9-11
Day started out well with playing and running around with Herla, Gehirn and later senseless racing around with Verve. Behaved like fawns for a while until Ephire's dignified stare made them stop being silly. Noticed that Ephire's scent does not send shivers down his spine anymore.

07.11
What he has been so afraid of happened. He met Gehirn and Herla together with some others. Was welcomed so warmly as if nothing had happened and no time had passed. Such a big relief to his heart, that he will be thankful for that forever. Got to know the lively Verve. Spend some time playing around, remembering how great that was.
Awkward meeting with Ciel, ignored him, knowing that it was unpolite to do so, but his shyness paralyzed him.

Met the fair doe again, she seems to be an aquaintance of his "herd". Played a while with her and with Verve until Isiels companion appeared again. Was approached by him and sort of... still feels he has fur in his mouth. Verve left at some point and the others gathered in pairs. Got to know a lovely playful fawn and danced with the fawn for the while enjoying its company. Later brought it to the crying idol to drink and to do some forest magic. Was devastated to find out that his skills were even worse than before and that the little fawn was much better with the spells. Found Verve again who had left the group previously. More funtime with Verve and the fawn. Oh, how much he had missed it...

30.10
Striding through the forest aimlessly- Observing people that he finds interesting, but too unsure to approache anyone at the moment. Saw a beautiful fair doe in the forest, but also attracted the attention of the companion of the doe. Feeling lost, so Kaikias preferred to look for one of his old hiding places instead of trying his luck with the stranger.


28.10 Is it a sign that it is this strange time of the seasons again? Where has Kai been all the time? He is back for sure, bigger than before and with his shining coat, that does not remind of the mousey fawn and young buck he had been. He is still lean, but growing in strength when it comes to the physical power. But his mind seems weak, he is more shy than before, more careful in the presence of others. Still he longs for company, for a safe place to hide - even though he does not know from what. The last weeks are a faint echo in his memory: clouded, cold and dark. It took a while to remember the forest, to find the old places and to find his old company. But he doesn't dare to go to see them yet, he feels ashamed - Why?



29.04
Birthday of Herlas and Gehirns fawns. Spend half the day keeping strangers away from the glade, was very nervous and overmotivated probably. Unnerved to the utmost degree by loud fawns, which gave him a pretty decent workout by letting them chase around the place.
Shocked to meet Illrose again, who he had in pretty DIFFERENT memory.
Has not seen much of the actual birth, which might be a good thing in retrospect. Went late to see the little fawns, because a lurking skull doe was freaking him out as he knew that this was one of Siannas buddies. It took Gehirn to chase her away some hundred meters, where she kept standing and staring at them. Going to ignore her until she makes a mistake...

Congratulated Herla and Gehirn (who was so happy as Kai hasn't seen him in a while). Greeted the fawns carefully and watched fascinated their first unbalanced steps on those long legs. Feeling protective and somehow envious. So much love greets these newborn fawns. No confused waking up in the forest all alone, they have a big protector to guard their sleep...

27.04
Still too much energy to spare, and again somehow frustrated. Will attack innocent loud deer. Beware mean reactions.


Earlier
Played a long time with Paxnox until Kai was just to exhausted to go on. Was so much fun. Thanks


26.04
Fever gone, looks a bit disheveled and is still weak, but is all in all quite fine. No long runs through the forest probably but trotting works ok.
Stood up to go for a drink and to take a bath in the creek, finding Gehirn and Daikon there. Greeted Gehirn, but he was not responsive and sleeping. The face behind the mask was probably more saddening then a crying face. Tried to wake him up by cuddling him. Gave up then and sat down beside the Irish. First time he thought that the other might sometimes need him.

Later left the creeks meadow and followed Gehirn to Red Hill. Found Ciel and Sterre at the Gravesite and tried to invite them to the Hill as he thought some company might cheer Gehirn up. Had mixed success with this, as Ciel and Sterre sat down on the Hill together, while Gehirn was going down to sit near the grave. Soon got bored to rest there and a bit frustr6ated that he was being ignored by Ciel and Sterre, especially the latter. Joined a fawn to play with it for a while, but soon was annoyed that the fawn was always so loud and would not understand why it was not nice to bark into another deer ear or why it was scary to be stared in the eyes for minutes and minutes. Tried to get rid of it then, which was not so easy, because the fawn was rather attached to him already. Managed to escape finally returning back to Red Hill to find that Sterre was gone. Curled up in a patch of high grass and fell asleep some time later.

