Herla [Bio] The Red Eyed Queen
May 10, 2011 - 3:05am — Sighthoundlady
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"...thoughts here...."
November 12th, 2015
Yes, I guess I can say I'm gone now. It's been 4 months and I've looked at this site maybe twice. I have absolutely no desire to go into forest anymore. Herla and my other characters are alive and well, though they don't live here anymore. I'm as happy with them now as I've ever been and feel much more satisfied with my creations since removing them from this place. I used to think that would be hard or impossible and if I left, I'd lose them. I laugh now at that, the best way out is through as they say, and then you wonder what all the fuss was about in the first place.
Health challenges continue, and part of that is minimized computer time since it aggravates my conditions to sit and type and look at screens. After a decade dedicated to digital art, I pretty much exclusively do traditional art now. Loving my Copic markers. It has really helped me to find alternative creative outlets like the Ball Jointed Doll Hobby. Starting to sculpt and sew too.
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I think I have seen you in
Thank you Kaoori for this drawing!Natali looks beautiful =D
Thanks for the track
I should probably be tracking
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Thank you for the track,
Lol Rascal was confused why
Thank you Kaoori for this drawing!Natali looks beautiful =D
So cute I had to post it
So cute I had to post it ♥
It my doe Corell that is
Also, this css is beautiful, tracking ♥ ^^
Aww, Mandy that was pretty
Corell! We’ve seen her a few times! I really like how her character has been developing. She’s welcome to sit with Herla anytime. Thanks for the track.
...Am I not tracking
Anyway, I don't know if you could see it, but after my connection hiccuped, Oisín got stuck dancing. Even while walking (which looked very strange X3). I couldn't do anything else other than "listen" and had to restart my game.
But if he seemed to be acting strange, that's why. X3
Oh no, Oisín wasn't dancing
Thanks for the track. ^_^
Yeah, I don't know why that
666 comment IS MINE
IS MINE
You so evil~ xD
This morning was quite
"Hello Herla."he said and slightly wished the doe wouldn't see him in this state. He truely looked poor. Some fur was missing and was all messed up. Bad for his manly ego. "Now I am the wounded one, no? But I am glad that you look way better than the last time I saw you." a soft chuckle turned into a heavy cough so he gave up simulating like everything is fine. "How are you my dear?"
The little black doe noticed
A relieved sigh followed when
The small doe looked up at
"Alright Miss." he said with
A coy smile graced her lips
Pulling her supplies from her feathers where she kept them tucked away, she readied to treat his wounds. At his permission she gently cleaned the open gouges, then applied her numb root poultices, carefully packing them in. “It will sting at first,” she warned, “But then it should start to feel numb. It will still the bleeding and prevent infection.” She pulled out another package wrapped in leaves, that contained one of her newest concoctions. She’d been experimenting with the use of flame to alter the herbs and strengthen their potency. This bundle contained willow bark and poppy seeds, crushed and heated and mixed with cat tails, to help with inflammation and pain, as well as other herbs to strengthen healing. She laid this in front of him, ”Please eat this, it will help you to rest more comfortably and speed your recovery,” she said.
Amazed by her graceful
The sting came quickly and Alain groaned loud but as quick as the sting came it left and the wound felt much better."Mhh.. I see Herla, you know what you are doing." he nodded and watched her again pulling out packages. Now this one contained an odd mixture of herbs but the large stag trusted the little doe. "Sure as my lady wishes." So he ate the mixture and it had an unknown but good taste. "Thank you Herla. I don't know what I've done without you." he said and closed his eyes. Alain lowered his head until it was right in front of his chest. His neck muscles were tensed and formed a strong bow. A chivalrous gesture to express his deep thank towards the doe. "You know I will remember that."
