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Feel free to interact*Both text and visual roleplay are welcome. If you have been given my Skype/Discord address, you are welcome to interact there as well. with Phaios and Endriaga here.
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I decided I really didn't like the back-end of that journal code :I So here we are



Note: Endriaga can generally be assumed to be resting with Phaios or hanging around in a tree nearby [but likely will not be logged in]. Not a deer as she was before, but instead a miniature dragon.


12-18-2022

Physical
Denotes physical fitness - wounds, illness, etc.
: Healthy. [100/100]
Mental
Mental health determines the stability of emotional health, rationality and decision-making skills, and emotional recovery time.
: Well [90/100]
Emotional
Emotional health is an indication of the state of self-perceived well-being. It is not necessarily bound by "happy" and "unhappy."
: Content [90/100]
Demeanor
Current behavior and posture/body language.
: Quiet, thoughtful

How many years has it been?


Has spent the last few months with little in the way of drama. Content to be bored most of the time, although she does at times feel quite lonely. As such, she has been happily reconnecting with Illrose and Carmine when she comes across them. In particular, surprised and incredibly grateful when first Illrose and then Carmine sought her out in the deep fog of October and stayed with her for a number of days until it passed; the mist bound her senses uncomfortably and left her on edge and feeling blind, but having a steady presence greatly eased that stress.

A little more melancholy now that the snow has arrived, often lost in thought. Not really a fan of the cold. Spending a little more time around Eraline's grave when she's on her own.


Previous Entries

Pica ducks her head in a

Pica ducks her head in a greeting before tilting her head, birdlike, to examine the eye catching crimson band. "What.. what be bright red band for?" she chirrups inquisitively. She casts a curious eye to the Strange One before returning her attention to the of-same.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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The doe's head tilts to one

The doe's head tilts to one side as she watches Vittani's little ritual, slightly amused. Well... okay then!
Peering back at the fawn, she considers the question for a moment; no one had asked before, oddly enough. "It means I am Bonded to another," she replies. "She's a deer now, too, but she used to be a little dragon. Her name is Endriaga. It's red because she's red." Things were a little more complex than that, but she figures it ought to satisfy a fawn's curiosity.

Wide teal eyes squinting with

Wide teal eyes squinting with concentration, Pica sifts through the meagre knowledge that she had gained in the few days she had been born, but none came up with the word 'dragon'. And so the next question came to light, as she ambles over to sniff the doe politely. "Dragon?"

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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Kaoori: *finds a mess at her

Kaoori: *finds a mess at her home later* THIS IS WHY WE CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS
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SORRY KAOORI, THE TREE HAD IT

SORRY KAOORI, THE TREE HAD IT COMIN' : (
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"Yes," Phai answers with a

"Yes," Phai answers with a nod as the little one totters over. "It's like a lizard - the kind that run around on rocks - but with wings like a... like a bat, I suppose. Those little black things." Her head lowers so that she's a little closer to eye level with the child. "What's your name, little one?"

Pica finds that pretending to

Pica finds that pretending to understand is much easier than trying to get one's head around a fact. She nods solemnly, and with an air of dignity says; "Pica's name be Pica." Formalities over, she hop-skips around the of-same happily.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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[Sorry for the delay in

[Sorry for the delay in response... I guess Rhhya isn't replying any more? Was trying to wait for her]

"Pica, hm?" She chuckles lightly as the little one flits about. "You can call me Phai. Where'd you come from, little one?"

[does not know D8] To

[does not know D8]
To attention! Her ears flop forwards, and she gives the of-same a isn't-it-obvious? look.
"Pai don't know? Well," she tells the of-same importantly, "Pica comes from her mamma."

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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The doe barely contains a

The doe barely contains a snort of laughter before she re-composes herself. "I see," she answers with a similar level of seriousness. "And does your mamma let you wander off by yourself?" The mispronunciation of her name is unacknowledged, but not unnoticed; she finds it rather endearing. Fawns are too cute to be corrected.

Watching the of-same

Watching the of-same attentively, Pica interpreted a slight flicker of another emotion across the of-same's face as understanding. In return, she did her best to keep control of her attention span and not to look - concentrate! she scolded herself. In answer to the of-same's lilting question, she scrunched up her nose, recollecting her short memory span, and after a few false starts and hesitations managed to come up with a sheepish; "Pica can't remember."

