Terminal Apotheosis - this bio has moved!

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06/03/2016 - BAM

Like the title says, this bio is now on my new account ;v; Crucio insists on me playing him again, so it's that time. It can be found here for those wishing to retrack. If not, that's okay too!

This node won't be used again in the future, but I might keep it for old time's sake. There's a lot of history here - good and bad, and I think it's worth holding onto.

-farts rainbow lazers-

-farts rainbow lazers- 8D~

ADMGDJGSNDKDQ!!!
MINEMINEMINEMINEMINNNEEEEEEEEEE~
HAHA, BATCH.
MINEEEE~
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OHMYGOD THAT WAS SEXYYYY.

OHMYGOD THAT WAS SEXYYYY. /SWOON
Ohbaby aim some of the buttmagic my way ;D ~
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LOL

LOL

OuO -buttscoots over; aims;

OuO
-buttscoots over; aims; fires rainbow fartz-
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*drowns in GAAAAYYYYY* c8

*drowns in GAAAAYYYYY*
c8 ~

WOAHNELLY.

-zooms about like an out of

-zooms about like an out of control jetpack-
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ 8D
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-DEAD x846587687

-DEAD x846587687
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OMG! xD

OMG! xD
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ROFL

ROFL
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(8 &hearts; Btw, Snow.. Judas

(8 ♥
Btw, Snow.. Judas is jelly. LOL~
*flicks a nut at him* 8D
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PFFFLOLOLOL

PFFFLOLOLOL *dead*

......"Alllwaays I wanna beee with you, and make bel-" *shot*

Edit: HO BOY hardcore ninja'd o3o *dead x2*
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HAHA YES.

HAHA YES.
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Track He has caught the

Track

He has caught the interest of my doe, Mauv.
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Haha I noticed, she seems

Haha I noticed, she seems sweet. <3
I'm not sure if Levi will approve but Cru finds her rather nice.
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Unfortunately Mauv and Levi

Unfortunately Mauv and Levi are already not agreeing with each other. But hey, what she doesn't know won't hurt her, eh?
Mauv enjoys Cru's company vury much ^^
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Mhm.

Mhm. <3 I noticed, haha.
Also, I'm sorry for Cru being fairly boring today, he's still pretty stressed and upset over some stuff that's happened recently. He's usually much more outgoing and playful, and he should be next time Mauv sees him also. Sorry.. viewer crashed there for a sec. xD But he's liking the affection too, he needs it right now even from friends and family.
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Tracking =)

Tracking =)

Thank you Kaoori for this drawing!Natali looks beautiful =D
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Ty!

Ty! <3
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mmh sexy CSS in here &hearts;

mmh sexy CSS in here ♥
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Heee. &hearts; Ty.

Heee. ♥ Ty. <3
Unplugged is a CSS God. I just mixed things around.

Btw I'm sorry if Cru's boring right now, he's had some crap going on. :[
He'll be more fun and derpy once some stuff blows over.~
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haha don't worry it's totally

haha don't worry it's totally fine ♥

I just hope Lucy causes no trouble between the two (:
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No, I wouldn't be worried..

No, I wouldn't be worried.. Cru's realizing he's been clinging onto Mauv for support. Not because he feels the way he thought he did at first. He'll be speaking to her soon, probably.. It's probably for the best. Levi and Mauv certainly don't get along, too much friction and Cru loves his sister to death. &hearts
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oh okay I'm glad =) btw I

oh okay I'm glad =)
btw I love what you wrote abozt Lucy xS so cute
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HAHA SHE IS ADORABLE! I love

HAHA SHE IS ADORABLE! I love her, and my little Cruciwhore does too. /smacked
*flings him at* 8D ~ GOMAKELOVEANDRAINBOWS.
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LOL you made my day

LOL you made my day <3
Cruciwhore... omfg x]
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ROFL. I'm glad. 8D He is.

ROFL. I'm glad. 8D

He is. He's a manskank. /snort ♥
At least he's a loyal manskank once he settles down with someone officially. |D
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Oh no, Cru the

Oh no, Cru the manslut...
sounds like he's having some romantic issues LOL
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LOL. Yes, he certainly is..

LOL. Yes, he certainly is.. his own fault though.
He's too much of a clingy lovebug for his own good.

WELP. He's started crushing on Lucy so. o_____o
We'll see where this goes... who knows with him. Crazy stag.
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The doe slowly approached the

The doe slowly approached the familiar stag - her steps were hesitant and doubtful, for once in her life she was feeling quite out of her normal mind set. She didn't want to have to confront her issues at hand, but she also knew she couldn't just sit here and let it all fester and grow worse. Especially with him being so vulnerable and upset already.

"...Crucio."
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The black stag's head lifted

The black stag's head lifted at the sound of her voice; his sullen expression lightened, no matter how subtle, and beneath his mask a soft smile worked its way onto his predatory face. A quiet sound of approval exhaled itself in the form of a sigh, ears perking up, and tipping themselves forward.

