1st of September
The doves came to talk to me today.
They had some important news.
News that would alter my path.
They spoke of a time of year.
A time that I would feel....different.
I didn't understand then.
But...
They said I would soon enough.
Birds...you could never trust them.
2nd of September
Another quiet day for me.
I still haven't felt the change within me as the birds predicted.
However, Autumn is in its first stages, hopefully I'll learn soon.
Cash came to see me today.
We laughed and frolicked like fawns.
Joining others in song and dance.
Hopping around like frogs and rabbits.
We grew tired later on though and sat together.
I told him about what the birds had told me.
I wonder if he understands the birds warnings more than I do.
Eh.
I....feel strange today.
I feel...more possessive of Cash.
Ha! What am I talking about?
Stupid birds have me all messed up.
3rd of September
AH!
The....Hnnngh....the pain inside me.
I can't....I can't breathe.
I want....I want to...
I want to fight.
I want to herd.
I want it all.
I want all of them.
I stagger towards the pond.
My mouth feels like I've just ate cotton.
I stare at my reflection.
Not even knowing who looks back at me.
Is this....are these instincts what the doves warned me about?
If it is...they can have them back!
I don't want them!
I DON'T WANT THEM!
4th of September
The initial shock of my changing body has ended.
I....I think I'm calmer today.
Not...not as scared.
Cash came to calm me down when I was losing it.
I....probably wouldn't have been so calm today if he hadn't.
However, no matter that he calmed me down, the feelings are still here.
I'm itching to do something.
I'm....marking the trees I see.
I rub my antlers against the bark, scraping off the layers of velvet.
I attack the trees, scarring them until they shed as well.
I feel more alert and observational.
I can feel the hairs on the back of my neck raise when a stag wanders too close.
I can't help but watch the does strut by.
Hnngh.
I...can't help but watch the stags go by either.
I...I even want to collect stags and bucks.
What in the hell am I saying?
What has this rut done to me?!
5th of September
I can't help but be drawn towards other bucks.
I feel territorial and possessive.
I almost went looking for a fight today.
I was about to approach a stag named Chrona.
But...I chickened out.
I went looking for other bucks when I saw a group of does.
Hnngh.
I reacted without thinking and went to them.
I was so bold...so unlike the shy Havak before this rut season.
I introduced myself and began to play with them.
I left them soon after as my nerves got to me.
However, a small doe approached me while I sat down.
She was playful and I couldn't help but want to play with her.
We hopped and danced and finally sat together in the pond.
She sat close to me...and...I was nervous.
Nervous.
Calf came then, and I cant say that I wasn't pleased at her perfect timing.
Honestly, these feelings inside me...mixed with the animal like feelings for the rut...
Yeah...they're getting old already.
Hurry up Winter!
6th of September
Mom!
Oh thank goodness I was able to see my mom.
She's the only one who could calm me down in my state.
I don't want these feelings.
I don't want to be so animal like.
She stills those needs in me.
But...will I have to protect mom this season?
I'm not strong enough.
My antlers are still growing.
My muscles are no where compared to the stags.
I'm....going to get hurt aren't I?
I push away my worries and make sure these small moments with mom are happy.
We dance and dance some more.
Why does she always collect fawns?
She's such a good mother.
I'm a very lucky son.
7th of September
Hnngh.
I still cant stand the raging hormones inside of me.
I feel restless.
I feel possessive.
I feel animalistic.
I saw Calf again today.
She's so sweet.
I find myself wanting to act like a fawn around her.
She can bring out my smile almost as much as Cash can.
Today, I vowed to protect her.
But...I wont tell her that.
I also met a doe named Rice.
She was alot of fun and I laughed alot.
Even though whenever a stag ran by...
I wanted to protect them as if they were mine.
God I hate this rutting season.
8th of September
V...Virgil.
The name....
He...
He rushed at me today.
Strutting around me and showing off his massive antlers.
He's....so....
Big.
Calf hid behind a tree.
She's such a smart girl.
I was worried for her but I was helpless to help her.
But...he didn't go for her.
Instead he kept circling me.
I....
was afraid.
I'M SO COWARDLY!
He even sullied Cash's and my place....
THAT PLACE IS MINE!
I-It's d-ear to me...
/soft cries/
I...wont
I wont let anyone touch it again.
YOU WONT TOUCH IT AGAIN!
9th of September
Hnngh.
So....tired.
Ca-Calf?
Mmmm...
You smell good.
Stay with me...Hnnngh...w-while
While I sleep....
I....need warmth.
/chuckles/
No....I need your mental support.
If...I'm to come out of this...
Alive.
10th of September
I....didn't avoid Calf.
But...I didn't want her around the fighting.
I tried to play with my friend Rice...but...
This stag...Gustiro wouldn't let me near her!
