I was waiting to post this, so when FD got off the Computer and went to sit on the couch, I realized it was my chance.
Me and Dragon are like, best friends, so if you see us acting weird and strange, that's probably why. I sometimes will her in front of everyone else, and I'm sorry if that ever happens.
And another note- FD comes over to my house a lot, and I like to come to her's. And we forget to log out a lot, so sometimes I will accidentally post on her account and she will post on mine. So it will sometimes get confusing who's saying who.
And, not that I've cleared up everything before FireDragon did, I'm gonna run to the couch and tell her I won.
I'm sorry, but you are all right. I may be a jerk. I may be a whiny little brat who wants attention. But I just went into a rage. It happens all the time.
I'm not that healthy right now. Heck I still cry over an incident with a bully in the Second grade. But I don't care. I used to call you my friends, my family, and everytime I wanted to talk about the Endless Forest, my father would say, "You will never see them, and they don't love you.". I guess, because that one person said I wanted pity, I got very hurt. So I just... wanted to give you all a dose of your own medicine. I knew deep inside that all I said... everything I did... was not true.
Xemi was right. I pretty much had no sanity. Every little tiny insult would throw me into a stupid whiny tantrum. Okay? I'm sorry. I'm not an adult, and I'm not perfect either. I don't know what to do or what the right choices are, I don't know what is offensive or not, I don't know what is mature or immature. For years I wasn't a nice person and I didn't even realize how horrible I was. I was a whiny, idiotic, stupid, jerky, little brat. And that's what I was today.
Aha, I remember when I was little and I would get sent to my room for throwing a little whiny tantrum, probably over a stupid thing like not getting or toy or something. And now... I still act like that whiny kid, but for reasons other than toys.
But, you all just need to know... how sorry I am, how I wish I never said those things. Some of them, I never meant to be offensive.
Maybe I want attention, maybe I want pity. But the biggest thing I want now is to say how sorry I am. I understand if you don't forgive me. I've broken friendships because of my attitude. Half of the time it was accidental. I know I have broken many friendships that will never be recovered again because of my whiny behavior.
But I always wanted to be a nice person (oh look, tears on the keyboard. You are all free to call me the drama queen).
While playing Robot Unicorn Attack: Heavy Metal, this popped in my head (and I also just realized I forgot the antlers). So I went on paint and drew =)
This might be a future character. I planned out some things, he would be a robot deer, and his name would be "01110111 01101111 01101100 01100110", which is "wolf" in binary code. He was meant to be a wolf (which somewhat explains his name), because they found a dead wolf on the side of the roar and wanted to turn him into a robot. But they were also testing out some things with a white-tail deer, and there was an accident. The deer became the robot. And, he stared into the eyes of the scientists and they all died. He then burned the lab to the ground and escaped, leaving the dead bodies behind, burning.
He found the Endless Forest, but he cannot kill the deer with his stare. He would have to learn to use his strength to fight. I was thinking of this to be his set:
Gray pelt
Skull Mask
Default antlers with red poppies.
His ears and tail would be a flame that would never burn out, and when he ran they leaved a fire ribbon.
But, meh. I have way too many charries already, so'll I'll probably give the design for adoption.
I am planning on something with Pierce and Voice after all the black deer crap and stuff is over. And I need three players for the plot. Read under cut.
