E•M•D•E•A•U•R |
is; -non gender-specific: predominantly male, assumed either -a romantic -a terrible grudge-holder -hazel-eyed -hermapherodidic (functional male/female contents) -pansexual -finds males more physically attractive and females more mentally/emotionally interesting -adapts well to situations -can be vengeful -craves affection and touch -cannot handle stress well; runs off when overwhelmed -rarely dominant, but hardly over-submissive -antlers grow at a constant rate; they do not shed -antlers are light, do not hold up well in combat -slightly taller than a 'TEF deer' -short, fine fur, longer, straight hair over hackles and neck -viciously protective over anyone he considers 'friend' -easily jealous -a poet -more intelligent than he looks -claims twin intertwinned birch trees as 'his' -posessive over the top of the cage in the ruins -variable, playful, stoic, a watcher, calculating, kind -combat strategy is mostly will and movement over power -obsessive nuzzler -has no defined 'set' -sometimes a stalker -claims and makes 'pets' and 'posessions' out of others sometimes |
beliefs; -wordless apologies -simplistic beauty -the meaning of names -loyalty unto death -fighting for others, not self -twin gods -love: all powers of and the strength of those that have |
adores; -does, stags -colors -night-time, snow, fog, sunshine -family, friends, those he loves -orange -playful spars -watching, observing -snuggling -the world -the beauty of the unknown |
abhors; -unnecessary fights -company when not wanted -letting others down -helplessness -rain -large crowds -'sides' in a fight |
fears; -attacks -being lost -defenselessness -losing sight -forgetting -stand-offs -being rushed at -large crowds |
origin; |
i would follow you to battle and die for your cause; Evelys - biological daughter/adores Capulet - biological son/adores Basil - biological father/alike in blood, not mind Miarza - biological mother/honors/respects/loves/unsure Exit - sister/loves/raised her from fawnhood/extremely protective of Jorogumo - sister/respects/adores Ji - niece/loves/playmate Bénézet - nephew/adores/protective of/playmate Flail - sister/loves/protective of Demon - brother/loves/bit of a boycrush Aleumdaun Misang - sister/adores/protective of Jax - brother/loves/ Caden - nephew/protective of/loves Kasmir - niece/loves Hexane - nephew/loves Aamori - niece/loves Euriea - niece/loves Dajhi - loves/doesn't get to see often because of Lucian/good friend Gustiro - unquestioned love/indebted to/a posession of Misaki - adores/posession/his |
i cower in your presence, tremble at your words; Lucian - fears/hates/will run from Cadaver - unreasonably terrified of/avoids at all cost |
forgiveness doesn't always exist; Jade - dislikes/ignores Visil - hates/fears Leviathann - dislikes | there aren't always words for what i worry for; Daikon - unsure Illrose - unsure/dislikes Dinah Moon - unsure/likes Gehirn - acquaintance/likes Saosin - respects/likes Bae - unsure/likes/curious of Sianna - unsure |
...someone told me once that true love only happens twice. the first once is forever... the second is to fill the empty space. i will never find a second. i will never stop willing her home. because i love you more than i ever should. |
WHOO COMMENT ^100!!! And
And 101! xDDD
AND AND AND OMG PAGE 3.
CONGRATS! And awww. Well I'm
And awww. Well I'm beside myself that she's a girl. Vodun has no opinion either way, but I'm sure once he gets used to her he'll be pleased if she lets him give her poppies ♥
"Flowahs from Uncle
/brick'd
ROFLL. Knowing him, he'll
D'aww~ That's cute.
Beats some of the dream I've had before. All of my bad dreams involve elevators. >.>'' Elevators that just...go wrong. Although it's funny because in real life I don't have a problem with elevators or anything. <8D
/random
Oh wow, that's interesting...
