Terminal Apotheosis - this bio has moved!

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06/03/2016 - BAM

Like the title says, this bio is now on my new account ;v; Crucio insists on me playing him again, so it's that time. It can be found here for those wishing to retrack. If not, that's okay too!

This node won't be used again in the future, but I might keep it for old time's sake. There's a lot of history here - good and bad, and I think it's worth holding onto.
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BLARGH MINE. ♥

BLARGH

MINE.

Oh hush. I still got 600. You

Oh hush. I still got 600. You can have your fancy new page. xDDD
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LOL. Okay. 8D!

LOL. Okay. 8D!
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(|D ♥) "You may trust

(|D ♥)

"You may trust her, but I don't nor did I have any clue what was going on... I don't like not knowing if/when something really bad could be happening under my nose." she said, still not looking at him. She hadn't even known that Illrose was close to Crucio..
It hurt slightly that he hadn't seem worried when the large doe attacked her, that he'd just as soon want her company more even if Nane offered him the same thing Illrose would. Nane didn't want show this though, but it was visable that the defiant set of her head sagged slightly.
Perhaps it was her height, that she couldn't be valid protection enough...
One of these days she would prove herself...

She ignored the sarcasm, and only felt a pang of deep sorrow that he felt that way.. Though there is not any guilt in her for what she had done.
"I'm sorry that my relentless following has put you down.. but understand I would do it again. I'd do it again even if it me coming eye to upper leg again with Illrose.. I'm not here to hammer you down for whatever you've done or not done.. I'm here because I care about you and I worry to much to just simply leave you in this state... You're scaring me." Her voice started out firm, but softened towards the end of her words.

Nane had no regret, she would have done the same thing to anyone else she cared for.
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Looking as weak as he was

Looking as weak as he was exhausted, Crucio simply rest his head over his front legs, and listened to all she had to say. Though his eyes remained shut the whole time, he paid attention for her sake, exhaling a flustered sigh.

"It.. i-it's okay.. I know you're just doing it because you care. I.. I don't know.. Illrose was just there for me last night, when I needed it, when I would have otherwise been alone. I tried to get her to stop when she attacked you but I didn't want to upset her either, or make her feel rejected, or pushed aside.. she was just trying to help. I don't agree with how she was trying to do it, but I know her heart was in the right place. She's going through a difficult time, I'm.. sure her mind isn't entirely back to itself.." He trailed off, falling to silence.

After a few long seconds, he muttered what sounded like a faint, overwhelmed 'thank you' under his breath.

No! You misunderstand - I'm a

No! You misunderstand - I'm a healer! I just want to help. Please, let me do my job. Please?

The deer with the peacock feathers and long pelt is my Awilda. Seriously, she's just trying to help. Although I can understand why he doesn't want anyone near him ^^
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She sneaked a quick,

She sneaked a quick, sympathatic look at him before turning away again. The doe gave a simple nod before becoming stoic as she returned to her vigilant watch.
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Bluejay: Ooohh, sorry about

Bluejay: Ooohh, sorry about that. ;A; Yes, he's very frightful and skittish, he wasn't sure what to think of her because he's becoming very fearful of strangers while he's so badly hurt.
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Phobos nodded,letting his

Phobos nodded,letting his head stay down for a fleeting second before he locked his eyes with a gentle gaze on Death.
He would still watch over him,but from afar seemed the best option.

"Of course...Just take care please...And yes,for I still call you mine."




Don't worry about it Though,

Don't worry about it Though, next timetable she sees him she's determined to help him... Twisted XD
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LOL. WELLLL. In theory he

LOL. WELLLL. In theory he should be back within a day or two, his body will heal faster but as soon as he hits 30-35% he'll get sucked back into that body like a vaccuum 8D Voooom GETBACKHURR

Imayjustgiveitbacktohimsooner

if I get bored or something

IDK

He was more careful with this

He was more careful with this one. Much more careful. The stag of death seemed to be even more unstable than his mate.

"Hello, brother." Lucifer said, a customary greeting. "Who has done this to you, hm? Oh, what's this?"

The giant bull cooed in surprise as his hoof passed right through him.

"Intangible. Nice defense." He muttered, sitting down beside the ghostly one. "Who pushed you to this, brother? Hm?"

