There has never been a day worse than this, ever.

July 15, 2010 - 2:42am — Sonata

My best friend died today.

fuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

FUCK.

There are very few people in this world that I like.

There are two people that I love

and now I've lost one of them

I don't even know what I'm going to do without her, I don't know
she was more than a friend, god...
I LOVED her.

which is a lot coming from me.

would have died for her, which says even more

She's probably the only reason I'm still alive today, that one little thing that kept me from ending it all

fuckfuckfuck
I loved her so much

This is why I don't get close to people

my chest hurts

and I can't even cry, I cried myself out a long time ago

and that hurts
my eyes hurt
my chest hurts
my heart hurts

I hate her for leaving me like this

oh god, Ari I need you

god damn it all

it's not fair

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July 15, 2010 - 7:05pm — Fincayra

L is completely right. There

L is completely right. There will be pain, but also healing. You will get through this.
I know how you feel. I've experienced the same thing. And I can tell you, going through it was hell, but in the end it made me a stronger person.

We're here for you... ♥

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July 15, 2010 - 7:42pm — Rutilus

I'm so, so, so sorry...

July 15, 2010 - 8:08pm — gloryofdeerforever

I-I don't know... W-hat to

I-I don't know... W-hat to say.... I can't descirbe this in words but... I just don't think sorry will cut this... i'll keep you in my prayers... and remember you can always talk to us... though we can't see each other through the internet we always have a connection... connection like a family... <3 I swear I feel the tears coming...

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July 15, 2010 - 7:59pm — faunet

My words can do little to

My words can do little to ease the pain you are going through just knew that you have us for support.
This place place helped me so much when my brother died

July 16, 2010 - 3:54am — Sonata

ah thank you all

ah thank you all<3

She meant a lot to me, I can't even begin to explain.
best friend, like a sister, like a parent, someone that wouldn't hurt me.
Platonic love? I would have died for her, done anything for her.

Thank you, Thank you all so much

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July 16, 2010 - 4:48am — dearjuno

Ohmygawd. D: I- I don't know

Ohmygawd. D: I- I don't know what I would do if my best friend died- I have known her since I was 1 week old, I'd probably go crazy. D;

I'm so- so sorry, I wish you the best. My prayers are with you and your friend's loved ones. <3

Life can be so cruel. D; *HugsComputerness*

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Hey contact me if you need me,

'll try to be active again.

July 16, 2010 - 6:07am — lolamad911

oh wow, my heart sank really

oh wow, my heart sank really far when i read that. im so sorry for your loss. oh wow. i think im actually crying... yepp i am :'( but remember, we all love you very much <3 if you ever need anyone to talk to or lean on, we are here for you.

July 16, 2010 - 9:37am — Sonata

Thank you both, thank you

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July 16, 2010 - 10:23am — Ammy

I don't know what to say, I

I don't know what to say, I don't know if words can properly convey what I feel, which is ... deep sorrow. I'm not talking crap either, you don't deserve any type of crap. My dearest friend and I... I can't imagine life without her, it doesn't exist... but I don't think we're as close as you two.

She's not gone though, I truly believe that. You will remember her, and I believe that matter can't be destroyed... if that makes sense to anyone. Something I never understood; souls or whatever is inside a person, the conscious animal... are they matter?
Thisdoesn'tmakesensebutI'llkeepgoingonbecauseitmakessensetomeandhopefullywillmakesensetosomeone.

It tore my heart out when I read this, *Gives a tight hug*
We're here.

July 16, 2010 - 11:30am — Innisen

I'm a feelingless brick, but

I'm a feelingless brick, but I want you to know that I'll be there for you, like so many others here.

She might be gone, but all the memories of you two spending time together having fun will stay. You'll have to give up her body, but hold on to her spirit.

Uhm. *hugs warmly and then gives space for others to hug Sonata*

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If you can't confuse people with your intelligence, amaze them with your bull****.

July 16, 2010 - 11:33am — Tenley

innisen, wered you get that

innisen, wered you get that animation? THATS AWSOME!

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Walking into a room and saying, " I should clean this! " Then walking out. -lily

July 16, 2010 - 12:10pm — Sonata

Ammy; oh you...thank you,

Ammy;
oh you...thank you, thank you<3

innisen;

thank you, too.
I'm normally also rather a brick.
which is why this has hit me so hard...
in the same way a buldozer crumbles the simply bricks of a house.

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July 16, 2010 - 12:22pm — Innisen

Tenley: It's done by Moogie,

Tenley: It's done by Moogie, she did them for a while, long time ago. :T

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If you can't confuse people with your intelligence, amaze them with your bull****.

July 16, 2010 - 12:48pm — z.m123

I don't think this is the

I don't think this is the topic to talk about that Tenley...

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