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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"You can't remember?" she

"You can't remember?" she repeats, mildly amused. Well, that's probably a 'no,' then. "Do you remember where your mama is?" Couldn't have a little lost fawn, now, could they? "You can stay with me until you find her, if you like," the doe offers.

About to continue talking and

About to continue talking and babbling in a toddler-like way, Pica stops in the process of taking a deep breath, and snaps her mouth shut. "Mama - mama had flowers in her antlers." It had been so long since she had seen her mama that she'd not really noticed how she looked any more, but at the mention of staying with the of-same, Pica's whole posture brightens up and her eyes hold a child-like glee. "Stay..?!"

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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"Flowers in her antlers, hm?

"Flowers in her antlers, hm? She sounds very lovely." And very vague... Half the deer in the Forest had flowers in their tines. Phaios smiles softly at Pica's enthusiasm, though. She hadn't quite expected the fawn to be so utterly thrilled to be offered somewhere to stay. "Well, I don't see why not. It's an awfully big forest to wander around all alone, you know. If you ever need help and you can't find your mamma, you can come find me, okay?" What can she say - she's a sucker for a cute fawn.

Pica huffed - she saw her

Pica huffed - she saw her mother as somebody who would protect her, but not somebody to run to willy-nilly. "Pica doesn't need to cling to her mama like other fawns. Like Pica says, Pica is a big girl now." And she does the fawn equivalent to a pout, lowering her ears to flop down and peering up childishly. "Can't Pica play with Pai?"

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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A quiet chuckle. "Of course

A quiet chuckle. "Of course you are! But even big girls need help sometimes," the doe answers gently. Her head tilts to one side as the fawn puts on her display. How's she supposed to resist those big eyes? "Well... what kind of game did you have in mind?"

Pica wriggles with delight -

Pica wriggles with delight - here was a fun of-same! Her mind races with possible games, but the one that really caught her attention was a good game - hide and seek. But more hide-and-scamper-ninja-style. The cheeky fawn really got into the spirit of it - with a squeal of - "hideandseek!" She had dashed off, feathered band flashing.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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The doe blinks with surprise

The doe blinks with surprise as Pica abruptly races away. Hideandwh... Oh! A lopsided smile works at the corners of her muzzle. "Alright, then." Lowering her head, Phai drapes one foreleg across her snout to obscure her eyes before she raises her voice to count. "Ooone... Twoooo... Threeee..." She pauses for a moment to wonder how high she's supposed to go. "Fooour..." How high could she count, anyways? "Fiiive..." Well, they'd be there forever if she tried to figure it out. "Six!" Maybe ten's a good number. "Seeeven..." Yeah, ten's good. "Eight... Nine..." Phaios takes a dramatic pause for breath before announcing, "Ten! Here I come!"
Taking a peek from beneath her limb, she hopes the little fawn hasn't managed to completely clear the birch by now - though the shorter grass of the pine forest might make her easier to spot.

Pica stifles the urge to

Pica stifles the urge to giggle madly. She had looped around quietly to decide on a hiding place - right behind Pai. But this was a dangerous spot, so she must be careful. If even one small sound was made Pai would find her immediately. So she stood very still, and tried to quieten her breath and also resist the temptation to peek from under the log to see exactly what Pai was doing. A dramatic pause from the counting... "Ten!"

The game was on!

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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Getting to her feet, Phai

Getting to her feet, Phai stretches legs stiff from sitting too long in one place. It doesn't take long, though, before her snout falls back to the ground to seek out the traces of Pica's scent. With the fawn having been in the immediate area for some time, though, it's difficult to find a precise trail. Instead, she opts to mosey in the direction she'd first seen Pica bolt when the little fawn had enthusiastically declared the game. The doe pokes behind a couple of trees before bringing her head above the grass again to peer about for any sign of the little puff ball... who's conveniently about the same color of the grass. "Hmmm," she muses aloud - mostly for Pica's entertainment; she assumed the munchkin wouldn't have run too far, and if she's hmming to herself... Oh well.