A-All I wanted to do was play...
What has this rut caused?
I called out to her...
Don't you want to play with me anymore?
It seems the rut mentality has taken over her as well.
Fine.
I....
I guess to have you to play I'll have to fight for you huh?
That's fine by me.
I....I dont think I like my friends being affected by this rut.
Damn.
I....
I'm gonna get hurt just trying to get my playmate back.
/grumbles/
11th of September
I trained within the poppies.
They bent and swayed with each swift movement.
Tufts of grass pulling out of the earth as sharp hooves dug into it.
Bark fell like snowflakes as my antlers scraped against the nearby trees.
I....
Will....
Protect....
What's....
MINE.
12th of September
Sleep.
It claims me.
I've been getting too excited.
Hnngh.
13th of September
I've been circling Gehirn's herd for quite some time now.
What does the guy do to get all the does?
I can't understand.
It's gotta be those antlers.
Well, needless to say I got distracted when I met her.
Harumi
Wow.
She is like a porcelain doll.
I'm afraid to touch her in case she breaks.
She...she reminds me of someone...
She indulged me at least.
A-at least until He came.
Ashura
I tried to protect her but...it seemed...she wanted to go.
And...I'm not about forcing anyone to stay.
Even though it hurt me to be pushed away...
Harumi....it's alright.
I...I wont bother you again.
/frown/
Ouch...my heart just dropped to my stomach.
14th of September
Still reeling from my heartache from yesterday I began to wander.
Which...musta been my heart leading me because it lead me right to Harumi.
I tried to ignore her but my eyes kept moving on their own accord.
However, I did meet two lovely does though.
Lucy and Waarhijd.
Now I've seen Waarhijd before, circling Gehirns herd.
I mean...she's always there.
Maybe they're friends or something.
Relatives?
Anyways...Lucy.
Now she is beautiful.
However, I get the feeling I should tread lightly around her.
Hmmm...
weird.
15th-19th of September
I rested.
Soon it would be the day and I would need my strength.
C-Cash....I hope you're okay.
20th of September
The rut has officially begun.
The spars are breaking out more in the forest....and I can't help but help to instigate it.
You old stags...you really think we'll fight clean?
If it's one thing us bucks know is how to work together to get to a common goal...especially
if we think we can take the other buck.
Risiko is that buck for me.
He's too worried about /the whole herd/ than like myself, who would rather spend time with
just one doe.
I kept Gehirn on his toes while Risiko went in to introduce himself, which caught Gehirn's
attention which in turn allowed me to take my time.
The only one I was really interested in were Gehirn's daughter Waarhijd.
We had spent some time earlier in the week and I just couldn't figure her out.
She was sophisticated one minute and prancing about like a fawn the next or even running off
to chase off does.
/laughs/
She's pretty cute in personality and looks.
I watched from a safe distance with mother and Cay Lynn as Risiko pulled a stupid move.
Challenging Gehirn when he was no where near close to being tired.
Of course Risiko lost and gave me my opening.
Karma hates me.
At that moment...I heard her call out.
My heart skipped a beat and I could see mother questioning why I hesitated.
Can't right tell her...she'd think it's more than what it is.
I called out...but she left.
/sighs/
My attention back on Gehirn I decided to make my move.
We sized each other up and I have to admit....up close he's very handsome.
Ya know...for a stag.
A stag can admit when anothers handsome.
/frowns/
Anyways, we begun and I was overwhelmed by the massive amount of power from him.
I was pretty impressed.
However because he had those lumbering things for antlers, he couldn't move quickly.
I charged, taking a blow to my shoulder from his hoof, but I was quick on my feet.
I pushed off and attacked his side, darting away when those massive antlers came towards me.
I could see him huffing and losing his energy.
And before I knew it...it was over.
I could hear mothers screams of triumph of her sons win.
I have to admit, I was proud of myself.
Gehirn parted and I was left with the herd.
I turned to them and wondered...
So....
What do I do with them?
Later on, I got challenged by Virgil and lost.
Then watched him lose to Lork.
I was alright with it.
Cay Lynn and mother walked off with me while I healed.
Virgil had taken a nice chunk out of my leg.
I wouldn't be doing much fighting today anyways.
So I fell asleep with Cay Lynn, Willow Leaf and mother.
21st of September
After Gehirns fight...I was too tired to do anything.
Plus the snow...
Eh.
Too cold to go out.
I haven't even gotten my winter coat.
22nd of September
Illrose found me and I must say she's got to be the funniest doe alive.
I smile every time I hang out with her.
She's just so much fun to be around.
She makes this whole rut easier.
She just has that air about her.
We played together with Cay Lynn and some fawns.
/smiles/
Cay Lynn...I hope you know I really enjoy your company.