Sorry, I have much muse to
Alas, misfortune befell that day. Yet another memory of his past was reliving itself in his mind, and no matter how he tried to will it way, the tendrils held fast and persisted. From these memories had come the evil joker, with pouting lips, a permanent sadistic grin at each tip. This place... it was all foreign to him; the mannerisms, textures, sounds. All he knew was that the pond was near, and it was there that his destination lay. The forests had countless variations, poetic expressions, and an interplay of three distinct elements in the history of nature's struggle. This forest harbored one tranquility that pleased him, one that he had been unable to find before coming here. Millions of branching marvels, rich in diverse colors; reds and yellows, pinks and maroons, and the freshest pale green. All would think it a wonder how such temporal events could be so beautiful and grand. Even a fleeting glance invokes in him a millions dreams, but also countless tales of struggle. he language of his father, that religious dribble, it had vanished with the winds from his mind.
He had lost all words that his teacher had drilled in him, the incantations and mantras that were served over him, to exercise the demon that supposedly lay beneath the surface. If only his father had known the potential of that innocent child, and the demon that he was only forcing inside of him. Why could he not simply forget these past vexes, and live in the present? But even as he continued to live, he would be existing, yet not existing. He was snapped from his stupor before he reached the pond, the scent of the small doe he had attempted to protect the previous night altering his intentions. With purpose in his stride, he moved towards it, though quickly became aware of the large company she was with. He sat himself a fair distance from her, avoiding trying to smother her with yet another body nearby. "Are you well? I apologize that I could not do much to distract that other doe yesterday."
"Careful now, A beautiful doe
But who cares for rules?"
(Seemingly-non sequitur RP
The clearing in which they had ended up was empty when she got here, and therefore met Ravus's one and only criteria in choosing a spot for that evening. Herla's arrival was the opposite of what she needed--time, distance, space. In flashing, alternating moments Ravus wants seclusion, and then wanted to try and take control over everything; her energy, her emotions, her frustrations latched and focused on her current, unfortunate company with barely-there reservations to hold them back. She wanted, she didn't want--Ravus didn't know what she wanted, and with effort she wrested the burden of desire down and fell back into sharp nonchalance. She doesn't care, it appears.
"Don't insult either of us by comparing one to the other," Ravus intones darkly, eyes ghosting once, twice over the other female. She's still standing, eying Herla from her vantage point far off the ground, then looks away, looking bored. It's the only way she can ease up on the small female. "We are too different. As for me, I am not some overeager buck with a throwaway temper and something to prove. I am no more fierce than you are a passive bystander. You're the fierce one; coming to me to defend him. I don't know him well but I have seen enough of him to know I will not tolerate mistakes from him. He does not deserve your good-character testament. I have been here a long time and can tell you most things aren't worth it. There are only a few things I will defend... but I will always meet aggression with aggression. Do you understand?"
Ravus watches Herla's fluttering red eyes, senses the fluttering heartbeat. Ravus smiles beneath her mask; she already has some idea why Herla is here, of course, but now that she is in control, has shaken things up a bit, now that she has told the black doe where she stands and has fairly warned Herla that she will aggressively meet her action for action just as she met the demon stag earlier, her eyes shine brightly, coldly, and she says, "Now you may tell why you are here."
Faustt: The little black doe
The little black doe had slept secure that morning with trusted friends about. She’d observed the reserved stag that had sat near by, seeing him keep a watchful eye on the surroundings, positioned close enough in case of trouble but keeping a respectful distance. She’d silently been grateful of his silent vigilance. She’d been able to rest well. When he did speak, she gave him a grateful smile that reached her tired scarlet eyes, “I am…well, thank you.” She said, inclining her head. “The rest has helped. Your vigilance is appreciated kind sir…far more than anything I would expect of a stranger, I am very grateful.”
Parrotsnpinapples:
“A pretty doe never minds the company of one so distinguished.”
11dollarbills:
((Oh no, this is great, a little bit of background to our rushed attempt last night, sleeping pills+trolling nameless=scatter brained Sighthoundlady, XD ))
The little black doe tried not to cringe under the larger doe’s gaze, where she saw a hardness and anger there that made her wary. She pulled a veil of calmness about her, and faced the other before her, “It is admirable to protect one’s friends. To be the one who will stand up…and secure their safety. I’m not here to challenge you. Or be disagreeable. I wished only to talk,” she sighed, “I can see I have…upset you and it was never my intention. I shall leave if you request it. But I have never seen him do anything, untoward or unjustified. But perhaps, you know something I don’t in which case…I would be interested to hear it.”
