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I'm officially taking an indefinite hiatus from TEF. I don't feel like getting into the specifics here, but there's too much triggering content on tefc for me, and no, I'm not using "triggering" flippantly as a mental health professional diagnosed me with C-PTSD. I have a therapist and psychiatrist who I meet with regularly and I am on medication, so don't worry about me. I'm actively working on healing, but an incredibly scary event in February has set my progress back.
Right now it's difficult for me to feel comfortable logging onto Discord at the moment--in fact, I uninstalled it for the time being--but if you want to discuss character stuff or want to know more about what's going on with me, feel free to hit me up using whatever resources you have at your disposal (ie the contact info below). Don't be insulted though if it takes me a bit to get back to you.
If you want to learn more about C-PTSD, I found the video below insightful.
All of you.. thank you so very much. I loves you all <3
I'm making excellent progress with finals, so I might come back a bit earlier than planned before my friends steal me away. We'll just have to see! ;o
Unfortunately I haven't heard from Teresa, so I don't know how they're all doing. I'm not going to bug her or her family about it though; they know that if they need to talk and play with our doggies, we're just one street over.
WOOOOO YAAS BAE CONGRATS ON THE JOB
Love you, and hope you don't become too stressed and busy, not to mention sick ;; ♥
sending my love and best wishes as always
@Ama
Thank you!
Also I cannot believe you tracked every single of my deer. I'm, like, going to bake you cookies or something for your efforts..
@Bae & arty
Thank you both! It's enjoyable work so far. Next week when I get my mouse and a cable to connect my itty bitty Chromebook to a larger monitor, I'm going to be in business B)
Today was apparently the busiest day in the history of the company, so I stayed over an hour later to help out with the extra work we got.
I've only had one night terror/sleep paralysis episode, but I found that soaking in warm/hot water afterwards for a bit can help you calm down and (in my case at least) get back to sleep better. Don't even need to be sitting in a bathtub, letting the shower head run can help just as much.
I tend to develop episodes of unhealthy high oneiric activity, usually accompanied by a series of other sleep syndromes. they're not extremely harmfull, but they do drain a lot of energy and makes me tired during daytime.
specificaly regarding sleep paralysis, while suffering the episode, I've found out that's more useful to try to "get back to sleep" than to wake up. if I try to wake up while on paralysis, I feel my body unable to move and eventually I got anxious and desperate and all that jazz. instead, while on the "dream", if I close my eyes and try to fall asleep again, I usually wake up without issues. idk if I'm explaining myself, it's a very abstract subject and I'm a bit tired haha
@Maria
Thank you for that advice! It definitely sounds very draining for you to have to go through that, but it's excellent that you've found a way to cope with it. Sorry for the late reply!
@Lacie
I don't know, the last time I had tonsillitis I was sick for ~2 months and they didn't want to remove them then. It's either because they want me to get tonsillitis a certain amount of times first, or I also read that if it obstructs certain parts of the throat (I read it was the larynx but that seems.. ugh.. I shudder at the thought) they will remove them. My big appointment is in a week but I'm going into a little clinic today just to be safe.
That's...weird. When I was diagnosed with Diabetes (I was 4 years old at the time) they removed my tonsils while I was at the hospital. Though I'm not sure if there was an issue that required removing them or not, I'd have to ask my mum or dad that. Still, I don't see them being important enough to keep them in, especially if you're constantly getting sick with them in there. :/
@Lacie
Team Valor! I didn't know about double teaming with other team members when battling gyms, so I was bummed because my boyfriend is Mystic, just like 80% of trainers in the Seattle area *sigh
What abou'chu?
I haven't joined a team yet, all the gyms are downtown. And I'm kind of scared of going down there lol.
If I do get the chance to join a team though, I'll most likely join Instinct. It's more casual than the other two. And I've heard that Instinct has control of the White House (8 The friends that I've talked to so far are Mystic players too.
Hey fish :< I see your going thru a hard time and I know we don't really talk =/ But I am gonna make you something so it will cheer you up a bit...I hope. From what I read That you really are trying with everything at the moment, please don't give up because your really inspiring to other people in this community. I don't have any lazy town pictures at the moment as I am on my phone but I will get some when I get back home =)I just really want to support people with things. Please keep up with what your doing! you are doing so well fishy
Plus also the fact that you have survived abuse from..god knows what * I won't go into because I really don't want to set of any emotional alarms off for you.* But I will admit to you as well *with out going into any detail* that I also have survived abuse from close people which has left with scars and mental health problems, I know to you I may just seem like a new player or just a random person on this community but I really do wanna support you or at least give you a little smile now and then if that would even be possible. I have in the past tried to support other blogs like this even though I don't comment I still read with crying eyes and a smile just knowing that people get over their troubles.
