I had the same situation with HF. Before she "found" her true self again, I had her want to get pregnant. But now, I'll admit, it's pretty complicating trying to keep the children alive while she's out defending her loved ones and getting into life threatening situations. Sometimes I think to myself, "Did I make the right decision?" but other times I think of it as a challenge, and figure out a way to get through it.

In my opinion, I think the person should revise their outlook on you. I think they should go over the pros and cons of what makes you, you (though, I have yet to see any cons). Honestly, I really don't see what the problem is, what they have against you. But, like I said, everyone's different, and have different tastes in personality. It is hard, facing the fact that the one(s) dear to us, doesn't see us the same way. We can't satisfy everyone, no matter how much we try, or want to for that matter. We can only be ourselves, and be with those that truely love us and see us for who we are.
We are who we are, and who we choose to be, not what others want us to be.

Then come here! Derp around and have fun! You are the one that's in control of your life. You are in the driver's seat, going down the road you want to travel. Don't let other people take the wheel from your hands, and steer you in a direction you're not comfortable with.

Have a good night, and may you have brighter days in the near future <3

_{D: <3}

HF: Yeah, thanks.. I don't know what I'm gonna do. I guess you'll find out either way. Thanks for being there anyway, regardless of the outcome.

Snow: ... Illy was dead yesterday? .. I've been out of forest for a couple days, I had no idea, I'm sorry. ;; Might end up being more than a few days but.. thanks for the offer. <3 I won't bother you with it. Still, I appreciate the concern, it's sweet of you. ♥

Raven: Yeah.. me too. But about you. .___.

EDIT: just fixed a typo. :|

Same as Snow.
If you need me, for any reason, you know where to find me. I'm always here for you, Han.

Aw I'll miss you and your charatcers which are amazing by the way =]

Yeah.. I'd really miss you guys too, thanks. ♥
I'm hoping a break is all I need. I'd like to see you here again, both in-forest and on the comm site.

Yeeaaah he's feeling awful. ;____; ♥

A hug, a vat of ice cream, and a box of kleenex. ;---;
*shoves another depressing entry in on top of the last one* |D
Today is sad. .___.

Lol aww it's okay <3 He needs it more than me anyway. ♥
Nini WD. <3

Lol awww. ;u; <3
I enjoyed writing it too. It's nice somehow.

LOL SHAAP 8[

LOL NO. HE DOES NOT. 8[

Crucio: "I'll give you some lady lumps, c'mere.."

ROFL ^ That journal x'DD

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CRUCIO IS A WOMAN NOW?? O.O LOL

LOL kk =D

I was wrong.

That new journal is tear jerking.

-dead- xDDD

RRROFFLLLL *shot*

Poor Crucieta :C *snort/shot again*

HEHE CB
...I'm gonna pay big time for that, LOL *hides from Crucieta rage*
...*brick'd*

HF: LOL NAAAAAH he's gonna be too submissive to rage rightnow ♥

Sulube: Orly. |D Wheeee thankyou <3

... LOL ILLY.

".. M-my hero...? ;__________; ♥"

".. I ran away because I wanted to be alone. I chose to be with Illrose over my family because it was my family that was pushing me to talk about something I really didn't want to talk about. I didn't want to be fawned over, and showered with concern, and affection. I just wanted some rest, some quiet.. and that was what miss Illrose offered me," Crucio replied dismally after a few long moments of silence. Never once did he look up at his sister; on the ground, he remained hunched over, head lowered, bangs spread out over his face to block his expression from view. The rest of his body shook, shaking like a leaf on the breeze, overwhelmed by stress and the extensive heartache these last two days had brought.

Most of it - if not all of it - was as deserved as it was self-inflicted.

"I'm sorry for Illrose attacking you and my sister.. I don't know what happened. I tried to get her to stop, but, I'm.. sorry," he added in a mutter, quivering more violently for a few seconds before the trembling calmed once again. He exhaled a flustered huff, curbing a soft, emotionally pained sound halfway up his throat before lowering his head to the ground the rest of the way.

More guilt welled up at those words, shutting her eyes, trying to block out the pain...if only it worked that way. Her forelegs buckled, and she stumbled to the ground, utter guilt and sorrow sapping the strength from her. Her head remained tilted toward the ground, eyes closed as she fought the tears back, refusing to break down right in front of Crucio. That just wouldn't help the situation at all. But she dared speak, not knowing if her voice would crack or not. Well, it was worth a try.