"Harlequin," Crucio breathed out, barely more than a whisper on his subdued, weathered tone.

"I couldn't believe my eyes yesterday. I thought I'd seen a ghost. I feared that may be what you were after not seeing you for so long. I am.. relieved to be proved otherwise. You look well.. or so you did... if not for the troubled expression you wear now. My dear friend, is something wrong? You come to me with a heavy heart, and this concerns me greatly.." the Reaper trailed off with a frown. This doe was always so distanced, as if reserved to her own thoughts, never exceptionally affected by that which went on around her.

Something was wrong.
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Her feet seemed to freeze in

Her feet seemed to freeze in place as he addressed her - a small subtle smile forming under her mask. He never ceased to amuse her, a soft chuckle breaking her silence before stepping closer to him. The way he spoke made her feel as if somewhere, at some point, she had some form of importance. To her, someone of such insecurity and denial...was all she truly needed.

"You flatter me. I..I am fine. I am simply worried for you." She would finally be at his side, slowly laying herself down on her stomach next to him. You seem so very distant from when I have last seen you. Is there anything you would like to talk about?
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"... Hmmh.." Crucio responded

"... Hmmh.." Crucio responded after a long pause, laying his head back down again. As he silently pondered, he stretched himself out, front hooves dangling over the edge of the stone slab he was settled on. For the longest time, the stag's eyes went completely blank, before lighting up with guilt all over again.

"Nothing I specifically wish to talk about, or remember. Not right now. What I've done to Mauv today.. is bad enough," Death murmured, pinning his ears back.

"She came to me with an honest attraction, a genuine desire to know me better, to become affectionate and loving.. and what did I do? I led her on falsely, I gave her hope unfairly, I lied to her for my own selfish reasons. She's sweet, she's kind.. she didn't deserve that. I don't know if I have the heart to even tell her, if she's not come to understand this already," he went on, his normally strong, stable voice beginning to falter under the pressure as he neared the end.

"I feel ready to throw myself at the first poor soul willing to have me, Harley, but not because I love them; because I need the security, the closeness, the comfort that comes with being bound to someone. Does that make me awful..?" What sort of question was that? Of course it did.

"Not only that.. I've upset my sister with my blind disobedience. Leviathann isn't about to suffer fools, and she won't suffer this fool either. I can not blame her for that. If she'd have at me then so be it, if she only knew I was sorry for what I'd done."
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She frowned. This was not

She frowned. This was not like him at all. She always knew him as the strong goofball who only wanted to have fun and do his job at the same time. Her heart sank to see someone she cared for so down within himself. How could someone like her help him?

It all seemed so hopeless.

"It is...normal to wish for love. When you are lonely, any form of affection and acceptance seems to only way to happiness." The doe lowered her head, one leg knocking against her mask in just the right way to slip it off her antlers and face. Another moments hesitation came before she would rest her head near his, talking low in an attempt to comfort him. "I know of this feeling very much. Far too much for my liking, I may add..but I will assure you it will get better with time. You have many who care for you and crave your smile." She offered him a gentle yet small smile. "As for the sister troubles...I feel she will forgive you in time. Family never truly fades. You have not the need to worry."
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A soft smile worked its way

A soft smile worked its way onto his face. It was times like this that he got to see a side of Harley that was often far away from everyone else. There was a silent trust and understanding with her that helped to put him at ease, and now was no different.

"You're right," He hummed back quietly, that smirk growing ever so slightly. He mimicked her in removing his mask, which he simply nudged with a foreleg gently, the softest touch from him dissolved it into grains of sand at his will that vanished on the wind. It would come back to Death, when called for.

"It's made me realize how many I know that are loyal to me. I wouldn't have expected that.. it's.. comforting. I'm happy to have family here with me, and you. Between you all, it's made this easier to cope with. I should have seen it coming. This time, I was blind." He fell into silence again, his features relaxing with his tired expression. The deep circles under his eyes seemed even darker than usual today. There was a fleck of life gone from his pale eyes, one that would never come back, or would never be the same if it did.

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"And I am grateful for you,

"And I am grateful for you, my friend... You have filled a deep void in me that I feel I have needed for a long time. I returned simply for you. You seemed to need me more than any other time." Her eyes closed as she relaxed, a soft sigh followed soon after. "Everyone is blind at some point in their lives...I do not hold it against you." She took a few moments to allow the words to sink for both of them, opening her eyes again ever so slightly to stare straight forward. "If there is anything I can do for you, please do not hesitate to ask it of me."
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With a resolute huff, Crucio

With a resolute huff, Crucio nodded.

"Of course I will. You know I will.. but.. thanks for the offer," he added, dismissing the matter with a gentle smirk. Shifting, his muzzle bumped ever so slightly against the doe's, for but a fraction of a second. It was subtle, affectionate contact that otherwise seemed to hold no real significance for him. None that he allowed to become visible, anyhow; this, he held on the inside, quickening his pulse nervously.