I just really hope that for you in the future fish that things will go well or just a bit more smoothly for you, I mean I don't really know you but just the fact you got a job and your working so hard so impress them really does give me a little smile because I know your full of fighting spirit. With your money problems I really do hope that better times will come for you.
@Ook
At first blush with the LazyTown memes, one can't help but incredulous. And then you realize what country you're living in, what year it is, how uncertain the future will be for at least the next 4 years, and it's like "why shouldn't I enjoy this?" and then a few days later you can't stop humming We Are Number One and you have an intense craving for fricken sportscandy all the time.
@Wildrose
You're some kind of magician, aren't you? I use humor a lot to cope with negative feelings and I tend to use it to brush away my problems, but it seems like you saw right through that.
I'm usually able to talk about the abuse I experienced, but I try not to talk about it too much outside of the initial post I made years ago when I felt the need to explain it to people (feel free to dig into my post history! I honestly don't mind) because I don't want to make anybody uncomfortable. If I engage in media that contains similar content, though, it can be a total crapshoot. For example, the game Among the Sleep troubled me a lot more than reading A Child Called It, although the book contained more scenarios than the game.
You're a very sweet and compassionate individual and I always look forward to seeing you around here. Could I add you as a contact to my Skype or Discord account? I'd love to be able to chat with you more, if possible!
I wouldn't say I am a magician fish but I would say I have been through a lot through 19 years of my life to know when someone is trying to be understood by using humor to cope with everyday life ( Trust me I know haha, always used look up twitch fails or game play derps.) I don't think I saw right through but had a very strong supportive feeling come through when I read your post...I would say I have a strong understanding of your troubles as it all sounds very similar to mine.
I don't really want to talk about this anymore on this forum as it is a public place xD as we all know but I would gladly offer my Skype to you ( Sacredholly. ) if you ever feel like talking about things fishy or just in general to hang out =) but before we do start chatting if you add me I would like to tell you something if you don't mind ^^
@Wildrose
Either way, you're very insightful and I admire that. I'll try to add you when I get home today, but I may not be able to chat until later this week. And I don't mind anything you have to tell me! No worries.
It's genuinely enjoyable and polished, plus the actors are all impressive. I could go on but I'll spare the community and limit my fangirling to tumblr lmao
Good to see you trucking along, too! FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT, OOKER!
hang in there. ♥
Take care, Fish, see you when
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All of you.. thank you so
I'm making excellent progress with finals, so I might come back a bit earlier than planned before my friends steal me away. We'll just have to see! ;o
Unfortunately I haven't heard from Teresa, so I don't know how they're all doing. I'm not going to bug her or her family about it though; they know that if they need to talk and play with our doggies, we're just one street over.
Bumping this piece of history
I wanted to delete it because college-era Fish was super cringey, but I don't want to forget the kind words of my friends that are recorded here.
Quote:being meguca is
same tbh ;__;
Hope things pick up for you.
Thanks, Lacie ,__, I hope
I hope things are going well for you!!
tracking Also, congrats on
Also, congrats on the job. :3
WOOOOO YAAS BAE CONGRATS ON
Love you, and hope you don't become too stressed and busy, not to mention sick ;; ♥
sending my love and best wishes as always
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@Ama Thank you! Also I cannot
Thank you!
Also I cannot believe you tracked every single of my deer. I'm, like, going to bake you cookies or something for your efforts..
@Bae & arty
Thank you both! It's enjoyable work so far. Next week when I get my mouse and a cable to connect my itty bitty Chromebook to a larger monitor, I'm going to be in business B)
Today was apparently the busiest day in the history of the company, so I stayed over an hour later to help out with the extra work we got.
Well you tracked all of mine
I've only had one night
Thank you, Lacie! That sounds
Hope the appointment went
Thank you, BayBae!
I tend to develop episodes of
specificaly regarding sleep paralysis, while suffering the episode, I've found out that's more useful to try to "get back to sleep" than to wake up. if I try to wake up while on paralysis, I feel my body unable to move and eventually I got anxious and desperate and all that jazz. instead, while on the "dream", if I close my eyes and try to fall asleep again, I usually wake up without issues. idk if I'm explaining myself, it's a very abstract subject and I'm a bit tired haha
I hope your appointment goes ok as well c;
Why won't they take your
Hello fishy Track
Track <3
@Maria Thank you for that
Thank you for that advice! It definitely sounds very draining for you to have to go through that, but it's excellent that you've found a way to cope with it. Sorry for the late reply!