((AND THEN, it started
Tracking. ♥ I'm sorry
I'm sorry that Windsor didn't say hello, I didn't want to get down in case I couldn't get back onto the mushroom again 8D She seems very interesting.
Haha, no worries! She tried
Oh my, she has the exact same
Raindrops: Same set but
“Little China Girl”
“Little China Girl”
The deer pauses, watching
The deer pauses, watching from afar the the feather-crowned doe known as Herla. It gazes at her, remade anew for this appearance. Instead of black and white pelage, its fur is a reflective white to match the falling snow. Its eyes are black and empty, while on its head it bears, instead of antlers, peafowl feathers similar to the doe's.
It slips aside into a tree, watching from within. "Her...la," it whispers in a lilting voice, trying to get her attention from its hiding spot. "Her-la...!" It might appear to her as though the tree is the one talking to her--that is...unless she saw it go into hiding.
The little black doe pauses,
The tree seems to fall
The tree seems to fall silent.
Meanwhile, its shadow extends, as though the sun is setting behind it; its shaded limbs reach for the doe's legs. They lift and, if unnoticed, would swipe across them in an attempt trip her, then swiftly pull back into the tree.
Whether noticed or not, the white deer would unexpectedly leap out from within the tree, bouncing over the miniature's head before bounding around her in sheer joy, almost not contained at all.
It appears that this one is in an entirely different mood today.
Listening and hearing
"Herla!" the deer shouts
"Herla!" the deer shouts happily, and it begins to repeat the name as though it is some sort of chant. In bounds and leaps, it zigzags through the forest, keeping just ahead of the doe. Then it gives a great jump, diving right for the ground. It disappears headfirst into a puddle of black, which also soon fades away into a tiny point of white, like a little snowflake.
The doe is fast as well, she
The white flake blinks black
The white flake blinks black for but a moment, rolling backwards to reveal the white again, as if it were an eye.
"Here." The voice is like the wind.
Alright. I'm going to post
Onto the topic, I'm going to say now that Ream and Gilligan meant no harm in what they did, and as their players, we didn't either. We were not trolling, and the honest fact is: we didn't see Herla very much. She was mostly hidden behind 010's deer, and because of this, I couldn't see any signals. The fact that she was still 'hiding' behind the other deer made me assume that things were still in character. I thought Herla had moved because she wanted to be closer to Reed and the others, where it was protected. Just seeing her move and go sit elsewhere wasn't enough to make me think "Oh, they're no longer in character, back off." That sign just isn't enough.
I have also seen Herla shake her head no at other deer, like Walter, when they got too close. Once again, this did not strike me as an OOC thing. I apologize for the misunderstanding, but the signals you were trying to give just weren't strong enough. They looked like legit in character actions and because I was not able to send you any messages on msn, and you didn't try to contact me either, we kept going. Had you checked either of their biographies you would have known who the players were and could have easily asked us to stop. I also feel the need to note that 010's deer was acting aggressively the entire time. They were obviously still in character and this led Xemi and I to believe that Herla was as well. I'm sorry for that.
I'm going to list a few things you could and can do to deter IC characters when you're OOC like that, because the signals you were giving, as stated, simply weren't clear enough. When Darcy decided to come over and 'troll' us, even after we stopped, Xemi's character Gilligan bowed and shook his head. Repeatedly. That is what I look for. Not just the no action. But bowing, headshaking, and then walking off. That would have made me stop in my tracks. If anyone had thought to do it. That's the way I decline, albeit I use it very rarely, unwanted in character actions. The other is immediate airsitting. We stopped the second Herla airsat. You saw it, we saw it. We still hung around, yes, but that's because many other people around you all were still in character and so were our characters. We weren't trying to attack you in the air, or airsit on you. We did nothing of the sort. No spellspamming, nothing. Another thing is tapping the ground and headshaking no. That is another sign that I get from older, more experienced deer all the time when they want me to leave. Wesker and Kaoori use it regularly, and that's a sign to back off. One a lot of other people do is sneezing their set off, or a part of it. Once more, if Herla had sneezed her mask and headshook no, we would have left.