25.04
Still resting, because he feels weak and unreal (still feverish) though better than yesterday, thanks to Herlas skills the inflammation has not spread any further. Kai is very calm and taciturn today will most likely not greet, as he can't do the bows without risking to break the freshly scabbed wound on his leg.

Hasn't seen Gehirn anywhere, supposes he is still in the Birch Forest. Wonders about it... and naps away.

24.04
Hasn't moved from his hiding place covered with blue flowers and tall grass. Feels weak and feverish. Won't sit up if it can be avoided, avoids to bend left leg due to deep wound. Is angry and in sinister mood. Will try to hide his health problems from other deer. Could of course not hide it from Herla and had to endure her care for his wounds. Did not mention how he got the scratches and did not say anything besides a welcome and a mumbled explanation that made no sense even for himself. Wouldn't admit but felt instantly better, calmer and more positive when the doe was around. Looked at her standing in the sunlight ... wondering if gravity was not in effect for pregnant does, because Herla looked like a balloon with legs and a swan neck (bet it was only the unfortunate angle of looking up to her from his resting spot). Kept that remark to himself.
As Sho joined their party he finally was able to close his eyes assured that nothing could harm them now. Fell into deep sleep.

Woke up and his company was gone, when someone was standing right above him. A nameless that was eating bark from the tree above Kai's resting place. The scratching sounds made Kai absolutely mad. Wondered if the other did even notice him and than something inside Kai boiled over again causing him to attack the nameless without any warning sign. Spell-spammed him and was pretty harsh in scaring the other one away.

Curled up in his flower-house again. Was woken up again by someone approaching and sitting down next to him without any loud noise. Wondered about the doe that was soon peacefully asleep. Having exhausted his body by his outburst against the noname, he tried to make himself even smaller and invisible among the grass. Was soon drifting in some semi-concious space, dreaming something about the past, but his mind wasn't able to grab his thoughts anymore.



23.04

Left the now very big gathering around Gehirn to stride through the forest. Had definately too much energy and was incredibly bored, at the same time he knew that his "herd" at the Red's grave would not be in mood to play, so ran off to get rid of his energy by aimlessly chasing through the forest until his legs would stop to support him.

Stumbled over an adorable little shy creature, that was hiding behind the trees. Was fascinated and curious and tried to win its trust. It seemed to work at first, but then the little one seemed to decide to fear him again. Sadly. Followed it through the forest.
Got suddenly jumped at by some other animal, something canine maybe, and only a little smaller than himself. Afraid at first, but than he surprised himself by a sudden impulse to fight back. Was on edge all day anyway and responded quite fiercely to the threatening party. His anger probably being composed of suprise, too much energy to spare and the tense mood that was lingering in the Forest since the Red died. Recieved some deep gashes only making him more angry. Got really carried away pumped up with adrenaline and didn't stop fighting until the other ran off, turning around where the "damsel in distress" was supposed to be just to find out it was gone as well.

Limped and stumbled to the Crying Idol to cool his bruises and wash his wounds, a pretty long and painful way. ... he saw both again in the distance standing together near the Crying Idol. Kai was confused by that sight. Suddenly remembered an occasion very much in the past, his very first day in the forest, when he just wanted to play and was attacked for that. Couldn't stand the sight of both anymore and attacked again and chased them away from the waters of the creek, deeper into the Forest. Took no notice of his wounds or the bad shape that Niji already had. Just wanted them to GO!

Went back to the Crying Idol to cool his wounds. Will then try to return to Gehirn and Herla if he is not too embarassed.



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Learned that the Red had died. Felt nothing really as he did not really know the stag, but saw him only once or twice. Was suprised to find Gehirn somewhere in the Birch Forest curled next to a tree, he seems smaller somehow. Instantly reminded of Ciel so he approached very silently, would be devasted if Gehirn was as angry as him as Ciel was. Birch Forest lost all its appeal to Kai.

Sat down nearby watching over Gehirn. Wondered how it would be if something went wrong for Herla and Gehirn's fawn, if it would be the same as this. Congrats, Kai, for thinking like a grown up for some seconds ; )

Saw something appear at the place where Gehirn was sleeping, it was gone in the blink of an eye.


20-22.04

22.04
Kai is in no good mood today and will avoid company.

away

18-04 Accompanied Herla, Gehirn, Ephire and Djinn at the future birth side. Had some funny sparring rounds with a foreign stag.

14-04
Spend a nice day running, playing and being hyper. Stayed close but in respectful distance from Gehirn, who still seemed to struggle to regain his composure about the stillborn fawn. Even Kaikias could see that Gehirns anxiety was soon directed to Herlas future and the panic that something similar whould happen to Herlas unborn.

