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2/29/24

I gave 10 years of my life to this game when I had nothing else ~ as pathetic as it sounds.. In saying that, however, I have things in my life now that take priority over TEF. A healthy and active relationship, a multitude of pets that take up most of my time if I'm not in the city with my wife or we're not gaming together on her off time. Rarely do I get to sit and pour myself fully into TEF like I did 4 years ago (and for the 10 previously), and as much as it saddens me, I'm glad it's happened while the game is slowly dying by the creators and how small the community has become. I find myself writing lore and stories of my own characters, meeting each other and adventuring with each other. I don't rely on anyone else or expect it from anyone else anymore. I think most players are comfortable in their circles and don't feel a need to expand it or open it up fully, and that's ok (truthfully branching out and trying to expand has barely ever worked for me). Everyone is owed comfort and security. I think my place within TEF has slowly been leaking out and eventually I feel like my time completely will come to an end. I enjoy writing for my characters, but I dont need TEF for that if I feel like I am doing it all within my own head. I've always loved writing, even as a young teenager.

YUCK ANYWAY that was a tldr; tef is slowly dying no matter how much we'd like to believe it isnt and im glad it's happening now when I have things to live for outside of it and am not 'prisoned'



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i hate how short their lives

i hate how short their lives are.. when we're dealing with their old age and the deaths i always say i cant do it anymore, but then i get a lil baby and im like MY CHEST and it's a vicious cycle for my heart.. my wife keeps saying we're not getting anymore but here we are.. and after we first picked up Mei (and before) she was absolutely adamant and refusing to pick her up or touch her "if the tail touches me we're getting rid of her" and as soon as we brought her home she's outstretching her hand "i want to hold her". And now she's as a crazy rat lady as me.

ive had sO many girls pee on everything tho (mei, the one who i swear should've been a boy) did it a lot.. honestly all of mine do it, even if it's just teeny tiny amounts, but the only one that never did in any capacity was Grace/'Mum'. Bless her i could have her out and never worry about pee streaks on the furniture

they're honestly the worst sigh ;; and like you said they're not sick? the cancer is so bad and grows so large but they're still 'normal' in every way except the lump and it's so heartbreaking seeing them lose weight and have trouble walking (when it gets large) and it's only because of that, they still have spirit and spunk and appetite siGH half of my girls have had to be put to sleep because of that cancer specifically and i hate it because besides that (and the weight loss they're fine)

i for sure want to get a couple boys when we have no more girls left, really give them my attention and hopefully experience what everyone talks about ;; two of my boys came from a pet store (the same one we got this new girl plus a couple other girls) and they were love bugs but a little squirmy to hold. Romeo ('Dad') still 'stress shit' (there's nothing worse smelling you cant change my mind) when being held 2 years after we brought him, and PROBABLY MY FAULT NOT GIVING ENOUGH FOCUSED ATTENTION but he was so so sweet when he wasn't being held, would come over to your hand and push his fat head under (he was a dumbo) and just lay there with his eyes closed waiting for pats. GOD I CANT WAIT TO HAVE JUST 2 BOYS LIKE THAT

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EXACTLY, SAME. instead of not

EXACTLY, SAME. instead of not getting rats.. we can just SUFFER EVERY YEAR AND A HALF TO THREE YEARS INSTEAD?? sounds good
ALKDSN YOUR WIFE THOUGH. so many people talk about the tails being gross but i never got that. like ik it has no fur but.. it's c u t e r that way. and then yep they all get over it >u>

NO WAY THEY SCENT MARKED? i find the boys do it less once they're comfortable 100% in their home. and po never does it because i think he wants to avoid upsetting peep by spreading his own scent on the territory POOR BABY
but i thought girls just. DIDN'T. my illusion is destroyed.
mei was the manliest doe of all

the weight loss is such a heartbreaker yeah. 3; seeing them slow down and get tired. I'm 'lucky' that the tumors my boys had were either not visible or super tiny. i got less time with them but it's like. NOT AS VISUALLY JARRING? it's so sad to see it just drain them SIGH
but it's still like.. well, they get to live a good loved life even while they've got those tumors, or infections, or w/e pops up in them