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Don't be alarmed, Creeper Lucifer calls every stag brother if you catch him in one of his moods.. /shot

I hope Cru gets better... ;~;
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The entire time that Lucifer

The entire time that Lucifer spoke, Crucio did not even turn to gaze over at him, not fully, not out of the corner of his eye either. It was as if the other stag had gone entirely unnoticed; the spirit was as oblivious to Lucifer as it was to the words that were directed to himself. Not an inch did he budge; he simply lay there, gazing off into nowhere, staring carelessly into something that wasn't there at all.

[ Haha, yeah.. he's not.. he doesn't even know most deer are around. ]

Lucifer uttered some sound of

Lucifer uttered some sound of frustration and glanced around.

"Ah, so the intangible one is deaf too," he cooed. He was now talking to entertain himself, to test the spirit.

"Then you will care not of what I say to you. You will not remember it. Even if you do, you will pretend you do not. I am Lucifer, and I don't need to know your name. I am Dinamo's mate, and Dinamo is Leviathann's 'sister,'" He spat out the last two words with a venomous rumble, clearly displeased.

"Speaking of her," the bull smiled wryly. "I've heard through the grapevine...you two are having some issues, hm? Tch, so soon..." He shook his head, inched closer.

"Or is it just another forest rumour? I'd like an answer this time..." Lucifer said with a soft growl.

[Poor thing... -pets-]
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Again, the spirit did not

Again, the spirit did not respond; they were the eyes that did not see, the ears that did not hear, and the mind that would not have been able to comprehend the stranger's words anyway. Not a sigh, nor a blink, nor the twitch of an ear signified that the ghost was alert to Lucifer whatsoever. He could continue to speak, but there would be nothing but silence, and words uttered unto deaf ears.

A frustrated, feral snort. He

A frustrated, feral snort. He slowly stood, his stiff joints popping in protest.

"Very well. Perhaps when you come-to you'll hear my words and answer me, brother." He said, stretching his neck and making a move to walk away.

"Not like it matters anyway. Idle questions."
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[ |D; Sorry, like I said..

[ |D; Sorry, like I said.. he's a spirit, he only even "sees" those he was very close to or knew well, and even them he doesn't understand. He doesn't hear or understand his own mate. ]

[That's alright, I haven't

[That's alright, I haven't been able to do a character monologue in a while, heh. Will he even have any memory that he went into the hibernation to begin with?]
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Yeah, he will. He just won't

Yeah, he will. He just won't really be able to comprehend much of what happened while he was in it.
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"... Am I still brother to

"... Am I still brother to you then?"

A faint smile twitched at the corners of her lips, though her eyes were still apologetic that he had to ask her that question. "Of course you are. I made a stupid mistake. I screwed up...I wasn't even being myself. If I had been myself, I would've given you your space, and let you come to us when you were ready." The small, half-hearted smile was now gone from her features, as she reflected on how foolishly she had acted. It was ridiculous now.

"Can you promise me.. not to ever jump to that decision, ever again, without a really good reason for it? I mean.. I wouldn't do it to you guys, we're.. we're closer, or I thought we were closer, than to let a wish for some personal space split us up. I actually can't even.. really think of any reasons I'd disown you guys, unless you did, or unless I lost faith in you."

Honeyfur nodded her head once, her face serious. "I promise. I promise to control my emotions more in the future, so a conflict like this doesn't happen again. I swear, I would never..never, disown my family...no matter what I said or how I acted, I would never do something so despairing and unjustful toward any member of my family, unless it were for a very good reason. You're my brother, Crucio, and I'd like to continue being your sister...if you'll forgive me for my actions earlier this evening." She lowered her head again, ears pressed against her neck submissively. Her bright green eyes were full of guilt, and reflected the genuine apology she had just spoken.
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A weak smile tugged at the

A weak smile tugged at the stag's lips, and in one subtle, but meaningful motion, he nodded in acceptance. He'd like that, very much.

"I am very proud to call you my sister, Honey."

Perhaps the last words he would ever speak.
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Tandem was hesitant to

Tandem was hesitant to approach Crucio again when he saw the spirit sitting on its own, feeling his heart wrench in his chest with guilt. But it was that very guilt which drew him closer until he was finally resting beside him, taking a deep breath:

"Everything is going to hell, if it isn't there already. Everywhere I turn, there's someone else being hurt, laying there in shambles, turning on each other. I thought everything was starting to fall into place again, that things were starting to make sense and look up. Look how wrong I was. Everything's just falling apart worse than ever.

And this is my fault, Crucio, all of this. I was blaming you for letting yourself fall into a state like you were yesterday, that was so wrong of me. I guess.. I just hated seeing someone I always knew to be so proud so low, so.. distraught. I just wanted to help somehow.

