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Feel free to interact*Both text and visual roleplay are welcome. If you have been given my Skype/Discord address, you are welcome to interact there as well. with Phaios and Endriaga here.
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I decided I really didn't like the back-end of that journal code :I So here we are



Note: Endriaga can generally be assumed to be resting with Phaios or hanging around in a tree nearby [but likely will not be logged in]. Not a deer as she was before, but instead a miniature dragon.


12-18-2022

Physical
Denotes physical fitness - wounds, illness, etc.
: Healthy. [100/100]
Mental
Mental health determines the stability of emotional health, rationality and decision-making skills, and emotional recovery time.
: Well [90/100]
Emotional
Emotional health is an indication of the state of self-perceived well-being. It is not necessarily bound by "happy" and "unhappy."
: Content [90/100]
Demeanor
Current behavior and posture/body language.
: Quiet, thoughtful

How many years has it been?


Has spent the last few months with little in the way of drama. Content to be bored most of the time, although she does at times feel quite lonely. As such, she has been happily reconnecting with Illrose and Carmine when she comes across them. In particular, surprised and incredibly grateful when first Illrose and then Carmine sought her out in the deep fog of October and stayed with her for a number of days until it passed; the mist bound her senses uncomfortably and left her on edge and feeling blind, but having a steady presence greatly eased that stress.

A little more melancholy now that the snow has arrived, often lost in thought. Not really a fan of the cold. Spending a little more time around Eraline's grave when she's on her own.


Previous Entries

My!

My!
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lol

lol

"He told me that I and my

"He told me that I and my brother are the last descendants. Really last... and we are also the last heirs to his throne..." she said. "My brother is to take the whole kingdom, I only get smaller estates Pine Hills. Necklaces what we've got, we have to bring heritage. I got it at the Highlands on the Playground when I was behind him last time..."

Asked about Ramsus just had to laugh. "He's really stupid... I met recently with little beast that looks like a deer, but the deer is not... Verati, Vintanti...? I do not remember her name. He knows her since childhood, but her hair has a habit of changing color... and she said he does not remember her..." she laughed. "He began to treat it aggressively, when last changed color... Since then, as if he did not know. Maybe something stupid, but it's also made ??and angry at her, like me..." she said. "Who is this, that the grim monster? Said you called Ramsus... You know him for a long time, right? He killed my father once?"
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"Necklaces?" Her eyes flick

"Necklaces?" Her eyes flick down to Irie's neck. "No one owns land here, Irie... The Forest is shared with everyone. There aren't kings or kingdoms. The deer are free." Is that all Athair had wanted the children for? To be the heirs of a dying lineage? She hadn't liked him before, but this news makes her blood boil. How dare he.
Vintanti? "Vittani?" That sounded right. She hadn't seen or heard from the strange doe in a while, come to think of it. "Yes, his name is Ramsus. He protected your mother when that stag wouldn't leave her alone, and after he threatened to harm me. He did kill him, because he was so angry for what the stag had done."

"I do not have any herd? I do

"I do not have any herd? I do not have anything to seize the...?" she asked curiously and then her ears cocked. "Oh, yes! Vittani! Its name is terribly wrong remembers..." she said. "Once again disappeared. Every day I saw her hunt on the Pond; she's trying fishing fish, her name is... armn catfish?, but maybe just changed the color and therefore can not see her." she laughed.

"Ramsus protect my mom and you, and why to me because my father behaves so badly why do he still blame?"
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"You have a family, and

"You have a family, and friends, but there aren't really herds in the Forest. No one owns anything - they just have favorite places to be." Her head tilts to one side. "I haven't seen her in a long time. Not since she grew up." The question about Ramsus takes her a moment to answer. "Well... because sometimes bad memories are hard to get rid of, and some deer don't do well with them. They do the wrong thing and blame someone who is innocent." That sounded familiar... Hadn't she just dealt with that earlier today? Uf. "But he hasn't hurt you, and I think if you were in trouble he would help if you needed it. He isn't so bad, just... moody."