I'm glad you commented back
BUT YEAH. Giant geckos sound like lots of fun, actually. As long as they're not trying to nom your face off, y'know? xDDD I can never run from stuff in dreams, though. It's like...legs don't work. Lol. And even though enemies seem like they're getting closer, they never actually reach me, which is good. xDD
Lol noooo! Haha~ Sometimes
Woaahh, that's really scary D: Being unable to run. How interesting. Have you ever looked up what that might mean? Like, dream meanings? I think some dream meaning stuff is full of it, but other stuff is really fascinating XD
I haven't looked up dream
Track =D
-don't know whether I track
>__<
Corell; Thankyouuu~
Shutzzzz; Haha it's fine~ Thanks~ <83
Wetterrrr~ Did you look up
Uhm..uhm...yes I did...-opens
Just let me uhm...remember...my findings...>.>
Edit; Taken from www(dot)dreammoods(dot)com:
"If the elevator is moving upward in an out of control fashion or it crashes through the roof, then it indicates that you are being catapulted to a position of power in which you do not yet know how to deal with. You are afraid of the new responsibilities ahead for you."
^Lol....I'm worried now. xDDD
Woah yeah, that's kinda
The elevators almost always
Tracking. Really like this
Ffffffff...coming from you
Thankyouuuuuuuu~~~~ >w<
Omggg that's really stressful
Elevators are traumatic, man :I I empathize.
What is Emdeur gonna do with
What is Emdeur gonna do with that Evania army? XD
Repopulate the
SmallVas.
You just wait.
XD
Low thunder rumbled through
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Really long post? Why yes, I guess it is. ♥
-retard face.- ...... -sneaks
......
-sneaks through.-
DINA, YOU... ♥ >w
♥ >w<
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LYDIA. I'M WORKING ON IT. I SWEAR. ;-;
YOU BETTER BE. Or I'll make
Or I'll make you watch that weird video again >:C
lol ♥
LOL I'VE SEEN THAT SO MANY
IT'S JUST FULL OF LOL.
For everyone else; •. >w<
NOOOO YOU'VE SCARRED THEM ALL
Howdareyou;-;
It will never leave my mind >.>'
.. OHLAWD I'VE SEEN
AAAAHHHH
GET IT AWAY GET IT AWAY AAUUUFFGGHNNNNAAAAUUGUUHHH
^LOL.
Tracks ^^ ♥
Uwharrie; Thankjoo~ Lydia;
Lydia; (OMG YOU'VE BOTHERED ME ABOUT THIS FOR SO LONG ASEBTFOEASUTBOUBF)
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Rain.
Lots of rain.
Emdeaur woke that morning by a single wet drop landing square on his muzzle, and he turned his face up to the sky and scowled at the clouds. As if to curse the stag himself, the skies retched their contents upon the earth, and all over the poor deer below.
The stag lowered his head as the rain covered him, flattening his ears down and scowling at the dirt, which was turning to mud before his eyes. He sighed, pulled himself to his hooves, and trudged across the forest to his trees, his territory. The only place he might feel a bit better.
Sinking into the damp, slimy ground, the stag exhaled deeply and closed his eyes. Horrible. Just horrible.
After a few moments, the wind picked up around him and the rain drove in sheets against the poor buck's hide. He gritted his teeth but didn't move. No. He was too strong for that, wasn't he?
A lone, green figure appeared on the horizon, and a warm burn ran through his spine. Evania...
As the other got closer, he stiffened, every muscle in his body tensed. He thought back to when he playfully ignored the doe for a while, then when she rejected him, when he wouldn't apologize.
...
Shaking the thoughts out of his head, he kept his eyes trained ahead of him as the doe tried to say something while he ignored her. What does she want?
She's...apologizing? For what? You're the bad one...
He flicked his ears, squinted against the wind. The closeness of the doe made his heart race, the smell of her was noticable even through the weather, everything about her caused so many memories to jump into the stag's head.
You're the one who should apologize, and you know that.
He turned his head to the side, met the doe's gaze. His brow furrowed upon seeing the infected cut on her nose. Oh, how he wished he could sit with her, make everything better, make her feel better.
A worried look glazed over his eyes.
"Don't apologize, Evania." He fought with the wind to be heard, but speaking directly into her ear seemed to work.
"I'm the one who should be sorry. And I am. I'm so sorry..."