I never stopped caring for you, honest. But I wouldn't be surprised if you don't believe me; I said I'd watch over you, try to protect you to the best of my ability when I found you so hurt.. But neither did I want to push myself on you after you walked off, I thought you just wanted to be alone. I should have noticed something was off, that.. you didn't have much longer. If I had, then maybe.. maybe I could've done something about it. I'm sorry, Cru, I'm so sorry.. None of this should have happened.."
Please call me Lyssa or Kir. n.n

Art by Anjali. ♥
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For the duration of the

For the duration of the crow's speech, the spirit remained unmoving; there was no response, no stirring, no signs that he was even aware of his ex-lover who now sat, in flesh and blood, next to what was left of him.

But the wind still rushed by; it whistled through the grass, ruffled the leaves in the trees above, and skimmed across the pond and the glass-like water it harboured and gave home. The birds were still singing, the clouds still soared by overhead.

Nothing changed. Nothing was different.

Until finally the spirit turned his head, ever so slightly, in the crow's direction.

Impartial eyes softened. A flicker of emotion flushed onto his pale expression. Lips parted, mouthing unto him a single word;

A word of forgiveness.

A promise of forgiveness.

Then, like the very breeze that still rushed by, still whistled through the grass, and still ruffled the trees above, it vanished, barely grains of sand on the breeze. Ripples struck the water's surface as they always had; the birds would never stop singing, and the clouds would never stop soaring by. It was the way things were,

and the way things would always be.
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Aww I didn't notice that Cru

Aww I didn't notice that Cru had long bangs before!That is now my favorite picture of him =D

Thank you Kaoori for this drawing!Natali looks beautiful =D
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Mhm, he does! ^^ Thankyou,

Mhm, he does! ^^ Thankyou, I'm glad you like it. <3
I love his bangs.~
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DERP



DERP
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LOL KIMI WTF

LOL KIMI WTF
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&hearts;

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AAKASFUGSUKEYRTAWFYGTFHUKAGWK

AAKASFUGSUKEYRTAWFYGTFHUKAGWKJFHSBEFL
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Mini Crucio is adorable. *is

Mini Crucio is adorable. *is the secretary pelt/whistling mask/butterfly antler'd deer who ran up and stared briefly before running away*

Signature by Roo ♥
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ROFL thankyou :'D

ROFL thankyou :'D <3
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...That journal below the

...That journal below the first one..
WHAT DOES IT MEAN.I CAN'T DECIPHER IT.


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LOOL IT MEANS HAPPYSPAM 8D

LOOL
IT MEANS HAPPYSPAM 8D

He's still hurt... Awilda's

He's still hurt... Awilda's will be on a war path if she sees him Twisted

If only he had let me heal him the first time *Rant, Rant, Rant*
XD
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LOL yessss I GOTTA GO BUT

LOL yessss I GOTTA GO BUT I'LL HAVE HIM BACK ON LATER ♥

LOL., Prepare to have him

LOL., Prepare to have him Awilda-fied (New favourite saying !!)
She just needs to watch out for Levi's antlers... :'D
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LOL awww

LOL awww <3 I think Lev will understand if she's trying to help Cru.. and just keep an evil eye on her in case she pulls anything. [8 ~

She finally found him!!

She finally found him!! XD

Listen... I know your on the edge, but can I finally help you?
Awilda tossed her peacock feathers and waited for the injured stag's answer.
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[ LOL awww

[ LOL awww <3 ]

From where he was laying, the stag saw nothing; face buried in the grass and poppies, he tried to block out everything around him.. until a small bird had shown up. He lifted his head curiously, eyeing it for what felt like forever. Finally, as it became a deer he vaguely recognized, he jumped slightly in surprise.

".. Huh? Y-you.. you're a healer, aren't you? I think I remember you from a.. few days ago?" he mumbled, sounding distant and distracted.

"Oh, you don't have to, haha.. it's fine, you don't need to go out of your way." A weak but grateful smile spread across his features. His disposition softened; he got a good vibe from this doe. In spite of feeling tense, he felt as if he could relax around her, even if she was unfamiliar to him.

It was a soothing break from the turmoil of late.

She nodded at his first

She nodded at his first question, a slight frown on her face.
Yes, that was me. Unfortunately, I couldn't get to you that day which is... regretable.

"Oh, you don't have to, haha.. it's fine, you don't need to go out of your way."
She shook her head as he said this, a smile creeping across her face.
Out of my way? This is my job, silly! She said softly, before allowing a few dried leaves to fall to the ground.
Now eat them, they will stop the pain.

