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August 12, 2008 - 12:53am — Anzel

My mom...is probably drinking...

And...and she said she's leaving my dad...

I'm afraid she'll be..s..suicidal...

>_<;

...

Feel free to ignore this like everything else I post. I'm extremely used to it by this point.

I don't apologise for irritating you all, because I've said 'i'm sorry' enough, and I'm crying. I just...don't feel like it.

Because I never forced you to read anything I wrote >_<; I never force you to notice me in the forest, I just say that I'm in the forest, but you can ignore those. You can ignore my poems, my fan art, and ignore me.

But please...stop being indirectly mean to me...it...it hurts...If you hate my guts, scream it at me. Say whatever. Tell me how much you want me to shut the hell up, that no one cares. I'll deal with it, read every word. I'll cry and cry and cry, like I did quite a few days ago because of someone whose name I cannot mention, and like I did years ago at a forum I go to. Just...gah...

You'd likely be glad if I left the community, no? And the forums?...I don't want to...why d..do you all want me gone?

I'm...I'm not talking to people who I know understand me, like Emiva, Pega, and Dannii (there are more)...though I do apologise to them, if I get on their nerves sometimes. I never mean to. I have no friends in real life to talk to...

>_<;

Damnit...I'm scared about my mom...>_<;.....gah...

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August 12, 2008 - 12:55am — Emiva

Oh Anzel! *runs over and

Oh Anzel! *runs over and hugs tightly*

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EMIVA'S BIOGRAPHY

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August 12, 2008 - 12:59am — Anzel

hugs back sadly...I'm

*hugs back sadly*...I'm sorry if I've been rude to you in the past, Emiva...I hope you forgive me...

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August 12, 2008 - 1:01am — SarieBearie

Anzel... I'm so frikking

Anzel...

I'm so frikking sorry if I've hurt you in the past. I try to be so happy and I end up bringing everyone down and being an annoying, useless idiot. ;__; -hugs- I'm not good with these things... I'm not... I'm so sorry...

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The Gentleman
The Rebel
The Immortal

August 12, 2008 - 1:07am — Emiva

Yeah, It did hit me pretty

Yeah, It did hit me pretty hard. I spent nights awake in bed thinking to myself "what did I do?" I take things, erm, seriously and really let them get to me. Even on a forum where I dont even know the people.

Anzel, I forgive you.

It... it will be okay... You will get through this, it will all be okay *hugs*

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Oh yeah, and I know that feeling in your stomach... where you feel so sick, but not physically, mentally. And you hate waiting and...

EMIVA'S BIOGRAPHY

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August 12, 2008 - 1:07am — Rutilus

Oh God, Anzel! ;_; I wish

Oh God, Anzel! ;_; I wish there was something I could do to help, really, I do! Please try and ignore the creeps that are being mean <3 I know it hurts, and I understand completely how you feel about your mum...Oh, I hope everything turns out allright...;__; I've been through similar experiences in life; I know how you feel, though maybe not -precisely- since you are of course a different person..*sigh* I wish everyone would just...see...*hugs tightly*

-- Dannii <3

August 12, 2008 - 1:07am — Fledermaus

Anzel, I know for a fact

Anzel, I know for a fact that everyone here cares about you and your family's wellbeing. I don't think that anybody is deliberately ignoring you, a most of your diaries are responded to with people who are showing they really want to console you in whatever situation you may be in. I really hope you aren't upset at us, because from what I can see, a lot of people do try to sympathize with you and offer their help.
I certainly wish the best for your family, and I would be glad to hear when things work out. Perhaps, if you think things are getting too out of hand, you can ask a school counselor, or a helpline for better advice than I could offer.

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August 12, 2008 - 1:18am — Anzel

SarieBearie - No, Sarie, you

SarieBearie - No, Sarie, you didn't do anything wrong...*nuzzles*...

Dannii - Thanks...*hugs back*...

Fledermaus - Just realized your name sounds a bit like 'Field Mouse'...heh...

Ehh...I just...I feel really ignored right now...my boyfriend suddenly disappeared for hours on MSN...and...gah...

If I were at school, which won't start until September...I'd sing my heart out, that's what would cheer me up...singing, writing poetry, sketching, ranting, those are the things I need to do to cheer up...some people have cutting, some people scream at one person or another when they're mad, some commit suicide, I just...I just need people to talk to...