Ah, no! There was a bug

Ah, no! There was a bug crawling up her side! As silently as possible, Pica frantically twitched her hide in an attempt to make it fall off, and although it did, she felt all shivery after that, imagining bugs crawling into her tail-fluff that she had recently preened. At last, she couldn't take it any more. Cautiously, she lowered her head, squinting in the bright light to inspect her surroundings. No sign of Pai. Scrambling out hastily, she tip-toed to another location - under a dense bush. Here it was dry and provided very good cover, and she was miffed at herself for not finding this earlier.

She stiffened with fright when she heard a sound. Her fur standing stiff, she pokes a nose out through a gap in the branches, only to catch Pai's scent. She withdrew quickly, small frame tensed.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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Lucky for Pica, Phai's focus

Lucky for Pica, Phai's focus is elsewhere as she sneaks from one hiding place to the other, and the fawn disappears into the undergrowth just as Phaios turns back that way. The sudden motion in the bush draws her attention, however, and she wanders casually back towards Pica's hideaway. The doe tilts her head to peer at the leafy covering of the bush, almost upside-down. Inside of it, huh? Suddenly, she bounces to one side to peek behind the shrub with a triumphant "Aha!" which soon fades into a "Hm. Little birdies playing tricks on me in the bushes?" - because, of course, the little fawn is under it, not behind. She feigns a frown and a puzzled look as she peers around the area again. "I guess Pica must be really good at hide and seek!"

Mentally, Pica does the

Mentally, Pica does the equivalent of a facepalm. Why did she move so fast? She must've rustled the bush's leaves on the way in, though she didn't seem to have felt it. Suddenly, four brown legs appear through the foilage, and Pica freezes, nearly not even breathing. Had she been found? A shadow falls over the dappling sunlight in the bush as Pai tilts her head down, and Pica is relieved that the dark interior of the bush was hard to see into.

She was would up so tight that she very nearly squealed with surprise at the loud excamation, but turned to jerking her whole body with alarm. Had Pai seen her now? But no, upon hearing Pai talk of birdies and tricks and bushes, Pica feels safer, and edges away from where the sunlight shone through the leaves. Peering through the gap though, gave Pica a boost of confidence. Pai looked puzzled on where she was, and she felt very proud at her hiding skills - after all, she had practised her skills with other of-sames to find out whether they could see her.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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[Pica is so adorable @.@ Glad

[Pica is so adorable @.@ Glad to see her in-Forest~ I've got to get some sleep, now, but I'll certainly reply here tomorrow~ Going to leave the Forest up, but feel free to have Pica wander!]

[okiedokie.

[okiedokie. <3 Thank you. ; u ;]

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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"Now, where could that little

"Now, where could that little fawn be?" she muses aloud as she turns herself about to 'search' the area again. "I bet she's too smart to hide around here... Maybe I'll check the pond." Light hooves carry her towards the valley which holds the Forest's water supply, but she doesn't make it quite that far; she finds the first wide-based birch along the most direct route and glances behind her to check for Pica before ducking behind it with a mischievous little smile. Crouching, she waits to see if the little fawn decides to do some seeking of her own.

Pica was immensely relieved.

Pica was immensely relieved. She would've been very embarrassed if she had been found in such a short time - the shortest. Seeing Pai's brown legs moving off, she heard muffled speech through the leaves and gave a mischievous grin in the semi-dark of the bush. More time for hidey and seeky! Her ears pricked, she listened until she heard Pai's hooves no more before softly, ever so softly and one carefully placed hoof at a time, inched out of the bush without a sound. No sound at all.

But it was a much different story in Pica's head. Don'trundon'trundon'trunstaystillstaystill... etc. Her hyperactive nature only allowed so much though, and it very much proved that she took this game very seriously. Clearing the last few leaves, Pica shook herself out before scampering ninja-style behind tree to tree, peeking out before every advance in the diraction Pai had been going. She was nearing a very fat birch tree, and Pica felt secure. So far, none had called out her name, and the birch would provide a good hiding place at the base, covering in ferns and moss as it was.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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Fortunately Phai can't see

Fortunately Phai can't see Pica's Mission Impossible routine from behind the wide trunk, or she might have laughed and given herself away. Tall ears hunted intently for any sign of the tiny fawn's approach. Keen as they are, she still has a hard time picking up such little hooves until they're dangerously close. With light, practiced steps, the doe carefully circles the tree when she thinks Pica's reached it, doing her best to stay on the opposite side.
She considers, for a moment, just jumping out and surprising the fawn like she'd originally intended, but another idea strikes her. Instead, she waits, perfectly still on the other side, for Pica to start moving again.

