July 5, 2012 - 4:05pm — Rutilus
Because sometimes I just have to write about her sdjfhf. It's a long one, and much more disjointed than my other stuff.
let's put a gun against my forehead
I'll let you pull the trigger, whenever you choose
I could always turn it on you
I could kill you if I wanted to
but I don't think I'll ever be that brave
let's trap my limbs beneath the rocks
I'll sink much deeper down and drown myself in ecstasy
I'll let you watch me as my face turns blue
you'll know that I won't ever forget
the look on your face as the light left my eyes
the scarred man sits by me as I sleep
he is a watchdog of the highest blood and nobility
he never shuts his eyes, sleeps only when I rise
if it was not for him I would not be alive
and so I know
and so I know
he'll find me again
and so I go
and so I go
to drown and choke on the summer wind
and so I run
and so I run
into some dream I don't remember
and he's there, waiting
he's there, waiting for my return
I don't think it's love, or anything close
but I know that when they're near I don't feel so alone
the scarred man comforts me and
the other one, he, oh, he
he makes me feel as if I'm not so dark
he makes me feel as if I have a heart
that no-one ever saw
that no-one ever looked for at all
my amorality fights justice every waking hour
the black and white thing watches me for days
I want to kill her and show her what she's missing
but I know she's only trying to prove what I've known all along
I guess I'm just a drifter that, when touching things, turns her world to ash
I know there's no-one but the scarred man that could ever take me on
My weak existence is a pointless struggle but I can't give up just yet
And maybe one day I'll have reason to continue keeping on
Of course I love everything
pffff you |: ♥
I love that repetition in the
Asdff thanks