March.20.2010
Today,
Today,
Today,
...was interesting.
I woke up today...
Lucky me. I'm still alive.
I sensed Ravyn's pictogram today. I didn't sense Saosin's...
But there was s/o.m-e+one e-lse...
I didn't know him. He had a skull mask, a butterfly pelt, and antlers with poppies on them. I hid behind a tree nearby, watching. Ravyn was sleeping... but you can never tell. Was she in the dream world, or aware of everything around her and simply looking asleep...?
I didn't have much time to ponder that. The stranger stood up and stared at me. He was confused... confused on why I was there. It was because of Ravyn. She's different. I can sense it. So I need to watch her. Know why she is the way she is.
I, surprised that the stranger had seen me, jumped directly behind the tree. Unfortunately, the stag wasn't fooled. I frequently peeked through the tree - I can do that, you know - but he kept watching. Eventually he beckoned me, and an incredible urge to obey went through me. I couldn't resist even if I had wanted to run far away.
So I went to them.
He laid back down beside Ravyn.
I circled around them, counting... Two deer, mhm. Ravyn, still fast asleep awake. I sniffed them, circling more. I don't know why. I just did.
And then...
I
heard
her.
She whispered to me... I couldn't see her, no, not at all... and she whispered things. She asked me if I was Friiha. She always asks me if I'm Friiha. It's always yes, doesn't she know? She asked other questions, odd questions... if I was a deer. I said yes. But then I felt doubtful. Am I deer? Of course I am, right? Yes? Please, yes?
Then she started asking me bad questions.
Did I want to... kill anyone? Did anyone make me so angry I could just... end them when they were sleeping? Like how Ravyn was sleeping
I said no, I told her to go away, I told her to run where she came from and never see me again neverneverneverneverEVEREVEREVEREVER--
I was very scared, I couldn't see her and that frightened me all the more - what if she tried to hurt me but I couldn't see where she was coming from, where her fangs would rip me to P I E C E S
But the stranger deer provided me with
shelter and nuzzled me to comfort me... the skull against my fur was a silent lullaby and my heart rate slowed to normal.
Thank you...
Ravyn woke up. I don't think she remembered me from when I stalked followed Saosin and her. It's all right. I'm too small to be remembered, the voice said...
Ravyn returned to her sleeping wakefulness and the stranger stag lied down beside her.
The voice was silent.
Spurred by something I can't explain, I ran. Not away, to. The Bridge? I don't know. That's where I ended up. But I couldn't cross. There were two deer.
One had a butterfly pelt with a real deer mask and feather antlers. She shared Virgil's pictogram. But it wasn't Virgil... hm. This will require further observation.
The other had an orange pelt, a real deer mask, and candlers.
And both were hyper.
I was overwhelmed at first... I didn't know what to do with all of that nuzzling and jumping around. Perhaps they thought me some random fawn who nuzzled strangers... but then the Non-Virgil Virgil doe looked at me with surprise. She knew who I was, didn't she? She, within the recesses of her shared mind, remembered Virgil protecting me from the fawnthatwasn'tthere.
I couldn't help myself. They were so energetic. I caught their frenzy like a d i s e a s e and joined in on the hopping and laughing and twitching and spinning and and and and
We went to the Pond. Both deer hopped and splashed, and I followed suit. I went deeper and deeper, the dark waters calling me to come closer...
So I went closer...
I heard a voice.
HER voice, the young fawn voice I always hear...
She beckoned me deeper into the Pond...
I obeyed...
I
saw her, a fawn, a faint red glow about her. I was scared and entranced by her sudden appearance. She smiled at me, I blinked back, and she
pushed me.
I fell. I fell backwards into the water.
She appeared in above me, looking down with a pleasant smile, and her faded forelegs stretched towards me. Her hooves pushed me
DOWNdowndown and held me.
I watched the bubbles float up.
And then I realized.
Bubbles are made of air.
...I had no air in me.
I writhed wildly under her 109874947029374-pound hooves and splashed and my mind whirled, my lungs burning and filling with water and my MINDMYMIND WAS EXPLODING I WAS EXPLODING I HAD NO AIR NOAIRNOAIRNOAIR
I
COULDN'T
BREATHE!!!
Finally, when the Non-Virgil Virgil doe came to see why I was thrashing,
SHE disappeared. I floated to the surface and gasped for air, heart pounding, and I rocketed out of the water.
I couldn't be in there. She would drown me and next time she'd make sure there was NOONETHERETOSAVEME
[right]Both deer came out with me, and luckily didn't go back in. They drank briefly and then turned, and I followed them.