I'm going to apologize once again for the misunderstanding, but assuming we were trolls without checking for biographies was extremely unfair to us and our characters. I'm really sorry that you're having issues with trolls, but everyone does at some point. Leviathann gets trolled all the time. I've seen deer get trolled while giving birth, and recently I've seen two trolls multiply themselves to drive a character from her home. She will never go back to that flower patch. Once again: we weren't trolling. Trolling is dancing on your deer and casting pelt spells and mooing excessively and humping / keyboard spazzing. Ream was seriously running around and sniffing. Then it turned into a rubbing fest because he liked the reaction he got from 010's deer. He wasn't even really targeting Herla until she got up and ran.
-sigh-
I'm sorry this has turned into a novel, and I'm sorry we didn't get the memo. I'm sorry if we managed to offend you in any way. We didn't mean to, we didn't want to, we simply didn't get the signals. They weren't powerful enough.
We're not trolls, we have nothing against you.
I'm sorry.
- Sel
Selruil, I do want to say
I do appreciate you taking the time to write me and explain the situation. These were characters I was not familiar with and I found their actions very confusing. On the heels of persistent, unrelenting trolling the last week, I assumed the worst and tried to get out of the interaction, doing my best to make my intentions clear. In the future I will try the bowing in addition to head shaking. Or may just skip to the air sitting as it is easier to see. Herla is small and her actions are missed sometimes, especially when crowded by a lot of larger deer, it can make it hard to effectively communicate. I will not sneeze off a part of her set as it requires a trip to the Twin Gods to get dressed again.
By the time I had reached the point of air sitting last night, I was done. Tired, aggravated and in no condition to deal with any of it. In some ways I should have just logged but I was being stubborn and didn’t want to feel I had been forced to leave. Other people were upset for me, my emotions and their emotions got out of control. Issuing ultimatums and making list was a little off putting as well. It’s exactly the sort of thing I don’t want to see happen here.
Your apology does mean a lot though and I greatly appreciate the effort you put forward in contacting me.
Thank you.
Quote:Issuing ultimatums and
Anyways, if you'd like I shall place Herla under an 'untouchables' category and Ream will not bother her further seeing as you already have a load of other aggressive, predatory deer on her heels.
-sigh-
I'm really glad this was resolved.
And I'm sorry the apology didn't come sooner. We'd all had a pretty rough day, and shortly after everything I went to bed.
Yes, calling people out with
As you say Herla already has a lot of things trying to eat/attack/kill her. I’m not completely against these interactions as they spur interesting IC drama. When Ream and Gilligan started running about over the top of her though last night, I didn’t know anything about their characters, never heard of them before. A legitimate IC attack and trolling can look very similar, and trying to pull up pictos on the map and track down bios in the middle of a frackus isn’t really possible. In the future, I might suggest, trying some stalking first, so your character can be recognized. Or starting with an OOC discussion about it. The best dramas are the finely aged dramas. But yes, at this point, both Herla and I have our hands quite full and maybe best at this point to keep her as “untouchable.”
Last night wasn’t good for me either. The main reason I didn’t attempt to contact you about it. I knew anything I was going to say would have been ill considered and fraught with negative emotions. Things can be handled better with sleep and distance.
I’m glad we were able to move past this too.
I had you, and 010 added to
After speaking with Shiori, I will likely continue to ignore her and her characters since I disagree with how she handled things.. I came to her with calm, logical facts and statements and she still wouldn't work with me, so I feel it would be better to avoid interactions with her entirely from this day on lest any more drama arise. Some types of people just don't get along, no matter what you try, and we're just not compatible.
I am glad to see that you and Selruil were able to work this out though, and in a calm and mature manner. I'm going to (quite happily) remove both you and 010 from that list (again I'm sorry for that but it was a temporary thing until I could speak to you to avoid anything getting worse due to inforest interaction) after seeing what I read here.
