This is so I don't forget, as after all these months it's starting to fade.

It all started when I fell asleep. It was a dream. A literal dream. It was after I had had a particularly rough night with depression and my mother's anger. I was standing in this forest, filled with tall, ancient pine trees. It was night time, and I was in a clearing, a clear meadow in the shape of a circle. At first there was a small pond, but when I looked up at the sky, it turned into cold, fresh grass when I looked back. The sky was pitch black, I remember that clearly, except for the trillions of small stars, twinkling. It looked like a painting, it was so beautiful. But I was most astonished to see, when I looked ahead, a giant figure, the size of a dragon is how I interpreted it, was just standing still. And it filled me with peace. A stag, a giant, starry, beautiful stag. Heilong. Except, he hadn't been named yet. He was just a deer. And yet, he was wonderful. He walked over, the giant, and curled around me. I found myself feeling, for the first time in a long time, protected. The giant was quiet and safe. And I woke up after falling asleep within the dream.
I knew he needed a name, so I couldn't forget him. I looked over, and there was this little black origami dragon, a symbol of a new friendship. "Black Dragon", perfect. Heilong.

So he brought me back into the forest, a place I knew wouldn't let me lose him. I made him a normal sized deer, so he would fit better.

But this is basically why he is so important to me. He represents love and security for me, but also friendship. I may delete this, I'm not sure. It feels personal.

But the dream has started to fade, I needed to write it to remember it. It's rich colours, the sound of grass rustling in the wind, the smell of cold air. And Heilong.