"I doubt it." she said. "I do

"I doubt it." she said. "I do not believe him, but when you talk about him, so is that it's such an overgrown hairy toothy knight, right?" giggled and shook her head, then turned serious. "His assistance I doubt it very much. I think if he someone does not like, does not help him. Has a no reason... But in a way to protect me anymore - when I was not yet in the world, is not it? Protecting my mom and me thus." said intently. Adored grandmother of someone as gross as Ramsus could speak so... gently. Then he looked at her. "She has a long neck. That's all I can tell you, I see her I just randomly, and changing at her scars." she said, and shook up. "Maybe but died, so she can not see."

She paused and looked at the Pond. She's the First Forest was never often. Lived most of his life in Birch Forest and it was so unnatural to be in this darker gray forest. But she knew that the first day many new deer, many interesting creatures. Her thoughts went back to the recent battle two huge stags - Saosin and Rothrust. She wondered if the red warrior at all in order and if his companion Gold Buck ever see... Since then it has never seen.

After a brief moment of thought, sight. "What do I do, Grandma? I do not want to go home..."
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Phai hadn't heard the word

Phai hadn't heard the word 'knight' in a while; it takes her a moment to recall its meaning. "He's protected me more than once, so I suppose he is something of a knight, yes," she smiles. "And yes, he helped make sure you and Autheiu would be born safe and healthy. That's why I say he would probably still help you if you needed it."
A long neck... Yes, that sounded right. "Yes... I remember her. I used to see her with Ramsus, actually. I didn't know her very well, though. I would hope she is well."
The doe follows Irie's gaze out towards the water and closes her eyes with a sigh in the brief silence. When her granddaughter speaks again, Phaios peers back down at the younger doe. "Then stay with me for a while. You're always welcome to, little one."

"And yet he accuses me.

"And yet he accuses me. Confusion I have in him," shaking her head. Why protect her mother and ensure that it is born she and her brother health? And why do it now behaves? He acted thus possibly to all who not knew... She might think about it later, he might calm down if she thanked him because she is healthy and alive and that she actually... grateful? Despite all the difficulties of her life, she was glad that the world may know. "Maybe." Added yet about Vittani. "Last but seemed to not have long to live - was skin and bones, sick and big wound on her shoulder..." she said. "Maybe somewhere. She hides." she said, and ended the next call.

Then just gently moved to her grandmother and twisted her head to her shoulders. "I'll be here with you, grandma..." she said softly, pulling back legs to the body.
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"He is confusing," she

"He is confusing," she agrees. They'd always had an awkward relationship, though she'd grown to accept and even like the strange stag. "That's a shame," she remarks, regarding Vittani.
When Irie moves next to her, Phai curls around the smaller doe gladly, a yawn splitting her jaws. "Good. I'm glad you're safe; I was worried when Aria said you were missing. It's good to see you, dear." Another yawn. Sleepy Phai!


[It's 6:00 in the morning, haha. I really should sleep soon.]

Irie twisted beside

Irie twisted beside grandmother as well. "I'm glad to see you," she said. Yawned and slowly closed her eyes.
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Ooohw, wow! :_D
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Smiling, Phai rests her head

Smiling, Phai rests her head on the ground and dozes off content; at least something went well today.
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Haha, yeah. At least I don't work tomorrow! : D
Thanks for the roleplay <3 Good night! Or... morning, I guess. Or evening, where you are? lol.

(tracking, and thanks to Phai

(tracking, and thanks to Phai for helping Calida earlier when she was with "her" fawn. She secretly appreciated the bit of help ^_^ )


At least....I think it was Phai....didn't get a good picto look but the set seemed to match well.
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Oh? Sounds like something

Oh? Sounds like something Phai would do, but I haven't been in since Sunday because of school, lol.
Thanks for the track, though :3

Ahh, okies. She came down

Ahh, okies. She came down from the hill Phai seems to favor often. I'll have to figure out who that was then. And no problem! I can't wait to play another of Phai's granddaughters XD
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Huh. Trying to think who else

Huh. Trying to think who else hangs around there with a similar set... Henna or JM, maybe. JM has a somewhat similar pictogram, fan pelt, realdeer mask, and noh antlers.
Butyes. Babies : D It'll certainly be interesting~

Edit: Brit says it might have been JM, lol.
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hey cali OuO did you see I

hey cali OuO
did you see I had Orin in a while ago? she was right next to Calida? comp ran hot though and had to get out >3< (sorry to post this on here I can't find the other blogs of yours cali ^^)
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis

Orin I've been trying to get

Orin I've been trying to get a hold of you via IM for like 5 or 6 hours now! You and Cyda both! Started thinking you guys were ignoring me. And no, I didn't see. Decided to watch a movie and forgot I left it on.

