For those who joined the community recently, you might not know about me or barely. I have been here for almost three years soon. I was around twelve years old when I started to play the game and posted a "New Player" thread. It was in the beginning of August I think. I was very shy and socially uneasy at the time. My English was probably less good too and I did not post much after my first thread, except a signature test blog.

I did not understand what roleplaying was like back then, I thought everybody was just playing deers all day. My unease in communities was preventing me from talking to others. Each time I was doing something with, for or to someone, I feared that I was doing something wrong.

And I did not stay long enough to know the players from the year 2013.

When I joined the game and the community, I had a boyfriend who was two years older than me. But he was still immature and got himself into troubles in a forum I used to go and like. He got banned and since I wanted him to play The Endless Forest with me, I texted him and settled a rendez-vous point at the Ruins, in the Bird Cage. It was kind of hard however, as we could not easily talk to each other due to the game being in full screen (I did not know about the windowed option) so we were not sure if we actually interacted with each other or if we accosted the wrong deer. We played for a while only.

I remember a group of fawns helped me get a set but since I downloaded and installed the wrong version, I could neither save nor load one. I was having troubles trying to understand the body language as well.

I stayed for some days but left the community and the game soon after. I left for more than one year.

The last thing I remember from there was that I saw a post where someone was upset because nobody wanted to roleplay anymore, at least from what I understood, and that the community was not like before anymore.

I grew up during that year of absence. You know, at night, when I wake up, I sometimes stay in bed and start thinking about my past, the old memories I have. Both good and bad ones. And that is how I recalled this game. Therefore, I decided to give it another chance and came back.

I posted a "I am back" thread and started to get more involved in the community. I saw biographies, I learnt how to create my own characters, how to roleplay... And I have even learnt how to make CSS throughout the months.

The first character I created was Amika. And my first roleplay as her was with Thais. The art of the two in the Old Oak was the second time I drew a human face.

When Draak started to trade her tiny pixel pictos, I did not pay attention to the post, only after I commented asking her to make Kamaya's. Once I knew that I had to give her an art first, I felt awkward and stupid. Yet I told myself that I could give it a try, even if I had never drawn a deer neither a human face before. And it turned out pretty well actually! The art was not bad at all. I even got compliments from other people. That day, the artist inside of me really awakened and art started to become a real passion to me.

Roleplaying also helped me improve my writing. I wish to be a writer when I will be an adult (as well as a translator/interpret and a drawing artist) so roleplaying was a good source of improvements.

During the time I spent here and in-game, I never had true conflicts with anybody, perhaps just some non-important disputes or problems but that was all. I had always tried to be fair-play and never wanted to cheat or to godmod. Each time someone was telling me about a problem regarding my actions or a RP reply, I always did my best to fix it.

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I love this community because it is the only one where I had never got insulted by someone or treated like poop. It is the community with the rarest conflicts I had never seen.
Remember Wildrose's post about their bad experience in World of Warcraft? Well, that is one of the examples. I also had a bad experience in a game called "S4 League", I got insulted by someone who also made fun of me. I quit and cried because of that. Thankfully, I had my best friend, which I considered like a big brother to my heart, who took care of me and comforted me when I needed it.

The game and this community is the best I have never seen so far. I always felt not everybody was treated equally in other communities. But in THIS community, I feel like we are some sort of family, like we are all equals, nobody being inferior. This feeling of not being a stranger to others is such a beautiful feeling.

Today, I have some ideas and projects in mind for TEF.

One of them being making CSS commissions. But I feel like it would not be a good idea however. Because when I make a CSS, it is usually for my own blogs and biographies. Although, I give it as a free CSS template for others. Because it was my characters who inspired me for their CSS, and I fear that I would not get that inspired if it was for characters of other players or that it would not be exactly like the player wanted.

Albeit it would have been a good idea to get some money since my parents gave me the possibility to use their paypal account to get some I would earn.

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Thank you all for being nice and kind with me. I hope this community will never change in the future because I love it just like it is today.
I still have some hard times approaching others trying to be completely IC. But it is not always easy. Still, it is pretty fun to interact with others whether it is ICly or OOCly.
And I apologize to some if sometimes IC drama get me. Especially when it involves Kamaya. I am just in the habit to be one with her.

I feel better since I came back. This place is where I love to be when I need to relax. Spending time with you all, having some good discussions and everything. It is so easy to talk about our personal problems here, we always get some support from others and it makes us wish to help them back. I sincerely hope it will last for a very very very very very very very long time.

Thank you all again and hope to see you in the Forest! ♥