And...thanks for sticking around a young buck even though I bet the stags are wanting you for
their own herd.
Then me and the girls decided to investigate all the ruckus up at Virgil's herd.
Before I knew it, me and Virgil were in another altercation.
I kept moving back but he kept charging.
One of his tines caught my left ear and ripped it.
I...I thought we weren't that close to the fawns when all the sudden I was blindsided by pain in my side.
A doe had attacked me.
Screaming at me to get the fuck out and leave.
I...I hadn't done anything!
I-I-I'm so-s-s-or-orry.
Virgil took the distraught doe and all the others away.
By that time, I wasn't in the mood to even entertain anyways.
Did...did I get too close?
W-was it my fault?
D-Did a fawn get hurt?
Tears welled up in my eyes when I felt Illrose comfort me.
She nuzzled me and calmed me down.
My heart was still heavy though.
We moved from that spot to the birch forest, playing.
Then Harumi came.
My heart lifted just a small degree...I really wasn't in the mood to play.
But...
I'll put on a good face for them.
Eventually Cay Lynn left and I fell asleep.
When I woke, mom came to me.
We played and we watched Virgil's herd for a bit before moving towards the ruins.
Harumi was with Ashura and I wasn't about to start a conflict knowing it would pain
her to see us fight.
Harumi...
I hope you know...that even though you're with him...
I'm still thinking about you.
So don't worry....I'll wait for when he's gone.
And we'll hang out some more.
We moved away and I met a strange doe.
I don't know her name but she was nuzzling me instantly.
Can't say I didn't mind it.
We sat together before I fell asleep again.
Hopefully....
I'll have a chance to apologize to that doe.
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Updates & About
Online : Yes
Thoughts : 'It's a beautiful day. Hello again Lucy.'
Feeling : Content
New Scars/Wounds : 4
Cause of Scars/Wounds : Gehirn's Hoof/Virgil's Antler/Virgil's Antler/Saosins Teeth
Location of Scars/Wounds : Shoulder/Front left foreleg/left ear/left side of neck
*Determining on my own definition of the fight, I will determine which scars will be lasting and which ones will heal completely. I will determine this AFTER the rut.
1.) He will rarely ever go to a stag to fight
2.) He likes to take the 'wolf' persona, circling the herd and trying to weed out the ones that are closer to the edge /those furthest away from the opponent/
3.) Since he's not fully grown and is a teenager, he'll use his youthful charm and handsome face to win ladies over
4.) When a doe does come with him, he will lavish that doe with nuzzles and prance and show off
5.) Havak is gay /he doesn't know it yet/ but this is my way to show Havak what his true destined orientation is
6.) Please interact with him/chase him/taunt/yell/whatever. I giggle like a little kid on Christmas when you do
7.) He will take hits and since he's young, stronger stags will be able to easily overtake him, however being young he wont loose his breath as much and will come back when your stag is too tired and steal away your does
8.) He will also catch crushes on stags/bucks due to him not understanding his orientation, so please don't be offended if he says something in his journal about your stag, it's just how I play him
9.) If you have a problem with me or Havak interacting with your deer please let me know here
10.) Have fun and I hope you enjoy Havak and his antics as much as I do =3
Battles
Won -
Gehirn [1]
Saosin [1]
Lost -
Virgil [1]
Rivals
Stags
Virgil
Gustiro
Gehirn
Lork
Ashura
Saosin
Bucks
Interests
Rice
Willow Leaf
Tooa
Waarhijd
Harumi
Lucy
Lucille
Celeste
Dajhi
Atuutluk
Suze
Accendare
Dajhi
Illrose
Alia
Cay Lynn
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=D Yay! First tracker and
Track. :')
Thank you! =3
retrack. xD
Thank you! =D
Poor guy's having it rough,
-Cuddles- &hearts
Just a bit. =3 Havvie
Havvie /cuddled;blush/
Really love the way these
/blush/ Thank you! I really
completely white? D:
betternothappenagainpls
/retrack <3
=( Yeah completely white. I
Tracking this again, don't
Bawww that last journal made
But, haha, he is just super adorable, I like him a lot. <3 I quite enjoy reading his diary entries. :3
=O We wouldn't want that!
Oh! Don't feel bad. D= /pats Havvies head/ He'll be fine as soon as he gets the courage to come and apologize to Lemon for being a pompous air head. He woulda done it yesterday but he didn't want to interrupt her dancing. =D And d'awww! Thank you! That means a lot! <.3.3.3 Oh yey! I'm glad so many seem to enjoy them. I worry about that sometimes. /giggles/
Ooh, I think that you mixed
And Cay Lynn likes Havak very much too <33~
Oh! I'll fix that now. Thank
No problemo xD Virgil and Fox
Virgil and Fox are like 'enemies that want to kill each other' xDD
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