13-04
Playin with Herla and Geh. Herla is suprisingly fast for her condition. (This could have something to do with her better aerodynamics ) Now just relaxing at the birth site. Having the silly humming in his head again.

Later accompanied Herla and Gehirn into the birch forest. Noticed that Gehirn was quite on edge, but did not understand why that was the case. Was very unhappily surprised as they moved further towards the bowl. Now being quite out of his mind himself he ran along the bowls border, trying to summon the courage to step into it, but every time he tried, his legs stopped working before that.

Gehirn was quite not amused by Kaikias and recieved a pretty stern rebuke by the Irish. (Sit down or they will make YOU become pregnant next... ) Literally dropped flat to the floor. Still laying there unable to move, sometimes blinking but always afraid... bowl... not be seen... bowl... not be seen....

It turned out to be that there was a deer (Herla said stag, but that couldn't be true could it?) giving birth. Kaikias was quite astonished that someone could choose the Blue Bowl for giving birth. Since his experience with IT the place smelled and breathed the air of death for him, though no one else seemed to see it like him.
It seemed to take endless time until Herla returned from her observer spot. (perfectly logical that she could go near, because she couldn't become any more pregnant). She looked very sad and mumbled into Gehirns fur. It was pretty clear that something had gone very wrong. All this added to Kaikias' discomfort to be near the Bowl.

03-12-04
Here and there in the forest. Torturing trees, training somewhat, racing against other deer (still speed seems his real strenght) and living out his overflowing energy. When not silly in the brain he still seaks Herlas and Gehirns company. Noticed finally that Herla seemed quite altered, with her feather crown now being a feather gown (yes I AM PROUD of this ) around a pretty well rounded belly. Spend some playtime with Gehirn and some other deer, just enjoyed being silly and full of energy ready to be wasted.

has grown


02-04
Back with Herla and Gehirn, but shocked to find Gehirn in pretty bad shape. ( Has managed to miss all action around dandelion hill) hesitant to join them for some time, but finally fought down his anxiety and sat down next to them. Group accompanied by Ephire later.

27-03
Maybe he fell into a hole, or got lost in the forest, however, he is back. Happy to see his beloved places, to hear the mumbling water of the creek, and the wind in the leaves of the willow. He has found his perfect gift, but maybe it's too late to give.

20-02
Still digging holes into the forest all over the place. Watch your steps

19-02
Starts digging for stones for Herla. Dismisses most of them as unsuitable. Looking for something special.

18-02
Spending the with Gehirns and Herlas growing crowd. Followed them to the crying idol. Did not understand the actual cause, was just sure he disliked the atmosphere that was around the Crying Idol. The depressing scene, the smell of iron in the air... reminded him of something bad.

IMpressed everyone by falling "gracefully" into the creek.

Relaxed time resting with Ciel and a lovely doe in the sun (drying his fur). Still very akward feeling to be around Ciel. Kaikias is very cautious not to get in Ciels way or get too close. Usual episode of getting lost and distracted, running around the forest like an idiot. Finally found the group again and settled with them on the hill. Gehirn was quite on edge though and seemed nervous and stressed. A feeling which quickly settled in Kaikias mind as well. Kaikias didn't know what made them so nervous, he dared not to ask and simply followed their lead.


17-02
Joining Herla and Gehirn. Small jumping contest, major fail to loose against a pregnant doe of half the size of yourself. Kaikias lept elegantly over the fallen tree to crash down on his head after landing. Very very very embarrassing....

Watched as Gehirn and Herla started to settle down in a flower patch. Watched their strange behaviour with interest. Especially Gehirn who was marking his territory all over the place, over protective and nervous. Caught some of Gehirns mood as well and now standing on guard together with Gehirn. (Well ... he should be able to scare away a mini or two and the Irish gives him a boost of self confidence )

16-02
Still hyper with too much energy. Running around casting spells. Trying to play with others. Outrunning them. Rejoicing because the ground flies so fast under his feet. Doing silly things.

15-02
In a foolish and hyper mood racing around the "big herd" around Herla. They seemed to be very upset with a foreign stag, who was constantly... well being annoying and calling out. In a moment of overflowing self-confidence Kaikias tried to take action and fight the stag, but the other one was not responsive and soon Kaikias gave up, annoyed and ashamed (everyone could see him... being powerless). Going to torture some trees for practice and to get rid of his energy.

Still very unsure how to act in the presence of Ciel. Tried to tell him he was sorry, but wasn't sure if Ciel understood. Lying down to rest with Ciel and Gehirn's company.