OOOOOOOOHGKLNASDLK I ONLY HAD /ONE/ RAT WHO WOULD FEARSHIT NO MATTER WHAT AND IT WAS THE WORST THING EVER. but damn it's a good defense mechanism because even if i was a hungry predator i would just put them down and leave because it really is that bad
po and peep i can hold for a lllong time as long as i'm petting them but once i stop they're off to cause trouble. po will sleep under my hair sometimes though. ONCE THEY'RE OLD N FAT i'm sure they'll settle for sleeping on my shoulders more than anything else
actually the other day po was having a sweet moment bruxing curled up against my neck
and he ruined it
by shitting on me
and that moment was over
most of my rats 'litter' trained themselves automatically but N O T THIS ONE
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All my ratlings were

All my ratlings were snakefood too. I had three, two boys and one rescue girl. Pikachu was my first and one of the best pets I ever had. I miss him so much. I don’t think I could ever have more because it’s so heartbreaking they don’t live long (and unfortunately they give me bad hives sob).

my rats barely get to the 2

my rats barely get to the 2 year mark :'( i think Grace/'Mum' has been the only one that got there, and then to hear people saying they've had their rats live 4-7 years im like hOW?

YES SCENT MARKED! All my girls have done it except for sweet gracie, never even 1 little drop ;; mei was notorious for it, but all except 1 do it when they're out. That's why when i hear people say "get boys if you dont want pee streaks!" im like honey you've got a big storming

i've only had romeo who fear shit when being held (besides new arrivals), even 2ish years later after getting him he still did it when being held despite loving attention when he was stationed on the ground. He was a giant fucking man baby tho (i loved him sm, the sweetest rat ive ever had)
actually the other day po was having a sweet moment bruxing curled up against my neck
and he ruined it
by shitting on me
and that moment was over

LMFOAMF me with all mine who do
I used to take mei out with me and she'd hang on my shoulder still (or in my hoodie pocket when it was sunny out - she hated the sun in her face) and she'd never go to the bathroom on me ;; even when we were out for like half an hour?? she was the only one tho, all the others shit or piss embarrassing cant take them anywhere. they're super easy to litter train in their cages i was astounded?? i had them on carefresh for over a year before we got a big cage with fleece lining and i put homemade litter pans on each level and they just taught themself??? so damn smart
one day i will only have 2 and be those youtube rat parents who teach them tricks :triumph:

kimi; most of mine have been as well.. my first was born and raised in a cigarette filled room of a girl who bred rats for her own snakes.. the best rats ive had have been the ones ive gotten who were bred primarily for snake food tbh, all the others that i bred or got from breeders selling for pets havent been nearly as sweet and laid back?? which id think would be the opposite

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3: OH NO. god i've gotten to

3: OH NO. god i've gotten to 3 years and 1 month!? WITH ONE BOY. he was an anomaly. and GGGGIGANTIC. i can't imagine 4 years let alone 7. I WISH. THAT WOULD BE AMAZING

I CAN'T BELIEEEVE. i've been lied to all these years. girls are trouble too..

ALKDN POOR ROMEO. maybe he was.. s c a r e d of h e i g h t s
or just body contact. sometimes they're ridic for no fathomable reason

MEI SEEMED LIKE SUCH AN ANGEL
most of my rats haven't gone to the bathroom on me, oR OUTSIDE OF THE CAGE IN GENERAL? BB used to pinchbite my toes when he had to go and i'd put him back in the cage, let him do his thing and then take him back out. but these two for some reason are shameless gross little men. or maybe just too lazy to move. dISgUstED
I TEACH ALL MY BOYS TO SPIN. also any of my single male mice. idk why. i can't seem to teach them to do anything else though SIGH

