wow, it's been a really long time endless forest. I'm not sure how many people know me here anymore or how many even noticed I left. ^^; All I can say is that there are many of you I have missed a lot -more than you can guess- during my extended vacation and it would be so great to be able to talk to you guys again. If anyone's wondering where I went during my vacation or why I left the community in the first place, I'll just say that I am not the most socially active person in the world, and when I went I thought I could just leave everything behind. I was stupid to assume that. The friendships I made here were ones that I missed dearly, but even when I wanted so desperately to come back, I felt I couldn't or maybe even shouldn't.

While I was here I contributed very little to the community. My writing was okay at best and I felt my drawing talent was too amateur to offer anything of value to those who done so much for me. All I was doing was taking and taking with too little to give in return. I'm going to try harder this time though. This time, my writing has improved as well as my drawing ability (I hope). Perhaps this time I wont feel so much like a parasite. DX

So....with that over with I'd like to say that I cant wait to get involved once more in this beautiful community and I'm eager to hear about all the things I have missed! (any news is welcome!)
*help me out! D:*

New (or relatively new) members, if you want to just pop in and say hi and let me learn your name that would be awesome.
Old friends If you respond to this I cant wait to get back in touch! (neither can Safear)
And to the rest of the community, I hope my return isn't too awkward for you all. (apologies in advance ^^;)

Breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out. The eternal beat of one asleep.

The pattern is rarely interrupted, but sometimes in the dark oblivion of unconsciousness, I dream.

Many times, ghosts of the past will come just close enough for me to taste our bittersweet separation, the now and then bleed into each other. A cascade of faces and places that were and is. They come and go leaving me both elated and morose, they play with my emotions… I do not mind.

Tonight only blackness fills my rest.

A numb sort of relaxation is all that greets me when my eyes close, too often now this happens. I feel as though both the past and feature are slipping away from me!

Am I becoming just a fond memory in the minds of my friends? Do the fawns puzzle over the solitary figure that sits alone most every time they see her?

Companionship seems to elude me these days, yet I know that it is most likely a state of my own doing…

Ah the fawns, so many new faces fill the forest now. Their names are strange to me, though they prance about just as the others do.

How many are there now?

It saddens me that I know few of them, how precious and young they are. So fresh to the world.

I do not wish to be alone any longer…

It has been too long…

I will see you soon, my friends…


Well the holidays are over and as promised, I will be on tef much more. Saf misses her friends terribly and is quite eager to see you all again. :3

Some of you might have noticed that I have not been on very much as of late, I'd like to say that I am sorry for my absence and I apologize to friends who feel neglected. I just wanted to let those who care, know that I will most likely not be on as much as I usualy am through the month of december, most of you can relate to my postion right now, family to visit, stuff to buy, school work to do....and as much as I would like to, I can't seem to find enough time in the day to get on TEF....thank you to those who took the time to read this, I miss you guys all ready and will try and get on whenever I can!

(since the last one I made just kinda exploded I made a new one in case anyone wants to ask Safear some questions......you know you want to. X3)

Safear
http://endlessforest.org/community/safears-bio-and-updates

[center] The sun was warm and the gurgle of the nearby stream lulled in the balmy evening air. It had been this way for a while, ever since the fog.

Stretching my cramped muscles I rose intent on finding Garth. We hadn’t seen each other in quite a while and I longed for her companionship. Turning to leave I was frightened out of my wits by a sleeping form exactly where I had lain moments before.


I had not seen the new comer and at first I was fooled into thinking I had fallen asleep on this stranger. Looking closer I saw that they had fluffy honey and butter colored fur, the long sleek shapes of several feathers on their head made me think it was riptail, he did after all sleep most often under the willows that overlooked the glassy surface of the pond.

They appeared to be male, judging by the strong crest of their thicker neck and the ropy muscles beneath their fur. Cautiously creeping around their other side I was surprised to see not the grinning face of a skull but the sleek taper of a real deer’s muzzle.

For the first time I looked to his picto delicately floating above the crowning spires of his feathers. For a moment its shape was obscured by the long waving branches of the ancient willow we had fallen asleep by, then as the wind wisped them away I gasped.

The delicate curves that defined a deer’s very soul matched my own. Now very curious I stepped forward and gave him a sniff. His smell was sweet and sharp at the same time, like the scent of decaying pine needles, russet with rot.

It was cold, bitterly cold. Snow was heaped up in powdery piles, a thousand pinpoints of color glimmered on their smooth surfaces. the trees branches groaned with added the added weight of frost and ice. Many had formed huddles to shield themselves from the frosty winter air. He did not feel the cold, in fact he felt nothing at all, but he did stare intently at the small form before him. His long purple tongue slithered out of his beak like a summoned serpent and caught several snow flakes, the action would have seemed innocent or cute if done my anyone but him, in truth the only reason he had done the it at all was because a small fawn had playfully licked at the falling flakes moments ago. He had been watching the young one for some time and all of her actions her repeated, with a lethargic slowness that only comes from one that should be dead. She smiled, his twisted beak cracked into a horrible grin. She danced, his chipped hooves shuffled in the snow and tattered feathers droped from decaying skin. She had been playing with a companion, but with a bow and a smile the brightly colored stag disappeared. It was what he had been waiting for. She had her back to him still staring after her friend. Lurching forward he stumbled up to the fawn, his chest bumped into her back. Turning around she looked up at the looming figure before her. He could see a scream building up in her thin chest. Snapping his head forward he grabbed her face in his scisor-like jaws. He felt her small skull crunch under the pressure, so delicate, like an egg shell. He let go and watched her stagger around with gleeful amusement. Laughing he stumbled around in circles with her. “whee!” the sound was garbled and mangled coming out on his shredded throat. Stopping he walked forward and pinned her small frail body under his hooves. He almost gently licked away the grey of her brains that spattered the side of her pale face.

Morning broke over the prehistoric world. Nearby a forest of towering pines dominated the landscape. Chirps and clicks echoed through their towering trunks. The roars of larger, and possibly more lethal creatures also rang through the air. A single sentry stood atop a bluff surveying the land below. It was a raptor.
She felt a sense of pride as she sat on her lone vigil. Her leader trusted her to watch for danger and ensure the safety of the pack. A twig snapped behind her and she spun around to face the noise. She relaxed when she saw it was only the alpha Jossecor. “A beautiful day hmm, Safear?” he asked when he came to a stop beside her. “Yes, perhaps we can take the young ones out and show them the territory?” he considered this for a moment and then gave her a sharp smile, “ Maybe.” that was Jossecor, he never gave a straight answer.
They sat in companionable silence for a few moments before Safear noticed a large burning light in the distance. “what’s that light?” she murmured, curious. “that is the sun.” he replied with a sigh. No that light, she gestured with her muzzle. Now he too was gazing at the strange object. It was getting bigger. “its beautiful.” she thought as she stared in awe.

first of all im not exactly a newcomer, actualy I have been on here for over a month. i found the community site shortly after registering but due to my shyness/socialy challanged issues i have yet to introduce myself or my deer. I probrably would have remainded unknown but i fell in love with the community here. i'll make a small bio for my deer Safear later. im not a good artist nor am i fermiler with makeing computer art so im afraid ill only be posting screenshots, sorry. um, so thats all. ok by. XD