They changed their location settling on a hill near the bowl. Not Kaikias favourite view. Now in the night time it looks even more scary and deadly, like an abiss behind white bars. Seeking the safety of the Irish's presence.


14-02
Spending an relaxed evening in his favourite company. Fooling around with a mini-deer, but soon got desinterested in it, returning to sit peacefully among the trees

13-02
Lich King again. Couldn't quite keep himself from going near the beast. Knew Gehirn would not approve it. Stayed in safe distance, for fast retreat. The screams of the stag were bone shaking, but it seemed not too interested in slender Kaikias. Why should it? Kaikias does not quite understand what fascinates him so much. He strides around the Lich in watching distance, anxious and nervous, but he also enjoys the thrill of danger. Hiding behind a tree, and was pretty shocked when the giant stag suddenly charged towards him (not more than half-heartedly though). Ran off. Saw Herla passing by and tried to follow, but got completely lost on the way. Slightly paniced by the surroundings. So he was completely exited and happy when he found Herla again. Noting that something was different about her...

08-02
Found Gehirn at their usual place at the Crying Idol, was somewhat devastated to find Ciel there. Walked away to play with spells. Returned later to both of them, they were still sleeping. Silently layed down in the safety of the Crying Idols side, watching them. Feeling guilty and envious.


06-02
Spotted Ciel at his usual watch over his mates grave. Sat down and watched the other stag sleep. Still felt bad about his fauxpas, even if it was not intentionally done to hurt Ciel, it disturbed Kaikias role in the group around Herla. What if they choose that he is not welcome anymore?


31-01
Spending the day with various people. Romping around with two white skull deer. Much fun, outran them all the time. A bundle of happiness when he joined Herla and Ciel afterwards, but soon sensing a strange desperate atmosphere. Unsure what to do. Tried to cheer him up, but got an response that he could not understand. Even though Herla explained the situation to him and he showed -submission and remorse, Ciel would not forgive him.
Stayed behind in the birch forest, when the others left. Was acting "asleep" when they went, so he would not be in company of Ciel anymore. Not sure how to act around him in the future.

Joined Herla, Gehirn, others and a group of fawns at the Crying Idol later. Saw the Crow again, which acted as confusing as ever, but finally joined the resting group.

Spotted another doe nearby, a very shy and small one. Tried to get to know her, but seemed to scare her away by stomping around in front of her. Went to apologize and brought her back to the Crying Idol, to join the group as well. The others were not as pleased as he thought. They went to sit in some distance from the foreign doe and him. Could not quite understand that, but was not very eager to ask for the reason either. Liked the doe somehow, she seemed sweet.

(little doe: Illrose with mini-spell. and yes, Kaikias is blissfully ignorant of her usual height and size )


26-01
Idle day around Herla, Gehirn, a supersized bunny and a fawn. Playing chase with the little one. Striding around the ruins of the cathedral. Went to investigate a group of skull deer nearby, but was intimidated by them, so he did not approach. Returned to the others to find Herla speaking with a crow. When Kaikias wanted to get to know the crow, it retreated into the forest. Chased it for a while and was fascinated by it. While Herla and Gehirn were sleeping, he started a stealth spell operation.


24-01

Joined Herla and Gehirn for the evening. Was very happy to see them. Occupied his usual position to sit next to them. Noticed some kind of happily alarmed state of mind that all seemed in. They obviously knew something that he did not know. In his his adolescent mind though, there was no place for questions, because adolescents by definition finally know how the world works. They figured it all out by themselves. Kaikias own mind was occupied by thoughts of great adventures, by the imagination of fighting dragons and slaying beasts. When Gehirn finally left and he was alone with Herla on the open plain they chose for their resting place, he wondered how big the chances were, that he actually had to fight a dragon today. One half of him regretting, one half of him rejoicing that he was not in need to prove anything else than playing with fawns.


09-12
Met with Gehirn and some other deer. Among them the interesting shy one, which seems to be afraid of Kaikias face. It ran away from him when he saw him, and seemed to warm up with him only when he had a different mask on. The skull, Kaikias remembered it, had caused much panic to himself when he was still a fawn. Kaikias knew how it was to be afraid of something, how it could disturb your daily life. On the other hand his skull face had an impressive effect on others, it was his shield. But he remembered how this mask smelled before he got used to it. He could not know what the shy golden one had endured to be so afraid now. Poor thing. He put on another mask for him, to play with him and dance some time. When tired Kaikias said goodbye to the stag, like he would have to go. His skull appearing back on his face, he retreated to Gehirn's resting place. Laying down in plain sight, trying not to be someone to fear. Still the fact that the slender buck was respected by someone much above him, was exciting.