He looks down at the ground, the small rivers carved into the dirt by the rainwater. He was sorry, he just hoped his words would do justice to how he actually felt.
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Even longer post? I think so~
YAAAYYYYY~! ~~~ The doe
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The doe waits. She was so anxious, too tired of this fight. She just wanted them to be able to spend time together again. She was in too much pain without him.
It seemed like ages that he sat there, unmoving, staring straight ahead into the rain. Her heart was beating so hard, and so fast she thought it may leap from her chest.
Then he glanced at her. Those warm eyes that so often brought comfort, now clouded with pain.
This is it then. He's not going to want me back. The doe closes her eyes, ears falling back, but she refuses to move away. Not until he tells her to.
Then he speaks. Tells her not to apologize. It's no use. The thought crushes her. Had she not needed to keep her face pressed against his to be able to hear him, she would have collapsed. She opened her mouth to speak. To tell him that she was wrong and that she will leave, but he beats her to it. He spoke the words right into her ear, and suddenly all the doe could feel was elation. A stab of relief that numbed her, but only for a moment.
"I hurt so much, Em... I wish I could be strong for you and keep the rain away, but I can't.
I'm so sorry. I love you. I'm so sorry..." She repeats those phrases, voice trailing away, giving in to the wind as she lays her head down in the mud, pressed close against his shoulder.
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This is crappy! Yaaaaay~
But seriously. :I Sorry this sucks.
Bai now~ ♥
Derp. deleted all of the
Oh. His speech color is
-put 'add new comment' instead of reply so you can edit it- xDD
I'll edit this with a reply...one of these days. >.>
AND THANK YOU. B'AWW. -is complimented- >w< ♥
Your company was comforting
Mmmm.
"It's always a pleasure to
You've been quiet recently. I haven't seen much of you. You have steered clear of trouble, I presume?"
~
♥
Accusing me of causing
is this your impression of me, Emdeaur?
Her tone was light and playful.
"Ah, not accusing you of
It's an easy thing to get into, trouble. Not the easiest to free yourself from."
Bump. But. Guys. Does this
But.
Guys. Does this look any better than it did? Did it look better before? -complicated fool-
Random track. ♥
Art by Anjali. ♥
8D ♥
I think it looks TRES SEXIER.
OH HAPPY DAY~ Thankyou
Thankyou Dinasaur~ >w<
belated track
Whatwhat I've not tracked
I've not tracked this? ... /track<3
Slowly, the crow approached
Tandem's pace slowed drastically as he got closer, scanning over the larger male carefully, not wanting to appproach too quickly. The distance was closed with a frown as his feathers ruffled again, looking up at Em with a pained, understanding expression.
"I'm sorry."
That was all he said, touching his beak to the stag's shoulder and giving him a brief nuzzle. He lifted his head again, seeking to make eye contact and deliver a silent message too before turning and moving away again. There was no reason for him to linger.
(Sorry, I know Tan approached Em in forest, but I think I was lagging some, so I figured I'd throw this at you too. I hope you don't mind. n.n;)
Art by Anjali. ♥
Brother.... a single tear
a single tear fell as the doe stood a distance from him. He was... empty.
There is a time... when..
There's a time when ...everything has its fall. Brother.... I... her voice was pained and jagged.
You have always been there for me and my family. You... if it weren't for you, id never be who I am today. I wouldn't have a mate, or had my son or daughters... and.. happy times and unfortunate times... they are all tightly woven together. Brother...
Misang wanted to reach out and hug him until everything was happy again. But.. she was afraid.
Afraid of..
Something that did not exist.
Sobs. Soft and hollow sobs. Each tear that fell, each tear that stained her face.. she wanted to hide them.
I believe in you......
Brother...
"Sorry, Em." She barely knew
She barely knew him, but a friend of Gusitro was a friend of hers, and this was a troubling time for all. Shyly but sympathetically, Ryff nuzzled his shoulder and moved off to find the others. She would return.
Bleh sorry for the useless post. ;;
^Both of you, I read your