she spoke quietly then shook her head not knowing what else to say. It was then her eyes saw the sleeping fawn. "Oh...who is she?"she asked wondering if the change of topic would help.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 17, 2013 - 9:06am — Waning-Sun
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He didn't bother to respond

He didn't bother to respond to her first question. Sure he was hurt, but he was slowly getting over it. At the mention of the fawn, he shifted so she could get a better look at her. "Her name's Yara..." that was really the most he had gotten out of her besides how she died.
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February 17, 2013 - 9:13am — OrinocoFlow
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Yara...that name struck a

Yara...that name struck a cord in her as it had been a name she'd considered for one of her fawns. "What a lovely name"she said stepping forward to look at her. "I'm glad to see you have someone to focus on..I.."she stopped her sentence then gave him a nuzzle feeling like she couldn't bring any happiness to this conversation. "Im sorry"she whispered to him before turning to leave."Don't be a stranger ok"she said softly before walking off. Vesas then walked back up and tilted his head.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 17, 2013 - 9:20am — Waning-Sun
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"I'll still be watching out

"I'll still be watching out for you sweetheart," he whispered in the doe's wake, but offered Vesas a tired look when he approached.
"Thank you."
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February 17, 2013 - 9:23am — OrinocoFlow
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He smiled and nodded,"Of

He smiled and nodded,"Of course, I just didn't want you assuming something and causing your heart pain when the truth was much less painful"he said giving the buck a warm nuzzle. "I think I will return to my mate now"he said and smiled again,"I am here for you when you need me Zash...alright"he said hoping the other knew this.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 17, 2013 - 9:32am — Waning-Sun
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"Alright..." he replied

"Alright..." he replied tiredly, offering a weak smile in return, "take care...son." He curled up closer to the fawn after he spoke, listening for Vesas' response.
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February 17, 2013 - 9:40am — OrinocoFlow
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Vesas felt a warmth spread

Vesas felt a warmth spread through him at that word "I will....father"he said feeling that it was alright after Zash's words. He leaned forward again and nuzzled him warmly before turning and leaving. The buck feeling a surge of joy running through him at the simple word son.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
February 17, 2013 - 9:45am — Waning-Sun
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Thanks for the RP. He's glad

Thanks for the RP. He's glad he didn't go too far calling Vesas his son. We debated that one for a little bit before he agreed to say it.
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February 17, 2013 - 10:39am — OrinocoFlow
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:3 your welcome Vesas is

:3 your welcome Laughing out loud Vesas is very happy at that now
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis