-read more if you don't get pissed off by self pity-

I'm feeling super depressed as of late.
I get random bouts of depression anyway, but I've also been dealing with a lot of stuff.

Also I have a bad habit of putting myself down when I'm already depressed, which makes it worse.

I have, for the past six days, literally cried myself to sleep.

I have been sick, and still working to help pack for moving, and dealing with my mother's whining about how horrible her life is to her skype friends, taking care of my seven year old sister, and a ton of other stuff.

I really hate to post this here, but I was hoping it would make me feel better, and I felt everyone needed to know why my deer may be acting odd.

I don't have any cheerful deer to send cuddling up to anyone, I really wish I did, and I already have too many charas as it is, and I can't get rid of the one I would like to because it would crush someone.

so Vilnius and Alaska may be especially pissy if someone they don't know don't respect their space.
And Vilnius will probably be very cuddly with those he knows.

in short, depressed, it keeps getting worse, then I keep analyzing everything I do, then getting pissed because I feel it's not good enough.

For anyone who has read this far, thank you.