January 3, 2010 - 2:09am — pickle96
Breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out. The eternal beat of one asleep.
The pattern is rarely interrupted, but sometimes in the dark oblivion of unconsciousness, I dream.
Many times, ghosts of the past will come just close enough for me to taste our bittersweet separation, the now and then bleed into each other. A cascade of faces and places that were and is. They come and go leaving me both elated and morose, they play with my emotions… I do not mind.
Tonight only blackness fills my rest.
A numb sort of relaxation is all that greets me when my eyes close, too often now this happens. I feel as though both the past and feature are slipping away from me!
Am I becoming just a fond memory in the minds of my friends? Do the fawns puzzle over the solitary figure that sits alone most every time they see her?
Companionship seems to elude me these days, yet I know that it is most likely a state of my own doing…
Ah the fawns, so many new faces fill the forest now. Their names are strange to me, though they prance about just as the others do.
How many are there now?
It saddens me that I know few of them, how precious and young they are. So fresh to the world.
I do not wish to be alone any longer…
It has been too long…
I will see you soon, my friends…
Well the holidays are over and as promised, I will be on tef much more. Saf misses her friends terribly and is quite eager to see you all again. :3
I was on Ritsu then I was
I just caught him leaving,