Non-Virgil Virgil doe went into the water beneath the Bridge. So I followed her. And the other deer went into the bridge, but on the bank so that their antlers appeared on the Bridge itself. I jumped over them, avoiding the flames eventhoughitwasdifficult and kept hopping over them to get to the other side. The antlers circled, and the Non-Virgil Virgil doe's pictogram circled with the candlered deer and there was fire E V E R Y W H E R E
The whole Forest SET ON FIRE there were flames in every direction I was blinded from the light I COULDN'TSEEANYTHING except the F I R E and the TREES were f/a/ll/i/n/g and the leaves were|burning|up^ and I >inhaledthesmoke< and I couldn'tbreatheIcouldn'tseeIcouldn'thearANYTHING but the F+I+R+E
And then I ran.
A couple yards off I fell and froze where I was, looking around. The Non-Virgil Virgil doe and the Non-Stranger Stranger deer came quickly to my side, telling me everything was okay, that there wasn't any fire and I wasn't burning, I had only been "spelled"...
Is that what getting spelled feels like?
I don't want to be spelled ever again.
I looked up. There was the deer that burned me alive. Right there.
I ran. I ran as fast as I could go. I cleared the river, and spun around to the other side of the Pond. There was a thick willow tree and I, using my a b i l i t i e s, went through it and hid inside. I didn't want the deer to find me and burn me again. I didn't want anyone to find me.
I went to sleep.
I hope to wake up again.
These entries are amazing.
8D
By Leuvr ♥
That was awesome.
I like how you conveyed your
Esll was the stag sitting beside Ravyn today. He guessed that maybe something was wrong with your fawn when she kept staring into the distance and shaking her head, but he didn't want to interfere too much just in case. She was adorable when she peeked through the tree! I'm glad we had the chance to meet her.
I'm sorry about Ravyn
To be honest, she doesn't really like fawns and it's rare when she takes a liking to one...
I'll keep track of Friiha's pictogram more and make Ravyn interact. (:
Not only that, I'm usually busy a lot when I sit down.
I wish I interacted more, I'm sorry about that.
I'm really honored you wrote about Ravyn, btw. Thank you. <3
I'll add them to Circadian. <3
@Ocean: Fff thank you 8DDD~!!
@Fin: Perhaps it's because she and I are connected, in a way, since I portray my own feelings into her. I don't know. It's explained better in her bio xD I'm glad you have fun reading it - I had fun writing it!
Ah, Esll~!! I'll definitely keep him in mind {stalked his bio just now ;D}
Yeah, there's definitely something off with Friiha. She sees/hears things often... Hehe I LOVED the tree-peeking, her little face in the bark made me 'aww' xD
I'm glad she met you as well, Esll seems like a very interesting stag C:
@Ravyn: Fff it's all right, Friiha feels more stable when there are less deer up and about anyway.
I totally understand, most of my deer don't like fawns either /fail
Aww that would be so sweet (: She senses Ravyn's otherworldliness {LOL} and so is naturally drawn. She'll view Ravyn like a celebrity xD
I guessed maybe you were away~
It's no problem, there's always tomorrow~!! 8D
Aww you're welcome <333
8D YAY~!! /overexcited xD
By Leuvr ♥
Friiha must be "otherworldy"
I don't think Ravyn is much of a celebrity, but thank you! <3
*Adds in the writings now*
She sort of is, I guess
Friiha definitely thinks so~! xP
8D!!!
By Leuvr ♥
Your edits are awesome...
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Omg Ravyn coming from you {as Dag says, "The Edit Queen" xP} that is a gigantic compliment and I can't even begin to tell you how loud I squealed xDDD
Thankyouthankyouthankyou SOSOSOSO much~!!!! !!! !!! ;A;<333
By Leuvr ♥
I'm not that good at editing!
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WHAT. Quote:I'm not that good
^ LIES.
@.@
By Leuvr ♥
Aww, she's so cute.
That's a beautiful screenie edit.
8D Thank you so much
If you like, you can add it to his fanart C:
By Leuvr ♥
Aw. ;~; "Spurred by
"Spurred by something I can't explain, I ran. Not away, to. The Bridge? I don't know."
It's funny that Atty stays mostly on the bridge. > >
I love these~
Cx @.@ Friiha's words are
@.@ Friiha's words are perhaps a foreshadowing of their future meeting...
I'm so glad <3
By Leuvr ♥
Indeed perhaps. c: Or, rather