For the sake of organizing my blog entries, i'll be putting all of my OOC writing here.
The entries are now newest to oldest.

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crazy
So i started up college classes again about two weeks ago. We had a late start because of the weather. They have been going alright, i only have ceramics and creative writing. I sort of enjoy ceramics, and found an old friend in the class. anyways...

I saw something that bothered me yesterday.

I was driving home, when i saw walking up the city street these... what to call them. travelers.hobos.trainkids.
Who knows. They were walking up the street, the same direction i was headed. There were four or five of them and a dog. They stood out like a sore thumb, walking around the sprawling streets of the city.

I made a U-turn and pulled into a burger-king parking-lot. I would wait for them to pass.
I had to see them again. It felt magnetic. There was absolutely nothing else as interesting in my day as these people. As i pulled in, i saw one of them exiting the burger-king with a bag of burger buns. She had red and brown hair, she glanced at me and then turned to hand out the buns to the others. There was a shorter one as well, obscured from view because of his bulky backpack and skullcap.
Another one was tall, and had long dreads and wore matte green. They all wore matte green, heh, almost looked like military. Other things they all had were giant hulking backpacks and long heavy coats. They sat there sharing the bread, the five of them by the burger king door.

I pulled off, deciding that i didn't want to piss anyone off. As bad the urge was to talk to them, but i'm smarter than that. They could even be some drug deprived low life from downtown who had never LEFT downtown.... or just assholes.
wish...

When i saw them, i saw something. It took a little bit of thinking to figure out what it was.
I decided that if these people were what i thought they were, then they are the wealthiest people in town.







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Absence
Oh wow where to start. I have not been to the forest in a while.....
It feels sort of depressing, like it's another thing that's going to slip out of my life. That happens too much...
Lately i've been thinking alot about that. Life.
I want to be patient and let things come slowly. That's what any "logical person" would do.
I'll leave here in five years. Maybe ten. They tell me it's when i have the collateral. I know different. I know that when i am ready, i will leave.
Or i may die tomorrow.

There are so many more things i'd rather be doing, so many places i would rather be; and still, i sit here living the comfortable, yet horribly alienated life.
I say it a thousand times over
get out.

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New paintings, etc...
Since coming into this community i've been a bit more inclined to do artwork lately.
I'm certainly glad to have somewhere to go for that outlet, and with renewed interest.
It's been a slow few years...i don't think about my art as often. And everyday it seems more likely that i'll have less time in the future to do artwork.
i hate that shit.

Anyhow, need to go work on sketches.
I'd be glad to know if anybody had some deer anotomy reference on dev or something....

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Walking tall
Four months, and a few hours, last time i checked. Havent been to the forest yet, but i will soon....
toketoketoke.....
Today i managed to get a quick painting in of Atticus, so i put that up as well ^_^
Still going to toy around with his image, but meh. I'll come back to this....
--on a side note.....thinking about switching this so that it's newest to oldest entry-wise.
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-done ^_^ all entries are now in order newest to oldest. Ought to be easier to read....

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Roadtrip
Suddenly i'm 3 states away, visiting my family.

God it's akward being away from home. Now i have to sneak around when i wanna smoke.
HuH. Just like old times.
There really isnt that much to do in this town, but it's got charm. And it is home.

Had a few sketches jotted down earlier today, but i dumped them. -_-



Hell. I don't know why we always stop in Indiana. Why not keep going and see more?
Christmas vacation, righh?


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New Years
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I need to get the hell out of here.


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Happy Holidays!
So with christmas winding down, and work catching back up to me, i decided to sit down
and write it out a bit.
I had a nice christmas with my family as well as my girlfriend's family. Next week i'll be taking a road trip to celebrate the holidays with my grandparents. Didn't really ask for much this year, but it's nice to have a little money sitting around.
On another note.....
I'd really like to start writing about some other things here, but i wonder if those would be writings would be better received and read in a different community? So with that thought, i have a question.

How many of you have other blogs that you write?
And how many of you write about other things than the forest here on this blog?

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Work Today
Things to think about at work.....



....... for the simple fact that i'm not required to do much thinking.

-what kind of process(es) should i think about while going to the forest? The first thing i think about
doing is forgetting any social mannerisms.
Easier said than done.


eh. have to go.

More later

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Morning...er...evening...session.
Work today again. I'm starting a new position though, so it ought to be alright.
I entered the forest for a short while this morning, and was surprised to see it was evening, and there were bats flying about. Beautiful colors
I met a deer and a fawn following him around.
http://i109.photobucket.com/albums/n46/emo___muffin/GGGG.jpg
Still looking for who it is

Anyhow, i'll be back later.

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Trot in the woods
This evening was even more interesting than last night.
I met a few new deer, and was easily able to find the two
that i now know as Saosin and Ravyn.
There was actually a point where.... shoot it must have been like six fawn all
gathered around them hahahah. Must have had their heads spinning.
After Ravyn wandered off i decided to walk around for a bit. I found Saosin on top of a rock XD
and another orange stag leaping at him.
The two of us on the ground left for a mushroom tree ^_^
It was close by, and we spent a good ten minutes doing different forest magic and laughing
at the masks that i received.

