Rain had a Dream about walking with the Spirit of Spring. She didn't quite remember what they talked about, but she remembered the melody...

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I thought it was about time I made a new journal entry, for Lemon. c:

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My, it has been a while since I last wrote; hasn't it? I won't bore you with the drama that has been revolving around me, lately. Rather, I will simply let you know that all is well.

Today, I found myself full of unusual emotions. I felt wounded and upset -- and I suppose I ought to tell you the reason behind this. You see, I recently broke Walter's heart. It seems that I have a pension for doing so; this silliness seems awfully reminiscent of those early days with the Phantom, just after I had accepted Seth as my mate. What is wrong with me; why must I attract all of this unwanted attention?

And why; why would I feel hurt, today? I had no reason to feel angry or depressed over recent events; I was the one who was not alone! Yet... knowing that Walter was back to courting other does made me a bit jealous, I suppose. I hated knowing that I had been made a fool -- made to believe that Walter had loved me with his heart, only to discover that he merely lusted after me with his... well, not with his heart, that's for sure. I suppose I'm just desperate for some romance. Seth is gone, again; and I don't blame him one bit. His human has been going through a terrible time. I feel so selfish feeling so... lonely, without Seth. Is it wrong for me to feel this way? I just miss his company, his affection... It hurts to see other couples so happy, so together. I will stick it out until he returns again, of course; but... for now, I suppose it's mainly envy which rampages through me, turning my stomach sick every time I smell that Walter has adorned himself with flowers, ready to present them to some silly git. Some girl who will fall for his charms, and believe that she is special, like I did.

Sunfyra drew some pictures FOR ME!



Picture1: On the left you can see "Frosty Mariella" for Flyra and on the right you can see some avatars for me!


picture2: Yaya, the blue lady!



picture3: On of the most beautiful deer I've ever seen!

Thank you so much, Sunfyra.
<3

I woke up from a chilling noise. The howling... It seemed to be everywhere... Who was that? I Stood up and streched my legs. Last night's storm passed and left a thick fog behind. I could barely see through it. Although my senses told me that there were noone exept other Deer around. But Deer don't howl! Weird.
Than I realised that something was different. Oh the Twin Gods! I fell asleep as a fawn, but I woke up as a full-grown Deer! I was so shocked by this that I forgot all about the howling and the mist. I headed towards the pond to look myself up. It was so unusual to see a reflection so different from the one I was used to see... My antlers prowdly carried my Sign, my pelt lost its spots and now was dark blue like the gloomy sky above me with some lighter wide stripes, left by the mist I guess. I also found myself wearing a black mask. I sighed. Well, Rain, you do pull off your name alright... Although I didn't want to seem too gloomy. I looked around and saw some violettes in the grass. I put my antlers down to twine flowers around them as I saw other Deer do it lots of times... Well, growing up really caught me off guard but on the other hand it made me feel confident.
Then I heard the howling again. Misty Forest was a bit creepy. The howling, bats flapping about... I think its the first time I ever saw bats in the Forest... I didn't want to be alone now, so I called with my new mighty deer voice and went to see what other Deer were doing and maybe ask them about that howling in the mist...

Name : Shika
Meaning : The Gentle Deer
Nickname : Shiky
Gender : stag
Born : 19/03/2009 at 04:58 PM
Age : 0 years old
Color : #848499
Favorite place : Ruins and crying idol

Pictogram : Click!
How to remember : Um... Just remember xD

Mate : don't have
Family :
Sister = Osheen
Mother = Hermeleentje
Father = Shane
Step sister = Hedwig
Step brother = Vrede

Appearance :
With a normal weather :
-Whisper mask
-Peacock antlers
-Beluga pelt (official pelt is the BAN pelt)
With other weather :
-Whisper mask
-Peacock antlers
-DOTD pelt

Personality :
Is a deprydeer (always wanted one ^^;)
=in progress

Like :
-Darkness
= in progress
Dislike :
-Funny stuff
= in progress

Understanding him :
Scratch the ground+Nod=Stay here please, be right back
Scratch the ground=Can you follow me please?
Scratch the ground+Nod+confused=Can you use this spell on me?
Sad+Respect=Sorry, I have to go now
Confused+Respect=Hi there!