What she was about to do was going to hurt, but the leaves should stop the pain. She shuffled in the undergrowth for a while, while allowing the leaves to numb his body - if he ate them, of course.
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Crucio frowned in response as

Crucio frowned in response as well; an expression that as easily seen without the mask he'd abandoned as of late, leaving his facial features easy to pick out. In spite of that, at the ends of his long, almost canine-like muzzle, a gentle smirk tugged at the corners of his lips.

"I-I just.. feel badly, I had someone dear to me come earlier and bring me some herbs to help too, I feel spoiled.." However, he stretched his neck out, nudging the leaves with the tip of his muzzle curiously. While initially hesitant, he eventually snatched them up and nibbled away at them, still somehow finding it easy to trust the doe.

Perhaps it was the aura the healer carried that put him at ease.

"I-I just.. feel badly, I had

"I-I just.. feel badly, I had someone dear to me come earlier and bring me some herbs to help too, I feel spoiled.."

Awilda applied the herbs to the wounds, then covered it all in moss. She gave small smirk as he spoke, noticing the leaves had gone.
I bet your friend didn't do this~

She closed her eyes and concentrated, the silver pendant around her neck hovered and shone or a moment before all his injuries began to close. This ws the bit that was painful, the fat muscles and tissue was being forced to close.

You're going to feel very tired now; your body has done all the work and I just sped up the process. However, you must drink and rest quite a bit now. You will feel weak for a little bit, so it would be best to have someone watch over you. If you have no one, just call me. I will be willing.

My name is Awilda, may I inquire as to yours?
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Crucio eyed her curiously as

Crucio eyed her curiously as she continued to work, gaze fixing on the pendant around the doe's neck. However, he flinched and was forced to look away; the last of his remaining gashes repaired themselves; the claw marks delved deep into his flanks and dorsal stripe closed, muscle binding back together around the vertebrae where it had been torn away. Bruises began to fade, the pain in his joints began to numb away, withering down until it was almost too subtle to notice.

True to her words, by the time she was done, he felt absolutely exhausted. Faint, almost invisible scars remained where the quick repairs had been done, almost perfectly hidden amoungst his dark coat and extensive markings across his back. With a fatigued huff, he lay his head back down and relaxed, not out of willingness but due to the lack of energy left in him.

He felt as if he hadn't slept for days.

In spite of that, a faint, grateful smile worked its way onto his face.

".. No, she certainly didn't.. thank you. And it's okay, I won't bother you, I... have.. miss Illrose," he near whispered, drawing in deep breaths and sighing them out again, suddenly incredibly short of breath.

"Crucio, I'm.. I'm Crucio," he murmured.

"But this isn't how I.. usually look, I.. might look much different.. next time I see... you.." The stag trailed off, eyes drifting shut. Immediately he fell onto the verge of sleep, fighting to stay awake simply out of politeness. It'd be rude of him to pass out in the middle of a conversation.


Crucio... the name means

Crucio... the name means "devil" in my language - my old language. And, don't worry, devils are revered in my kind. But, sweetie, you need more people to stay with you, so Miss... Illrose will have to put up with me!

She noticed him falling asleep, hardly surprising because of her healing powers. She smiled at him, the poor thing. Did he really deserve to this beat?

Listen, She said quietly as he drooped, If you ever get hurt again, come see me. I will always be happy to help. Now rest!

Her voice took a more commanding edge towards the edge, he silver yes glittering. This Crucio was more that what met the eye, her healing magic had told her. Awilda would watch him, nobosy deserved to be treated like this.
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".. It means.. 'to suffer',"

".. It means.. 'to suffer'," He murmured, smiling half-heartedly. How fitting. However, his eyes lit up weakly as she all but complimented him. In response to her offer, he nodded gratefully, no matter how subtle the gesture was.

"It was a pleasure to.. meet you, Awilda.." he mumbled, trailing off into a whisper, then silence as much needed sleep finally took over.

She noticed the gesture and

She noticed the gesture and smiled as he drifted into unconciousness.

Heh, thanks for the RP, it was a good one.
Crucio is now on Awilda's patients list. I would, keep her next to him in forest, but I have to run, so I hope to see him around some more~
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Aww.

Aww. <3 Thank you also, I enjoyed it.~ He really instantly felt comfortable around her, so I put her straight on his trusted list. And it's okay, I understand. I hope to see you and her around. ♥
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