Walking with....
what word do i use...
pack doesn't seem right.
Anyhow, walking with the group is a great feeling.
It really touches on the spot that never gets any attention these days.
That tribal part of us that is so deprived, most of us don't even know what it is.

Hmm. Maybe i'll write down a little list here.
ravyn Saosin

Orange stag (ant. pointed downwards? didn't get a good look at this one's picto
but i did get a few good screenshots.

The Crow. (don't know much about no crow. It walked up to me, and i followed it. Shortly after i just went to sleep though. Seemed like it wanted me to do something.....)





random thoughts:

ohgod being a fawn i can't stop thinking about disneys "Bambi".
Not one of my childhood favorites, but i'm so used to playing FPS games that i feel
like there may be some guy rolling around on a quad, with his rifle, looking for game. ;_;
well then.




Speaking of mushroom trees....

Goodnight.


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Faces
Today, while milling around in the grass i happened upon two deer that i saw yesterday.
The First, a large Orange-umber colored stag with great curled antlers. The other one i felt
i had connected better with, at least in terms of communication. It was a dark brown Doe, (no antlers?)
On (her?) back there were intricate orange and red designs.
Not sure where i'll be going with that, but it's nice to see familiar faces.
Their Pictos:
Orange Stag (looked somewhat like this)

Brown Doe (exact)

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What's it look like?
Back from work, and soaking up the couchtime.
While i was away, i thought about what my deer might look like.
I'm really very anxious to break out my tablet and get down to drawing different things, but i
still have no idea how my deer might end up looking. And on top of that i haven't used my tablet in a while hahah. Another obstacle that i'm bound to overcome soon is the proportion and anatomy of a stag.
I tried closing my eyes and visualizing....
nope
It'll come to me....

In reading others blogs, i notice how much energy they put into a single column using html code and very specific details. I'd write all the things that i like to eat
my favorite song
or one of the other millions of non-required, descriptive traits that people put on their blog
But there is just one thing.
I really just couldn't even be bothered to do so.
I want to, but i could literally sit there and think "What are my thoughts" and blank for hours straight.
For me, it's easier not to format this kind of writing, at least for now.
Christ i'm still so used to writing stupid research based papers.

Let's go for a walk in the woods.

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Potential
idn't sleep much. I must have woken up about five times. The moment i set down to close my eyes i knew my mind would be far too occupied to sleep.
This is my first blog. I've never been into writing on my own time (save for class papers, etc.), so this is a new sort of outlet for me.
I thought about many things last night, mostly about what potential this virtual community holds.
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I sat there and stared at the screen for a while, trying to put things into words. I know what i want to say, but i don't quit know what to start with. That will probably be split between a few entries.
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Possible names....
ezra
aesra
A'tol
atticus
rem
remington (hah)
hymn
aero

more later....

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Something to Sleep on
Well i've been on for the night, and i do have to say, there is a very quirky kind of feeling to role playing a deer. But the biggest change in the online experience that i noticed, was the lack of any kind of in-game text/ speech device. The result of this, is that every player must communicate solely through body (stag?) language. I've kind of theorized that this is one of the most unique and important features of TEF, because of the social boundaries that this unwritten policy knocks down.
On the other spectrum, in my life, my work conditions resemble this.
I work in a small japanese restaurant, with a staff of varied ethnicity. We have many immigrants that have come to the US to work, most of which i feel quite comfortable working with. I've really found in my time working there, that there tends to be drama and nonsense among the staff that can easily communicate. The small, everyday speech that we share with peers sometimes is taken for granted.
The point of this anyways, is that i always found it easier to communicate with my immigrant fellow workers through body language, simple speech (mostly simple noises), and just plain old courtesy. And that is something that i recognize here as well.
Coming into TEF, i instantly liked the User Interface. I have my basic tools laid before me, almost as if wrapped in a cloth, rolled out, and ready to go. The options menu is also pretty straightforward, and most of the graphics are customizable (this is good for me because i'm running an old Acer travelmate 4010 x_x). It was easy to install, launch, get my settings together, and start playing.
Finally, I'll leave a few questions to log and think about. Maybe i'll recheck this and look these up later.

1-I had a lot of difficulty with the camera, despite liking the UI. Are there any mods/ fixes out there that could help slow down my camera (mouse) speed? It seems like there is a lot of UI lag.

2-While i do enjoy the language barrier, because of the human social barriers it breaks down, i do wonder if perhaps there are a few or a majority of players that use vent/AIM/ or some other form of communication?

3-Although i'm currently a fawn, how is it that the other players are able to keep their ... costumes?
I went to this... shrine, and was able to turn my avatar completely white. I went into the options menu after this, and saved my "current appearance". However, the white disappeared. So when i get to the point where i have a neat mask or whatever, how do i not lose it?

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First Evening
well.
My first impressions of this game were odd. I felt mixed emotions at these off little deer with human faces. I've been into MMO's for years now, and left WoW a few years ago. I left that game because i found more and more that all i wanted to do was role play, rather than raid, quest, etc. With the mature, experienced players rising and raiding more, and the rp having little or no presence, i simply decided to quit. So lately, i've been feeling a sore spot in that niche that WoW used to fill. I miss those experiences that i shared with others, and the virtual "time" that was spent in that community. And so, i started looking for a community that might better fill that niche.
And here I am. So what kind of times will i have in The Endless Forest?