SQUISHY SNUGGLES! Except now

SQUISHY SNUGGLES! Except now Pica's being covered by Pai-fluff.

Creeping closer, Pica begins to feel slightly uneasy - Pai had been gone for a long while now. But she shook it off - The bigwater had a lot of hidey places, so that's why. Crouching down, Pica makes sure that her body cannot be seen from any of-same coming back from the direction of the pond before wriggling forwards on her belly to conceal herself under the fern fronds, occasionally poking out a head to sniff at the air. Was that Pai's scent? Was she coming back already? Shrinking down into the ferns, the small fawn curls up tighter and shuffles closer to the base of the fat birch.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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Phaios wonders if maybe she

Phaios wonders if maybe she was mistaken; Pica hasn't made any noise for a while, now. Maybe it really was a bird this time? The doe tip-toes further around the birch, peeking around cautiously. Maybe she'd already passed the tree and gone on to the pond? Brow furrowing, she peers back the way she'd come. Or had Pica gone some other route all together? Oh, fooh. Indecisive, she turns back around to make sure the fawn hadn't snuck up behind her and takes another few steps backwards, unaware that one hoof falls particularly close to the little one's new hideaway.

A soft tap of hooves on the

A soft tap of hooves on the ground - Pica froze as four brown legs entered her limited field of vision. So Pai had been hiding too! Mentally, Pica deemed Pai a worthy opponent in hidey and seeky - not many would have used such a clever way to lure her out of her hidey.
Pica stiffens with alarm as Pai takes steps backwards, becoming very worried when she didn't seem to stop - but she does. And one hoof is temptingly close. Stifling a giggle, Pica pokes out one slender leg to tickle the fur on her leg (sounds weird...) before withdrawing it hastily.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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The doe yelps with surprise,

The doe yelps with surprise, head whipping back to snap instinctively at the source of the unexpected tingling. She comes away looking bewildered with a clump of leaves in her mouth and a bare patch of ground in front of her. Did she really just freak out over some ferns rubbing on her? But it happened after she stopped moving! Wait... Is that a little hoof poking out there?
"Why, you little imp," she laughs, fronds spilling from her jaws. "Does it count if I find you after you find me?"

[nightnight!

[nightnight! <3]
All Pica managed was a squeal before Pai snapped down on the ferns with surprising speed, tearing away a clump of her cover. Caught red hooved - Pica attempted to draw her fore leg closer to her body, but there was no more room, and she admitted defeat. She crawled out, shaking out her fur as she did so before nuzzling Pai happily - "Dunno!" And it seemed quite obvious that she didn't care either way, except for the fact that it was fun.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

Yeah that whole fawn herd

Yeah that whole fawn herd thing was getting to be too much and the mini fawn Keshy took in was scared of the "big kids" lol. Had to take her away a little further to watch from a distance so she wouldn't be trampled. Never saw so many fawn at a time before!! Keshy was glad to see Phai again. ^_^
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rofl you gave me a good laugh

rofl you gave me a good laugh tonight. |D
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Lol poor Phai. I feel so bad

Lol poor Phai. I feel so bad for her.
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Calida - Yeah, it was quite a

Calida - Yeah, it was quite a crowd, lol.

Kimi - lmao, Isobel's going to be so confused with all the adult figures in her life saying opposite things xD "BUT PHAI, MIRIAM SAID I COULD!"

Waning - Haha, I get that a lot : P

PIKACHUICHOOSEYOU Niriya -

Phaios chuckles quietly, bending down to nose the fawn on the head as she's nuzzled. "You're a pretty good hider!" She drops down into the ferns so she's a little closer to Pica's level. "I used to be a pretty good hider, too, where I came from. I'm not as good here, though, since I'm shaped different." She wonders in the back of her mind for a moment if Pica was one of the deer who'd come from another world, too, but leaves it to the fawn to bring it up on her own; she's well aware not everyone here liked where they came from, and sees no reason to risk upsetting little Pica for no reason.

Pika pika! That is a good

Pika pika!