Phai: Maybe. this doe had Noh antlers, the spotted real deer pelt and mask. So maybe JM? I didn't see the picto so I couldn't be sure. Maybe it was the fan pelt. BAH. Too tired to remember XD
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I havn't been on trillian all

I havn't been on trillian all day (been off and on since I have lots of stuff to do today XP)
no not ignoring you just havn't been on
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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An utterly defeated looking

An utterly defeated looking doe searched the woods for her mother. She had no fight in her, no will to resist his commands. She still feared him and her emotions were so drawn thin that any attempt to deny his requests would be futile. Finally she saw her near the tree she always sat at and she moved close and nuzzled her before laying down."I need to talk to you but you will not like it"she whispered

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this is directly after an rp with rhhya I had that you can read on aria's blog :3
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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Phai's ears flick towards the

Phai's ears flick towards the sound of approaching steps, and a warm smile crosses her muzzle as she turns to discover who it is. It fades, though, as her Mommy Senses begin tingling something fierce. She noses against Aria in return and ensures there's no gap between their sides as her daughter settles in. "And why is that?" She had a guess, but you know what happens when you assume.
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"I saw him again...he

"I saw him again...he ...stopped Irie from attacking me"she said knowing that her mother would know who 'he' was. "He wants to speak with you"she said keeping her blue eyes focused on the ground so that she would not see her drained state of emotion.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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The doe's expression darkens.

The doe's expression darkens. He wanted to speak to her? "Is that so," she answers coolly. "Why, so he can tell me to be a good little doe and duck my head back into the herd again, and never mind what he's doing to my family?" An indignant snort flutters the grass in front of her. Or maybe he'd like to offer her the wonderful opportunity to carry his fawns again, wouldn't that be great. Phai's brows knit together in a scowl. The nerve of him!
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She cringed and looked

She cringed and looked away."He offered to talk to Irie for me..and told me that she needs Akhenaton..I tried to explain that Akhen is unsure of himself..but..I don't know what to do mother...I fear for my life...and for the life of those unborn..."she said softly then slowly ever so slowly looked up to meet her mother's heated gaze.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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"Anyone who so much touches a

"Anyone who so much touches a single hair on you is going to have to answer to me," she replies with all the fierce tenderness a mother can offer. "You'll be taken care of, Dove." Phai glances away, a thoughtful expression tempering the fire in her gaze. "I'm not so sure he's the one Irie needs to be speaking to, though. And Akhenaton isn't here."
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She nodded"I know..I

She nodded"I know..I just..didn't know what else I could do..I am not strong enough to fight them..nor fast enough to out run him... I..only hope Akhenaton returns soon..and safely"she said softly and leaned into her mother hoping she wouldn't leave just yet. She needed the comfort.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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She can't help but smirk a

She can't help but smirk a bit. "You don't have to be a stag to fight one. A quick bump in certain areas is enough distraction to run. I'm sure you're faster than you think you are, if you really want to move. And legs are weak. Joints are weak. Throw yourself into one in a way it doesn't like to bend. Remember that dragon?" She'd hurtled herself into Fusion's elbow with some decent results. Phai lays her head on Aria's shoulders with a quiet sigh. "You need to learn yourself some tricks. If you catch a fight, watch for a while. At a distance, mind you." Her tail flicks, as though to shoo away a mess of thoughts. "Akhen didn't say when he intended to return?"
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Watch a fight? It was an

Watch a fight? It was an interesting idea and she agreed that it would do her some good to learn how to fight. She nodded and then felt a smile form when her mother lay her head across her shoulders. The smile did not last though as the next question was presented."I am not sure...he ...may never come back mother. "she said feeling her self sink a bit more into her old and very well known despair.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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There's an odd grating noise

There's an odd grating noise as Phai clenches her jaw and grinds her teeth in exasperation; it takes about all she has not to shout something like OH COME ON. What's next, Authieu sprouts wings and goes off on some nonsensical quest? Raining elephants? ...Actually, the elephants might not surprise her in this forest. Eventually she decides on a simple "Surely he'd come back for you."
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She smiled slightly"I'd like

She smiled slightly"I'd like to think so too"she said then sighed. "So..will you go talk to him...he threatened that something bad would happen if you don't..and that you have a day"she said knowing this would not help her temper. But she feared what the buck would do if she didn't at least try.