@Lacie
I don't know, the last time I had tonsillitis I was sick for ~2 months and they didn't want to remove them then. It's either because they want me to get tonsillitis a certain amount of times first, or I also read that if it obstructs certain parts of the throat (I read it was the larynx but that seems.. ugh.. I shudder at the thought) they will remove them. My big appointment is in a week but I'm going into a little clinic today just to be safe.
@Wild
Hello! Thank you C:
That's...weird. When I was
Plops down Hi hello c:
Hi hello c:
Discord: Gulonine#4267
ok but the real question
what team are u on
@Aquí Halloo! *wave
Halloo! *wave wave
@Lacie
Team Valor! I didn't know about double teaming with other team members when battling gyms, so I was bummed because my boyfriend is Mystic, just like 80% of trainers in the Seattle area *sigh
What abou'chu?
I haven't joined a team yet,
If I do get the chance to join a team though, I'll most likely join Instinct. It's more casual than the other two.
And I've heard that Instinct has control of the White House (8The friends that I've talked to so far are Mystic players too./huddles in blankets
*throws flowers, fluffy
Hope you feel better m'dear, you know where I am if you need anything ♥ ;A;
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Quote:MAYBE ILL MAKE A NEW
Lord only knows I wish I could do that lmao.
Good to see you whenever you pop in. Hope work isn't stressing you out too much. <3
@Fire
<3 EY!
@Lacie
So far it's been pretty good! Its nice to poke around here again, and wonderful seeing that friendly faces like yours are still around C:
Hello Fishy!! Thank you for
----------
Solo
Aw, you're welcome
WE ARE NUMBER ONE i'm
i'm lazytown memetrash as well
Hey fish :< I see your going
Plus also the fact that you have survived abuse from..god knows what * I won't go into because I really don't want to set of any emotional alarms off for you.* But I will admit to you as well *with out going into any detail* that I also have survived abuse from close people which has left with scars and mental health problems, I know to you I may just seem like a new player or just a random person on this community but I really do wanna support you or at least give you a little smile now and then if that would even be possible. I have in the past tried to support other blogs like this even though I don't comment I still read with crying eyes and a smile just knowing that people get over their troubles.
I just really hope that for you in the future fish that things will go well or just a bit more smoothly for you, I mean I don't really know you but just the fact you got a job and your working so hard so impress them really does give me a little smile because I know your full of fighting spirit. With your money problems I really do hope that better times will come for you.
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@Ook At first blush with the
At first blush with the LazyTown memes, one can't help but incredulous. And then you realize what country you're living in, what year it is, how uncertain the future will be for at least the next 4 years, and it's like "why shouldn't I enjoy this?" and then a few days later you can't stop humming We Are Number One and you have an intense craving for fricken sportscandy all the time.
@Wildrose
You're some kind of magician, aren't you? I use humor a lot to cope with negative feelings and I tend to use it to brush away my problems, but it seems like you saw right through that.
I'm usually able to talk about the abuse I experienced, but I try not to talk about it too much outside of the initial post I made years ago when I felt the need to explain it to people (feel free to dig into my post history! I honestly don't mind) because I don't want to make anybody uncomfortable. If I engage in media that contains similar content, though, it can be a total crapshoot. For example, the game Among the Sleep troubled me a lot more than reading A Child Called It, although the book contained more scenarios than the game.
You're a very sweet and compassionate individual and I always look forward to seeing you around here. Could I add you as a contact to my Skype or Discord account? I'd love to be able to chat with you more, if possible!
@Morto
'Sup, m'test commenter.
I wouldn't say I am a
I don't really want to talk about this anymore on this forum as it is a public place xD as we all know but I would gladly offer my Skype to you ( Sacredholly. ) if you ever feel like talking about things fishy or just in general to hang out =) but before we do start chatting if you add me I would like to tell you something if you don't mind ^^
here you go lazy town heaven
@Foul What's up, my fine
What's up, my fine feathered friend?
@Wildrose
Either way, you're very insightful and I admire that. I'll try to add you when I get home today, but I may not be able to chat until later this week. And I don't mind anything you have to tell me! No worries.
(thanks for the LazyTown stuff!!)
those are my thoughts exactly
anyway I'm glad you're still truckin' ♥
It's genuinely enjoyable and
Good to see you trucking along, too! FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT, OOKER!
So happy for you.
T'anks, dear
It's going okay so far.
#tagyourself #mailman
Nice package B^)
I am the Friends husband. I
Quote:Nice package
/promptly waves and leaves
@fire That's pretty
That's pretty accurate.. and ironically enough, I think the same actor is in another Magic Bullet infomercial and he does the same thing.
@Luna
Walk out that door, missy, and I won't share my Baby Bullet margaritas with you and your package