Spend the later part of the day in Herla's and Ciel's company. Birds sitting on antlers. Battling the need to chase them around : D Playing with Herla, but got lost on the way. Couldn't find the way back to the hill and Ciel. Very embarrassed, so he wouldn't tell instead he was... confusing. Ciel found them finally next to the pond



06-12
seeking adventures

till 27-11
Striding around without much energy, resting his inflammated knee, standing usually with the right leg held up. Much better once he convinced himself that short play as well will not be good for him. Hasn't seen many other deer around since. Exept one ... ghostly presence...


23-11
When he came to the pond to cool his legs, he spotted Gehirn at the other end of the small lake. But neither the company of the others nor the other young ones could motivate him to get more active. He lay down next to a willow, dozing half of the day.He was thankful that most other deer did not bother with him. Finally when the most other deer were gone and sleeping, he took a bath in the shallow water, bathing his knees.
Joined Gehirn to spend the remaining part of the day resting. Fell asleep as soon as he had sat down under the big antlers of Gehirn, that were like a roof. Seldomly felt that safe.

22-11
Met a funny fawn, tried to play with it, but couldn't keep up, so the fawn lost interest in him very soon. Feeling weary and ... old... what ever that means, but the word popped up in his head as an appropriate term.

In the birch forest all seemed strangely quiet and still. Came across a group of deer all curled up next to each other. A scent of iron was in the air, of wet fur and something else... the smell reminded him of something, and it made him shiver, feeling the urge to get away, but there was something... in the middle it was Herla's feather crown, that caused him to look a second time at the group. The small doe was almost not visible behind the bodies of two other deer. No one moved as he approached, the other one was in bad condition, something he hasn't seen before in the forest. And Herla next to the injured one was fast asleep as well... the unhealthy looking kind of being asleep. Not exactly knowing why he felt the need to do so, he sat down next to Herla's "unguarded" side. Almost trampling on a small rabbit in that process. Finally finding a place, he felt like he was dragged down to earth "from the inside". Resting was not that bad for him after all.

What he did know, when he woke up, that the two stags trying to play with them were not good for them. Herla needed her rest and also Kaikias himself was very weary. The two stags were not understanding why they should retreat, so.... well that was actually dumb after all, he was threatening them, rearing at them, to show them that they were not welcome. It was almost sad, because they misunderstood it for play and he felt reminded of his first day in the forest, where he was chased away... for no reason he understood back then. The two stags were either very friendly not to rip the small buck apart or to confused by him. It took intervention by Gehirn to chase one away, and Kaikias then tried to lure the other one away from the resting place. Bad threatment for his knees though, but finally the stags would go away. Joined the band again. Somehow he starts feeling at home.

Got to know Seed. Really great one. Couldn't resist starting to play around, even if it wasn't wise, but why should Mr. Fawnbrain be wise of all sudden. Went to the pond to drink, was very thirsty, and found out that he could very well play in the cooling water, without feeling the hurt too much. Had a great time with Seed until Seed had to leave him. The way back to Gehirn and Herla was very long... very very long. Even longer when he started to go lame. Well done little one. Surviving the stupid idea to threaten two grown stags without much harm, and then messing yourself up without any help.



20-11
Finally saw Gehirn and Herla in the forest. Amazing to see them, though the Irish stag displayed more tension then usual (at least it seems so). Funny mini around Gehirn, but couldn't keep up with the playing, fell often while running. Walking to the stream to wash his bruised legs. The group got bigger with more aquaintances of Herla and Gehirn joining, he would have loved to play with the others, but his knees hurt like hell.

The strangest experience since the arrival of *That* was the appearance of a giant grey stag that was maybe twice as tall as himself. The group started to walk away slowly, like you would try to get away without waking a predator. Even Gehirn, who was Kaikias' definition of a powerful stag retreated. When Kaikias curiously approached the grey one he was called back by Herla and the whole group vigorously. Even when they reached their new place the image of that grey stag keeps lingering in Kaikias mind. But anytime he tries to get up and walk over just to take a short look Herla reminds him friendly that he should better stay there.


19-11
Striding around, playing with a fawn, but soon pretty unnerved by the loud fawn, that kept complaining and roaring. First thinking it had lost it's group, then realizing it must just be plain ignorant that 10 times roaring might be enough to train its voice. Left before he could get any more angry. First time actually he felt that way.
Got to know a group of skull deer with a lovely white doe that reminded him much of Fawn, plus another younger buck. Joined them resting under a tree near the stream. Got pretty annoyed by other deer disturbing their rest.

