Nurra: *bounces around* Look at what Hubalaboo has drawn me in the Pictures place! Fwee!

Clickie!

*pounces on a flower*

My throat itches, but I feel it in my ear.

Ever had that happen? It drives me MAD. x.x

*blows nose* *clears throat* *coughs*

*wheezes*

x.x

Either I REALLY need my allergy medicine (which i ran out of a day ago), or I have a super bad cold.

*shivers*

Wheee...

*spins around in chair of doom*...*drinks alkaseltzer* XP

Delicately, strolled
The stag my eyes glaze upon

Sensitively told
The strings to pluck my heart's song

Sweetly tift his face clear
So to scare me, no, comfort me

Tiptoe through the floras
Lying down, my guardian angel

Always watching, waiting, hoping
That I'd be okay...

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He's been on my mind, on and off, through my daydreams...*smiles*...I know, I know...to crush is to be crush...the hopeless shouldn't hope...

But really...hope is all I have...and all I'll ever have...

<333

*looks towards the sky*...

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These are Anzel's thoughts, only humans and her know it. No deer can know, or she'll eat my head. That would be very unpleasant for the both of us.

Wheee...

*dazed by writing lame poetry*

*brain fizzles*

Stood the deer, whose call read Four
A Quadriped, the Quad, no more
With antlers blessed upon by God
Twin Michael of the two, the odd

Down his pelt and down his face
Bled belly white and blue to waist
And o'er eyes and face, 'twas mask
Of "Reindeer"...querious face, why ask?

Stood atop the granite tall
Orben figure seemed so small
Leapt, they did, from rock to soil,
"Orb, oh sphere, your plan, we'll foil!"

"Shhhaaa," screamed heavens, fraught with fear
The dove of cage-stone froze the deer
Then shock released, the orb, they followed
Past floras blue, and oaken, hollowed

At Crying Rock, the sphere transformed
As Michael stood, and stunned deer, swarmed
The God, a deer! He danced and played
And Quad, the Four, he never strayed

At last, the God ran off, away
To Godly lands, with Godly play
And Quad stood silent, rest the day
And trotted, smiling, into fray

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Four = Quad

Quadriped = Four-legged animal (i think, heh)

Of "Raindeer"...querious face, why ask? = The deer have never met humans, nor "Real Deer"...why would they think that a "Normal" deer face is normal? To them, it's strange. Their human face is what they think of as a deer face, and the Real Deer/Reindeer mask is what they think of as a Reindeer face, and they think Reindeer have weird faces ;P (strange logic, i know)

Cage-stone = Metal...it's the only metal in the forest, isn't it? Why wouldn't they simply think of it as another type of stone?

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I hope you like it...

Anzel's Current Theme Song: Strangers - Raj Ramayya

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As the world closes in before me
As the night draws with nectarine
As the grass kissed hoof, so lowly
I feel finally complete

And I know that the world is spinning
And I know that this moon's a lie
And I know that the smoke is thick'ning
I just know you are by my side

So take me away in your journeys
Kiss me with lullabies
Allow me to sit, remember
All the first steps and goodbyes

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Anzel is in the forest, in her first ever set...the blue/yellow pelt, with the hands mask and key antlers...

Until my mood fades, as they all do, I'm going to enjoy it...it's fading as I type, my smile is drooping, so I must get back...

Listen to that song I mentioned, there's no video with it, but it's beautiful nonetheless...

My mom...is probably drinking...

And...and she said she's leaving my dad...

I'm afraid she'll be..s..suicidal...

>_<;

...

Feel free to ignore this like everything else I post. I'm extremely used to it by this point.

I don't apologise for irritating you all, because I've said 'i'm sorry' enough, and I'm crying. I just...don't feel like it.

Because I never forced you to read anything I wrote >_<; I never force you to notice me in the forest, I just say that I'm in the forest, but you can ignore those. You can ignore my poems, my fan art, and ignore me.

