Yeah. There's something about Christmas Eve that makes me cry -- my usual thing is spending the evening on my aunt's back porch while a party I can neither enjoy nor tolerate goes on inside, and I'm basically trapped there for a while. But not this year -- I lucked out, and happen to be sick (no, really.)

No, this year I have weightier things on my mine, and I feel like I just need to get them out somewhere. I know I'm often something of a worry-wort, but I think now I have some legitimate causes, which makes me authentically scared and sad -- especially this time of year, when logically togetherness and merriness should abound.

There's a friend online I've been close to for over 4 years. And then she vanishes sometime, oh, a month or so ago. Maybe more. It could be school, but she's not back -- which makes me worry more. It could be a lack of internet. At which point I would be so freaking relieved...but...she's had some suicidal tendencies in the past, especially recently. She's had some delinquincy issues in the past. She's had some psychological issues in the past. So I can't stop worrying that she's dead or in jail or in an insane asylum somewhere, and I've forgotten her actual last name, and can't track her down just to be sure. She's the only person who was enough like myself to really understand my feelings, and the thought that I might never hear from her again scares me a lot.

And then there's my IRL best friend of...11 years of so, if my math is right. She had family issues long before I met her, and a few years ago, things got worse. A lot worse. Recently, things got so bad that finally the situation got outside attention. And things could get better from here, or things could get a lot worse. In a week, we'll know...But my friend is worried (and I agree with her) that if things go the "lot worse" option, her life could be in danger.

Whatever you celebrate, I hope it's happy and filled only with the best memories.

Thank you, TEF, for a good year!

-Ocean

One month has passed since I first made my account. No longer will Stallanta be a cute adorable fawn. She is now a beautiful majestic adult deer. Lol im so happy.

These are absurdly rushed and crappy, but hey, it's something. xD
There will be a few more for New Years because I ran out of time- so watch for another batch in a few days.

Enjoy, & happy holidays.




Cybil for Trinket


Kaoori for Kaoori


Olive for Hubalaboo


Squeegie for Squeegie


Quad for Quad


Gavin and Cheat for Scythe


Aspen for Sarie


Her for Her


Laruna for Laruna


Fulu for Raku


Aegle for Aegle (told you I'd color it some day |D)


Mystress for CelticMystress


Kinsha for Pega


Oz for Fayne (and you have a set of Zombieland avatars coming your way too xD)





Don't ask me why they're all different sizes. |D