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- 11.20.18 -

Life's been sorta alright lately. About a month ago I started at this course which is meant for unemployed people who are stuggling with their physical and/or mental health, its goal is to help us figure out what kinda work would be good and doable for us. It's held in a big wellness manor and the place looks so amazing, we're able to live there for free during the weeks when we have classes and such, which is exhausting in its own way because I'm not used to being around people all day long, so I'm usually dead tired at the end of those days. My course mates are all a bit older than me but gladly they're all really friendly. A nice bunch.
Our first internship period is starting in a couple of weeks and I found a place in a company that makes clothes, and there's this one older woman working there who does abstract art and wants to teach me. Usually I'd be so afraid and nervous but this time I'm kinda excited, which is a nice change. Things are getting better slowly but surely, at least I hope so.

+ I caught my very first shiny pokemon in Pokemon Go and I'm dumbly excited about it, smh. That green Espeon will be mine..

Hope everyone's been doing good! ♥ Love y'all.


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Tuo's picture

♥ You're so brave to

♥ You're so brave to write this out. I'm glad you were persistent enough to get the right diagnosis! And I'm glad that our health care system is what it is and you're able to get the needed medication!
I wish you lots of strength and hope that no bad relapses come your way. ♥

Flyleaf's picture

Sending lots of positive

Sending lots of positive vibes towards you !
You are really a strong person Smiling
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sylphofheart's picture

My best wishes go out to you

My best wishes go out to you and everyone battling health issues <3 Such strong people
-by Sokoora by Kamaya
Vala 's picture

Send you healthy hugs.

Send you healthy hugs.
" ~ Lady in Red ~ "

♥ ♥

Clare's picture

Thank you so much for sharing

Thank you so much for sharing and advocating for yourself. I'm in awe of your strength and fortitude, as well as the strength of so many others on the community struggling with their health. Y'all give me so much hope. ♥

love you beb &hearts; you've

love you beb ♥ you've come such a long way, and i find it so admirable that you're looking to the positives, always. gotta keep the chin up and live life for what it is now, even when it seems dark. you make my day literally every fuckin' day and i'm so grateful ♥ you're selfless, persistent, n impossible to keep down for long, and you should be damn proud of that~
we're both just gonna be in wheelchairs when we're older ok between my fucked up back n legs n your nerves, pushin' each other around and gettin noWHERE FAST :ok_hand:
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HB's picture

tyvm all of you :{ &hearts;

tyvm all of you :{ ♥ glad to finally be sharing my story here, hope it offers people some encouragement and positivity. you're all so strong.

pan--
sobs, u.. ♥ i won't accept the slow kind of wheelchairs tho, we deserve the motorized ones. rolling past the kids on our way to the store to get some chocolate, so fast... n furious.

i can't even imagine how

i can't even imagine how brave you are.. it would break me for the first time, and i can't even realize how strong should you be to go through all this shit with your head raised. i'm sure this strength won't leave you, keep it up ♥

Qanat's picture

&hearts; keep kICKIN ITS ASS.

♥ keep kICKIN ITS ASS. we've had a lot of family friends with MS some reason and from person to person it's varied. BUT MY GRAMMA'S FRIEND lived to be like 80-something with it not really progressing from the diagnosis she had when she was really young
I remember when you were getting told it was a gd ear infection SIGH- but i'm glad you're still doin' well :{ and i'm sure you'll keep doing totally fine
Echosong's picture

&hearts;!!

♥!!

&hearts;

HB's picture

tyvm y'all again q^q &hearts;

tyvm y'all again q^q ♥ life sure is an interesting ride. but i'm doing good now so no worries at all!

ka--
ugh that's weird. i know some environmental factors mAY cause MS but what are they, we just don't know.. }:< and that's so eNCOURAGING gosh, good for her. she probably had the same kind of MS than I do then, because the relapses might come as rarely as every few years. the progressive kind is much much worse. but yeah, the symptoms are so different on each patient. tyvm though, I shall keep kickin' ♥
it sure was one hell of a ear infection LMAO, sigh..
Kaoori's picture

Love and light to you. You

Love and light to you. You fight a battle and you are an amazing person. My Grandma had MS and although I was only a small child (3-4), I do remember the pain she was in.
I hope things only look up for you.
OkamiLugia's picture

My bff's mom has MS and I

My bff's mom has MS and I think she's about 50. She's bedridden most of the time because American healthcare sucks 'round these parts (it's better depending on the state you live in but even then you're fucked if you don't have much savings). I had my own MS/tumor scare when my vision kinda split vertically for a solid couple of minutes about 4-5 years ago and was scheduled an MRI. I definitely get why my doctors ask me if I experience numbness or tingling.

It was awesome for you to share this ♥
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HB's picture

kaoori-- that must've been

kaoori--
that must've been hard to watch, i'm sorry about that. :{ and thank you. ♥

okami--
breaks my heart to hear that. i've read so many similar stories of MS patients who just can't afford the treatment and it's absolutely terrible to even imagine. truly makes me realize how lucky i am to live here, sigh. i wish the best for her.
and that's actually the first symptom my sister had as well. she was walking down the street and half of her vision in one eye disappeared. u^u gladly she hasn't had any serious symptoms since that. it's good that your doctors actually realize to consider that it might be MS even if it wouldn't be, means that we're heading towards the right direction. i hope you're doing well now! ♥

shey & vee--
♥!