Later
Happy run around the forest only foolish things in the fawnbrain. Jumped around like mad. Found himself hanging helplessly in midair, pretty scary moment and the fall was just as deep as it looked from above. And on top of it the silly moment was witnessed by as many deer as you can possibly find in the birch. Crashed pretty hard on his forehand and his cheek. Quite embarrassing and very frightening. Had someone bewitched him?


18-11
Occasional playing chase, most of the time striding around alone though. Finally finding Herla in a quite unusual place. Long time no see, but was just around for a while, not wanting to startle her again. Saw Gehirn nowhere around. Instead there was a strange looking big doe, bigger than himself. Greeted them friendly and sat down to rest. Noticed he must have been growing again, compared to fragile Herla he feels like a giant monster, compared to the other doe, he still feels pretty small.

Played around with other deer for a while, especially the mini invasion was pretty funny. Pretty happy evening.


Had much to think about. Especially the fact that most deer react different to him now. It was quite amusing the first few times, but now he starts to realize that this will continue as he grows up. Fawns now tend to be careful around him and some seem anxious. Does do play with him more often than fawns now, but somehow they loose interest in playing soon, and leave.



till 12-11
Kaikias gets more and more solitary. He usually patrols the forest looking if the ones he got to know are there and everythings well. Somehow though he has not much motivation to spend long time with other deer. He will usually try to find someone to chase around or to play with and he is still very much attracted to playing with other young ones (even though he looks like a very BIG baby among them he still behaves like one), but they react differently to him than before Halloween. The antlers with the candles still weigh on his head and he feels strong and insecure at the same time.

31 - 10
Health: 90% (he has a slight limp in the left front leg, someone stepped on him when he was transformed into a raven some days before)
Energy: 70% he is very weary, because his resting phases get interrupted frequently by "That"

There is no way to avoid the fog anymore, it is everywhere in the forest. This howling makes him shiver, he can't see well and though the others make noise for thousands, he feels like he would be standing under a glass bowl with only nothingness around him.

Got armed with a tranformation spell and went to the pond. Found a big party there dancing and enjoying the day. Someone put the big antlers on his head and suddenly he had the impressive candled antlers. Appropriate for the day.

He is warming up with the situation, but will still be anxious and nervous. He often seeks to hide from the mass or observe the situation from some meters away. The reason for his fear of the BZD (which he calls "THAT") might be that he just came into the forest and might have an unconscious knowledge of the ending of his "first" life.

He found a lonely fawn sleeping next to a tree and decided to join it. He doesn't know for sure if he is more in need of company, or if he just remembers how scared he was, waking up all alone in the dense fog.

29-10
THAT again. This time he decided to handle the situation like... a... like someone who can help himself! Get yourself a transformation spell, go to where THAT rests and make a bunny out of it.
...
..
Nananananannaaaa BATMAAAAn

Retreating to the Crying Idol. Finding Gehirn and Herla in company of a fawn. Chased around their heads for a while (BAT MODE) and was relieved of the spell after some time. No THAT anymore.

- And again... the third time for this day meeting *THAT*. How can the others be so calm in that things company. Herla tries to assure him, but he can't help feeling scared. The mini fawn has much more courage than him... he will probably feel embarassed after the fear is gone.
When the whole group goes to visit THAT he stays behind. Will he summon the courage from somewhere?... Definately not from the shaking knees or the cold feet Oo
Followed the others near THAT. It is still not moving and all seem to be pretty happy around IT and they seem to be not the least bit afraid.....

IT MOVES
P:A:N:I:C




Don't mess with the BZD.... that's what Fawnbrain should have learned

26-10
Usual run around the forest, probably getting on the nerves of others. Couldn't animate more than two adult deer to play with him.
Playing with Uroluk was great fun. Uroluk is much more confident then Kaikias was (or even is), and so the fawn layed down to sleep in a pretty open area.
Knowing how scary it can be to be all alone Kaikias stood on guard on the fawns side and later fell asleep next to the fawn

23 - 26.10
Running around, casting spells. Racing against fawns and other deer. Jumping and fooling around. Runs longer distances with every day and feels stronger than ever.
New aquaintances and lovely playtime. Life is good.


22-10
Limping, and injured ? doe at the pond. Was afraid of him as it seemed. Just wanted to play, not to chase her away from her resting place. Assured her to come back, but she still seems afraid. Wouldn't expect her to stand up and fight *that* if it comes back. But her company is better than none. The second time he felt someone was weaker than him, yesterday that pretty badly injured stag in Herla's company. Disturbing thought. Even though he knows exactly that he got beaten up the very first day of his life and is very anxious, he had not met a truely dangerous deer in the forest ever again. How can he avoid ending like them ... ?

