January 24th
So uhh I almost died last Saturday. Couldn't breathe, flatlined and everything I think. I think I literally came back frim the dead. The cancer got into my brain ventricles and wouldn't let any of the fluid drain so the pressure p much ballooned. Had to get a shunt put in, still recovering from that surgery. Needless to say I am no longer in school and I guess the fight's still on, I'm just on borrowed time rn
We'll see what happens now. This cancer really wants me dead, but I really don't want to let it take me yet. Don't wanna be morbid, but I just want to say that in case anything still happens, you guys are amazing and supportive and I love you all. I'm sure you'll hear from Tuo or my sister if anything were to happen at this point ♥
Hoping for the best, but
Fin, you're forever in my
thinking of you
Thank you so much for all of
I am hoping for so much good
Thinking of you a lot...
You are in my thoughts Fin
Give cancer hell, Fin.
You're in my thoughts, and I"m so glad I know you. I know we don't talk much anymore but you are on my mind so very much.
i'm glad Tuo is with you.
It's an immense comfort to me
Been coming back to this all
love you. so much thank you,
thank you, too
we're not saying good bye
i love you, jay. my life's been better for having you in it. you're a wonderful person and a true friend. i know you'll always have my back even when we're boxing and i'm grateful for that. im grateful for you. i always will be and i'd say all of this any day of the week, any time of year. rest up and take it easy, beasty. we'll see you in a little while
you and yours are in my
sending you strength ♥
All the strength in the world
You'll beat cancer, you can't
Thinking of you, you're so
I know I've kept to Discord
I don't know what to say, man. Ever since you updated I keep reminiscing your trip to my place, all the things we did, the time we spent with Labee and in the woods, walking the dogs. I'm so glad and thankful we got to do all that. You've become such a good friend for me, a wise and insightful person who always keeps calm, even when my temper gets the better of me. These memories we created I've held dear since and here's dear hope we get to create more, whatever they may be.
My family and I wish you the best, lots of strength. You're a fighter, I love you man.
i love you, jay.. ♥
We are all here with you..
We don't know each other, but
I mentally support you, keep fighting.
Bad pain day today for him.
I'm sorry guys. Jay passed
He was the most amazing person in this world, always smiling and making people's day. He was my sun, my moon and all of my stars and still is. I'm proud to have called him my partner. We had the whole future planned out and idk how I'll be able to continue alone.
I love you, Jay bby. We'll see each other again one day ♥
Rest in peace,
I'm so sorry for the loss, Tuo..
I'm very sure he was amazing person even tho I didn't knew him. Sending strength to you and his family ♥
He will stay in our hearts and in the Forest community.
Rest Easy Jay, thank you for
Tuo, you and Jay's family are in my thoughts and I'm sending as much strength as I can your way. If you ever need anything, please don't hesitate to reach out.
I’m so sorry Tuo and Poss.
Jay, I will miss you so much. I’m glad I knew you; and you will always be in my memories.
Thank you.
Rest easy now.
This is such a hard loss, I'm
I am so sorry... my heart
Thinking of you, Tuo and Poss, and the rest of Jay's family.
You fought long and hard, Jay... Rest easy, now...
Thank you both for being
i have no proper words to set
rest easy, Fin. you'll always live on in our hearts.
you are a light in the lives
You fought this for a long
You fought very well, fin.
Rest easy now Jay. I'm glad
Rest well ♥
Rest easy Jay.. in heaven.
Love you, Jay.. We'll keep
Tuo; I'm so sorry. I know I already reached out, but my heart is with you. Thank you for your strength and support, let us know when you need ours now.. ♥
This loss feels too great. My
Well done for fighting so hard Jay. Your spirit will be with us always.
Thank you Tuo and Poss for being with him until the end.
Wish we'd had more time to
Just glad people were there with you too and you're not going through so much horrible crap now.
Formerly ocean.
I'm so sorry... Sending all
Rest easy, Jay. You gave it one hell of a fight.
you went and stood me up, you
you were the first person i fell in love with; you know well enough i never stopped loving you, even if our love changed its shape over time. even when we drove each other nuts.
thank you for all the time we shared together. we had so many laughs and even our quiet days together were some of the best. gosh, we wrote so many stories together, jay.
thank you for everything you taught me, too. for teaching me that it's okay to be who i am and for teaching me how to be brave.
have fun out there, wherever you're off to. i'll miss you, but i look forward to hearing about your adventures whenever we meet up again.
just wanted to say thank you
Jay and I joined this community 11 years ago. some of you people are really fake, petty friends, k? Jay told me about you lot.
but some of you were really fucking awesome. he had a lot of long, crappy days due to his disabilities, and your enduring love and companionship made a huge difference.
he was a really sweet, bubbly goofball, guys. forgave people real fast. did a lot of giggling. sang and chattered to himself in the house a good bit too. had the most extensive library of movie quotes in that brain of his - 70% of our verbal exchanges were appropriately timed movie quotes.
I hope Jay's floating around in the stars with our other brother, feelin' manly, flexing their movie quote vocabularies.
I'll miss you, big brother. so much.
again, thank you guys for loving Jay with us. please help me love on his sweetie, Tuo. we love you, Tuo. thank you for being there for Jay, me, and my family. we are so grateful.
Poss just wanted to mention
edit 2:
http://endlessforest.org/community/Tuo
I will assume you meant this Tuo?
You're not hurting anymore,
I have no idea what to say.
I wouldn't have become who I am today without your kindness and friendliness. The first player I roleplayer with, the first characters my characters befriended. You helped shape who I've grown into. We never really talked a whole lot but I loved the times when we did. You were always sweet, so so sweet. I always loved you from afar, admired you and your characters and your dedication to this community.
Tuo - I love you, dearly. I'm sure you're hearing this a lot but I am here for you whenever or whatever you need. If you need $20 for food, or a beer, or groceries you let me know. You've always been so good and kind to me and your friendship in years prior will always mean the world to me. If there is anything I can do, even if it's just tossing in a character or sending you memes all day don't hesitate to ask.
Oh man, I'm so, so sorry...
I'm glad you were with him, Tuo.. Lots of strength to you, and Poss, and if you ever need anything, please reach out.
I keep sitting here at a loss
Tuo and Possessed, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll always be around if you need something.
this is heart wrenching my
my condolences
Jay you brave sweet
I'm heartbroken... You will always be my friend and I'll always love you as though you're family. Your leaving hurts so, so much, it's unbearable... I couldn't begin to comprehend what Tuo, Poss, and your family must be going through... My heart is with you guys.
This selfie you took during our time together is lovely... Jin and I are going to frame this, so where ever we live in the future, there will always be a little place for you in our heart and home, Jay.
Rest easy now... I'll miss you forever, and thank you with all my heart for being a part of our lives. You matter, so much, and our world is a much dimmer place without you in it.
I'm going to drop this here too. It's a blog post from my dad on the day trip we all went on that Jay inspired.
https://princevulpine.blogspot.com/2017/05/chasing-jane.html
You always had a brightening
I echo what others have said regarding being willing to help Jay's friends and family in whatever way possible. May they find peace during this incredibly sorrowful time.
Goodbye, Jay.