C:\Documents and Settings\David\My Documents\My Scans

I entered abandoned residence hall, the heels of my boots snapping smartly against the linoleum. Stepping over the metal door plate on the floor that would normally announce my arrival with a loud, echoing clatter, I rounded the corner to face a white printout taped against the closed and locked double doors of a dark room.

"Friday, March 24th:
ESSC-450 has been cancelled.
If you have any questions or concerns
Please call Dr. Tamwood
1(406) 555 0916"

I leaned forward and let my forehead hit the glass with a sharp crack. I drove 30 freaking miles to get here, only to find the class had been cancelled. I really needed to invest in a computer, a laptop at the least, so my mother wouldn't inadvertently break it. Sighing, I hitched my bag further up my shoulder and turned heel to get out of this place. Guess I had a long drive ahead of me.

The unsympathetic wind blew my breath away as I pushed open the glass door and walked outside. I folded my arms, drawing my jacket closer to me as I walked in a hunched gait back to my gold colored late model Ford Ranger. I dug in my pockets and fumbled with the keys a moment outside of my truck, finally finding the right one and getting inside the cab, its warmth trickling out from the drive up here.

I sat back against the seat and sighed. Driving back home, to the house, that was painfully empty.
My father died three days ago. His pnemonia spread to his other lung, and with those complications, he just couldn't make it. My mother and I were the last people he seen, holding his hand as he took his last ragged breaths. My father, the man I treasured my entire life, was gone, I still couldn't believe it. My mother and I were working with a funeral home and making the needed arrangements.
In my anger and grief, I had given my wedding ring back to Vipin. I felt like all this crap was burdening me too much to have a relationship with anyone. I felt like crawling in a hole and dying. I still feel like doing that.

It was really quiet in the Forest. I came to the pond for some fresh water. The sky was gloomy. It was going to rain soon. I looked at my reflection in the steady water. I still had no idea who I was before and what I left behind... For the very first time since I was reborn as a Deer, I felt really homesick for some other life. It was weird to be sad about something you couldn't even remember. But thats what I felt... A lightning broke the sky in half. The sudden strike of thunder scared me so much.... I ran as almost death itself chased me. The fog, the rain and fear almost made me blind. I didn' t realise where I was going untill the silhouettes of the Ruin suddenly appeared in front of me. I hid myself in something that was probably a cellar or something long ago... I couldn't stop shaking. The storm that suddenly reached the Forest was very strong. It made trees mourn and bend... I was exhausted from running and I fell asleep soon. Oddly, the stone remainings were warm and quite comfy. Moss and old dry leaves made a cosy bed for a frightened little fawn. "So the Ruin isn't really dangerous" - was my last thought before I drifted away into Morpheus kingdom...

Yep. A week. I've been spending less time in the Forest over that week. Mostly due to the map's lack of updating, and leaving me unsure of who to send in. I've got a sad amount of screenshots from over that time period, too. So here they are all together, only getting captions where I see fit. They're basically all "fun with friends" shots. =]


A random deer greeted Spade on the bridge, and it led to this. (Oh hey, I think that's Fei!)


The peacocks strike again! (What Peppa? >> << >> I don't know what you're talking about..)


Radeon and Okami. =] I wonder if I should officially add him to the family section of my deer's biographies, since Radeon did sort of adopt him as a fawn..


A random nameless fawn joined Scape in running around on the pond and water-walking. They also liked hiding under him. (Wonder who it was..)


Synchronized headtilts in the dark fog.
The fog seems to have attracted life back to the Forest. =]

I don't know, but I got this two in only one hour!
That's gorgeous!
Please click!
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Thank you!