As he lifted his head again, he touched the tip of his nose to her nape. Those normally dangerous canines would be used now as points to gently groom through the much smaller deer's fur, combing through the thick tufts of silver they came across. He paused, simply to speak, then would resume after immediately in an affectionate, but casual manner;

"And you? Where have you been? Has time been good to you?" It had been so long.
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"Cru, I'm sorry... I'm not

"Cru, I'm sorry... I'm not good at making choices like this.."
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tracking~ &hearts;

tracking~ ♥

adorable art by Tuoho! ♥
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&hearts; ~ @Uwharrie: "...

♥ ~

@Uwharrie: "... I know," Crucio murmured half-heartedly, turning away. He wasn't mad at Nane, no.. far from it. Above all else, he felt hurt and abandoned, having hoped that just maybe he could find companionship in her that one day. The black stag gave a light shake of his head in irritation, exhaling a soft groan under his breath.

"This is a mess.. isn't it?"
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Nane frowned at his tone. She

Nane frowned at his tone. She felt awful for running away from both him and Tandem... But more so Crucio, he was her brother...
She sighed... nothing over the past few days was turning out right.

She leaned a bit closer to him, like she was about to nuzzle him, but stopped, unsure how he would take the action.
"It has seemed a bit messy.."

She took a deep breath before continuing. She wasn't quite sure how to make the words come out and make sense... but she tried.
"I'm sorry I havn't acted much like a sister.. Please, just know I'll be here for you."
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Crucio simply smirked weakly

Crucio simply smirked weakly as she went on speaking, as if the gesture required more effort than he was able to give. But he stretched out on his stomach, craning that long neck around and curling around the much smaller doe in an almost protective manner. He lay his head down in front of her, easing his eyes shut. While there was despair in every little movement, right now, he also seemed content in how own ways.

"I know you don't want to choose sides. And it's been difficult for you.. not this, but everything else. Your body is marred, sister, from the birds last night. I know your mate's been gone as well. Honeyfur, Phobos.. my other sister, and brother.. have been gone also. I've wondered what's become of them, I worry about them, as do you.. but I understand. I apologize for my rash behaviour as of late, my mind's been far from in the right place and I don't deny that. I ask only that you have patience with me as I begin to sort things out." The black stag concluded with a resolute hum thoughtfully. His tired eyes flicked open a small fraction of the way, enough to flash Nane a short glance, but one that was warm and forgiving. Then, they shut again, overcome by fatigue from grief and strain alike.
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She sighed softly again as he

She sighed softly again as he curled his neck arouund her. She absently nuzzled his neck.
"There's no need to apologize, but in any case, I'd forgive you... I'll be patient, there's no use trying to rush the process of healing."

She turned to catch that fleetingly warm gaze before his eyes close again. She had no care for her wounds, they would heal with time. She only hoped the same was true with her brother.
Nane returned to continue to nuzzle along his neck affectionantely.

She hoped Honey, Phobos, and Flammel would return soon... Everyone needed their family.
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^this diary entry... I

^this diary entry... I laughed.so.damn.long.

Trololotrack. C:


Trololotrack. C:
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@Schutz: LOOLLOL 8D

@Schutz: LOOLLOL 8D <3

Nirwana: Ty ;A; <3 I should talk Shineri too. ♥

SO GUYS. EVER SEEN A POTENTIAL RELATIONSHIT GO DOWN IN THE SPAN OF FIVE MINUTES?
That was it. (8 Right there.
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^ that might just have been a

^ that might just have been a record setter there
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^ Probably.

^ Probably.
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"Why does Death cry?" The

"Why does Death cry?"

The voice held a soft and curious tone as the golden-pelted deer regarded Crucio. From across the forest, Oliver had felt that stirring of sadness, anger and confusion. It made his heart heavy for the suffering soul that called out to him without use of any words or sound. The golden stag tentatively sniffed at Death's skull, and he smiled inwardly. The smell of death never bothered him, really, nor did Crucio's appearance frighten him. Oliver was not one to judge; he was one to comfort. To guide through the darkness, lighting the way. And Crucio...he needed that guidance, so desperately.
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"Death cries for no one,"

"Death cries for no one," Crucio retorted with an unintended bitter edge to his tone.

"Some cry for it, some welcome it, many run away from it.. but it does nothing but what it's meant to do. It shatters ties, tears relationships limb from limb, brings grief and sorrow, and pity. It's a form of release, of escape, but also of great ssuffering.. why should it feel any different?" The stag said coldly, tipping his muzzle down as his eyes eased shut. What had happened today didn't matter. There was nothing that could be done about it. He'd be a fool to dwell on it.. which he was. So, he must be a fool, then.

"Why would you even ask me this? It's of no concern to you."