Your fur babies are always so

Your fur babies are always so precious. Love your new ratling. <3

i've only gotten to 2 years

i've only gotten to 2 years max :sob: granted they've all been shitty breeding ofc being mostly pet store rats, but im curious to see how lua's genetics are because she was from an actual breeder :eyes: we drove 40 mins one way to pick her up

girls are such trouble, and they're super active and want to go go go and arent that cuddly (except for mei), but they're so soft

once my girls have settled in they usually dont go out of their cage either (except if i just wake them up and take them out), otherwise i never see any poop out on the ground when they're popcorning and running around the lounge room bless

lacie; thank you ♥

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HONESTLY KEEP US UP TO DATE

HONESTLY KEEP US UP TO DATE ON LUA because i've never had firsthand experience with anything but feeder rats and i'd rly love to know if they're less prone to respiratory infections or health issues in general and their lives are longer. would be SO COOL TO KNOW

i've held an adult female rat once. OnCe. they're so tiny and so soft and smell.. so not like musky cornchip boys. smh..
I HEAR SOME OF THEM SMELL LIKE GRAPE SODA? IS THIS ANOTHER LIE I'VE BEEN FED?

i'm 'lucky' that they go in a particular corner (OR ON ME) while outside of the cage but i'm also like... Why is it. A Window Sill?Question stop. not a good corner. can't put a litter box there

ALSO I CAN'T GET OVER HOW HANDSOME YOUR BOY IS. HE GREW UP, HE'S A BIG STRONG TINYLEGGY MAN NOW

I WILL! She's a silvermane

I WILL! She's a silvermane rex but not as rex'ish as i thought she was going to be, and she's darker so it's harder to see her silver hairs from a distance :pensive: x / she dash / curly whiskers

GRAPE SODA? LMFAOMF none of mine have how unfair :'( but yeah their smell is so lowkey? ESPECIALLY being on fleece and not smelling like carefresh anymore bless

A WINDOW SILL LMOFMA are your boys neutered? i probably would like to get mine done when/if i get boys but im sure it'd be hella expensive.. i priced a girls spay and it was over 200 dollars :sleepy:

AKLJGSD;L THANK YOU :'( we're always getting compliments of his coat and i swear every time we go out with him i hear at least once "oh that's a big dachshund" or "is that a dachshund?" someone whispers to whoever they're with and then they respond "no it's too big" LISTEN HE'S A BIG ONE, HE EVEN HAS WEBBED PAWS LIKE DOXIE'S DO

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auuuUUUUGH I LOVE

auuuUUUUGH I LOVE SILVERMAANES. some of the ones around here have their genetics linked to random aggression after 6 months tho BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE SUCK and breed only for good coats and not.. behavior sigh. SO I'VE YET TO FIND A BREEDER I'D TRUST. to get one from..
and i love REXES. and rex-ishes.. but i have alllways wanted a hairless rat jfc. one of these days

SOME PEOPLE SWEAR BY THE SODA, that when they get rly excited or really happy, they give off a grape soda smell. one of my boys SOMETIMES SLIGHTLY smelled like maple syrup but that's the least musky it got. BUT IT'S NOT BAD ANYWAY RLY

noPE NO NEUTERED BOYS. costs around $130 dollars a rat here and i'd rather.. save that for possible vet trips. 200 DOLLARS HOLY SHIOTHSLKFDNL. YOU FIGURE IT'D BE LESS than a dog but ... B a r e l y

