I've tried and failed, to stay away from my true home, the forest. my friends and family alike have an incredibly strong dislike for the forest; explaining my prolonged absence but i'm confused as to why... this place gives me a day to day mental pleasure, it gives me motivation with the amount of joy simply thinking about the medicinal, sedative calmness within our limitless love. the forest.
Needless to say, I'm back and with intent to have a much bigger impact on our ever shrinking community. I need a family, a permanent one. I want to learn more and even teach others about our home and the love we have for it. Released from school for spring break, I've been given the perfect opportunity to give this place my love and attention. I want to experience the Endless Forest in a new more social light. Never would I say this place bores me but I yearn for a loving few, fellow deer, but I'm not sure how to take on something like this; that's why i made this blog (kinda...). I'm also in the process of creating a new persona, one i want to find in a group of people who love and enjoy me as i do them. I could always do these thing by my lonesome but i want to be more embedded in the forest.
As time goes on it takes my memories of the place with it. The Endless Forest beings me a revolving joy the continues to circle around and i want to keep it going, so i'm starting over... as a fawn.
I had a pretty good day today! it's been a while since I've hung around in the forest since being that the last time I've played this was in middle school. But it brought back alot of bittersweet feels and I feel pretty happy about it. I just wish My computer wasn't so old ;.;
I woke up in the dark today! I lashed out and tried to run but only tripped over my too long legs!
BUt BUT! It wasn't dark!! I was only buried under the forever falling flowers!! A small pile was where I had slept!
They taste so sweet!! I will eat them everyday!! I hope they fall for a long time!
I ran into two young ones but they didn't want to play with me.
Instead they ran off and left be behind, Well- I DIDN'T WANT TO PLAY WITH THEM EITHER!
I did.
But I did run into a deer with a funny name, It was like an angry frog hiding under a leaf! I called them four times!!
Yelling as loud as I could into their ears! From all sides!! But they didn't wake up...
I studied their name and "Larkspur" came to me. I will not forget this Larkspur so easily, no I will find them again.
ANd they will wake up! AND WE WILL PLAY!! AND IT WILL BE GREAT FUN!!
Until then, I will eat these flowers and run the forest.
Due to stress and family issues, I took a break. It's all good now, but i missed the forest.
I missed my newer deer growing up, and theyre all adults now. Penelope still needs a look, and a story, but I have no idea how to create her. I hope to find a suggestion or creativity spark, but I am still mentally tired. For now, she roams as a deer with only flowers atop her head.
I cannot wait to get back into the game afer this break, as this game is beautiful, as well as an escape. The community is a wonderful place as well.
Perhaps I'll get my sister to roam with me again too.
Nirnasha grew up, but he must wait til Halloween to get his mask.
I had a weird and realistic dream about him.
Heilong, my character, is becoming more developed.
(In this POV My little deer thinks on a deep tiredness and stopping but then waking up and all is good! )
In case folks need to stay clear of those thoughts yeye Nothing too graphic though- More under the cut! nV n)
It felt like for the longest time,
I was a deep tiredness that wandered endlessly through the misty grays of sleep.
It claimed me like I thought the forest would, and I was apart from myself for what felt like eons.
Even now I'm only halfway back, only halfway to my self and awareness. I'm here but I'm not awake.
I move as if through deep murky waters, Is there a way out?
Did the forest eat me after all like I had feared all those eons ago?
Four years later lol <3 Don't know how many of you that once knew me that are still lingering here, but I still feel very much at home here. Will definately update you all with a new deer once I get around to making him or her, because I DESPERATELY need to scrap my old character oh god haha... the cringe. So so much pink. Oh well.