Emiva - Thank you...*nuzzles*...I still feel bad, it's just...I felt so awkward >_<; I know how you feel right now, though, I have multiple people that feel the same way about me, except they're more blunt about it, and they dislike me much more, and I feel bad that I was such an annoyance to them...I still feel bad...I start sobbing again every time I think about it x.x I feel pathetic...

Just because you don't know people, doesn't mean that their words, their thoughts about you, aren't as sharp and as everywhere as the knives people speak at you in real life :/...

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*tries not to sob anymore* x.x...gah...*takes a deep breath*

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August 12, 2008 - 1:31am — Rutilus

;-; I feel ignored alot,

;-; I feel ignored alot, too...I'm a bit of a "loner" and stuff, so yeah. The only time I'm happy is when I'm online, talking to you guys <3 We're always here for you to talk to, about anything and everything, even if you feel like we'd turn against you for it. Crying is NOT pathetic, I assure you. Especially when things are like this and you feel like your world's ending and there's nothing you can do....Just try to hope, Anzel. I hope that everything works out for you, and your family...I can imagine the pain you're feeling right now...We're all here for you, Anzel. All of us.

-- Dannii <3

Edit: ...You may have noticed I suck at big comforting speeches...^^;

August 12, 2008 - 1:35am — Kanaf

sigh Anzel... i dont think

*sigh* Anzel... i dont think anyone wants you to leave. i certainly dont. and i dont think i can say anything without using others words. everyone else pretty much said everything i wanted to say.

all i can say is, life is tough. and adding internet bullies only makes it worse. but whenever shit like this happens, something good will happen later. anyway... i think im the one who should apologize. i dont ignore any of your posts, i just dont comment. and i hate doing that, since that will obviously make you think im ignoring them. i dont want you to think im ignoring you >_<

and i must apologize if ive been mean to you. i cant honestly recall when ive ever commented on that subject, but if i ever did, im truly sorry... i try my best to keep my horrible side away from everyone i know, but somehow it slips every once and a while. im really sorry if that happened on your account...
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The Butterfly
The Bird
The Watcher

August 12, 2008 - 1:42am — Anzel

Dannii - x3 Same here,

Dannii - x3 Same here, heh...well, at least I'm not crying anymore. But I likely will if any of the two or three people I've irritated (or more) decide to yell at me...meh...*sighs*...I'd deserve it, I guess...

Skokey - Nah...you didn't do anything at all, don't worry...but unfortunately...there are a few people I'm certain want me to leave :/...

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August 12, 2008 - 2:10am — Pegasicorn

=( I'm not very good with

=( I'm not very good with words, especially words of comfort, so if I don't comment on everything, it's because I don't know what to say. But do know that I read everything that gets posted on here. *hugs*

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The Dragonfly Deer's Biography
Bio of the Ruins Duo

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August 12, 2008 - 2:11am — Fledermaus

In order to restore your

In order to restore your happytime feelings, I shall now commence with the lol pictures:

Shall I continue?

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August 12, 2008 - 2:14am — Anzel

Pega - It's fine...I

Pega - It's fine...I understand everything now, but at that time, I felt ignored x.o

The comic scares me.

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August 12, 2008 - 2:16am — Fledermaus

XD I can't think of a good

XD I can't think of a good explanation why they look like...that.

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August 12, 2008 - 2:16am — SarieBearie

HAPPY CHAIR. C8 - - - The

HAPPY CHAIR.

C8

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The Gentleman
The Rebel
The Immortal

August 12, 2008 - 2:27am — Anzel

Happy for someone x3

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August 12, 2008 - 3:42am — Emiva

I can totaly imagine

I can totaly imagine serious businessmen going and sitting down in those chairs, discussing economy and wellfare. XD

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EMIVA'S BIOGRAPHY

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August 12, 2008 - 3:46am — Anzel

Then the chair eats

Then the chair eats them.

YES! YES!!! FINALLY!!! YOU USED ONE OF MY LINES!!! THANK YOU!!!

*sweatdrop at vein* Then the chair eats Vein's tiny little 'pyre head.

0_x;

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August 12, 2008 - 4:05am — Fledermaus

Hungry chair is hungry!

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August 12, 2008 - 10:36pm — Pepper Mint

That would make Happychair

That would make Happychair Omnomnomchair. :B

I may not know you very well Anzel but if I ever gave you the impression that you were irritating me, I doubt it was intentional. A lot of things irritate me and sometimes my mood isn't due to the people I'm talking to. :B I wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide to do, muffin. <3 I'll be rooting for you. (:

The Drag Stag. The Pirate. The Demon Barber.