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jim carrey for the win
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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Her ears lay back. More

Her ears lay back. More threats from the King of Bad Decisions, huh? And a time limit, too. "If only so that I can tell him just exactly where he can shove his threats," she growls. "Where is he?" Maybe she'd shove him in there with said threats, too. It might make her feel better. Where'd he get off thinking he could interfere with her family's business, anyway?
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She laughed though it had a

She laughed though it had a hint of nervousness in it. That was her mother alright. Oh how she wished she could have that same confidence. "He is near the playground..or at least that is where we were and where Irie was.."she said nuzzling her mother. She hoped the buck was not going to harm her. The least she hoped for was he would just cut her down. At least that hurt no one.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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She'd almost like to see him

She'd almost like to see him try. Almost. "I thought as much... The playground it is, then." Her gaze wanders in that direction, thoughtful. She has a lot to do between now and then, but for now, she'll rest with Aria for at least a little while. Phaios lays her head down with a quiet sigh.
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She smiled when her mother

She smiled when her mother didn't leave that instant. she lay her head down right next to Phaios' liking the comfort it brought her. Even if this was for a little bit it was nice to just let her cares go and finally rest.

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thanks for da rp Laughing out loud
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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Of course &hearts;

Of course ♥
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and i should be tracking this

and i should be tracking this :U

adorable art by Tuoho! ♥

Last days when Vittani

Last days when Vittani fluctuated in the inner circle of their own thoughts and locked the lock in front of others, she threw something today from this circle and locked her in silence and still under the night gloom of early morning, she walked through the forest. She could not sleep, tormented her bad dreams chased her maybe even now. She had to get up early the sun, but as long as no one sees it, no one hears, it's definitely better. Her actions led her to Pond and then turned and walked up a gentle slope to the border Birch Forest. A little uncertainly and looked around, wondering where to go further than her legs, her body weak and without energy, moved away, until she saw something in the grass. Phaios.

Vittani stopped a moment to carefully doe lying in the grass watching before she turned and changed its direction towards Phaios. Approached quietly, her head low, stood before a piece of it. Her long neck but overcame the remaining distance, and she began to sniff the doe. Is she dead? Although her ??stomach could not bear any burden, but she had something to eat... Nose gently with a muffled growl - purr swept over her face and touched nostrils doe like anything about whether she was still alive.
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Although Phaios hadn't moved

Although Phaios hadn't moved much today, she is, indeed, alive; a quiet growl of her own answers Vittani's as the strange doe nudges her. One eye cracks open to see who's come about to prod her awake, because it certainly isn't someone who knows her habits. Recognition flashes behind her gaze and the doe lifts her head to regard the other groggily. "Yes, Vittani?"

Vittani cried, her voice was

Vittani cried, her voice was still blending with a cry startled beast. Gently bounced postavial fore and at the back, as then gently jumped backwards and landed back on all four. Corpse alive? And even knows her name... She pricked up her ears.

She saw this doe many times, but never told she her name. "How do you know... me? We saw... only a few times... but... I... never... say... my name." she mumbled.

Gently lowered her head, looking at the doe at close range. Vittani have broad personal zone, but it seemed she does not respect personal zone anyone else. She took a step closer and pulled her head as she again began to sniff.

This short Vittani apparently startled for a moment awakened from her trance of thought darkened, and she was alive, at least for a while. "Hm?"
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Phai's ears lay back as

Phai's ears lay back as Vittani yelps, startled by the sudden noise. "Good gracious, what did you expect when you poked me?" she grumbles. Her brow furrows while she listens to Vittani's mumbling, her ears pressing forward again to catch the words. "Oh... Ramsus," she answers simply.
The doe draws back her head slightly as Vittani edges into her bubble. She gives the other doe a quizzical stare. "...Can I help you with something?"

Vittani frowned. "Ra...?...He

Vittani frowned. "Ra...?...He does... not know... me... too," she said quickly, pointing to his name. Truth. The relationship was severed when she grew up and was forced to stand on their own feet.

