Okay guys, I know you have seen me vent on this site since Dad and Mason died. I was using this place to escape, and from now on I won't vent here anymore. I'm going to take Ocean and Pega's advice, and when I need to vent, I'll type it onto a word document so I can delete it instead of posting it here. I've also set aside a bunch of CDs to listen to when I'm getting in a bad mood.

I deleted my updates page because it was where I was venting the most, so please retrack it if you need to.

But I need one more thing, and please read this below:

Please accept my apology.

I'm sorry for everything I've done on here that I shouldn't have. I'm sorry that I have been venting on this community, it wasn't right for me to do so. I'm sorry for asking for so much artwork, and also being jealous of people's art skills. I'm sorry that I shove my characters into everyone's face and talk about them so much. I'm sorry that I have been degrading myself and constantly telling myself that I'm worthless. I'm sorry if I ever said anything in the chatrooms that offended anyone or wasn't appropriate. I forget sometimes who I am talking to. I'm sorry that I come off as being pompous or snobby, I really don't ever intend to sound like it. I'm sorry for all the drama I caused on here.

And from this moment on, I won't let it happen again.

Any time I ever start to fall apart, I have my resources to take my sadness and frustration elsewhere. From this moment on, it will no longer be posted here.

I love each and every one of you. So please accept my apology.

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Sorry for spamming. I just had to. <33

A pianist in Toronto, Canada, plays his heart out, recording an album that he titles Seascapes. The album is produced on cassette, CD, and LP, the cover art that of crystal blue waters. The album is given five tracks, each one his own inspiration and creation. The album is published and soon available for all to hear.

This man does not look for fame, or fortune...but just to share his music to the world.

Twenty-six years later, a young man and his mother walked into a shabby thrift store. The place is filled with a variety of things, and as he walks around, he notices a shelf with old CDs on it in the corner of the store. He eagerly walks over and thumbs through the CDs, passing Christmas albums, old computer games, and 90's pop bands. As he looks, one CD catches his eye, titled Seascapes. He pulls it from the shelf, reading "Michael Jones, Piano Solos" on the old cover.

He brings the CD to the front desk and pays for it, his mother buying a few things of her own. The CD is placed in a bag with his mother's items, and the two leave the old store and drive home.

That day, the man puts the CD into a CD player, pressing "play". He doesn't know what to expect, or even if the CD will work.

And for the next seven minutes, the song entitled Mexican Memories plays into his ears. A pianist plays his heart out, and the man envisions himself in a front-row seat of a piano hall, listening to this man from 1984 create beautiful music.

And the next part is unexpected, the young man then sees grass grow around the piano and pianist, the theater becoming entangled in vines and trees. Whitetail deer frolic nearby, and for a moment, he catches a glimpse of a blackbuck antelope running by.

Well, my Intous 4 -insertbragbrag here- is not letting me use pen pressure! Any ideas? And, when I look for it on my system, it isn't there. :c so, I can't uninstall. :|


I really LURVE pen pressure. It's how I get my rockin' flowers to actaully.. ROCK. ;Any help? :3

Edit: It works now... but. :| I really would love to find the source of this issue. :|

((Ignore the mechanical whir of CSS coding in the background. Thanks again ocean~))



Ever have one of those moods where you don't really want to do anything at all?
Yep.


Fill out the following and see what happens...
SPOLIER: i'll draw it lol

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Mrh. Playing around with my new tablet.. :| imy open 'Sentry siggie horns n' stuff. Or flowers. Flowers are good.

My very great drawin skillz.

The day has ended
High above my head
Each of the clouds
Change from orange to grey
Remembering my father
In the transformation before me
Missing his warmth and love
Soon darkness will cover
On the land where I stand
Now upon the crimson sky
Stars have pierced through
Kindling the warmth I yearn for
Yielding his presence once again

And it feels great!
Found a group of deer having some sort of slumber party.

What's happening here? Are you guys trying to nap? Sorry I had to yell.
A few folks running around the river.

I really want to join in, but I need to get my mask on first...
Watching people out there. I was hoping one of them would help get my mask.

At least I found someone who would help...that nice stag/doe with default pelt and poppies on their antlers, thanks. <3
Identify yourselves?

Kaoori


I saw a herd of deer today. Seems strange, everyone here normally doesn't herd, only during the rut..
I don't believe I'd ever seen these deer before. They all looked the same, kept to each other, followed a leader..
like back at home. No. No.. that wasn't home. They weren't home.. my home is here.
They did not care about me. They brought me here, abandoned me. What a mistake they made.
This is the best home I could ever have.

But why do I still wonder how they are? My real parents...


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Umi


I saw a herd of deer today in the distance, as I lay in the birch. At first I was elated, I thought my family had come to rescue me. I raced down the hill, only to find that these deer were much larger than I..and looked nothing like my own herd.
Then I remembered that it was my own herd that had driven me away in the first place. Why I was here.. I had stumbled upon this place in my exile. In my short time here, I had never seen a herd. This was the first, and even the other deer in this forest seemed a bit puzzled by them. Do the deer not herd in this forest? I have seen small groups but none acting like a herd. I'm afraid I won't fit in here, if I don't learn how to act like everyone soon..

I miss my family..


just some little things that went through my head when I saw the endless herd today. You can learn a bit more about Umi on my directory, as she doesn't have a profile yet.