But please...stop being indirectly mean to me...it...it hurts...If you hate my guts, scream it at me. Say whatever. Tell me how much you want me to shut the hell up, that no one cares. I'll deal with it, read every word. I'll cry and cry and cry, like I did quite a few days ago because of someone whose name I cannot mention, and like I did years ago at a forum I go to. Just...gah...

You'd likely be glad if I left the community, no? And the forums?...I don't want to...why d..do you all want me gone?

I'm...I'm not talking to people who I know understand me, like Emiva, Pega, and Dannii (there are more)...though I do apologise to them, if I get on their nerves sometimes. I never mean to. I have no friends in real life to talk to...

>_<;

Damnit...I'm scared about my mom...>_<;.....gah...

Hehe...how long has it been twilight?

*nuzzles the bats*...

Sweet sister, how I wish you could see it...it's beautiful! The chirping bats, the soft ribbits of the little froglets...

Ooh, and I see the rainbow you have spoken of upon the yonder shore!

*nibbles at some water grasses* My human told me that she feels no one can see me. That's good, because I'm still too shy to show myself...but I shall, in the next few days...

*looks up at the sky*...but I can understand why sister is so distraught...it does get lonely, for I cannot speak the language of dove, bat koi, or flutter...

I wish that so many of you didn't anger at her for being sad...

...*tilts her head towards the little deer, half-smiles, and lets her head fall loosely into the water, looking down, letting it splash into her eyes*

*dries her chin off on her pelt*...

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(if you end up seeing and identifying her in the forest somehow...please don't reveal her identity anywhere JUST yet...okay?

thanks, heh...)

Pattering upon my face
I feel the pain
I feel the every drop
It feels the same
I scream to it, "ACIDIC,"
Never listens
I try to drown for hours
Solely Christens

I bleed my silver blood
All down this wall
With shadows warped by heart
And kept so small
I wander slowly, loathe
My every step
I scream and cry and plead
With lowered head

But silver 'twas the luna
Kissed me softly
And giggle, did the "good"
Twin Gods often
They do not care of a
Single doe's low head
And cast her immortal
To breathe the lead

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I want to die. I want it so badly. I taste the salten tears of the beast, forever frozen and locked in time, to bleed his endless energy outwards.

For to rid the forest of the wretched beast, need they but forever let his powers flow and pool, cast and drain, swirl to never.

My Lady won't let me play anymore.

Not after my failed attempt. My IGNORED attempt to drown myself, after smashing my head into trees, into the gravestone, OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

I WANT TO FLOAT DOWN THE RIVER WITH A SMASHED SKULL AND A BREATHLESS SOUL...

Why...why can't you let a ghost free....why..d..do you hate me...male God...?

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My sister is...is really hurting right now. It breaks my heart to see her like this...not like any of you cared...you all seemed perfectly fine with her desires...

There's nothing I can do to change her mind right now...>_<;;;...

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Last night, I basically found out Michael's sick of me, and he said the problem is on my end, not the server.

*sighs*...can't he believe there's SOMETHING off about the server? Just something? Maybe little, but combined with whatever problem my computer has, it means I can't play?

I've given up hope...what's the freaking point anymore...>_<;;;...

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THIS IS WHY I GIVE UP HOPE:

I'm...well, my mood is completely my own at the moment...I'm feeling a bit let down right now...

I can see a few familiar deer...Radeon was standing by a sleeping deer with Scape's set, heh...*sighs*...

Since it appears I'm being followed...I hope I'm not boring you all...

I'm feeling sad...let down...hopeless...

I want to nibble on a birdberry...to run into a tree...to choke to death in the cage bars there...why, WHY must I be me...?

I'm pondering suicide...I...I don't...want to roam the forest much more...

Can a ghost kill itself...?

I..I don't know yet...

I'm feeling like everyone is ignoring me, I'm irritating everyone, and they just want me to go away...I know a few people want me gone...*sighs*...I hate my life..