"I'm so sorry...Crucio. I shouldn't have...I shouldn't have acted the way I did tonight. That was just downright rude...I should've seen the signs...but I guess my hormones were getting the best of me." She spat the word out, hatred boiling up for those pesky mood swingers. Honeyfur breathed deeply and slowly let out her breath, regaining control over herself. "I...I hope there aren't any hard feelings against us...I don't want our family...shattered. We've had to many close calls...and I don't want it to split apart now because of me and my recklessness....If that ever happened, I...I don't think I could ever forgive myself." Her voice fell near the end to an audible whisper. She laid her head on the ground, not having the strength or the will to hold it up any longer.

"I'm sorry for Illrose attacking you and my sister.. I don't know what happened. I tried to get her to stop, but, I'm.. sorry."

Honeyfur held back a flinch when he said 'you and my sister', as if he didn't consider her family anymore. However, she couldn't help but close her eyes, eyebrows creasing in worry and dread. Stop it. You're overreacting again. Just shut up and listen. Her eyes opened again and looked over at the black stag in front of her. She couldn't see his eyes, but maybe that was a good thing. But she could hear the pained sound emanating from within his throat, and watched as he lowered his head to the ground. She wanted to go over and comfort him, like she's always done, but stayed glued to the spot. She was sure he wouldn't appriciate it very much, especially from her. A small whimper was also threatening to rise in her throat, but she painfully held it back.

"I-it's ok...I understand why she did it...I would've done the same." She should've tried harder though, but she held her tongue on those words. The last thing they needed was more angst at this point...but like always, it was inevitable.

[ LOL YOU GUYYSSS MAULIN' ME WITH RP ]

"Phobos," Crucio said gently, feeling his heart sink as the orange stag approached. He felt his posture sink as well submissively, regretfully, lowering his head and closing his eyes. He didn't want to look at him.

"I just.. wanted quiet, and that was what Illrose was offering me.. an escape, peace and quiet, I didn't want to be bombarded with questions and concern. Maybe eventually, but not yet, I just wasn't ready to talk about it. Would you believe me if I said I would come to you, should I ever want such things? To you, to your lover, my sister, or to Nane, when I was ready..?" he muttered, trailing off into silence. He still shook gently, shyly, insecurely in front of the stag that now stood taller than him.

---

"... Am I still brother to you then?" He asked this hesitantly, curiously, but with great uncertainty. Again he swallowed nervously, daring to gaze up at the blurry, diluted image of Honeyfur in front of him, obscured by the thick black locks draped over his face. The look was dismal, but hopeful, stricken with grief.

"Can you promise me.. not to ever jump to that decision, ever again, without a really good reason for it? I mean.. I wouldn't do it to you guys, we're.. we're closer, or I thought we were closer, than to let a wish for some personal space split us up. I actually can't even.. really think of any reasons I'd disown you guys, unless you did, or unless I lost faith in you." Another brief pause, and he stretched out a bit on the ground, shifting to get comfortable awkwardly.

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Crucio's eyes eased open a fraction of the way as Nane began to speak. His ears, while remaining pinned back for the majority of the evening submissively, picked up to the sound of her voice if only to listen. While for the longest time, he failed to respond even after she'd finished talking, he still fixed his gaze and the rest of his attention on her.

"I do trust Illrose.. I trusted her before, and I can trust her again. I'm sorry she attacked you and Honey, that seemed so.. unlike her," the stag murmured, staring off into nowhere now, eyes glazed over impartially and uncaring.

"I know the name of the one who stole my antlers.. her name's Karma," he responded half-heartedly, slumping back down onto the ground at the base of that tree the rest of the way.

"She's a villain there's no stealing back from, or gaining revenge on. What she does is fair, and pays itself where it's due, and pays back where it's due also. This was my debt, and they were what I paid it with.. some of it. The rest, others have made sure of, like Kody and Lume. And.. I believed you guys last night, for pursuing me relentlessly.." He'd felt like a target, a target of interrogation, and an already fearful state only heightened his anxiety. Last night had been complete and utter hell for him.

"Then.. can you please do it next time? I.. I'll come to you all when I'm ready, I won't think you're staying away because you don't care. But if I continue to run away from you.. you will.. understand I wish for solitude, yes..?" Crucio muttered hesitantly, not wanting to come across as rude.

".. Can I still.. call you my brother?"