That is a good nickname. -evil laugh-
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Pica feels the fur on the top of her head being rubbed, and she churrs with delight. At the comment on her hiding skills, she churrs even louder and wriggles happily. She stepped back, though to give Pai some more space and looked solemnly into her eyes as Pai describes shapes, but what Pics really picked up on was that Pai was a good hider, and this excited Pica to no end; though, she was still confused about "what shapes did Pai have? Circle? Square?" Pica wonders.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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The doe snorts as she tries

The doe snorts as she tries not to laugh at Pica's question. "Not as such, no... I had wings and bushier fur that changed colors when I wanted it to, so I could match the ground just right so no one could see me. And a pointy nose and sharp teeth, and a long tail. No one could find my scent unless they were next to me, and I could walk so quiet - with soft paws - you'd have to see the grass move to catch me." Her eyes are distant and wistful, though she's still smiling; the downgrade had been rough, though her species' skills weren't always as necessary here as they had been there. "They called our kind 'The Hidden,' because we were so good at it."
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HAVE YOU HAD ENOUGH OF

HAVE YOU HAD ENOUGH OF THANE'S FAMILY YET, PHAI?

/srsly going to bed now
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NO >/ *stubborn* AND NOW

NO >/ *stubborn*
AND NOW THERE'S TOO LITTLE OF IT, MORO, YOU JERK.

Sleep well xD

Pica gaped in wonder - then

Pica gaped in wonder - then nobody would be able to find her if she didn't want to! Excited, Pica proclaims "I wanna be a Hidden!" She puffs out her fur, but finds that she lacks the other qualities. Stumped, she muses for a while before giving up and sulking quietly next to Pai.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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Phai sighs wistfullly. "Yeah,

Phai sighs wistfullly. "Yeah, me too." Being a deer was alright, but there were certainly days she missed her old self. "But I bet if you practice really hard, you'll be almost as good," she encourages the tiny fawn, "and you can be the Hidden Deer." Yes, she sucks at making up names.

Pica lifted one flap of an

Pica lifted one flap of an ear curiously. Couldn't Pai turn back? But first - something more attention seeking was the fact that one day, maybe she could be a Hidden Deer! Whatever that was. Pica thought that Pai ment of-sames' but she couldn't be sure. Puffing out her fur again, Pica does her -ninja-scamper, this time with an exaggerated show of quietness and glances to Pai for approval. "Like this?"

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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An amused smile crosses her

An amused smile crosses her lips. "Not bad... Here." Heaving herself to her feet, Phaios crouches slightly and stalks forward with a few slow, cautious steps. "See how the grass isn't quite solid all over? There are little patches that are thinner. Step in those, and put your hoof down slow, toe first so you smooth the grass down instead of crunch it." She eyes the fawn for a moment, wondering if she could manage steps big enough, especially in the taller grass. Ah, well.


[Ahmg hiding in the tree, rofl. Pica kills me. That deer Phai's next to in-game is dead, by the by, lol. And I'm about to hit the hay - test tomorrow ;-;]
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Crazy ~and~ bored. >u> also

Crazy ~and~ bored. >u>

also wtf I thought I'd tracked this. :c
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^lmao, you win a prize ALL

^lmao, you win a prize


ALL the cookies!
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YAY COOKIES 8D

YAY COOKIES 8D

[Pica was scared by Pai's

[Pica was scared by Pai's lack of reaction you see. D8 She'll be back to hide away to peer at the poor deer. You can go 'hit the hay'. <3 Pica'll keep you company with them tests.]

Aha! So that was how you could move much more silently - Pica was just used to putting down her hooves slowly, but this technique - this would let her move much faster and more silently! Regarding Pai with something akin to awe, she attempts this technique, delicately placing one tiny hoof after the other, though, wincing when she hears a slight frussh of grass against her hooves. "..Pica's getting there!" she 'frowns' in concentration.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

Confused her soul when

Confused her soul when looking into the eyes Phaios. Very confused. Perhaps anxiety, sadness, and she knew just suddenly saw him in the eyes of someone else. It was strange to look at the picture that she knew how to feel. Very quietly in the falling dusk approached Phaios. "Hi... Hello... Hi." greeted almost in a whisper, to take her existing presence highlighted.

"What... is... wrong? You look..." She paused, searching for the right word. "... sick." she added after a short pause, and took one more step towards Phaios.