Damn..! You're a kickass rock

Damn..! You're a kickass rock star!! I'm so glad you have access to such great medical care that works for you. Thank you so much for sharing this, it's a very powerful read and I really am 50000% glad you decided to share this with us. It just goes to show that one's spirit need not be broken in the wake of what I can only imagine is a hellish thing to go through. Godspeed to you.

And now if you'll excuse me, I have to quietly ship myself to Finland in a used Amazon box lol
Evern's picture

Stay strong, all my respects.

Stay strong, all my respects. ♥

OkamiLugia's picture

I have been doing well and

I have been doing well and having fewer weirdo symptoms since stopping a birth control that got recalled lol... I have migraines fairly frequently, and back then I was getting auras basically weekly. I'm SO GLAD I didn't have a gd stroke or something... Hoping for a hysto in the near future so all that weird estrogen flux can stop messing with my brain thnx :C

I kinda wonder if I should ask to be tested every few years for MS 'cause I do get random short-lived shooting pains in random extremeties or in my head every now and then :')))
HB's picture

fish-- omg, i'm glad you

fish--
omg, i'm glad you enjoyed it. ♥ i can only hope that it offers some hope for people who are having health issues, since it's the kind of thing that crushes your spirit so easily. nothing tends to look bright when your body's giving up on you, i wasn't feeling too hopeful during my relapse either, bUT IT'LL GET BETTER. just gotta keep on keeping that chin up and hope for the best.
and WELCOME TO FUNLAND, i'll come pick you up at the customs.

evern--
♥!

okami--
personally i think it might be something else than MS especially if you've never had any numbness or tinglings or electric shock sensations in your spine when you bend your head forward, since those seem to be the most common signs of it. :{ definitely doesn't hurt to do some research though and see if your symptoms match. I'M NOT A MEDICAL EXPERT THOUGH LMAO so def don't rely on my opinion, i can only tell what i've experienced and what i've read about the disease since i've done quite a bit of research on it myself. if you ever get a real bad flu or any other kind of infection you should keep an eye out for more weird symptoms (especially the electric shock sensation in your spine) because infections are usually the kind of thing that trigger MS symptoms.
i def hope you don't have it though and that it's something less serious, but i do hope you'll find out what the heck's causing those random pains. sounds so uncomfortable.
OkamiLugia's picture

ahhh ty friendo &hearts;

ahhh ty friendo ♥
Qanat's picture

Sending you some healin'

Sending you some healin' vibes. :{ Sounds like he was a good man.
Kaoori's picture

I'm so sorry to hear.

I'm so sorry to hear.
Flyleaf's picture

You are in my thoughts !

You are in my thoughts !
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&hearts;

Hraeth's picture

sending all the best your

sending all the best your way, hb ♥
HB's picture

thank you all so much

thank you all so much ♥

have fUuUUuUuUUN you lucky

have fUuUUuUuUUN you lucky ho
soak up dat sun for me
Dampir's picture

Seems like I missed this

Seems like I missed this little place and that important note during my "go n back" time. Shame.
I read it all and could only imagine how going through this had to be horrible. Im so sorry for you. You are person who doesnt deserve such things. Im glad your country's health care is good enough. In mine it's better to be healthy or rich heh
Stay strong HellyBelly ♥
HB's picture

ho had the fun, loads of

ho had the fun, loads of it

dampir--
aw, no biggie!
and it was, but i've been doing awesome for the past years and that's what matters. ♥ eue
so grateful for the healthcare we have here, but at the same time it makes me so sad to hear what you just said, sighs.. taking care of your health shouldn't be so fuckin' expensive.
Dampir's picture

Yeah, that's true. We joke of

Yeah, that's true. We joke of it though we know it shouldn't be like this. I have to visit two different doctors, but wait to raise enough money to pay all needed tests c:
HB's picture

aurghh, i hope everything

aurghh, i hope everything goes well for you and that you get the needed money very soon. qnq stay healthy pls ♥

helo i am tracking this

helo i am tracking this Ooh
Dampir's picture

I feel your pain. Im in the

I feel your pain. Im in the same place but with one wisdom tooth : / stay strong!
And the weather... I thought it's cooler on the north of EU, but if you say it's the same as here, then there's no hope for us lol

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAA pretty photo

AAAAAAAAAAAAAA pretty photo ;o; and indeed it's totally hot in finland, gosh.
Hampaan poisto ei oo mitää ihaninta hommaa, ite kans joudun ravaa hammaslääkäris ugh.
Voimia sinne! you can do it

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Vessan's picture

I'm getting a wisdom tooth

I'm getting a wisdom tooth removed on the 10th.
MMMMMM wonder what's this deal with comming from vacation with nice beaches and wisdom teeth pulling.