HIS COAT COLOR IS AMAZING. tbh i wasn't sure if he was a dachsHIE but ONLY BECAUSE- no offense i love dachshunds- BUT HE'S MORE 'HANDSOME' THAN THE USUAL ONES? they have rly slim pointy faces and he's got a nice MANLY MAN FORM
he just buff dach

when i was googling around at

when i was googling around at some rat coat types (cause i wanted something a little more fancy than the pet stores here sell) i read up about the silvermane issues with aggression, and that there were two lines (from the same breeder who 'founded' it) which was the aggression and non aggression, and the breeder i got lua from had said her genetics came from the latter,, i mean i know people can lie but keeping my fingers crossed she's aBOUT 8-9 months old and so far so good :eyes:

it would probably cost the same here and i'd rather keep it for more pressing stuff too for the future sO guess i gotta get used to them draggy sacs

we're so blessed to have a handsome boy besides his pigeon legs, im just hoping his genetics and having a bit longer legs than some of the others will play a factor in him not getting that spine issue they're notorious for sweats im super fixated on keeping him fit and muscled/toned and wanting him a tiiiiny bit under the 'perfect' weight to keep as much weight off his back im constantly paranoid and worried about it

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Your girls are ADORABLE.

Your girls are ADORABLE. <333

It's funny when they find those bones. My dog likes to hide them and save em for later, but when my rats come out to explore they find them pretty quick and it's hilarious watching them drag it back into their cage. ;-;

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GOD NICE. i'd believe her

GOD NICE. i'd believe her mostly because if she's a breeder and she lied and had aggression pop up she'd be super screwed.. that's some bad reputation. by 9 months i'd think she's clear. just a cute fluffgirl forever

i've heard of some vets doing it for like $30 but that's in the US and i can barely get an appointment that ends in 'nothing's wrong idk lol go home and come back if it gets worse' for less than $70 AROUND HERE SO. I DOUBT I'LL BE FINDING ThOSE deals..

OALSKDN I NEVER NOTICED HIS PIGEON LEGS but i'd be scared about back issues too. i bet as long as he stays MUSCLY he'll be okay. god some of the chubby dachshunds i see outside. how can something be so adorable but so sad at the same time..
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I’m at the Aquatics Experiece

I’m at the Aquatics Experiece in NJ and you should see the Bettas h e r e

KIMI IM SO JEALOUS :sob:

KIMI IM SO JEALOUS :sob:

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I won a 5gallon tank so guess

I won a 5gallon tank so guess who’s gonna get another betta soon B)

KIMI!! i want so many pics

KIMI!! i want so many pics :pensive:

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I wish my girls would eat raw

I wish my girls would eat raw ): they're just so damn fussy. I'm extremely aware of what they eat though and I keep meaning to watch Pet Fooled but I'm afraid lmao
I'm happy I work at a place that actively encourages raw feeding.

it took us a little bit for

it took us a little bit for hershey to get on board with raw, even longer to get him on board with eating whole fish (he was so damn picky with some parts of it) but now he eats it like a champ and im so glad :pensive: (it took even longer for me to get my wife on board "raw food so much bacteria" she says as he eats geese shit at the park, now that was work but after she did a little research on raw diet herself she slowly got comfortable with it and now she's great.. i swear she believed we were going to be the only ones feeding our dog a raw diet)

honestly i was scared to watch it too, there's a few doco's i want to watch but im scared to because i dont want to know but it was so informative for me and literally changed my life and perception of things, and it really was the beginning of me looking into things that i never really thought about beforehand too much (like commercial pet food, spaying and neutering far too early amONG some other stuff that would probably be 'taboo' :eyes: ) Definitely give it a try one day when you're feeling brave, kimi!

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That gets me too. Processed

That gets me too. Processed food is bad for humans but good for dogs?? :thinking:
Have you seen that report that's been shared around recently about the 2 year raw food study? Found it very encouraging myself.

it gets me so much NO I

it gets me so much
NO I HAVENT :'( pls share

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Link to the Facebook post

Link to the Facebook post that summarises it, with the link at the bottom for the pdf of the report! Would love more studies like this one.

ew bumping my own stuff,,

ew bumping my own stuff,, but! little 'searching for' note if anyones interested!