Feel torn... Just as she felt the relationship with her father. Torn... But he went away and left her there. Where was he? Where has he gone and has not returned... why? She grew up and many creatures no longer looking at it as an adult creature, although it was clear that stand on own feet and without support family for her is still quite difficult.

Her ears twitched finally, Phaios when asked what he needed and what can help. Vittani again took a step back. She looked very suspiciously. She had long since ceased to believe in good things. Tail, however, raised a sign that her question after all interested in it and lifted a small ripple curious. "... I'm... looking... for..." was all she said, the next words were said in a Vittani head.

Interesting concept on your

Interesting concept on your two characters. Sticking out tongue
Do you think a small fawn can join in an interaction?

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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"Doesn't know you...?" she

"Doesn't know you...?" she echoes. "You were with him all the time as a fawn." She remembered that much. She'd even stood over the strange little doe during one of Ram's fights, once. Phaios watches Vittani as she speaks, and when she ceases the doe's brow lifts. "For...?" she prompts, wondering why Vittani had cut herself short. Although, she seemed to have issues with speech in general...

[Niriya: Thanks :3 I don't mind if you join in or strike something up. I may not be on too much longer tonight, though - it's after 2am ;-; But tomorrow I'll reply to anything still left when I go to bed.]

[okiedokie. n_n] Peeking out

[okiedokie. n_n]
Peeking out from between two tree trunks is a petite fawn. A very curious, petite fawn who seems to be very interested in the crimson band above the of-same's hoof, and the strange scent of the... she shook her head. Not of-same? It was tall. So very tall. Pica frowned in concentration at trying to identify the creature - and soon got distracted when the of-same began talking.

((of-same is Pica's way of saying deer. Hello to her undeveloped vocabulary.))

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

There was a long silence.

There was a long silence. Vittani actually not looking for anyone... or yes? Maybe. Dad? "Friends"? Who actually looking for? She suddenly eyes wandered over the ground, turning her gaze as if chasing a mouse. "I... do not know." finally replied after a long silence. "... away... They're all... gone.... Is no one ... look-ing for... Not." she murmured, and her hair began to bristle. Her body pulsed what all the time. Full horror of solitude. Horror of all that had left her, and no one remembers her. Pure paranoia and despair.

She took a small step back and swung over the rear feet before stopping. "I do not know. They're... gone... All."
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With her attention fixed on

With her attention fixed on the strange doe in front of her, little Pica goes unnoticed among the trees. Her head tilts lightly to one side as she considers the long-necked deer with bafflement. She didn't even know what she wanted? Well then what's all this bristling for, and what did she come to... oh, never mind. Phaios sighs quietly to herself and brings her head down to rest on the ground at her feet. "Well... if you're lonely, why don't you sit down here for a while." She isn't particularly keen on conversation after having been woken, and after the string of events which have plagued her in the past weeks, but she knows she'll feel bad if she just sends Vittani away.

Vittani at it once looked.

Vittani at it once looked. She crouched down and gently lifted her head. "To sit... here...?" stammered out. She knew that her doe had never done anything wrong, and although she did not know, did not cause the Vittani so great waves of fear and worry. Maybe it was because she saw her more than once, even when the baby was a little dependent on the contribution of food from parents.

She took a small step and hesitated. Does she sit? Threatens her something? She looked into the eyes of doe and gently tilted her head. Not noticed showed her left cheek with deterrent scars teeth. Unfortunately slowly disappeared under the new coat.

Then woke her ears rustling behind her. Whirled ears and listened before she turned her head and threw unpleasant startled glance toward the fawn...

Curiosity overcomes her and

Curiosity overcomes her and she noses her way out to be able to study the of-same and Strange One more clearly, and seems to have want to examine the Strange One.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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"Uh..." Phai falters,

"Uh..." Phai falters, confused at Vittani's reaction to her invitation. "Well, yes, if you want to." What a strange doe.
The little noise and Vittani's sudden distraction draws her attention towards the little fawn that had appeared, her brows knitting together again before they lift in surprise. "Well hello there."

Vittani rapt ears pricked up

Vittani rapt ears pricked up and still could see how she thinks about what would be best to do now. Finally, she took a few steps aside and turned her head back to Phaios to begin to burrow into the beneath it, in an attempt to find the best and softest place. Only then after a short ritual complex and lie down.