August 11, 2008 - 6:18pm — Anzel
Pattering upon my face
I feel the pain
I feel the every drop
It feels the same
I scream to it, "ACIDIC,"
Never listens
I try to drown for hours
Solely Christens
I bleed my silver blood
All down this wall
With shadows warped by heart
And kept so small
I wander slowly, loathe
My every step
I scream and cry and plead
With lowered head
But silver 'twas the luna
Kissed me softly
And giggle, did the "good"
Twin Gods often
They do not care of a
Single doe's low head
And cast her immortal
To breathe the lead
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I want to die. I want it so badly. I taste the salten tears of the beast, forever frozen and locked in time, to bleed his endless energy outwards.
For to rid the forest of the wretched beast, need they but forever let his powers flow and pool, cast and drain, swirl to never.
My Lady won't let me play anymore.
Not after my failed attempt. My IGNORED attempt to drown myself, after smashing my head into trees, into the gravestone, OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
I WANT TO FLOAT DOWN THE RIVER WITH A SMASHED SKULL AND A BREATHLESS SOUL...
Why...why can't you let a ghost free....why..d..do you hate me...male God...?
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My sister is...is really hurting right now. It breaks my heart to see her like this...not like any of you cared...you all seemed perfectly fine with her desires...
There's nothing I can do to change her mind right now...>_<;;;...
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Last night, I basically found out Michael's sick of me, and he said the problem is on my end, not the server.
*sighs*...can't he believe there's SOMETHING off about the server? Just something? Maybe little, but combined with whatever problem my computer has, it means I can't play?
I've given up hope...what's the freaking point anymore...>_<;;;...
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THIS IS WHY I GIVE UP HOPE:
My message to Michael: Is there any way for me to contact the server hosts to see if they might have a better idea of what the problem is?
Michael's Reply: If you mean, the people who host our game server, no. If we can figure out what causes the problem then we can discuss it with them. But for now there is no reason to assume that the problem is with their servers. Since the game runs flawlessly on most machines, it is more likely that the problem is localized on your end.
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*sighs* Did he see Scape's poll...? Even if the problem is partially my computer, why does almost EVERYONE benefit from using the back-up server? Many people seemed to have a big improvement.
;_; -hugs- ~~~ A L T P
-hugs-
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A L T P
Forest FAQ
First of all, beautifully
Second, I believe there's something off about the server. I mean, it had problems before and sometimes it's impossible for everyone to get in to the forest...
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
...;_; Meep....*sighs* I
Edit: I agree with Fenqua. Sometimes I cant get into the forest because there are alot of people on, but with the new server everything was perfect....And right now I have a picto clone T.T And sometimes I dont load peoples pictos...But the new server fixed that, and Michael wont...*sigh*...
*looks tearfully at Anzel* There is still hope for you, Anzel *nuzzles* This...server thing...goes down every once in a while...So..*sigh* *nuzzles again* ;-; Please don't try to end your life...I understand that it must be torture for you, but...
-- Dannii <3
I would honestly pay all of
(i editted my post :/)
I spent an hour trying to drown myself.
The Humans of the deer knew it.
Did any say, "Don't, Anzel..."? Nope. Not a single one.
*cringes*...
I am so sorry. You put so
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EMIVA'S BIOGRAPHY
Thanks to Anzel for her wonderful picture that I have turned into an icon for this sad, sad time.
I definately can't do it by
As well as other people...*hides*...
I think alot of people are sick of me...*closes her eyes*...I've lost so many friends...gah...
People are not sick of you.
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EMIVA'S BIOGRAPHY
Thanks to Anzel for her wonderful picture that I have turned into an icon for this sad, sad time.
Meh...lots of people are
*Wonders if Anzel looked at
I hate to say it, but I'm sure Michael has a good reason for not trying. It most likely has to do with money... and time. M&A are working on another game at the moment, and they have events to go to that might lead to more funding for TEF and ToT. I bet he's under a lot of stress right now, and it's probably easier for him to stick with the servers that are being paid for... :(
I'd pay for the back-up
And I looked, but...meh. *sighs*...
Lol, I wouldn't quite call
*confused* :/
There definalty is something
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Isis' Bio
Snowrift's Updates
Well, fps is affected mainly
But if any of you want to help me out...could you vote in the poll Scape made in the Design Issues and Ideas part of the forums?
I've done all I can, if I do anything more, he'll smush me x.o
This is for Anzel. Its my
I know I cant draw as well as you can, but its the thought that counts right? ^^
Smaller version:
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EMIVA'S BIOGRAPHY
I have my computer priveleges back! But I still dont have my computer, so I am using my parents!
Thank you, Emiva ^^;...yeah,
Meep...it's nice to know I still have a few friends here...
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EMIVA'S BIOGRAPHY
I have my computer priveleges back! But I still dont have my computer, so I am using my parents!
:< God...Everythings all
Anzel, I'll always be your friend, 'kay? <3
-- Dannii <3
Well, just because TEF is
Oh and in regards to my last comment, Halogen and Selig (Pepokeen) ran over to Anzel when she was in the Crying Idol, so she wasn't being ignored... I know she couldn't tell we were there (and I don't have any screenshots), but we were there and we were worried. We stayed by her until she disappeared. D:
Yeah, but I'd be willing to
And you were worried?...
(no one yet has said they were worried...meh...)
Whee...I'm having a wonderful day...my mom is probably drinking...said she was leaving my dad...gah...
I was worried. And I do
And you also have to understand how things are on Michael's end. The backup server is one they use when they need to, with permission, as a favor, so they can't use it often. =/ I wish they could, but because of that, I get why they can't. >_<
I'd gladly let you leech off my internet if I could. It doesn't seem to have a bandwidth limit. D= *pokes Optimum "Are you guys are over there?"*
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The Dragonfly Deer's Biography
Bio of the Ruins Duo
I just query as to why there