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I wish I could get my pets on

I wish I could get my pets on raw... I've tried countless ones and they just refuse to eat it. Plus my kitty has kidney disease and she has special things she needs like low phosphorus and apparently from one of the groups I'm in t he bone in raw brings the phosphporus up. A local guy may be able to make me some bone-free raw though so I'm going to see if I can try it.. my animals are just so picky so I feed them the best I can, which is usually freeze dried raw, some kibble and the best cans I can find. I'm so happy your pup is on raw though! I see a lot of people come in where I work and their pets that are raw fed look -amazing- . We're pretty big raw advocates!

I still do have some issues

I still do have some issues when it comes to Hershey and raw diet. He gets tired of the same stuff if he gets it weeks in a row, and it's like pulling teeth to get him to eat the fish I can find easily near our home. But the fish we get is larger and needs to be cut up, so i think it's awkward for him to eat. The raw website (My Pet Carnivore) has whole sardines that im going to get him next that i think he'll enjoy more because they're smaller. He's sort of fussy trying new things but gets sick of the same thing after a certain amount of time. He can be so fussy, but im glad at least that he'll eat it, and he loves ground meat which is a big portion of what we ordered. Getting him chicken necks and green tripe that he's never tried before so im excited to see how he likes both

we get sO many compliments about hershey's coat colour, shine and smoothness that im just like pls ask me what his diet is so i can tell you it's raw but they never do :pensive: only compliments

you're doing the best you can kimi, and the fact you have that mindset when it comes to raw is amazing THE LEGEND JUMPED OUT doing the absolute best you can for them (and wanting to go beyond despite impossibility) is better than a lot do for their pets ♥

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umm, hello! i new here i i

umm, hello! i new here i i just need some help Smiling how can i grow my deer and how can i change his color?

so excited for you! i hope he

so excited for you! i hope he loves it all. we can't get tripe here unless it's treated in a way that strips pretty much all the nutrients, soo jealous!!

@greassygrace; kaoori

@greassygrace; kaoori answered all your questions! if you need anything dont hesitate to ask ee


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he loVES the tripe supermix so much im surprised.. i thought his fussy arse would have made it near impossible for me to feed him it but im so happy :relieved: no pulling teeth here

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Really glad Hershey's doing

Really glad Hershey's doing good on his diet. Might have to pop back in here five years from now and get advice from you if/when I get my own dog LOL.

Really hope you can find a solution to your teeth issues. They're never fun. ):
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Aw fam :c sorry for all the

Aw fam :c sorry for all the teeth issues. I've been there, it's awful. Hope you get it all sorted and congrats on the raw conversion!!
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one day I'll get off my ass

one day I'll get off my ass and have Ryuu and Gunnarr make friends beyond sitting silently on the ruins

I also have like 5 experimental chars idk what I'm doing with and should throw them at u lol

ty for all the comments! BEN

ty for all the comments!

BEN YES PLS throw them all at me :triumph:

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THE CARPET CURSE IS

THE CARPET CURSE IS DEFEATED.

Please do take your time coming back everything's been waiting just fine so it can wait some more -3-
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I relate way too much to that

I relate way too much to that feeling :upside_down:
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&hearts;

Sigi by Wake

been wondering about lack of

been wondering about lack of your presence, glad to see you around again ♥

&hearts;


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good to see you around again!

good to see you around again!
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HOORAY!! Looking forward to

HOORAY!! Looking forward to catching up :3
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Welcome back! &hearts;

Welcome back! ♥

thank you everyone &hearts;

thank you everyone ♥ ;;

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so great to see you around

so great to see you around again,
I've missed you and your chars
except shahla ofc
;b

Aye, welcome back. (:

Aye, welcome back. (:
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welcome back &hearts;

welcome back ♥

good to see you back &hearts;

good to see you back ♥ glad you're safe now.

you guys are great &hearts;

you guys are great ♥ thank you sm

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Glad to see you back & glad

Glad to see you back & glad you're safe. Feel free to drop by and RP with my ocs anytime.

Formerly ocean.

thank you so much! it's

thank you so much! it's appreciated, and would love to take you up on that offer, and extend my own ♥

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hi &hearts;

hi ♥
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so happy for you &hearts; !!

so happy for you ♥ !!