I noticed that after seeing...um, a certain friend...the other day...the next day I felt kind of disappointed, in a way, that he wasn't around.

And, when I did see him, I felt...well, maybe "excited" isn't the right word... I'm always excited to see my friends. Especially ones I haven't seen in a while. But this was...different...somehow... I mean, it's true, I hadn't seen him in a little while, but...well, he wasn't the only one that I saw that day that I hadn't seen in a while. But... Oh, I don't know, I really don't know how to describe it, or... I just don't know how to put my thoughts, or feelings, or whatever, into words...

I have other friends I've known longer...

Speaking of which, I've been missing Skeevah. I haven't seen him in a long time. I have met his sister, though, and she's fun, though I still don't know her very well.

Well, anyway...
I guess I'm just kinda confused. I mean, I'm not sure...why anything should be different... And...well...I guess, really, there isn't really anything different. It's just... Oh, I don't know, I don't think I'm even making any sense.
It's nothing, really...
Except...
That wasn't the first time...
I don't know what else to say, I guess I was writing this to try to get my thoughts together, but I just...don't...know...

I guess I'm just thinking too much. All I'm doing is confusing myself. I'll just have to forget it, I guess.

~Amary~

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Okay, I should not be up still...But I wanted to get this written, because if I had waited I would have probably forgotten.
Anyway, just a little drabble, nothing special.
Hmmm..... What do you suppose is going on here? ;3

[=black][b]I have met a few fairly interesting deer. But the most interesting creature I've met so far is much smaller.

The other day, I was among the graves, as usual, communicating with the spirits. Somehow, lately, I have begun to feel...different. I have never been interested in the company of the living. But, I feel as though I am starting to want something that the spirits cannot provide, though I'm not sure what. But I feel almost as though I'm missing something...

It seemed that a lot of deer were getting on my nerves that day. I tried to get them to leave. One fawn was especially stubborn, refusing to move though it was clearly afraid. There was a minor scuffle at one point.

After finally managing to get some deer that were bothering me to leave, I noticed a small creature, a bat, fluttering around my head. Were it any other creature, other than a deer, I would have simply ignored it. But I have seen bats before, and they have always intrigued me. This is the first time I have seen one so close, and that acted in such a manner. Somehow my anger seemed to fade, and I attempted to communicate with this bat. Of course, this is not easy, as bats cannot speak, nor can they communicate in the same way that deer do. But I think we managed to understand each other on some level, somehow.

I have seen this bat two more times since then. I have to say, I enjoy its company, which is more than I can say for any other mortal creature. Communication does not seem to be as much of an issue as one might expect. It follows me, or I follow it. I lay down, and it lands besides me. And though I do not engage in the same foolishness that other deer commonly participate in, it is somewhat oddly...entertaining...pursuing the little creature as it flies around, sometimes at a speed that I can hardly keep up with, almost like some sort of...mock chase.