Wyvern: Darcy...I cannot justify my silence in any other emotion other than confusion. I...I love you, Darcy. I just can only wonder if you feel the same about me. Before my journey, both of our hearts spoke so openly, our poetic words fluttering about the forest like butterflies in a gentle breeze. And when I came back, I learned that those butterflies had found a new home in my stomach...I tried to tell myself that I should just move on, just let you be happy...But I realized that I cannot be happy without you. Perhaps, I am being selfish, but I guess that I have always been.

...Darcy, just answer me this one question. I love you...Can you say those same words to me?

Wyvern: I just love you. The then and the now.... And I have changed, too, but how could I let my reunion with Reetno be one of sadness? He remembers me as the doe who used to play with him in his fawnhood. Who would I be to sulk and speak of heartbreak after not seeing him for several months? I even missed his Stag Day; I owe him a smile...

And what I want from you, what I have always wanted from you, is your companionship. I have always been alone, but you brought light into my life. Even in your darkness, I find myself drawn to you. A flittering moth, lost in the night, following her heart...

(I don't know about you, but I am still rooting for this couple. I really am. XD; It's just difficult to express such conversations in the game. But, I guess that's what these blogs are for. And for the record, today was the first day that Wyvern saw Reetno since we left; that's why she was so...jumpy at first. XD)

Wyvern: *looks to the ground briefly, a single tear rolling down her snow white, frozen face* ...I feel the way I do...because you feel the way you do. I have my friends, but I always imagined us to be more than that. Even as the sun greeted me this morning, I... *attempts to regain her composure*

Yes, it pains me to know that you still love her...But, I guess that my heart was willing to overlook that fact. *slowly walks to the edge of the pond; looks down at her lone reflection* Ignorance is bliss, right? *scoffs as she finds herself crying again* But bliss, this cannot be...

(I just keep hoping that this will work out, but it is obviously not my decision alone. What is your final verdict? I say yes, but if you say no, that will have to be fine. :/ And, out of curiosity, who is this someone else?)

Wyvern: *faces forward, yet turns her head slightly to the right to catch Darcy in her peripheral vision; her voice is soft and weak* It never felt false to me... We all make our mistakes, just as we all make our choices.

I have made mine...and I will stand by it. By you, if you will let me...Or by myself. I have already surrendered my heart, and never could I do it again. *pauses and then turns to face the other* It is your's, Darcy. It always has been.

(I think that after all of this, if this situation doesn't work out, Wyvern will remain alone as well. :/ Gah, why must we both have such drama deer? ^^; I still stand by my decision, but I will also respect your's, whatever it may be.)

Gah...sorry if I left that open ended >< I didn't know what else to say...But...it did make him feel better, as you probably could have seen ^^;

Psh, don't fret If you want to make him a picture to it when you feel like it, I'm just gratful for when they come ^^ I have a few little sketches I probbaly wont get around to coloring...Im so distracted anymore >< But seriously, don't worry about it.

On a different note...-sigh- I'm feeling sorta bad...Darcy WAS feeling better, yes...but that was before he started getting bashed by people >< I've been...seriously considering putting him on some sort of hiatus or something. He's just making poeple miserable, and I can't control how he feels so I cant control him changing it. Wyvern is actually the only one holding me back...She doesnt seem to have a lot of friends >< And they were just starting to patht hings up...but...I feel really insulted by what people have said and...really weary of playin him now...

Sorry for the drama @__@ I just dont have anyone else to tlak to about it...

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What? Why were they bashing Darcy? :/ I am sorry to hear that. I don't see any harm in keeping a deer in character. Not everyone can be happy all of the time, and it's understandable for characters to behave in the same manner. Darcy is entitled to his emotions.

And honestly, I've been debating giving Wyvern a rest as well. She's just been a bit mopey in the forest and in the conversations that I've had with other people elsewhere. Maybe we can both retire them until the drama blows over. Heck, maybe they can both go on a mini journey and work things out? XD That idea worked for me while I was away on the research cruise.

And please, no reason to apologize whatsoever. I understand. And if there is anything else that you have to get off your chest, feel free. I'll be around. ^^

I'm still not entirely sure as to what's going on, but I am seriously sorry, Darcy. :/ I still don't see anything wrong in what you were doing, and if people suddenly have a problem with it, they really should just move on to the next blog, etc.. They don't have to read it, and they certainly don't have to complain about it.

Please, Darcy, if you need someone to talk to, just let me know. I sincerely hope that you feel better soon, though. Try not to let what was said here get the best of you.

Darcy is apparently ruining everyone else’s gameplay, Scythe…that’s pretty much the problem. And I CAN’T blame them for it…it’s been weighing on me for a while too. Obviously even you, or Wyvern,. Are effected by it if she’s still sad…But something a lot of people don’t seem to understand is that my characters mean a lot to me…more than just some made up entity, but…’real’, in a way. I don’t have control over Darcy’s feelings, or even actions. Oh sure I can plant ideas in his head or pursued him one way or another, but he doesn’t do anything he doesn’t want to…XD He doesn’t want to get over the fact he’s probably tarnished his image forever? Then he wont…until he’s ready to. I think everyone thinks I’m just being stubborn and truly enjoying prolonging the whole scenario and…I’m really not ‘enjoying’ it at all. Far from >< I’m sad for him…I’m confused for him. I cant enjoy those emotions.

I dunno…I think I’m just going to wait a couple days, try to avoid TEF a bit, see if I feel any better. I don’t think Darcy will return without Wyvern though…so if she needs a break then so be it. Might seem a little selfish but…damnit, I think D’s allowed to be a little selfish now ><

Skokey…-sigh- I’m mad. I can’t help it. I probably will be mad for a little while, it’s just how I am. I’m mad for a couple days, then I get over it. I’ll accept your apology, and I’m still willing to be your friend, Im just feeling a bit betrayed right now…


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I understand, though, Darcy. And please, Wyvern was only playing the part in return. I can sympathize, in that she feels like a real character to me as well. She has a right to feel hurt after what has happened just as she has a right to feel hopeful now that they have started to patch things up. Likewise, Darcy is certainly entitled to his emotions. I can only imagine how he must feel about himself right now. I feel sad for him. :/

I think that I might take a break for a few days as well and let Wyvern have some time outside of the forest. Darcy's more than welcome to join her, though. He's entitled to being a little selfish.

Just please, Darcy, try not to let what may have been said bother you. Words can hurt sometimes, but I'm sure that no harm was meant intentionally. Things will settle back down again. Just try and look on the bright side of things. You're not ruining everything for everyone, and even if you supposedly were, when it boils down to it, it's their problem. Just try and cheer up, okay?