Led Neruk, the injured doe to the willow at the pond. That's about the place he feels most secure - seing everything around, but a little safer because of the water around - maybe she will too. Neruk fell asleep pretty fast, she must have been completely exhausted.

After some hours the place was getting crowded with stags. PANIC! Neruk slept through the whole chaos. Definately the better choice. Stags soon lost interest in them and went their own ways.



Fawnbrain learned: if you are a clumsy young buck, you cannot approach does like the fawn you've been. They will get startled and have heart failure or will be so afraid that they are hiding behind trees



20 to 22 - 10
Energy: 100%
Health: 100%
Mood: alert

SOOOOO many new deer. Impossible to learn all their names at once. Herla showed him around at the ruins and he got to know some other deer, though to be honest he was very anxious because most of those where so mighty. Met a bunch of playful fawns and chased around the place with them. Pretty awesome. Mini skull fawns among them again, but this time he had not so big fear of them, the others seemed quite comfortable around them, and furthermore he got pretty much happy with his own skull face, which has an impressive effect on some other deer. No match for the big ones though.

Adorable younger doe. No name.

Spend an idle evening in the birch forest relaxing in the sunlight until Herla and Gehirn came past. In their company was a very shy other deer. A deer that Mr Fawnbrain found more shy than himself. Hard to find... Just a short while he could spend with them until Kylikki called for him in the distance. Met Kylikki in the forest and played.

Woke up at the playground with fog and wolves howling. Oh not that again! Other deer were nuts and danced around him. But "that" seemed far away, Kaikias couldn't smell it anymore. Fog cleared up and the sun came out again.




19-10
Energy: 100%
Health: 100%
Mood: Annoyed - Proud
Thought: I am a big... no not a big doe !
Current Looks: Magpie Pelt, Skull Mask, Antlers still to small to be taken seriously He is still growing so he is slender in built and looks very fragile and female (very much annoying him)
Resembles which breed of deer? - young sambar deer

Kaikias feels mighty and proud today. He woke up and as he raised his head he had no grass leaves blocking his sight, he must have gotten bigger again. A look at his measuring tree proved it - HE WAS BIG. (For the little fawn 4 weeks ago ). His looks had changed, he was still darker, and the skull mask found its way back to his face. Only these antlers...
Was courted by a stag... Tried to convince him he was not a doe. Sitting under a tree ignoring the other one. Still much to learn.

Twins in the pond.
Two deer sharing the same looks (+same picto) exept for the mask standing in the pond... IN THE POND. Kaikias spent about 20 Minutes chasing after their echo until he found out they must be under the surface. Trying to get there was... not such a good idea.
How are they doing it?


18-10
Energy: 30%
Health: ... ? IDK...

Strange things keep happening. When he played in the forest he literally ran into a big rotting mountain of flesh with red antlers and bloody skin dripping from it. What smelled dead and looked dead, came to life soon and was definately the source of that roar he heard so often in the forest. Kaikias retreated to the deep grass but soon found out that that smell was still lingering ON HIM. What he thought to be dirt on his pelt was permanent. He was scared to death... ( what a play of words *giggle* ) as the thick fog vanished, he went to the pond and looked at the surface.
Skull, no eyes, a different voice as he tried to roar... rotting flesh wounds... which strangely did not hurt and did not make him feel weak or ill... more numb.


16-10
- WHAT was that ? -

Funny polonaise next to the pond. Greeting Herla who ran past, but did not seem to bother about the strange gathering. Heard something sounding like a roar, but much more... scary. What was that?

Much later found Herla sleeping under a willow, but something did not seem right. Next to her was another fawn much smaller than himself and somehow with a scary aura. It scented wrong, the air around it tasted like rotting soil. It hat a strange white head, on closer look it was only a skull with no eyes.
All the Zombie deer around Kaikias were bad enough, but seeing this could happen to little fawns made him shake with fear. Hiding under another willow he observed the meadow around the pond. Feeling that everyone was acting strangely, seemed on edge. Half of the deer stood alert listening to the silent depths of the forest, almost as much where calling out unusually often, seemed very nervous to him (or was he imagining this). The strange atmosphere lingered a while, but slowly the normal forest was back and the others calmed down. Kaikias could find no sleep though, the strange roar echoing in his head for hours, making him shiver.