I'm sorry for all the drama as well. I back up what Sel said about bowing and headshaking 'no,' as well as ground-tapping and no, those are my two big signs that it's a legitimate request to back down and I would have understood it much faster if I'd seen that. I understand why you wouldn't want to sneeze off a part of your set though.. I play minis too and it gets annoying running back to glitch, especially since minis seem to be a target for pelt spammers....
I also understand what it's like to be trolled, and how frustrating it can be, so I get you there. Like Sel I'll also make sure Gilligan (and any of my other characters that might otherwise see Herla as a target) leave Herla alone from now on to avoid any future misunderstandings.
Sorry for the short novel again, I just wanted to try and sum it all up. xD; I'm sorry for my rudeness last night and I'm hoping to just kind of move on. Like Sel said it was a rough day. But I'm still sorry for things getting out of control.
Xemi you came at me in a very
Judging me based on this reaction alone though? Really? You don't know me, and I don't know you, so lets not pretend we do ok? I have nothing against you personally, yet I can't help but feel this was a personal attack on 'my' character from the start. It isn't something I feel very good about at all =/ Since I don't know how that's been portrayed to you since we've never even talked before.
That being said? I still think the behavior was trollish -shrug- The fact that Crucio and Levi have recently turned against Darcy and Herla and suddenly these two characters start harassing her? It was suspicious. The fact that it was IC didn't matter. Characters like Walter claim to be IC all the time too and he still does things that make no logical sense. BUT that is beside the point...D arcy would have harassed them back whether they were 'IC' or not. Why wouldn't he?
I'm sorry for continuing this here Sight but... since I am apparently 'unworthy' of being briefly added for a private chat, which is where this SHOULD be taking place, I don't know how else to communicate this.
Just gonna say this one thing
Also bringing Crucio and Leviathann in isn't fair, and if it is, have some food for thought: Darcy dislikes Leviathann, and so does Migisi. Does that mean that you're being suspicious as well? Anyways Ream's harmless and never disliked Herla. In fact he's entranced by her, and he shows his interest that way. But the fact remains that Darcy came over when they were good and done and 'behaving'. He didn't do a thing when they were actually 'harassing' her.
I'm sorry. I'm done. I will speak on this subject no more.
"I've seen your characters
When have my character's friends ever rejected my character's wishes to help them? I don't understand what you're asking I guess.
Shiori, you are still refusing to budge on this, I'm TRYING to work with you but it's very hard when you refuse to consider our point of view. I HAVE done this for Darcy; no, I don't blame him for defending his friends, or I wouldn't have if he did.
*But he didn't defend them, he started trolling. That was you defending the players of these characters, it was personal for you, not for us. If Darcy had come in and started antlering / rearing at Ream and Gill I'm pretty sure they would have run because this is considered clear IC behaviour and both of our characters are non-confrontational.*
That is my main point in this, the one I want to focus on.
Crucio and Levi's turn against Darcy is completely irrelevant. They "turned" against the two because Darcy was trying to drive them off when they were trying to help; Darcy was badly injured at the time, as was Herla, and he still insisted on defending her himself. Levi and Cru were offended at being rejected by him. They are both very large, incredibly powerful deer, and are a very good source of protection. They wanted to help, that was all. So yes, Herla and Darcy's actions upset them. BUT, they're not "against" Darcy and Herla, they simply won't help them in the future because it's been made clear that this is not wanted.
Aside from that I'm not sure what else you'd like me to say. I want to get over this and make up with you, as I'm hoping I've done with 010 and Sighthound. It's just extremely difficult if you won't work with me.
Mind if I just say one thing,
Instead of filling Herla's Bio, Darcy's bio, etc. with all of this drama and nonsense?
We have knocked heads in the past, but I would like to hold out this suggestion to you. You have Shi's MSN, why not use it and try to settle things through MSN? And if it doesn't work at least you will not have posted it on here for the entire community to see.
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"