15-10
Health 80%
Energy 85%
No more sneezing and coughing finally. Straying around the forest joining Gehirn and Herla's company. Glad to see them . Of all other deer they are a comforting company for him. He gets assured slowly that they won't chase him away suddenly and Herla made clear, he was welcome. (@sighthoundlady: lovely gesture combination ), spending an idle evening fooling around and playing.
Heard Soile call for him in the distance. Trying to find her, but she was nowhere to be seen.
- Bunny spells all around - *giggles devilish*
Which is soooo much fun... if you get lost on the way to the mushroom circle.

Fooling around casting spells. Great fun, but very tiring.



13-10
Health: 60%
Energy: 60%
Much better. Going to look if the trees are still standing in the forest

to 12-10
Health: 30%
Energy: 5%
- Sick -
Curled up under two fallen trees hiding. Feels so sick. Sleeps most of the day.

06-10
Health 90% (feels a bit sick)
Energy: 50%
Mood: content



05-10
Health 99%
Energy 40%
Mood: fascinated

Ran in panic as the forest seemed tinted in eerie light and got darker and darker and annoying bats chased him through half the forest. So happy to stumble over Stockholm and Herla finally. Herla was fast asleep. The stag was glowing like a giant lantern in the dark. They sat among the flowers and the GLOWWORMS Oo
LOVE GLOW FORMS.... " taste intherethink...."



04-10
Health: 99%
Energy: 90%
Mood: curious, protective

Waking up under the the stone plate at the playground. Beautiful day. Returned to the Crying Idol and was very pleased to meet Herla there, jumped around and played with her, grazing a bit. Place got crowded soon and all the males made him nervous. Lost the group suddenly and found himself alone again. Ran around in the forest and found Herla resting hidden among the bushes with another small fawn, completely unguarded. Thought to stay there and stand... on watch over them. Though he probably wouldn't know what to do, when anything should actually happen.
When two other deer approached, Herla suddenly stood up and chased away. No need to worry about defending anyone then... followed her around to the twin gods, the pond and back to their first resting place. Still not sure if he was welcome, but trusts she would give him a sign if she wouldn't want his presence anymore. Finds her company very comforting. Feels less lost.



03-10

Health: 99%
Energy: 20%
Mood: excited, scared, confused


Running around in the forest rejoicing because of his speed and growing stamina. Went to drink at the Crying Idol, found Herla there again, pleased to see the familiar face (and still very fascinated by her, though he couldn't put his hooves on the reason why).
Impressive stag with her. Decorated him with red and then violet flowers. Very content with the violet result. Maybe just "a little" out of breath so just rest "a moment" (Well he was in dreams within the blink of an eye ) Thought: "... just resting eyes for a minute... get up in a split second.... " Zzzzz

Woke up to blink into the face of Herla and her companion Gehirn (not with fluffy bunny ears this time) greeted them and ran a little around with them. Very tired though and could hardly keep up. Lost their track and went to the Oak to get some more rest. Woke up from loud cries and fighting stags. Approached and was scared but also fascinated. Will sit in viewing distance to learn from the males behaviour. Found Herla and Gehirn in close distance - this forest is too small - , likes Gehirn and probably won't do the bunny spell to him again
Couldn't keep up with them though, to tired. Looking for a hiding place to sleep.


02-10
Bunny spell accidentally got off and hit a doe resting next to a stag. Sat behind a tree praying that the spell would go away before the two wake up. Prayer wasn't answered and the doe seemed kinda upset to him when she raised to tiny bunny size from her sleep. Kaikias didn't intend to transform her, it just happened somehow. Tried to apologize, but the doe and her companion were so kindly greeting him, he couldn't summon enough courage to tell. Ran off then.


29-09
Couldn't find known deer for two days now. Avoids other fawns.
Casting spells on others is his momentary passion, it's pretty much the only thing that puts him in a powerful position over others. He will cast them on sleeping deer or hide behind trees and run off as soon as he sees the effect of the spell. He thinks it's great fun.



Kaikias' 1st Week

The fawn is slowly getting accostumed to the pace of the forest. His first contact with other deer was quite remarkable though. As Kiakias tried to make friends with two other fawns they tried to chase him off. Misjudging the situation he stayed in close distance, just to see the fawns call to a big stag, but that one came not to play chase.
The left flank still hurts and his spotted fawn coat is decorated with three superficial - but pride hurting - holes.

His first night in the forest he spend scared and far away from other deer curled in high grass not far from the twin gods hill.

Next days were much better a friendly buck showed him the forest and he could join a group of other deer for the evening. Met interesting other deer. But the fawn usually managed to get itself lost following another young one deeper into the forest or playing with those orientation absorbing butterflies.